Disclaimer: Don't own any characters, but if I did I would be in a Jasper and Emmett sandwich right now.
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Emmett
Fuck, fuck, fuck. I am so fucking screwed it's not even funny.
It has been two months since I had last spoken to Bella. I hadn't gone hunting with her; I couldn't even be in the same room with her anymore. Not since I realized I had fallen in love with her.
I still don't even know how or when it happened. All I know is that one day we were fine and the next she walked in the room and it hit me like a MACK truck.
All I could see that day was how beautiful she was and how much I wanted to be with her always and not just as friends. She'd become my everything and I hadn't even realized it.
I felt horrible; I had only lost Rose just under two years ago and here I was already falling for someone else. And not just someone else, but Bella. My brother's mate and my best friend. She had lost Edward at the same time and we had gotten through it together, but that still didn't make it right. Maybe to humans that was possible, but not with vampires we didn't love anybody other than our mates. It wasn't possible or so I had thought.
What was I going to do?
I knew Jasper could feel it coming off me every time I looked at Bella; he kept looking at me with this knowing smile on his face. Like it was a great big, uncomplicated thing.
All I could think about was how messed up everything would get, if I told her how I felt.
We were sitting on the couch one afternoon. I had finally relented and was in the same room with Bella. I ignored her or pretended I did and she in turn ignored me. She'd quit talking to the others in the house and I hated that I was the reason. I knew I was hurting her by not being there anymore, but I just didn't know how to come out and say the things I felt or even if I wanted too.
While we sat there I would steal glances every now and then, stopping only when I looked over at Jasper and he gave me a slight nod in her direction.
Rolling my eyes I picked up a magazine from the coffee table and began flipping through it. After a few minutes I flung it back to the table and stood up.
All eyes turned to me. "I'm going to hunt."
Alice and Jasper nodded. Bella let her eyes trail over my face before turning them back to her book. Her shoulders slumped minutely. I knew it hurt her when I didn't invite her along, so I didn't really need the glare Jasper or Alice sent my way.
I shrugged my shoulders and took off out the front door.
When I got to the tree line I turned back to look in the window of the house. I watched as Bella got up off the sofa and threw her book. It became lodged in the wall and I saw her cringe knowing Esme would give her shit about it later. Jasper stood and placed his hand on her shoulder. She shrugged it off and took off out the back door.
Sighing I turned toward the forest again and ran for awhile. After about an hour and a half I finally picked up the scent of a bear. When I came upon it I took it down without hesitation. As I drained it my mind shifted to whether or not it was the one Bella and I had fought over months ago. With that thought my appetite left me and I flung it away.
"God why am I such a fucking idiot?" I asked to what I thought was myself.
"You aren't an idiot." Jasper said coming up behind me.
"Yes I am."
"You aren't. You just need to tell her."
"I can't. It's too soon."
"What the hell is that supposed to mean?"
"We just lost Rose and Edward."
"Almost two years ago."
"Yes and its wrong. I shouldn't feel the way I do about her."
"You act like this is something you can control. God dude did you ever think this was the way it was meant to be. That you and Bella were meant for each other all along."
"Rose was meant for me and I'm tarnishing what we had with my feelings for Bella."
"You need to get over that shit right now. You and Bella have or had something special before you screwed it up. The friendship you had when she was human only got stronger when she became one of us. Everyone sees it. It's no ones fault that it turned into more with as much time as you spent with her."
"What would Rose and Edward think though? I mean…"
"I think they would be happy." He said interrupting me. "Edward loved her and only wanted her happy. I think he would be okay knowing that when she found that it was with someone that he loved and trusted. As for Rose it's Rose. I know she never liked Bella, but I don't think she'd hold it against you for finding someone that you'd want to be with. She wouldn't want you depressed."
"I miss her."
"I know you do, but you have a second chance to find that happiness you had before, don't waste it."
"Does she even feel the same?"
"I don't know. I haven't been able to feel her emotions since you quit talking to her."
"And you're just now telling me this?"
"I haven't told anyone. I just figured it was her shield protecting her."
"Damn dude, you need to tell people this shit."
"And you need to tell her how you feel." He said while standing up.
"I'll think about it."
"Think hard. It's not going to get better the longer you wait. Now that these feelings are there they won't go away."
I nodded.
He started to walk away, but then I heard him stop and say, "As much as Edward loved Bella, you love her more."
I jerked my head toward him, but he was already gone.
I sat there for a while longer. I ran through everything I had felt for Rose and what I feel for Bella. After what seemed like ages I finally came to a decision.
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Bella
I don't know why I thought he might ask me to go with him hunting. He hadn't in so long, but I'd gotten my hopes up when he kept looking over at me while we sat on the couch.
When he didn't it crushed me. I missed him so much. After he'd disappeared through the front door I got mad. How dare he treat me like a fucking leper. I hadn't done shit to him. Letting my anger get the best of me I threw the book I had across the room and watched as it imbedded itself in the wall.
