I woke up to the sound of what sounded like a horn going off. After a few seconds of the noise obnoxiously going on, I remembered it was Monday. It was my alarm and not a horn. I opened my eyes and was face to chest with Isaac. I wasn't just face to chest with him. I found myself entangled with all of him. Our legs were all wrapped together, he had a tight hold on me, and I was laying my head on his chest. I looked over at my alarm, glaring because it was so far away. It was right next to Isaac's ear! How did he not hear this? I had to wiggle for about a minute or so to get an arm free enough to just reach over him. I was grunted and sighing, the noise of a girl desperately trying to shut the sound of reality up. I finally reached the button on the top of the alarm clock, but it wasn't the button to turn it off. It was the button to turn the radio on. So some random loud guy's voice rang through my entire room.
I felt Isaac's chest move with his laughter. "Have you been awake this whole time?" I asked him accusingly. He reached over and pushed the right button for me and then silence was replaced in it's rightful place in my room. He didn't take his arm from around me, and I didn't ask him to. I motioned to our still entangled bodies and looked up at him. "You said you would just hold me." I saw a grin creep across his face.
"I told you that I would behave myself, I didn't say anything about not letting you cuddle up next to me." He squeezed me into his side. "You need to get up. You have school in an hour." I kept my eyes closed and I actually cuddled up closer to him. He was just so warm and comfy, and I didn't feel like going to school really. I don't know how I am going to sit through each class with Stiles, knowing he hates me.
I felt Isaac's hand snake under my ribs and I tensed up. "What are you doing?..." Then for his answer he began tickling me, and I shot up trying to get in the fetal position so he couldn't get to my ribs. I ended up just becoming even more tangled up with his legs and arms. I was overtaken by a fit of uncontrollable laughter.
"You wouldn't get up, so I had to do something." He said as he pinned me against the bed. He had my wrist on either side of my head, and he was sitting on top of me. I was forced to do nothing but stare up at his eyes. I was still smiling from laughing so hard, and neither one of us spoke, just stared at one another. "I'm glad that you are smiling, I was beginning to wonder if you knew how." He still had me pinned and he was laughing softly, then I noticed a change in his expression. The hunger that we felt the past two days, filled his eyes. I could sense him fighting the fact that he wanted to kiss me. I took advantage of his moment of weakness and flipped him over on his back. He was in only his boxers, and from this position I could appreciate the shape he kept his body in.
There are some people in this world, that you don't really think are the most attractive people in the world. Not saying that Isaac wasn't attractive, but he didn't have the body of Scott, or Derek. He was much leaner, and now that I had the perfect view, I'd say leaner is better. The longer I looked at him, the stronger that heat and fire burned within me. I had him in the same position that he had me in just moments ago. I removed one of my hands from his wrist to feel the stone like features of his abs. Still neither one of us spoke. As soon as my hand made contact with his skin, the fire was too much to fight.
I bent down and began placing light kisses on his neck. I maid a trail from the hollow part of his collar bone, all the way up his throat, along his jaw, until I was at the corner of his lips. When he spoke, his voice was horse, and scratchy. "Uhh.. Pillar?" Since he decided to speak, making it difficult to kiss his lips, I just backtracked my trail and was now making my way to his chest. "Not trying to say this isn't...um...enjoyable. But...I thought that...you didn't want to give in to...this.?" I no longer has hold of his wrist and I noticed that he had my sheets fisted in his hands. His words woke me up slightly and only slightly. I don't know if if was the fact that we were in a bed, every inch of our bodies touching, tangled in sheets, and our bond pulling with all the force of the world, or if I just didin't care anymore. But I wanted to give into it. I wanted to forget about the rest of the world and just focus on Isaac.
I didn't answer his question. I just continued my path of kisses down his body, until I reached the rim of his boxers. I felt hands on my shoulders, pulling me up. I looked up and Isaac was now sitting against my headboard, and I sighed. I crawled back up to him, to sit on his lap. "Why are you stopping this?" I saw the gulp of air go down his throat as he thought about what to say.
"Pillar, you have been the one to stop everything before. You were shot last night with an arrow, your boyfriend found out you were a werewolf, and now you are just trying to find a way to feel better. I don't want to be the temporary happiness. I know that the only reason why you are even doing this is because we are binded some way. You'll regret this when you come back to reality." He picked me up and sat me down beside him. "I won't allow this to happen. As much as I want it." His face turned more serious. "You must believe that I want you. But Derek is just a few rooms down the hall. You like Stiles, and even though you aren't together right now, you will be. And you want this fixed. This won't fix it." He pulled on his pants and shirt and I just sat down on my bed, pouting. No guy wanted me. "Why do you look so sad?" He asked as he sat on the edge of my bed putting on his shoes.
"It's just funny. I don't ever get into relationships because stuff like last night happens. When I do, well last night happened. He doesn't even want to talk to me. I am some how sexually bounded to a guy, and he pushes for me to just let it happen for weeks. When I finally decide to give in, he doesn't want to." I had got up off my bed and walked over to my closet. I turned to say something else but was crushed with a kiss that proved all my previous statements about Isaac wrong. So very wrong. He back me up against my wall, and he kissed me with a passion that I had only read about it books.
