Chapter 11
Sorry
James left her room, closing the door behind himself. He entered his room and sat at his desk and began staring blankly into space. He hated it when she was angry at him, if he wanted her this much he would have to change, but how? He thought.
Lily got ready for bed and got under the covers, though sleep didn't come easily to her. She laid on her back looking up at the ceiling not thinking of anything particular. Time had passed and lily glanced to her clock it read two thirty.
"Crap," lily said to herself. She couldn't sleep and she doubted she would anytime soon. Lily rose out of bed and wrapped herself in her silk robe. She grabbed her wand and walked to her door. Opening it slowly she looked out into the small corridor and noticed James's lights to be still on. What could he be doing at this hour? She thought. She then turned her attention to the staircase and began to descend. Stepping off the last step she quietly went over to the crackling fire place. She sat down on the couch and stared aimlessly into the fire.
In the far corner James watched as Lily came down the stairs and sat on the couch. He wasn't sure if he should make himself present but he figured it didn't matter she'd get angry anyway.
"Aahem," he spoke causing Lily to shoot up from the couch. Lily looked to him in surprise.
-You scared me- she signed furiously. James stood up from his chair slowly,
-Sorry-.James looked around and then back to Lily though she had turned away glancing back to the roaring fire. James walked over and stood next to her.
-Couldn't sleep?- he signed once she cought the sight of him. Lily looked to him and shook her head.
-You?- He shook his head. Lily sighed and sat back down on the couch. She looked into the fire and looked up to James who was still standing.
-I'm sorry for getting mad, earlier, I just hate it when you do stuff like that,-
James frowned and sat down next to her,
-But they deserved it and I know you know they did- -They just piss the hell out of me and especially when they bother you- he signed.
Lily nodded slowly. Hand motion ceased for several moments. Lily looked back to the fire and then to James whom was staring out into space, she realized he was clad only in his black boxers and a thin tank top whilst she was only in her camisole, underwear and thin robe. This is awkward she thought looking away. James turned his attention back to Lily, seeing her out of the corner of his eye she looked a bit odd, she had turned away abruptly perhaps she was looking at me, he thought. James tapped her thigh with his index finger and began to sign.
-It's okay, you had good reason to get mad- - It's funny I suppose, you know, how we've never been on the right foot, yet we both have the same disability which sort of, in a way, connects us, you're the first person I know to be deaf in the wizarding world,-
Lily nodded
-Same with you, I didn't think wizards or witches could become deaf I suppose I thought there was a cure or charm which could heal it. -James shrugged.
–Nope there isn't-
Their hand motions stopped once again leaving them in total silence. Lily looked to the ground not knowing what to sign or think of. She looked back to James to only find him staring at her intensely. Lily's eyes locked on his unable to turn away as hard as she tried she couldn't.
James looked intently into Lily's eyes which glowed with the radiant warmth and light from the fire, shadows from the fire cast upon her face and danced. He could see her nerves beginning to rise with the flush of red in her cheeks yet she didn't turn away.
Slowly James began to move in a bit closer to Lily not removing his eyes from hers. Lily sensed his movements and desperately wanted to get out right then and there and return to her room but something made her stay.
Run now, she thought, get up and go forget this happened; he's leading you on, she thought. James came closer and Lily soon found herself moving inch by inch nearer to James, but then something hit her, her mind was telling her no, yet her heart said yes. Listening to her logic she looked away abruptly, getting up quickly and looking to James in embarrassment.
James saw her get up, confusion on his face, damnit he thought, why did I do that? Shit. He looked to Lily questioning.
-Sorry- Lily signed as she stepped back – I can't do this- she signed quickly walking back to her room. James got up from the couch and took hold of Lily's right fore arm, Lily turned around and was now facing James, she could see his hurt and confusion, she shook her head. James seeing that it was probably better to let her go he did and he watched her as she climbed the stairs.
Shit he thought. James turned around raising his arms above his head and resting his hands on the back of his head sighing deeply, he had blown it.
Lily shut the door to her room behind her and she fell onto her bed, completely scared of what could of happened and what happened, she had let herself get close to him, really close. According to her she wasn't supposed to do that, get close to the only boy whom has annoyed her and …. That was it, that's all he had done, she thought. Lily sat up in thought. "That's all he had done" she said to her self in her mind. He had never once hurt me, he had never one called me names, he had never once made fun or teased me all he did was just . . . be there. She thought. She looked to the door then to her clock it was three thirty five in the morning. Sleep she thought and left her thought about James to the side, she got into bed and went to sleep. Thankfully this time she fell asleep.
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