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Chapter 12

Normal POV

Days still passed and Mikan remained the same feeble girl but sometimes she forgets and becomes her usual happy self who makes people suspicious… apparently Ruka and Natsume…

Ruka: Mikan… do you like to go to barn…? We're just going to look at some bunnies…

Mikan: uhhhmmm…hai…

They reached the barn; unknowingly that someone was following them.

Mikan: yey! Bunnies!

Ruka: I'm glad you liked them… they have been my pets since I entered the academy. I go here often to check how they are…

Ruka leans over and pats a bunny. Mikan follows him and pats the bunny beside him.

Ruka: You remember everything now don't you Mikan…?

Mikan: huh…? Besides hmm… Ruka-kun, Hotaru..Narumi-sensei… Anna, Nonoko…oji-san… what else do I need to remember…?

Ruka: oh… igues you don't really remember everything…

Mikan: Gomene Ruka-kun…

Ruka: It's okay…don't force yourself…

Mikan: nee…Ruka-kun… can I have sometime alone…?

Ruka: Okay… Be careful…

Mikan: Hai…

Once Mikan was left alone, she started walking toward the path lined with Sakura trees. She thought about her secret… and how she could still keep it hidden. It's becoming pretty hard for her to control herself from being very happy. She didn't even passed by a single tree when she heard a loud noise from behind her. She looked around but she didn't see anything. She thought that it was just a branch that fell from a tree. She then heard coughing, a severe one… she neared a bush where the sound was coming from and peered. Behind she saw the famous fire-caster, Natsume. He was looking at the ground with one of his hand supporting his body from his fall and another covering his mouth. Small drops of red, which was blood, dripped from his hand. Mikan knew that his suffering was somehow related to the missions and the kind of alice that lessens your lifespan every time it's used.

Mikan's POV

Natsume… Natsume's… Natsume… I have to protect you no matter what! I have to rejoin the missions… There's a reason behind that… and if I join the missions…I will surely… surely… protect you… I need to find persona…

Normal POV

Mikan turned around ready to look for persona…but as clumsy as she was, she tripped over a rock and fell to the ground.

Mikan: ouch… sighs I guess I should be more careful next time… ugh…

Natsume: oi! Baka! Why are you here…? He said trying to hide his coughing

Mikan: Natsume… that's blood isn't it…?

Natsume: What do you care about…? It's none of your business! Go back to where you came from!

Mikan: Natsume… She sobs and runs away…

Mikan's POV (Alternative)

Why is Natsume always like that…? He doesn't care about the feelings of anyone… I was just concerned of him... but why is he mad at me… he didn't need to shout…but…Mikan stopped and clenched her fists… she put her hand close to her heart… Natsume… I can't believe him anymore… I can't even believe myself… why do I keep on pretending who I'm not…? He knows that I still don't remember him but I do… I know it's causing him pain… was I the reason for his suffering…? But… If I tell him… what will happen to Ruka-kun…? I'm sure he'll be sad… it's so hard to choose… if I am really the reason for Natsume's… I should put a stop to it… I'll tell him that I remember… I'll join the missions again… I'll do anything just to protect him…

Natsume's POV (Alternative)

Mikan…she saw me did she…? she really look concerned… but I can't tell her my situation… the fact that she wouldn't even understand… and her new self will be her forever…she won't go back to what she used to be…and of course…that side of her is in love with Ruka… it's a good thing that I'll be gone from this Academy tomorrow…I'll be leaving the world for good… and I should be happy that Ruka will have a happy ending and Mikan will have no loss even with me gone… but just now…she cried… maybe she did really…