HI! Sorry I didn't put a chapter up last week. I was in Quebec and things got busy :P so, this was a quick chapter.. not the best, sorry. I might put a second one up on Sunday too.

Aand, just a side note. Lol ive been getting a lot of people tell me to get Ella and Josh to have sex.. but I dunno. U tell me what u think. I think the only reason I'm a little hesitant is cuz that'll be awkward to write. :P

Ideas and Thoughts please!

I got home and the house felt empty. Slowly, the days went by and it felt as if a part of me was missing. I started working longer and longer hours so I could maybe get some time off for when Josh got back. When I wasn't working Lexi was always there keeping me company and telling me all about her life like always. Every night though, I always stopped and waited for the phone call and every night it came. That was what pushed me all day at work, knowing I would get to hear his voice at the end of the day. I hated saying goodbye at the end of each conversation.

There is only two days left until he would return and I wanted them to go by fast. I had the evening off and I was going out for dinner with Lexi. It was eight o'clock so it was a late dinner. I got myself to the restaurant and got us a table. Like always Lexi was late. When she finally arrived we ordered our drinks and food. She didn't seem herself.

"What's wrong?" I asked

I had learned over the past few months that asking this question was a bit of a risk. She always had to tell me the WHOLE story.

"I don't know." She mumbled

"What do you mean you don't know? You know exactly, now tell me." I said smiling

She told me about her boyfriend Alex, and how he didn't seem right. She said he didn't want to spend a lot of time together anymore and when they go out she catches him looking at other girls.

"I don't know if I should end it or not." She wept

"Well you do love him?"

"Yea, well, I don't know. I really care about him."

"Maybe you should just talk to him about all this, see how he takes it." I mentioned

"I just, I thought he was going to be the one. Why do I always screw everything up?" She said, starting to raise her voice

"Your not! You just haven't found the guy you want. You know what you want, and there's someone that will give you just that. You'll know when you find him."

She sat there for a moment taking in what I had just said.

"Is Josh the one?" She wondered

I smiled and nodded.

"I think, yes."

"See? Why can't it have been that easy for me?"

"It wasn't easy for us. There was a lot of, I don't know, it wasn't the best way to meet a guy." I laughed

"How did you meet? I don't think I have ever heard the story."

"Really? I haven't told you?"

"No!"

I told her all about Catherine and how she forced me to go to that concert. I told her how I found that bracelet and gave it to Josh. How he talked to me after the show and we exchanged numbers and all.

"How is that not perfect?" She asked

I then started to explain how he lived here and I lived in Toronto so we could only talk on the phone for a year. I don't think she knew we had known each other for that long. Then I told her about when Josh told me he was coming back for a show and that he was going to take me with him.

"After that show was the first time we kissed." I smiled

"What? Ella, this is so cute!"

I kept going, I told her about how we got back into the car and were driving back to my place.

"We were going through the lights and there was drunk driver, he hit the car on my side and I was rushed to the hospital with a concussion and broken ribs. Of course though when I woke up, he was there."

"I didn't know this! What the hell? How could you have not told me?"

"I don't know, do you want to hear the rest?"

"There's more? Holy shit."

I told her how when I was in the hospital my mom showed up and she had met Josh. She was supposed to be back the next day, but I found out by the doctor that she had had cardiac arrest and that her lung cancer had returned.

'I didn't even know that she had lung cancer!" I explained

I continued and told her about how Josh was right there when my mom died and that's when he asked me to move to Vancouver with him

"I had absolutely nobody else. So a few months after I sold my apartment and moved here."

"Awe, that's cute. See? How come I can't find a guy like that? What's wrong with me?"

"Nothing! But there's more." I explained

"How the hell is there more? He's perfect."

I laughed and told her what Josh told me on the plane.

"What?" her jaw dropped, "He was a heroin addict?"

"Yea, he's not perfect." I stated

She was so amazed by the whole story but mostly by the last part.

"Haven't you ever asked him about his tattoos?" I smiled

"No, I'm going to when he gets back though! Oh my god." She exclaimed, "But this still doesn't solve my problem."

I smiled and looked at her

"When you find someone that is willing to sit by your bedside for hours for you, you know you've found him." I smiled

She smiled and it was quiet for a bit. We got our food and talked for a while. We were at the restaurant for hours. I got home and got ready for bed. I was planning on going to work early tomorrow and work overtime so I didn't have to be here alone. It was almost 11pm and I knew I needed to go to sleep or I wouldn't be able to get up in the morning.

As I got ready I felt something missing. The call. Josh hadn't called yet. He would have left a message if I missed the call right? I laid down in bed and my mind started to run. What if he forgot? How could he have forgotten though? He always called. I thought about many options until my mind stopped at one, the worst possible thing. Cheating. He wouldn't do that to me again though, right? I tried to ignore that thought as much as I could and fell asleep.

The next day went just as planned. Every hour I would check my phone to see if he called, but he never did. I told Lexi about what I thought and she thought it was ridiculous.

"He was probably really busy. Relax."

I couldn't get that one thought out of my head though. I knew I couldn't be true but I couldn't believe myself. Later on that night when I got home there were no messages. Again. I went and found the computer. I sat down and it instantly pulled his twitter up. I refreshed the page and was going to log him off but something caught my eye. I clicked the 'in reply to' button in the corner and read the tweet.

"JoshRamsay was that your girlfriend at the airport with you?"

He replied

"Hell No! Just a friend."

After I read that I could have sworn I felt my heart break. I put the computer down and moved over to the couch in the living room. I grabbed the multi-coloured blanket and laid it on top of me. I didn't want to think about him, I just wanted to go to sleep and forget everything. I turned on the TV and flipped though the channels. Tux came up beside me and looked me right into the eyes.

"Why do you think he would do that?" I asked the cat

I felt really stupid talking to the cat but he was the only one there at the moment.

I petted him over and over until my eyes got really heavy. It must have been at least midnight and the TV got really boring. I felt my eyes slowly close and I faded away.

I woke up the next morning at 11am. I never really got the chance to ever sleep because of my job and it felt good. I sat there all wrapped up in the blanket and watched TV. Tux was still sleeping in the corner of the chair in a little ball. It didn't feel like that much longer until I heard a key put into the front door and the door open.

"Hi!"

Josh came running into the room with his jacket still on. I stood up and he ran over to hug me but I didn't hug back. "I missed you." He said into my ear

I pushed away and said nothing. Walked back over to the other couch with the computer and sat down. I didn't even look up at him.

"We got a lot of the record done! Want to know what its going to be called?" He asked

When I didn't answer again he came and sat beside me. I was just staring at the front page of the computer, speechless. He moved so his face was in between the laptop and my face.

"Look at me." He stated

I looked over and he sat back up.

"Baby? What's wrong?"

He went from really excited to see me to really wanting to know what was going on.

"Nothing" I mumbled

I turned back again to look at the laptop and pulled up the internet. He pulled my face over so I was looking at him again.

"I'm not stupid, I know it not 'nothing'" He sympathized, "Tell me"