So I Thought
D Gray Man
Forgiveness & Denial
It was set. They were ready. There was nothing that could stop them now. They were waiting for her to walk into her death. It was something that no one could change. All they had to do now was wait it was all set.
Raina ran even faster, as fast as she could. She couldn't stop the sobs from breaking out of her chest. She could barely see where she was running and she kept falling down. She was a clumsy person, sure, but she didn't know why she couldn't keep her balance long enough to get away.
She could hear their voices behind her, shouting for her to stop but she couldn't. She just couldn't. She was so scared and tired but remembering their eyes. The look in their eyes had been so frightening that she couldn't get it out of her head. Their eyes had been completely Noah. They had been sharp and angry, powerful and murderous. That look their eyes scared her more than anything ever had before.
Running seemed to be really helping though. At least she was moving. At least she was going somewhere…
She stumbled again, falling to the ground hard. She gasped for breath and then she drug herself back onto her feet. She glanced behind her and started to run again. She could not let them catch her. She didn't know if she ever wanted to see them again, she was scared.
She only ran a little further when she tripped but this was a bigger trip. She was tumbling down a hill. She cried out just as she hit the bottom. She pushed herself up but as soon as she moved her one ankle she knew she had somehow twisted it during the fall.
"No" she whimpered. She tried to move it again but it hurt way too much. She heard them above the hill. She forced herself to crawl over to the tree and press her back against it. She closed her eyes and held her breath. She did not want to be found before she could think a while.
"Raina! Raina! Please!" she heard Devit's voice and it sounded so desperate, so human. She swallowed hard and shook her head. "Raina! Please Raina! We're sorry! We're sorry!" She felt the need to answer them. It was almost instinct to answer Devit when his voice was that sorry. He sounded downright miserable. Plus he was hurt, they both were. They needed her.
She thought back to the moment where they had killed Kanda. She kept thinking back to that moment. Could it have only been minutes ago? It felt so surreal. Sure, she wasn't the greatest friend of Kanda's, she barely liked the guy but it seemed wrong for her to sit there and comfort and help his killers. She was sure her Innocence would get her back for this, some day. Still, Devit and Jasdero were her friends. Her best friends, even if they were all clearly very different now. She couldn't abandon them.
"Devit! Jasdero!" she called out their names but before she got any further a hand came and clamped her mouth shut. She screamed into the hand, hoping to get Devit or Jasdero to hear her. Instead she got smacked, rather hard, across the face.
"Shut up. They don't need to get involved in this now do they sister dearest?"
That voice! It made Raina freeze. Who ever was holding her let her go and pushed her away. She looked behind her expecting to see her sister, just as she used to be with her short hair and her blue eyes. Instead she looked an awful lot like Devit or Jasdero with her predator golden eyes and cross-shaped scars on her forehead. And her blonde hair! It was pitch black. Raina felt slightly sick.
"Hey big sis, you look a little pale" Fae gave her a smile filled with teeth that were too sharp to be human. Raina worked on not hyperventilating.
"You're a Noah?" she asked.
"So you know what we are? They told you?" she tsk'ed. "Stupid boys, they should have never told you, but it doesn't matter now I guess"
"Fae, don't play. She needs to die." Raina looked over at the sound of another voice. It was the guy, Tyki. He smiled at her, it was a light sarcastic smile. "Unless you'll let me kill her"
"She's my sister! I get to kill her!" Raina started to move away, trying to get on her feet. Sure her ankle hurt but the need to live was stronger than the need to rest her wounded ankle. A breeze whipped around her and then slammed her against a tree. "Where do you think you're going?"
"Fae...Why are you doing this?" She asked. Maybe if she could connect with her sister she could at least find a moment to escape.
"Well...I don't really have the time to tell you" she glanced back at Tyki. "But I'll be quick about it!" Tyki frowned, deeply and sighed. "So for one, you're my sister. Duh, everyone who knew the old me has to be destroyed. You are on the top of that list my dear Raina."
"Fae, you don't have to do this."