Fuck. I was going to get in trouble for that. Of course when I had that thought my mind also went to the fact that the last time I got in trouble for something Emmett was beside me. I felt Jasper's hand on my shoulder. I didn't want him to make me feel better so I just shrugged it and flew out the back door.
I needed to be away from the house before I broke down. I ran for about five miles before I came across the scent of my favorite animal. I hadn't told anyone it was no longer moose. I'd found something better. As I drained the bear I thought about how happy Emmett would be if he was here to share. Once I was finished I buried it and took off running again.
I ran for another ten miles before I came upon a small clearing. Perching myself on the top of a boulder I let my mind go…
Why didn't he want to be around me anymore?
--You must have done something.
But that's the problem I haven't done anything.
--Or you think you haven't.
If I had he would tell me.
--Maybe not.
Yes, he would. This is Emmett. He's never had a problem telling you what's on his mind.
--You must have done something horrible then.
But I haven't.
--Why does it even matter? Whatever it is, it's his problem..
It matters because he's my friend.
--Are sure that's all?
Yes. What else could it be?
--Maybe your feelings go deeper than friendship and that's why it's bothering you so much that he won't talk to you.
They don't, I love Edward.
--Yes, but Emmett has been there from the beginning of all the pain.
So.
--So, maybe your feelings have shifted.
They haven't.
--Are you sure?
Yes.
--Positive
I think so.
--You love him. Admit it.
I don't.
--You do.
No.
--Yes
No.
--Yes.
I don't love him.
--Yes you do and when you finally admit it to yourself you'll feel better.
I don't, I can't.
--I'll ask again. Are you positive?
Yes…No…I don't know….
--Which is it?
No
--No you don't or no you're not positive?
No I'm not positive. Happy now?
--Not until you admit it.
Fine. Fine. Yes I love him. I am in love with Emmett Cullen.
--Feel better?
Shut up.
I finished fighting with myself and thought over everything. I was in love with him. I think I have been for awhile, but a fat lot of good it would do me. Just cause more hurt and pain when he didn't speak to me.
Hearing the movement through the trees I said, "Hey Alice."
"You okay?"
"No."
"Anything you want to talk about?"
"I love him."
"I know."
"Have you ever seen us together?"
"No, but that doesn't mean anything."
"It means I'm not supposed to have these feelings."
"Why do you say that?"
"Because you saw Edward and I together. You saw Jasper and you together."
"Yes, but this is different. So much changed that wasn't supposed to and you and Emmett ended up getting thrown together. It happens."
"Do you think Edward would be mad?"
"No. Now Rose maybe."
I smiled a little at that because she was right.
"What do I do Alice?"
"You tell him."
"What if he doesn't feel the same?"
"Then he doesn't. I don't think that's the case though."
"Has he said something?"
"No, but I have watched Jasper and he knows something. As soon as you left he went after Emmett."
"Really?"
"Yes which makes me think Emmett feels the same way and that is why he stopped talking to you. I have a feeling that once one of you decides to say something I'll be able to see you two together. Until then I'm blind."
"Maybe I should, but what if you're wrong and it makes everything worse?"
"How much worse can it get?"
"He could leave."
"I don't see that happening."
"How would you know? You're blind remember."
"Shut it Bella. You know what I mean."
I gave her a smile and said, "Yeah I know."
My eyes followed her as she stood up. "Just think about it. You have nothing to lose."
I nodded.
"I'm going back. You coming?"
"In a little bit."
"Okay."
She took off back to the house and I stretched out on my back. Looking up at the sky I let our conversation run through my head.
Alice was right. I did have nothing to lose, but could I handle being around him if he knew how I felt and he didn't feel the same.
Awhile later I made my decision.
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Alice
Jasper and I returned to the house at the same time and resumed our positions on the sofa.
"How did it go?" I asked him.
"I don't know. He thinks it's wrong to love her." He said with a shrug. "What did Bella say?"
"She loves him, but is worried that if she tells him that it will make everything worse."
"Those two need to talk. Have you seen them at least doing that?"
"No. Neither one will make a definite decision. It's kind of frustrating."
We'd been sitting there for awhile when I slipped into a vision…
Emmett and Bella running through the forest. Both coming into the house at the same time.
I felt a smile slide across my face as the rest of the vision went through my head.
When it was over I turned to Jasper.
"They decided." He said.
I nodded.
"Finally." He muttered. "Let's go visit with Tanya and the others and let Carlisle and Esme in on what's going on."
"Yeah. They'll want some privacy."
Jasper stood up pulling me along with him. We went out the front door and started running. I couldn't keep the smile off my face and I knew I was affecting Jasper too because he had the same grin I did.
Emmett and Bella had just made the best decision of their life.
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