Description: Takes place on and after the Veteran's Day kiss.
Disclaimer: I own nothing of That 70's Show, character's Caleb and Ezra are mine…no relation to Pretty Little Liars.
Author's Note: Here's the new story I promised, enjoy and please review.
Indecisive Love:
Chapter#12
(Caleb's pov)
" Still not talking to me?", I inquire before knocking lightly on Jackie's bedroom door. She's ore than a little upset with me currently. Jackie has every right to be too, I was sort of a jerk toward her last night. It wasn't something that I could help though. I'm in love with Jackie, the notion of her with another guy turns me into an insecure asshole. This guy Hyde could be a real threat to me if she's not over him. They may not have dated but Jackie has had a thing for him for a while. How am I supposed to compete with him if she still does? The last thing I want is to lose Jackie to another guy. If I'm not careful though I could lose her to my own stupidity.
" She's still out cold, sorry Caleb. We were up late talking.", admits Ezra with an exhaust sigh. Jackie is curled up in his arms and he's holding her close. What the hell? Why is Ezra cuddled up with Jackie? He knows how much I like her. Is he trying to move in on Jackie? ...No...no! Ezra would not do that to me. He is my brother for christ sake. Of all people, I can trust him. If anything Ezra was probably explaining to Jackie that I'm an idiot and she that shouldn't stay mad at me forever. Still why is he in here though, did she ask him to stay? I know that I shouldn't but I can't help but envy Ezra the slightest bit. He got to have Jackie asleep in his arms all night.
" Jackie asked you to stay?", I question unable to hide the hurt in my voice. It is killing me to see her lying in Ezra's arms. I know that he would never make a move on her, but I want to be the one who gets to hold her. Will I ever get the chance to be that guy? Since we were probably eight I have been in love with Jackie. She's supposed to be my best friend, Ezra and I have known her forever. But I can't help it, she's the one that I want. If Jackie will let me, I want nothing more but the chance to show her I'm the guy she's meant to be with. That isn't asking all that much.
" I asked him to stay, yesterday was hell and I wanted my oldest friend Ezra by my side.", acknowledges Jackie with a sleepy yawn. Watching as she sits up in Ezra's arms, I take a cautious step into her room. She spoke to me, that has to be a good sign at least. If Jackie were still angry with me, I wouldn't be standing here right now. This is my chance to get back on her good graces. All I have to do is not say or do anything stupid and I will be in the clear. Sounds easy enough but I'm not for being a moron at times when it comes to Jackie. It's not something that I can help though, the thought of her another guy makes me do crazy things.
Kicking at the ground sheepishly, I glance down at my hands," Jackie, I just wanted to apologize for the way I acted last night. If you never want to speak with me again, I'll understand."
Standing from her spot in Ezra's arms, Jackie walks over to hug me," Stop being such a drama queen Caleb, it's very unbecoming of you."
" So does this mean you forgive me?", I ask quietly as I stare down at Jackie in my arms. I hold her close against me not wanting to let go. My heart skips a beat when Jackie's eyes finally meet mine and she smiles. Yeah, I'm a goner. I knew that I would be from the start, but I don't care. Jackie is the one that I want to be with and that's all there is to it. Whatever I have to do to prove I'm the right one for her...she's more than worth it. What I wouldn't give to be able to lift her chin and push my lips against hers. The thought of kissing Jackie until her knees go weak and she falls against me is all too appealing.
" We'll see, could you maybe not be such an idiot Caleb?", ponders Jackie with a teasing smile before her lips meet mine. This takes me completely off guard and I stare down at her with a baffled expression. Coming to my senses finally, I push my lips against hers as my arms wrap around her waist. I'm not sure what this means, but I'm not about to over think being able kiss Jackie. I have only wanted to be able to for how long? I'm not sure what this means but right now I don't care. Jackie has yet to push me away and I'm more than thankful that she hasn't.
" Guess I could work on that Jacks.", I promise with a silly grin taking over my features. Allowing Jackie to lean her fore head against mine, I smile down at her. While I don't know what any of this means, I honestly don't care. For once I have Jackie in my arms and that is all that matters. Do I still think Hyde could be a threat to me? I'm not certain but I'm not about to give him the chance to swoop on and snag Jackie from me. What is important right now is that I don't allow myself to ruin a good thing and send her running into any other guys arms. This is my shot to show Jackie how amazing we could be together and I'm not about to blow it.
Clearing his throat loudly, Ezra pushes his way past the both of us," Guess I'll just leave you two be."
Touching a hand to Ezra's arm, Jackie offers a shy smirk," Hey Ezra, thanks for staying with me last night. It meant a lot."
" Anything for you doll face.", confides Ezra with a light shove. He's a good friend to Jackie, always has been. I don't know how I could have ever considered even for a second that he would go behind my back and move in on her. Ezra is my brother, he doesn't have it in him to hurt me that way. I'm glad he was here to cheer Jackie up last night. When we got home, she was more then agitated with me. Jackie wanted nothing to do with me last night. Can't say that I really blame her, at one point I went out of my way to be a jerk. I couldn't shake the notion that she wanted to be with Hyde. Part of me still can't but I know that if I want to be with Jackie, I can't let on how jealous I am of him. ...