"Oh, but I want to Raina." she smiled, the smile was cruel. "You don't know the joy of killing! The beauty in it! Oh my dear sister, they say killing someone you love is the ultimate thrill and I love you more than I did papa or that stupid boy I was to marry. You're my twin so to kill you..."
"It'll hurt you Fae!" Raina cried out quickly. "It'll hurt because we are connected. When I feel pain you-" her words were cut off because it felt like her air was stolen from her. She gasped for breath but couldn't seem to get any air into her lungs.
She saw Tyki and Fae both grinning. Raina lifted her hand and neither seemed threatened. She couldn't make a sound but her Innocence seemed to know what to do. It activated and extended in attack. As soon as Fae and Tyki jumped she was free to breathe again. She gasped for breath, taking as much in as she could in the short time she had. Her head was spinning but she had to move. She was moving within a moment. It was hard as her whole body cried out for air and her ankle in pain. She had to keep moving.
This was worse than when she saw Kanda die. This was much worse because she knew she might be the one to die. "Devit!" she screamed as loud as she could manage. If they could find her, they could out run them. It'd be so much easier than her stumbling run. "Devit! Help! De-"
She stopped screaming and stumbled to the ground as she ran right into the chest of Tyki. She looked up at him. Her Innocence was still activated.
"Well hello again Raina" he said, pleasantly. He grabbed her by the arm, even coated with the Innocence and pulled her to her feet. "I've looked forward to killing you."
"Like I'll fucking let you" She grabbed the arm that he was holding her with, her claw sinking into his flesh. He cried out and threw her away from him. She landed on the ground hard but scrambled to her feet, holding her claws ready. She smiled a little at the blood that was running from Tyki's wounds, she knew that it was the first wound she inflicted on him that had pissed him off. She wondered what two wounds would do to him?
She could see the anger in his face, but before he could act a large gust of wind threw her into the air. She landed in a clearing, right by a large tree on the other edge of the clearing. The wind was strong, whipping around her. Fae walked into the clearing slowing, looking pissed beyond belief.
"How dare you hurt Tyki" she snarled. In that moment Raina knew that Fae was going to kill her. Still her sister approached slowly. Raina tried to think up a plan. Running was out. Finding the twins was out. She guessed she'd have to fight, but how could she fight against her own twin?
Then a huge fireball was suddenly flying right at Fae. Tyki was there in an instant to block it with one of the enlarge butterfly-like creatures he seemed to control. He was frowning deeply, his hair all messed up. He combed it back from his face and glanced back at Fae whose eyes were wide with shock.
Raina who was still on the ground almost couldn't grip what was happening. Two arms came down and lifted her up. She almost wanted to cry, seeing them again. They had come back for her even after she had been terrible and ran away from them. She couldn't believe how good they were to her. She deactivated her Innocence so she would not hurt them. She trusted them after all.
"Jasdevi" Tyki said, a tone of greeting to his voice but there was also heavy disapproval.
Neither of the twins said anything. They glared, their guns ready to shoot at any moment. Raina looked them over quickly. They were both covered in dried blood but their wounds seemed alright, almost healed even. It surprised her how quickly they healed but she supposed it was good else they could be in trouble right now.
"You shouldn't defend her" Fae stepped around to stand beside Tyki. "She is an Exorcist. If you defend her, you're a traitor"
"She's our best friend, hii! We won't let you kill her" Jasdero's voice was threatening and angry. He clearly did not like what was happening.
"Leave" Devit growled. "Leave or we'll rip you the fuck apart!"
"Devit, Jasdero...They're your family aren't they?" she asked quietly.
"Closest thing we have" Devit explained in a soft tone. "But they'll kill you Raina"
"I know, but you shouldn't go against your family for me. It's wrong. They'll kill you guys" She felt afraid for them. She knew that, they had told her that before hadn't they? Or maybe she had just thought it before, she couldn't remember.
Devit's arm came around her waist and he pulled her closer. She felt her face heat up as she stumbled into his chest. "We're not going to let them kill any of us"
Jasdero pressed closer to them. "We're tough!"
