ALICE

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Bella sat in her bedroom. She had decided to take some time to herself. She sat watching the darkness of the night creep into the woods surrounding the house. She watched continuously memorized by the colors her vampire eyes could pick up that her human eyes would never have been able to distinguish.

She had thought for most of the day what Edward had said. The truth behind his words. He wanted enjoy life. Enjoy every human experience there was to offer. She had been so caught up in protecting him as a human she had forgotten how to be a human. The reasons she was trying to get him to live.

She turned to a knock on her door. She knew before the door opened who it would be. She turned back to the window. She wasn't sure what she wanted to do or say to the little woman floating silently into the room. She wasn't sure if she was still angry with her about Edward, about her life, about their situation or just angry for the sake of being angry.

"Bella, can we talk, please?" Alice's voice floated lightly through the still air within the room.

"You talk, I'll listen. I'm still not sure if I want to talk." Bella said coldly.

"That's fair. Bella, I didn't know you were still angry with us. I should have known that you were unhappy. Well, not completely unhappy. You still have Edward. I know it's not the ideal situation for you both but you are together. Sorry, this isn't coming out the way I wanted it too. I just can't say the right thing to you."

"Alice, take one thought at a time. Talk about it and move on to the next. Think like a human." Bella replied.

"Okay, Edward, first. I'm sorry. I didn't stop to think about anything. I'll start from the beginning. I didn't stop to think how Jasper and I coming to find you would affect you.

Wait, I need to go back further than that. I wish I had fought Edward harder when he decided we needed to leave for your sake. For your safety. I knew you would be in pain. We all knew it. You were, are, my best friend. I should have stood up for you when you didn't have the chance to do it for yourself. I didn't fight hard enough. I accept the responsibility for that.

I didn't do as he asked. I interfered and looked into your future. I shouldn't have. I was worried for my brother and wanted to help him any way I could. I never stopped to wonder what finding you would do to you. I realize you weren't in a good place but you were dealing with the pain in your own way. I had no right to demand otherwise of you. Yes, I said 'demand'.

I came looking for you. I was going to demand you to help. I was selfish. I was ignorant to your feelings. I was thinking only of my family. I never forgot about you. I never stopped hurting because I had lost you. I only thought of myself. I only thought about how perfect it would be to have you back. That was my biggest mistake.

I should have listened to Edward. He told me not to interfere. I didn't listen. Do you know what that got me? My own pain. Pain I deserved. I had Edward angry with me. I had you angry with me. I caused myself pain seeing what the family had done to you by turning our backs on you. I caused you so much pain and for that I am so sorry.

I will never be able to fix what I've done to you. I have condemned you and Edward to this life. If I hadn't interfered you may have found someone who could make you happy. Someone you could have children with. Someone you could grow old with. I ruined that possible life for you.

I ruined Edward too. He was happy with his thoughts that you had moved on. He diluted himself into thinking that you would eventually forget him or maybe even remember him with fond memories. He spoke about how he wanted you to have a long life with someone who could love you like he does but could have children with. You could love those children and surround yourself with their children and their children's children as you lived a wonderful fulfilling life.

I came and found you. I ruined his thoughts of you. I brought your pain back to the surface. And because of me you have been condemned to watch Edward grow old and disappear from your existence. Had I never come looking for you, you would never have been aware of anything.

Edward would be gone know but he would have been gone on his terms. He would've died believing you were happy. Now he will grow old knowing that you will continue to exist but still be unhappy. You two will never be happy at the same time. You will enjoy life while you have it but you will never experience the joy of being equal and together.

I'm sorry, Bella. I deserve your anger. I accept it. I don't expect you to ever forgive me. I will help where I can but I don't want to cause pain to you or Edward ever again. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore. All I ask of you is to allow me the chance to help Edward enjoy the life he has now. After his life has ended years from now if you decide that you can't be without him, that you can't exist without him, please, let me have the chance to say good-bye.

One last thing, I love you. Not just as a friend. I love you like a sister. You're part of this family whether you want to believe it or not. Somehow, someday I will prove that to you. For now all I can do is try to find that way. Work on regaining your trust."

Alice started for the door. She had said what she wanted to say and wasn't expecting a response. She didn't want forgiveness. She didn't feel she deserved it. She would wait for the day when she could prove her love for both Bella and Edward and make right the wrong she had caused them both.