Right Decision?

"I know what I craved with Famine around." he stated focusing on his nearly empty beer hoping that he would be able to do this. It was always hard to talk about anything this close to his own emotional and mental state, especially when he was still trying to figure everything out.

Castiel tilted his head slightly not sure he could be craving anything since he acted completely normal the whole time he was around him. "I do not think Famine affected you Dean."

"It did Cas it just didn't seem like it because what I craved was you." he said quickly mostly wanting it off his chest and needing to make sure someone else saw it. "You went into the diner and not even seven seconds later I had to go in after you." he explained. "That was the only time you were away from me long enough to create the pull that I felt to make sure you were okay."

"But I thought that you…" he started to ask wanting to find out how Dean was so adamant about forgetting the temporary affection they had toward each other to suddenly having it back. Castiel really didn't understand humans at all.

Dean quickly finished off his beer and got up to throw it away and grab another one. "I did, I did want to forget and I thought I had but I couldn't. This isn't like with Cassie or Lisa, I was able to move on from them." he frowned frustrated with himself because the last thing he needed on top of this mess of trying to stop the apocalypse was figuring out what was going on with him. He didn't need a relationship, he didn't need someone to sleep with, he didn't need Castiel in that way, and he certainly wasn't afraid to lose him. Even thinking all those things felt wrong and it angered him. Everything used to make sense and being emotionally stunted wasn't helping one bit. Dean knew he had to choose his words carefully because Castiel was hanging onto every single one he was saying so far and he didn't want to let things go in the wrong direction. He didn't deserve this opportunity showing itself to him and one of the main reasons is because he didn't deserve to be alive again. There was no changing the way he felt about that and there was no changing the way he felt about Castiel so he had to decide on something. "We can't be together. This will be nothing more than the both of us hunting." he stated feeling like he was convincing himself more than Castiel.

Castiel hated not understanding human concepts as much as he could but that last sentence was clear enough for him. They were partners in saving the world and there was no other way to see it. He would listen as he always did with Dean unless he knew it was absolutely wrong. He did still have some hope that they could at least kiss again but as he was asked, he would forget it. "I agree Dean, we are only partners in hunting." he nodded before disappearing from the room.

Right away he knew it could have gone better, it could have been said different so Castiel didn't look so rigid. At least he didn't fight him or made a big deal of it. That was the last thing they needed and he knew Gabriel would be upset with him if he found out what he had said tonight. Even Sam would be angry at him but he knew this was for the better. This way neither one of them could get their hopes up for it only to be crushed. It was part of the family curse Sam always claimed that was on them and even though he would always deny it to him, he knew himself that it had to be somewhat true. They didn't deserve happiness and that definitely went for him.


When Sam finally was able to walk out of the panic room completely demon blood free he didn't see Dean or Castiel, just Gabriel and Bobby. Gabriel was so nice for everything he was doing and he was glad Bobby was there to welcome him. He didn't know where Dean could be since he figured he'd be one of the first ones to see him outside the door. "About time your back boy." smiled Bobby widely and Sam laid a hand on his shoulder.

"Thanks Bobby, it's nice to be back." he said still feeling bad about the old hunter being stuck in the wheelchair. There had to be a way to fix but Gabriel continued to refuse to help and he didn't blame him. Sam liked the idea of having an archangel as their ace and wouldn't want to ruin that surprise. He also didn't like the idea of angels purposely finding them to get another one of Heaven's most powerful weapons back under control. He wanted Gabriel to stick around. Sam continued into the kitchen hoping that his brother was just stuffing his face but heard Bobby roll up behind him.

"He isn't there. Hell it's been a miracle if you do see him the past day…same goes for Castiel." he stated hating to sound a tad worried but they did have to be extremely careful.

Sam frowned and looked over at Gabriel not even needing to ask. "Can't tell you about Dean because of those sigils but Cassy is fine. He just comes every now and then to check up on you." he answered.

"This isn't good…"


Dean knew it was the right decision with what he was thinking but he still had moments when he felt the urge to slam on the brakes and turn back to Bobby's. It was the right decision, it was the right decision. That was the one mantra that played through his head the few moments after Castiel left Bobby's and he began to drink hoping he would be able to get drunk this time. It quickly turned into a pipe dream since he had drank so much of all the alcohol Bobby had in his house he built up one hell of a tolerance. He did have a nasty habit of drowning out decisions that he believed were right or things in general going wrong which made this situation even more difficult. Dean soon gave up on getting drunk and went to pass out in his room finding that as he waited ages for his body to find sleep that what kept him up was listening for the silent flutter of wings. There was no way that Castiel would actually be serious about keeping it to a work relationship and that he would soon show up again like nothing happened…he had too.

This is why he was here now and not even sure of how many miles he was away from Bobby's place so far. Dean realized that after he woke up with no attempt at being witty from Castiel he knew then that he took him seriously. The heaviness that settled in his body was hard to deal with but as he moved through the house to quickly get some breakfast he found out moving lifted it slightly. He wasn't sure of why just moving seemed to push the heaviness away but it did and he found himself mindlessly driving down the road. The Impala's tires meeting mile of asphalt after mile of asphalt with no stop except to get gas once or twice before he finally pulled into a city. He looked at the buildings as they passed barely seeing any of the people until one in particular stuck out to him. It was a person standing out in the street, holding a bible, dressed up for priest camp, and carefully looking at people who passed.


