(Sorry for no update yesterday... had a really bad day. Was really depressed... if I did what I was planning to, lets just say this story would have not been updated again...)

(NICKS POV)

I walked in and saw her pale body on the ventilator. She had been intubated, and she was sedated. Quite heavily too, by the looks of it.

I picked up her notes and I read that the surgery was complicated. Sam told me everything went fine...
"What happened during her surgery today?" I asked Sam who was sat next to her bed.
"What?" She said. I could tell she knew, but she didn't want to tell me.
"What complications were there?" I asked, showing her the page, and she sighed.
"They found an artery bleeding out. She nearly went down, but..." She smiled at me. "She's going to be absolutely fine Nick."
"She's not fine though, look at her." I said, looking down at my daughter. I wish this had never happened. I wish I had never left Zoe. "This is all my fault."
"What makes you think that?" Sam asked, almost amused.
"If I hadn't left Zoe, Matt would have never been after her and Jess." I said, sighing, and putting my head in my hands.
"Nick you know thats not true..." She told me. But of course it was.
"It is." I sighed. "I could still be with her, she wouldn't have met Matt, Jess wouldn't be in this situation."
"Nick, this is not your fault." Sam said. "Please don't blame yourself."
"Yes it is." I sighed and looked at my daughter. She looked so frail, weak. I put her through that.
"No Nick its not!" Sam almost shouted. "Don't talk like that! You didn't even know about the meeting."
"I should have! Then she wouldn't have gone. I wouldn't have let her."
"They found a note in her pocket, you know." Sam said a bit quieter. "She went because he told her he would take me."
"What?" I asked confused, and she gave me the note.

'4:30pm tomorrow, Alleyway to the left of Holby City ED. Be there, or your doctor friend gets it.'

"She was protecting you?" I asked her, and she nodded sadly.
"If only I knew. Then I would have gone instead of her." She looked so upset. "She wouldn't be here, it would have been me!"

I looked at her and she began to cry.
"She shouldn't have to go through this at such a young age. No one should have to go through this!" I listened to her while watching Jess.
"Sam you didn't know. Like me. I had no idea."
"I just don't see why she didn't tell me." Sam said. "If she did, when she got the note, we could have alerted the police and they would have him." I handed her a tissue as I didn't know what to say. "She wouldn't have been almost killed."

I watched Sam cry, walked round then sat next to her. I felt bad that there wasn't anything else I could do, so I put my arm around her and she cried on my shoulder. That got me started, and I cried too, looking at Jess the whole time.

She must be in so much pain... She looked peaceful due to the medication but I knew deep down that she was struggling. I knew she wanted to be with her mother, after Matt took her from him.

I just hoped that she decided to stay with me. I don't think me or Sam would cope, losing the both of them.