She glanced over at Fae and saw her eyes narrow as she looked at Devit and then her. Raina wondered what Fae was looking for? Devit and Jasdero were her best friends, that was it but...
She refused to think about last night. She would not because that thought wasn't one she needed to have. Devit and Jasdero were her friends. Devit was her friend. She would not think of him in any other way, even when being this close to him made her blush. She wouldn't because it wasn't right. Or maybe she was just afraid of him not feeling the same way. She bit her lip, this was not the time for these thoughts but she couldn't stop them from flooding her mind.
"Just kill her Jasdevi" said Tyki. "You should have killed her a long time ago"
"We know" Devit called back. "But we couldn't then and we won't now"
"Don't be traitors!" snarled Tyki. Something underlying in his voice kind of said that Tyki didn't really want to kill them. Raina looked up at the twins who didn't look torn at all. The only thing on their face was protectiveness.
"Guys, you don't have to fight and we don't have to kill her. She just has to die" Fae's voice was soft and sweet.
"No"
"Go away, hii"
Fae's face became angry. "Fine! We'll kill you too then!" She lifted her arms and then pointed it at the three of them. The wind hit them with a force that would send a normal person flying. Instead Devit grabbed Raina and turned his back to the wind. He held her against hist chest tightly while Jasdero kept a hold her waist just in case his brother slipped. She closed her eyes to keep dirt and other things out of her eyes but opened them to see if the Fae was going to stop the wind soon. Instead she saw Tyki jumping towards Devit's unprotected back. His butterfly-weapon posed to stab.
"Devit!" she cried. "Watch out!"
He glanced up and turned fast. He somehow knocked Tyki to the side and then Jasdero and he shot their gun, once. Tyki managed to dodge the bullet. Devit was still holding Raina close, pressing her against his chest, as if he could shield her from the other two Noah.
"Let me go Devit!" she said, pushing against him. "You need to let me fight too"
"Shut up. They'll kill you"
"You don't know that" But he didn't say anything more. He quickly knocked her legs out from under her and caught her head before it hit the ground.
"We need to get out of here Dero" he said to his brother and they both started to run but the wind slammed into them sending them sprawling onto the ground. Raina fell away from them and she was on her feet quickly. She reactivated her Innocence and held it at a ready. They both attacked at the same time and she manged to dance away from them, even with her wounded ankle. Somehow it didn't even hurt anymore but she figured that was the adrenaline.
Her sister came at her from one side and Tyki the other. She danced around them both and then tried to cut into Tyki again. He used his weapon to block and then throw her into the air where Fae's wind slammed her back down into the ground. She saw Tyki coming towards her, ready to slit her throat when he dodged a block of ice. He turned to see the twins. They were on their feet again, looking pissed.
Raina jumped up and started towards them. They held up their hands. She stopped and realized that Tyki and Fae had froze in spot too.
"If we're going to protect Raina we have to combine" they said at the same time. They both smiled at Raina and she gave them a questioning look. She had no idea what they meant.
"You wouldn't" growled Tyki.
"What?" Fae didn't seem to get it either.
They all watched as the twins put their guns to the other's head. Raina started to shake her head and opened her mouth to speak when the twins shot, at the same time. Neither of them fell, but the guns slipped from their hands. Then Raina screamed. She ran forward, deactivating her Innocence. She grabbed on to Devit's shirt.
"Devit! Jasdero! Why would yo-" She looked down at their shadows that were combining. She noticed that they were still on their feet by their own doing. It was as if they were holding themselves up. Then there was a cloud of smoke that filled the clearing, making it hard to see. Suddenly she didn't have a hold of Devit's shirt anymore. It was like it wasn't even there.
She spun around, looking for her friends but they didn't seem to be there at all. "Devit! Jasdero!" She yelled for them and then there was a hand on her shoulder. She thought it was one of the twins but when she turned the man there was much taller than either of the twins.