"I'm sorry Sam but Cassy hasn't told me anything. I wish he has because I've noticed something off about him." repeated Gabriel really wishing he could be more of help to Sam but with his brother being as tight lipped as Sam's, they were getting nowhere.

Sam knew it was something that happened between Castiel and Dean but with Dean being cleverly hidden from all angels he was impossible to find. Bobby was calling up some contacts to keep an eye out for him just in case and he was left to hope that he wasn't about to do something stupid, Michael stupid. "Can't you call him again?" he asked bringing out the puppy eyes.

Gabriel huffed and leaned back in his chair wondering why he had to have a soft spot for this Winchester in particular. At least the other one wouldn't be so damn needy and look pitiful. "I will but I can't summon or force him to come here." he stated and called out again to Castiel through the special frequency they had to make sure no other angels could detect their conversation. He waited a few seconds hoping that this time the silence would be broken but still nothing. "He's still not answering Sam."


Dean was hoping that the bible fanatic he saw hadn't moved from the spot he was at since he had to go and make sure his affairs were in order. He made sure he shipped out the things he wanted to give to Bobby and Sam before walking the streets to find him. He knew it wouldn't take long to get the guy to do what he needed to call Zachariah and hoped that Sam would understand why he needed to do this. It was already beginning to weight heavy on him about his decision since he would need to kill Sam but he was sure the deal he had thought of and rehearsed in his head wouldn't be denied. Dean could soon hear a loud voice talking about judgement day and all the usual end of the world speak down the street. His footfalls began to get heavier and he could almost feel the blood rushing through his body making his ears pound slightly. This is the only way to make sure everyone is safe and that future won't happen. 'I've yelled myself hoarse trying to get the angels to answer but they don't care anymore, they left us here.' rang the words of his future self and it helped him reach the believer faster. "Hey, it's me so just, call or whatever you need to do." he stated making sure to stand right in front of him.

"Dear God…" he said eyes widening and never believing that he would be the one to find him.


Castiel soon showed up at Bobby's house looking at the three who were waiting on a phone call or something drastic that would explain where Dean was. Sam had no idea of where he would go and at first he thought he knew but Dean didn't seem that interested into Lisa anymore. He was the one who looked up and spotted Castiel first. "Castiel! About time you showed up, Dean is missing." he stated.

"I am sure he would not have gone too far and he is probably at a bar." he said dismissing the information since he didn't see anything wrong with it. Castiel also was a bit testy since Dean continued to put the blame on him when he hasn't even brought up the event of them kissing once. He knew that it was uncomfortable for Dean and would not speak of it with him yet he continued to make it sound like his fault. He wasn't doing anything specific to get his attention and it was bothering him a lot. These were all very natural human feelings but he didn't know how to deal with it that well making him irritable.

Sam frowned slightly at the way Castiel quickly blew him off when it concerned Dean and before he could ask what was wrong Bobby chimed in to make sure they stayed on the right track. "Castiel, he's been missing since early this morning and we have a feeling he's going to do something stupid." he stated quickly gaining the correct reaction they expected from the angel first, worry.

"By stupidity you mean…?" he asked.

"Michael stupid as Sam put it." quickly answered Gabriel since he had heard a few of Sam's thoughts of where he would be so he could check it out faster than Sam and Bobby could manage. "We don't know why he would so suddenly but we think he's trying it and because of those sigils I can't find him."

Castiel looked angry right away and Gabriel could see Castiel's wings tremble from the irritation. "I can't either so why did you call me?"

"Because he'll need to pray or have someone else pray for him to get Zachariah. I can't really go and be possibly found out. You could also get to him and make him listen better than any of us." he explained.

Castiel shook his head at that right away because Dean wanted to put more distance between them so there was no way he would listen right now. Gabriel frowned slightly and wanted to ask what was wrong with him but knew this wasn't the time. "I do not think he would listen." he stated.

"You could still try." pointed out Sam.

"You do not…" he began to say before he heard a prayer, a very loud prayer and disappeared without a word.

Sam looked over at Gabriel and saw the way he was looking as well. "What happened?"

"We found Dean."


"Dear God!" started the Christian after he got down on his knees and yelled the beginning of his prayer.

Dean hated people like this as he quickly looked around seeing that they gained a couple of people's attention because of how loud this idiot was. "I know I'm a pretty good prize here but-" He was interrupted the moment a flutter of wings sounded right next to him.

"You pray too loud." growled Castiel angry at Dean for going this far and quickly put the person to sleep before grabbing Dean's jacket forcing him into the alley.

"Cas, hold on a sec!" he exclaimed before he was pushed into a wall.

