Disclaimer: D Gray Man does not belong to me.
A/N: Omg... exams are nearing! Damn!
Chapter 12: Truth
Things were completely over between them. There was hardly any doubt whatever about that. She had officially yelled at him to get out and far away from her life, return to his rightful girlfriend, and declared that she likes Allen. Lenalee understood that it might be a little shocking and unbearable for Lavi to see this awful and loathsome side of her, but she had long decided that letting their complex out-of-the-ordinary relationship carry on with the mistake was not an option.
But was Lavi influenced by Lenalee's drama and settle on giving her up to Allen? Apparently not. He was convinced into thinking that she was just putting up an act to chase him away – with that real bitchy tone. Looking for the white-hair boy to clarify things to know the exact truth was what he wanted to do. He did not want to suffer the loss of a friend – or so he thought, just because of some awkward miscommunication and misunderstanding.
Reaching the doorstep of Allen's house, his hands reached for the doorbell. The crisp sound of the bell rang and echoed in his head, and he was waiting patiently for an answer to the door while organizing his thoughts about questions he had prepared to pose him with.
He started rehearsing with himself, "Okay, tell me truthfully, do you like Lenalee!" he sighed and muttered to himself. No, that's too straightforward, no good...
"What the hell did you do to Lenalee to make her kiss you!" he exclaimed with his back facing the door." Oh my, that's worse! He hit his forehead with his palm.
Just then, a soft "I'm coming" could be heard as sound traveled through the solid wood of the locked door, and Lavi quickly turned around. The door opened, revealing the usual cheerful and friendly young man. Allen was happy to see Lavi at his doorstep, and thought he wanted to come over for a game of play station 3 as usual.
"Erm... can I come in? I have something to tell ask you," the red-haired guy asked.
"Yeah, sure." Allen replied with a smile.
The two made their way into the 2-storey bungalow, all the way up to the second floor where his room was.
"Didn't you say you had something to ask me?" the white-haired boy asked. The two of them had started settle down on the comfy bed, a normal regime that they would do when they were there together. It was there where they sat down simply to chat and laugh while battling out their guts in a game.
However, the mood was unusually tense, and Allen happened to observe Lavi rubbing his clenched fist and palm, and therefore made conclusions that he was emotionally troubled.
There's something wrong with you today, Lavi." he stated his observation. "What's wrong?"
"I..." the red-haired guy couldn't make the words out of his mouth. He turned away, his expression frowning and inhaled a deep breath of oxygen.
"Do... Do you like Lenalee?" was all he managed to stammer out.
The shy guy got a hell of a shock when he heard that, "Ho...how did you know! Was I that obvious? I've always thought about her as a normal best friend, until she lost her memory... I began to see her in a different light. She's... beautiful." His voice trailed off as her lowered his head in embarrassment in front of a senior who's better than him at matters regarding affairs of the heart.
Those words hurt Lavi's heart. It felt like a sudden huge disappointment to him, when those words that concluded that they may be really in love with each other and he has no wish to become the third party between them.
"I... I was also kind of shocked when she... you know... kissed me. Maybe, she also likes me too." Allen said in his meek voice, one that always surfaces whenever teenage love comes into the picture.
The red-haired guy beside didn't know how to react. On one hand he is praying that the two would not come together, while on the other hand he wishes for the happiness of his best friend. What should I do now? Should I just divert the topic and start playing games with him so that we can forget everything? But that would defeat the purpose of me coming here... He thought deeply.
But another voice started to sound in his head, "But why is it that I needed to come here in the first place. Since they love each other, then I should just get out and leave them alone!"
But just as he wanted to stop thinking about the topic, Allen went, "Hey Lavi, since you have so much experience in love, can... can you give me some advice on what to do?"
"Oh, yeah. Sure." Lavi replied quite unwillingly, making sure not to express his reluctance, for that might set the ground for misunderstandings.
"Then, do you want start playing a game first?" Allen asked with courtesy, still thinking that he was here to play.
Lavi nodded and excused himself for the toilet for a while. He didn't know whether to be sad or happy for he was lying through his teeth.
They started getting on the game, and at the same time, Allen suggested for a game of truth. The game states that, whoever loses shall answer a question from the opposite party.
"Are you game for it?" Allen asked him proudly, hoping to draw him into it.
Lavi retorted, "Why not? It's you today who's going to suffer a defeat, not me."
The game started, they were playing Tekken 6, where they pressed the buttons endlessly to hit each other's character and to send them flying.
The game was coming to an end, and Lavi had more life left than Allen. But Lavi was caught off guard when he fell on the ground and Allen took the chance to deal him with one last blow that ended his life.