He smiled lightly at her. "We're right her Rai" His voice was familiar but not. He had long blonde hair, golden just Jasdero's except on the crown of his head was black hair that swirled with the blonde. His eyes were golden and he was dressed primarily in red. He had makeup that reminded her of a combination of Devit and Jasdero's covering the one eye she could see. The other eye was covered by his hair.
"Devit? Jasdero?" she asked feeling breathless. He smiled even more.
"You can call us Jasdevi right now"
She looked at them...him for a moment and then thew her arms around his waist and hugged him tightly. "I'm just glad you guys are alright"
"So you're not afraid of us?" he asked. She felt his hand stroke her hair and the other hand press gently against her back.
"No" It was the truth. She wasn't afraid of him. He was still her friends, even if they were combined. She didn't know they could do that, but after seeing Fae throw around wind, which she knew was Fae's doing by now, she knew she wouldn't be surprised. Noahs had strange powers, but then again, so did Exorcists.
"How touching" She turned but Jasdevi pull her halfway behind him. It was Tyki talking he didn't seem very happy about any of this. "You understand the consequences now don't you Jasdevi?"
"Yeah" he answered "But we're not going to die here today" She looked at them and then back at Tyki and Fae.
"Neither of us are dying today" she told them. Fae laughed, her laugh was high, but so familiar it made Raina want to slap herself. How could she fight against her own sister? She looked up at the combined Jasdevi and realized that he would be fighting against someone that was like a brother to him. She would have to suck it up and fight, no matter what.
Jasdevi looked down at Raina as she activated her Innocence. He, they, didn't want her to fight, but he had to let her. There was no way he could drive off two Noah at the same time all while keeping them off of her. He could drive off the two Noah by himself, if only she wasn't there. She would be in danger of him turning on her as well. If he didn't check himself he could attack her without thinking. She was an Exorcist and therefore his enemy.
It'd be so much easier if Devit and Jasdero didn't love her so much. Even if their love was different, it was love...
He watched Tyki and Fae carefully, waiting for their attack. He almost didn't see Fae move. She was using the wind to silence her steps as at the same time speed herself up. She charged, trying to attack Raina without him noticing but he caught her by the waist and threw her back as she got within inches of Raina.
Raina didn't seemed shocked, in fact she was still standing her ground. Then she was moving. She pushed him back with one clawed hand, and she swatted at Tyki with the other. Tyki had tired another sneak attack but instead he almost got a face full of Raina's claws. He jumped back over to were Fae was getting up off the ground. Fae looked pissed and she hissed at her sister. Raina just smiled.
Fae let out a angry shriek and tried to charge forward to attack but Tyki caught her arm. He was watching them careful, most likely coming up with a plan. He waited, keeping close to Raina. They would not break his guard.
Fae came forward, only a few steps so Tyki was behind her. She clenched and unclenched her hands for a moment and then she slammed them down on the ground. A huge gust of air hit Jasdevi and Raina, driving them apart. He landed on his feet. Raina rolled her feet when she hit the ground. Her claws were ready for when Fae attacked her.
Jasdevi was about to run to her add when Tyki blocked his way. Jasdevi growled through his teeth but Tyki attacked. It was easy to dodge them. It was not easy to attack back. Even if Tyki and the twins did not get along they were still like siblings and this was hard for Jasdevi.
He glanced over to Fae and Raina. Raina looked like she was having a hard time as well. She looked like she didn't want to fight against her own sister any more than Jasdevi wanted to fight against Tyki. He saw her move out of the way as Fae sent gusts of winds that were sharp as blades towards her. He glanced back at Tyki who was openly attacking him, but the regret was clear in his eyes.
"Jasdevi, just stand down" he said,low enough that only he could hear. "Just let us kill her. You don't have to watch"
"I can't let you kill her" he answered stopping. Tyki stopped as well.
"Why not?" he asked, looking frustrated.
"We love her"
Tyki sighed. "So you think, but what happens when she tries to kill you? She could also go suicidal from the stress of not trying to kill you"
"We won't let her" he said simply. "Tyki she means a lot to us. You don't know what we feel about her"
He glanced over at Fae. "I think I do"
Jasdevi snorted. "Whatever. We won't let you kill her. End of Story" Tyki shook his head sadly. He looked at Jasdevi, just for a moment and then raised his weapon to the ready.