Castiel didn't explain or even say anything at first before he punched Dean. His strength wasn't being held back because his anger was getting the best of him. "How could you?!" he snapped at him as he punched him a second time. Dean couldn't even get a word in as a third punch landed squarely on his jaw. He then pressed up against grabbing fistfuls of his clothes and moved close to his face to make sure he heard every word. "I gave up everything for you." he growled his eyes flashing bright as his anger spiked again. Dean didn't understand how much he gave up for him and here he was giving up! He then pulled away so he could push Dean over to the other side of the alley. "How could you just throw it away?!" he demanded.

Dean was disoriented as Castiel stepped up close to him again and the moment his eyes could focus on one spot he tried explaining. "Cas I-" He still wasn't given a chance as Castiel stepped back to punch him in the gut and pull him to the middle of the alley. Castiel then kicked Dean as if he was a rock down the alley into the fence at the end of the alley. He walked slowly over to Dean who was slightly curled up on the ground. He knew the human was trying to protect the more fragile parts of his body and didn't even bother to move his head down. Only his eyes looked down at Dean with malice, his hand curled tightly into a fist. He wanted to continue hurting him, showing him that this wasn't the right decision and didn't expect Dean to taunt him. "Go on." he groaned trying to get enough power in his voice. "Do it!" he yelled.

Castiel knew then he couldn't as his eyes softened and his hand slowly uncurled. He moved his head to look down at him showing slight regret he had to go this far before leaning down to knock him out. "I will not let you give up Dean Winchester." he said softly.


Sam and Bobby were busy with helping Dean's injuries and didn't dare talking to Castiel too much. It was rare for them to see Castiel even get close to harming Dean but he sure did do a number on him. Castiel was up on the roof looking off into the distance trying to figure out what made Dean believe he could give up. There was nothing good that could come out of it and he didn't even believe his brothers would follow up on the deal. He had all his faith in Dean and now he managed to show that there was no reason to put faith in anything because it could easily fail at any moment, no matter who or what you faith in.

Gabriel decided to follow his brother and didn't even need to try looking in two different spots, he knew Castiel very well. High spots were always a comfort for him when he was younger and appeared on the roof next to him. "Cassy, I can tell something more than just Dean running to Michael is bothering you." he stated because he was upset before they found out that he was really doing that.

Castiel didn't bother to look over at him and continued to focus on what was in front of him. "There is nothing else bothering me."

"Come on…I know I've been gone for a long time but I'm here now and you can still talk with me." he assured him and set his hand on his shoulder.

Castiel finally looked over at him and leaned toward his touch. "I am just upset that he didn't trust that we could do it and went to Michael. You could say my faith was put in him instead of our Father and he gave up."

Gabriel wrapped his arms around Castiel and pulled him into a hug glad he didn't pull away. He knew the Castiel he had left behind was still there, just hurting and getting used to him being alive again. "Even if he went about it the wrong way we stopped him and he won't do it again. I mean come on Cassy, I didn't know you got into the rough stuff." he smirked at him but didn't get the desired reaction.

"Rough? I had to be rough." he said a little uncertain and confused by what he was meaning.

"You're no fun to tease about that kind of thing…I might as well stick with making gigantor blush." he stated and messed up Castiel's hair by running his hand through it roughly.

Castiel frowned and pulled away wondering why he did that but didn't move to fix. "You should be careful with what you do with Sam brother. Dean could get upset and try to get you to leave." he pointed out not wanting him to go anytime soon.

"Don't worry about that." he said quickly waving it off because everything Sam and him have done so far has been completely consensual from both sides. "Sam likes to be around me as well."


Even though he really didn't want to be around Dean or possibly be there when he woke up, Bobby had to sleep, Sam went off somewhere with Gabriel which left him behind to watch over Dean. Castiel really wanted to know what Dean had planned when he said yes to Michael. He knew he would make sure his brother would live, his parents back alive, and that as much of the world could be saved in the process. Those were things he instantly knew Dean would want but he knew that was on his mind since he first heard about being Michael's vessel. There was something else he didn't know that made him change his mind so quickly. He watched Dean sleep and soon focused on his forehead debating if he should read his mind. It would make things ten times easier and he would find out if he should be as angry as he thought. Castiel continued to debate his options for a while longer before he sighed. He didn't want to destroy the privacy Dean had but he was just so lost on what he should focus on feeling that he quickly took a peek into his mind.

His focus was on the deal he would make with Michael so he wouldn't see anything else. It didn't take too long for him to find it but when he did he pulled away from Dean's prone body quickly. Castiel knew Dean was being a hypocrite the whole time about their situation but he really didn't think Dean would go that far. Dean was going as far as to demand Michael to keep him at full angel status and no longer be deemed a traitor. For someone who really wanted to stop caring about him he was about to give away everything they worked for, for him. It gave him a strong feeling of guilt and happiness in all one. He felt guilty because he was going to be the cause of everything going wrong and yet he was happy since this was evidence that Dean still wanted him around. Humans were strange but Dean had to be the strangest.


Alright that last paragraph was very hard to come up with…(I'm not even sure I still like it)I think I changed the outcome, wording, and everything about it at least five times before I finally went with what you read. This is getting really hard to do now because it's getting close to stuff and with finals for college coming up makes it even more difficult to focus. I hope you guys enjoyed it and are ready for the next chapter, it will be a tough one for me and all you wonderful people reading this story.