Jim and Spock met each other in Spock's quarters and the door had barely closed before they were on each other.
Only 3 hours were left before the Utylis's estimated time of change was expected.
Only 3 more hours before Spock would slip into his final sleep as a teen and awaken as the man he had been before.
Only 3 hours before the last few blissful weeks of Spock's life would be forgotten.
It wasn't nearly enough time.
They laid together the last hour and did nothing more than bask in each other.
Jim held Spock close as the younger man nuzzled into his neck and sighed.
"…I wish we had more time."
"I know."
Jim traced his fingers down the bottom of Spock's neck to the base of his spine and back over and over.
"Will you tell him?" Spock asked quietly.
"Who?"
"Will you tell the older Spock about us? What we are to each other?"
Jim hesitated.
"I don't know. You've seen my memories. He doesn't like me much. I wouldn't know what to say."
Spock kissed his neck softly before replying.
"I think he likes you more than you realize. I saw the way he looks at you through your eyes. He is incredibly fond of you and enjoys your company. I cannot say if he is romantically interested, but he doesn't hate you…..I don't know how anyone could."
Jim kissed Spock as he trembled in his arms.
"We don't have to talk about it if you don't want to." He offered.
Spock shook his head.
"What I want is for you to not wake in world where you feel you are not loved. What I want is for you to be happy."
"I'm happy right now." Jim answered with a smile.
"A fleeting happiness." Spock countered sadly.
Jim sighed and ran his finger though Spock's hair.
"You're worth a lifetime of sorrow."
"But you don't deserve to have to pay such a price."
Jim kissed his cheek softly.
"We are bound Spock. My thoughts and feelings are yours to know. Look at mind. See into my heart. Know that I have no regrets."
Spock's eyes watered as he smiled.
"I already know."
Despite all his desire not to Spock could not stop the potion induced sleep from making him doze an hour later.
Jim carried him to his own bed and tucked him snuggly under his covers like he had done when Spock was just a toddler.
His bondmate looked up at him with tired yet loving eyes as Jim sat at his side and held his hand.
"Will you stay until I fall asleep Jim?"
Jim smiled down at him.
"Of course."
Spock's eyes watered, but could not spill.
"I love you T'hy'la." He whispered softly.
Jim squeezed his hand and stroked his face.
"And I you…It was a beautiful dream while it lasted."
Jim waited until Spock's breathing was even and his sleep deep before he allowed his own tears to fall.
He wouldn't let his T'hy'la see him cry.
Sorry followers. Don't kill me.
Yours Truly,
Jessica499499