He pulled away and looked me in the eyes. "Don't you ever think that I don't want you. The problem isn't that at all." He pushed himself away from me and walked over to the other side of the room to retrieve his jacket.
"Then what is the problem? Because I am terribly confused." I challenged him.
He turned to me and then stepped in front of me. "The problem is that you don't know what you want. You think you want a guy like Stiles. Because he's nice and safe. You don't think he will hurt you. You think that you only want me because some kind of force is pushing us to want each other. The problem is that, I don't care what that force is, because when I am around you, I know what I want. It's clear for me. I am pretty sure even if there wasn't some unknown force pushing us together that I would still want you. If I had allowed that to continue." He pointed to the bed. "Then you would have resented me for it. I don't want you to look at me badly in any sort of way. I am perfectly okay with waiting for you to realize that you can't fix this. It is what it is." He walked over to my window and jumped down. I poked my head out the window and looked down at him. He looked back up at me and smiled. "By the way, you talk in your sleep. It's quite adorable." He winked and then he was in his car, pulling out of my driveway.
I threw my shirt into my hamper with more force than necessary. Stupid guys. I mean really, what kind of guy pushes for something, then once he has it, he pushes it away. That makes no sense. It's ridiculous. Then the one guy that I knew I could have, doesn't want to speak to me because he found out I was a werewolf. Not even a full werewolf, part werewolf. His best friend is werewolf, hell his best friend was a beta. He hangs out with an entire pack of werewolves, and according to Derek, he was practically a part of the pack. So what is the big deal with me being part werewolf?
"It's not the fact that you are a werewolf, it's the fact that you lied to him. And that he is now literally the only one that doesn't have a direct connection with something supernatural. He's not a werewolf, hunter, or whatever Lydia is. So he feels alone. Then he met you," Derek appeared at my door. I didn't even hear him coming.
"I didn't even realize I had been talking out loud." Then I remembered what I was saying at the beginning of my rant. I turned to face Derek as I pulled the shirt on over my head. "How long have you been standing there?" If he heard me talking about Isaac then that wouldn't be very good.
"Long enough to know that Stiles isn't your only problem." He walked over and sat in my computer chair. I pulled out my hair brush and continued getting ready while he went back to talking. "I guess you found out about the halfling curse then." He looked at me with a sympathetic expression. I looked back at him with a shocked and confused expression.
"What do you mean? Halfling curse?" Mrs. Deaton didn't say anything about a curse.
He looked up at me and I continued to get ready. "I didn't know if it was true or not. My mom used to tell me and Laura this story of a girl who was half werewolf."
"Like me." I interrupted him, kind of talking to myself.
He nodded his head. "Like you. There's something about being half werewolf and half human that messes with things. You know that werewolves mate right?" He asked me, but he already knew I did. I shook my head yes, and he continued. "Well, the thing with halflings is apparently their blood causes them to be binded to another wolf. A full werewolf. But not an alpha, it could never be an alpha. The tricky thing is that the werewolf that the halfling is binded to has to be bitten by someone who share her bloodline. That's where the binding comes in. Mom always referred to it as the blood that binds a pack together. This bind or bond, or whatever you want to call it. It is what will allow our bloodline to continue." I was now sitting on the bed. Deaton's mom didn't explain things like this.
"But you are a full werewolf, and you are the alpha, wouldn't you just continue the bloodline." He shook his head yes and then I just became even more confused.
"Yes, but the thing is with the halfling, no matter who she mates with. The baby is a guarantee full werewolf by blood. The bloodline will continue through that alone." That makes some sense.
"Is there a way to break the bind or bond or whatever?" I had to know. If there wasn't then I was going to be in deep shit. And even if there was, did I really want to break it now?
"I hate to break it to you Caterpillar, but I was never told of a way to break it. But I was told that, the bond could only form between the two people if they had a future together. It wouldn't make sense if they didn't like each other."
"But how does it know to bind us if we don't even know if we had a future together. It makes no sense." It didn't
"Something to do with you hormones I guess. I don't know. I am just telling you the story mom always told us. Isaac is a lucky guy. He cared about you even before you warmed up to him you know?" I looked over at my cousin and raised an eyebrow, prompting him to continue.
"He watched after you, voluntarily. He didn't want Erica or Boyd to do it, because they wouldn't care enough to do it right. The bind doesn't form fake feelings Caterpillar." He stood up and walked towards me door and paused before he exited my room. "It enhances them. They were already there, the bind is just bringing them to the surface so you can't ignore them."
I sat there and contemplated everything that Derek just told me. This changes everything. But if I don't tell him, then he wouldn't know. I could just pretend that I have no idea what is really going on.
Hey guys! This is a very short chapter and I am so sorry, but there was a lot that happened, and I didn't want to put too much in one chapter. I will update again this week to make up for only giving you guys basically half of my normal chapter. PM me if you have any suggestions. Review if you liked it, or hated it. I accept all feedback. To my loyal readers, you know who you are, I love you. Thanks for all your support. To the girl who left me a review last night, it wouldn't let me respond to you, but thank you so much! It was a lovely review. Hope you all enjoy!
