Chapter 12 - Aftermath
Christian's POV
Monday September 24th
I am in complete awe of what happened last night. I never thought that would happen. I was so taken by surprise. I didn't expect anything like this to happen after all the shit I have been through in my life. How could anyone love me? She seems so sure and I never thought I could feel loved but, she makes me feel it. She makes me feel so free, so happy. I have so much hope in my life because, of her. We may have only known each other for a few weeks and people probably think we are crazy but, she is so right. We know so much about each other is such a short amount of time. I have told her everything about my past, full disclosure. Always full disclosure with her, she makes me feel safe. In her arms or just being around her I feel like the luckiest guy in the world. I can't see myself with anyone else. She helped me so much my fear of touch she healed me. I still have problems with other people touching me its unfamiliar but, with Ana's touch…I can't get enough of her touch. Who would have thought son of a crack whore could end up like this. Happy, I never thought I would know or understand this feeling.
Ana's POV
I told him, I told him I love him. I never thought we would end up like this. I still am asking myself if yesterday really happened. I can't fathom all of this, my head is going crazy. I'm going out of my mind. Before this school year my life was so easy and I thought my life would never change. How wrong I was. Since my first day of school my life has been anything but normal. Those grey eyes have changed my life. They made my life better. I don't think I could be any better.
"Christian"
"Yeah baby?"
"Christian…I love you…Listen to me when I say this I love you Christian Trevelyan Grey. We have known each other five Fuckin minutes and I am in love with you. I never thought this could happen to me. You're so perfect to me and I don't want you to think any less. You are everything I could ask for. I have felt like this has all been a dream. This thing we have, It means so much to me. You mean so much to me. I can't live without you because; I love you with all of my heart."
"Ana, I love you to. I never thought I could feel this way. You know me and my fifty shades and you love me. I didn't think I could ever understand my feelings for you. You changed me so much and I owe you my life. You saved me. Physically, mentally, emotionally and, now your… my everything. I love you Ana with all of my heart. Please, don't ever leave me. I am a shell of a man without you."
Christian's POV
I never want anything to change. I need Ana. I want to spend my life with her; people think I am too young to say that. I can't imagine myself with anyone else. It's Ana it has always been Ana since the day I saw those beautiful blue eyes. She saved my dark damaged soul and made me see the light. Made me see I could be loved that I could love. With her in my life nothing can go wrong. I know we are going to have problems in the future but, I feel like we can overcome anything. We can get through anything because out love is unlike anything else. She is so innocent and pure and I don't think she could ever hurt me. Her kind and loving heart have saved my soul. My life will always be perfect with Ana. I can't fuck this up, if I fuck this up I will have nothing. I would be nothing without her and that thought is terrifying. I like control in my life and without it I feel lost. I have always loved control. I have no control with Ana but, that is one of the many things I love about her. She won't put up with my bullshit and she tells me how it is. She is so honest it astounds me complete honesty, it's one of the many wonderful aspect of my relationship with Ana.
Ana's POV
He told me he loved me and I still feel as if I am dreaming. The man who thought he couldn't love or be loved, he finally understands. I love him and all his fifty shades. I swear, sometimes that man has some sort of multiple personality disorder. I have been on cloud nine since Sunday and I have this ridiculous grin on my face and Kate and Mia have been staring at me throughout gym. I could care less about gym right now. My head is clouded with thought of Christian. We are in our own little bubble right now and it feels like no one can pop it. I want to see him so bad. We only saw each other this morning and that was to brief.
"Hey baby" Christian says looking at me while I get my books out of my locker for class. He gives me a quick kiss on my lips after I look at him and smile.
"I love you." He says grinning just as stupidly as me.
"I love you to, our time in the boathouse after proclaiming our love was much to short." He moans
"Good memories, we can do that again whenever you like." He says raising is eyebrows up and down.
I cant help but laugh. I look around
"Sorry I don't want to do that in front of an audience" he groans and I shut my locker and walk away.
Turning back around I say "Laters, baby" and I give him a wink and tiny wave.
"Ana! You're Killing me here!" he calls after me and I giggle to myself. Oh, you have no idea what you do to me.