"Well then, I'll just have to kill you. End of Story"
"If you can" he challenged and then Tyki was attacking, slicking at Jasdevi all the while Jasdevi dodged and stabbed at Tyki with his locks of hair. It was easy for both of them to do both at the same time, but they both had a third task at hand. Watching the girls. Fae and Raina's fight was slightly lopsided, with Fae being a Noah, but Raina wasn't one to be counted out. She was fast, for a human, and she was able to block attacks with her Innocence.
They were both strong and they were twins so it was almost like they were picking the moves out of each other's heads. Jasdevi didn't noticed when Tyki got closer. He was checking on Raina again, that's why when Tyki's weapon sliced down his arm he yelped in pain.
In retribution he slammed his hand on Tyki's chest and sent him flying. He touched his bleeding arm, the sleeve now ripped. He just imagined it fixed and it was. The bleeding would stop soon anyway. He was focused on Tyki again who was coming to attack again. Tyki seemed even more focused, maybe mad because he let Jasdevi lay a hand on him.
Jasdevi grinned, tempting him to make a rash action. Instead Tyki backed up, like he was walking backwards up a set of stairs. Soon he was standing several feet in the air. He looked down at Jasdevi with a look that could only be described as emotionless.
"What too scared to be down here with me?" he asked. Tyki started to smile slowly and Jasdevi was confused. Why was he looking like that. Tyki's eyes glanced at something behind Jasdevi and he turned just in time for a large gust of air to knock him down. It didn't cut him, but it left him vulnerable. No body acted on this though. Raina was at his side then, pulling him up carefully with her claws.
"Are you alright?" she asked sounding a bit breathless.
"Yeah" he answered, feeling worried for her. They didn't get more than that out before both Fae and Tyki attacked them once again. The pair separated them again, this time with Fae attacking Jasdevi and Tyki attacking Raina. Jasdevi didn't like that, Tyki was a much better fighter than Fae. Fae was new and although her instincts were good, she wasn't half the fighter Tyki was...
Meaning Jasdevi could defeat her easily and drive off Tyki. He grinned at the girl and avoided a blast of razor sharp wind. He jumped into the air and created a star, sending it down to smash into her. She avoided it, but didn't count on the edges being sharp. She received a cut down her shoulder and back for her carelessness. She just growled, as if it wasn't a big deal but she stopped using her right arm as much, seeing as that was the arm that was injured.
He sent all of his hair at once at her. She stood there like a frightened animal before Tyki grabbed her and moved her out of the way. The pair tumbled to the ground. Tyki wasn't hurt, but he had some dust on him. Fae's wound got covered in dust but other than that she just seemed shocked. She looked at Tyki who looked away. Jasdevi glanced at Raina who was looking just as shocked.
She looked at him and from her look he guessed he'd be in a bit of trouble for the last stunt if they survived. If? He scoffed to himself We will survive. There was no if about it. He would make sure they survived this. The best way would be to get away when they could. He glanced at Tyki and Fae again. They were wrapped up in each other. Tyki seemed to be making sure that she wasn't hurt.
Jasdevi dashed to Raina's side and picked her up. She didn't protest. She deactivated her Innocence and tangled her fingers in his shirt. He started towards the nearest set of trees when a gust of wind tied him up, literally. He couldn't move a inch except to hug Raina closer to him, to hopefully protect her.
"Bastard" hissed Fae. He turned his head a little to see her approaching. Boy did she look mad. "You could have killed me!" Her words weren't loud, they were soft, but even more dangerous than if she had screamed them.
Fuck he thought. He quickly imagined a star to block her from getting any closer and as he did the wind cut off. He jumped, meaning to go into a tree but Tyki, who seemed to appear out of no where, grabbed his foot and slammed him into the ground. He heard something crack and he was quick to look at Raina. Her hand was bleeding. He wondered for a moment how that happened until a tree branch fell to the ground next to them. She had tried to hold on to the tree branch....Which would have mad him laugh if the situation wasn't so grim.