"I win!" the innocent-hearted boy jumped in the air waving his hands of victory.
"Hey, not fair, you cheated!" Lavi insisted as he did not want to lose and tries to wriggle his way out.
"No I didn't!"
"Yes you did!"
"NO I DIDN'T!"
"YES YOU DID!"
"NO I DIDN'T"
Lavi realized that he couldn't win over him and did not want to become a sore loser – one that breaks his promise and refuse to admit defeat. He therefore finally gave in, "Okay, fine, I lose. Shoot. What's your question?" he said pouting his lips in a childish manner.
Allen started to think for a while, considering whether or not he should ask the question that was supposedly awkward and embarrassing. He is actually quite sure of the truth, but just wanted to confirm Lavi's answer.
"Um…I…er…" Allen stuttered, not able to find any words to say all of a sudden when he wanted to ask him about so many things.
"You…" he started with a shaky voice. Lavi saw confusion on his face, mingled in the still and uncomfortable atmosphere. The red-haired boy expected him to demand answers about everything with his usual straightforwardness, but his presumption was wrong.
"... like Lenalee don't you?" Allen finally managed to bring those 5 words out of his mouth.
Lavi was shocked. He hadn't expected Allen to ask this question because he himself was also not sure of the truth and has been contemplating about whether or not he likes Lenalee.
After all that convincing himself of not to develop feelings for the girl and constantly reminding himself of his girlfriend Chomesuke, the reality had already been broken into by one problem that Allen posed.
"Wh...Who said so? That's impossible!" he quickly denied.
"I can tell it! You weren't that happy when I said I liked Lenalee earlier on, were you?" Allen asked confidently.
"I said no!"
"You can deceive others but you can't deceive yourself. You actually do like Lenalee but you're just unable to accept the truth because you think it would be unfair to Chomesuke." Allen said.
"Well, I admit that I do like Lenalee a little. But, I'm not sure if I like her as a friend or a girlfriend and I also feel that it's my responsibility to look after her after her accident. But anyway, she doesn't like me and told me to get out of her life." Lavi explained and poured out his feelings.
The white-haired guy replied, "I think that she likes you more than me. When she kissed me earlier on in the streets, something just didn't feel right. My eyes were open, and I could sort of notice her eyes looking in another direction behind me. It... it just didn't feel as real as what other couples normally do."
"Really? It was me who were standing behind and happened to spot you two kissing!" Lavi exclaimed.
"Aww... This feeling sucks! What the hell are girls actually thinking!" Allen vented his anger, partly due to feeling a tinge of jealousy.
"Now what? I think we have to confirm with her who it is that she really likes. She's treating us like fools now." Lavi said quite in annoyance.
Allen smiled and gave a determined nod. They decided to meet tomorrow at Lenalee's house to confront her the truth while they continue with the play station game.
On the other hand, Lenalee who is supposed to be at home, was actually not at home – but at another person's house.
That place looked like a martial arts school in the middle of the forest area, with those traditional houses surrounded in the midst of the natural environment with trees.
Inside the place sat two people on the floor, cross-legged, closing their eyes and placing their hands in lotus position on their knees like those ancient chinese dramas where they do meditation.
Those two were actually Kanda and Lenalee. After a long pause of silence, Kanda couldn't take it anymore and asked, "What are you doing here?'
"Why can't I be here?"
"You're disturbing me. You always do that whenever you face troubles in the past too." Kanda said.
"Really, I was the same before I lost my memory?" Lenalee asked, curious at the mention of her past.
"Yea, so what's your problem now?"
"Erm... I kind of like someone currently, but I did something very mean to him just now, and at the expense of another person. I feel guilty for treating them like this, but I had no choice." Lenalee said.
She was in her own thoughts when suddenly, she felt her finger wiping across her eyes. She realized that tears were rolling down her cheeks, and she wiped them away in a panic, hoping that the blue-haired man wouldn't notice.
But this time when she cried it was different. There was no one hugging and embracing her in their arms like before of what Lavi did a few time, and she understood how lonely it felt like. Okay, she had expected it. Expected of Kanda the serious guy.
"It was really wrong of you to make use of another person, but since it's already done, forget about it. Maybe you should take the time to reflect on your real feelings to both people, and confess it." Kanda said solemnly.
"Bu...but, he already has a girl...'
She was cut off by Kanda shooing her away, "Okay, that's enough. That's all the advice I can give you, go find someone else to disturb."
A/N: Okay, I think that ending was a little kind of awkward...