"Go" he pushed her away and got to his feet to face Tyki and Fae.
"I'm not leaving you" she said, taking her place by his side.
"You guys are so touching that it makes me sick" commented Fae. "You're just...just..." She shook her head as she was unable to find the words. "Jasdevi, you are part of the Clan of Noah! You have better taste than this...Exorcist!"
"Better tastes? Do you want to speak about better tastes my dear sister?" Raina cut in. "Your tastes in a lot of things is warped!"
"Shut up!" Fae shrieked back. "Your don't know anything about me anymore Raina! Don't pretend you do! You've been away for five years! You don't know anything anymore!" She was breathing heavier now and the wind was dancing around her. Her golden eyes were practically glowing.
Raina just returned the glare at her sister. Her violet eyes simmering with their own anger. Then without warning Fae attacked Raina with a huge gust of air. Within a second, Raina's Innocence was activated and she was throwing the attack aside. She ran at her sister, jumping into he air before she was too close to her.
"Wolf's Claw!" Her armor shifted but Jasdevi didn't get to see anymore because Tyki attacked him again.
"I feel better fighting you myself" he said as he slashed at Jasdevi's chest.
"Oh? Whys that?" he asked, pretending to be interested. He caught Tyki's arm with his hair before Tyki phased through it and slashed at his face. Jasdevi was able to dodge it but almost lost his balance.
"Because she's not a very good fighter yet. But don't tell her I told you that"
"Oh don't worry I won't" He tried to get Tyki once again with his hair but Tyki just phased through it. His phasing through everything was starting to get rather annoying. Tyki was rather annoying to Jasdevi in general, but that wasn't a thought that went well with the current battle.
Raina was very wrapped up in her battle with her sister. She was strong and very quick because of the wind. It was hard to keep a tab on her, to dodger her blows. Her armor protected her, for the most part. A few times now Fae had cut through the armor, or she had blown her air between the tiny cracks in the plates. She knew she had some minor cuts on her arms, but didn't let them bother her, she couldn't. She had to keep her head in the fight or risk losing it.
She danced around a blast of air and blocked another. Her sister was grinning, so confident in her victory she was barely paying attention. She couldn't get how her sister could have such horrid form and still preform the way she was. It was more like she was doing a clumsy dance than fighting.
Raina frowned. "Your form is horrid" she commented to her sister. "Didn't anyone ever teach you to fight?" she meant no insult for her question but her sister seemed to take it as one. She thew a gust of air, not to attack but to knock Raina off her feet. Raina blocked it but her sister raced up to her and kicked her in the stomach. She landed on her side. All the air left her body for a moment. She rolled to her stomach to push herself up but her sister jumped onto her back.
She sat down, pulling Raina's arms behind her back. She leaned down so Raina could glance over at her. "Do you want to see horrid?" she asked. Then she sucked in a deep breath and let out a whistling wind. Raina's eyes went to find where the wind would hit. It Jasdevi right in the chest. He fell to the ground but quickly tried to right himself.
Raina heard that time always slowed when something horrible happens, but time seemed to speed up for her.
Jasdevi was almost up in a sitting position when Tyki jumped out of nowhere and shoved him back down. Then without warning and without hesitation, Tyki shoved his weapon through Jasdevi's chest. Raina saw his blood splatter, but Tyki didn't seem to care. Jasdevi arched up for a moment and then with a choking gurgle fell to the ground and was still.
Raina fell the tears run down her face but could only force herself to whisper "No" She swallowed and waited for Jasdevi to get up. "Devit? Jasdero"
Tyki left his weapon impaled in Jasdevi and turned to look at Raina and Fae. His face was emotionless, but Fae was grinning, maybe at the blood. Raina started to sob, the sobs shaking her body. "No! No! No"
"Face it, Raina" said Fae in a sing-song voice. "Your boyfriend is dead"
She could only cry out in denial, the sobs still shaking her body.
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