Author's Note: Thank you guys for sticking with me. It's been a couple a days since I've posted so I apologize. I have school and things came up. Anyway here's the chapter I was working on. Same deal is always up for grabs. I hope you enjoy!
(Jordi's POV)
"She's all clear to visit. Just please, be careful with her." Dr. McAndrew said.
Emma, Leo, Kara, Dash, and I were all standing outside Livia's door getting this lecture. I wasn't paying attention though. All I could think about was her. I wanted to hold her and tell her how much I cared. To kiss her and feel the way I only did with her. I wasn't allowed to though. Livia was scarred, and touching wouldn't be good for her.
"So, can I go first?" Emma asks.
"Um… sure… yea I guess so. I want to go second though." I state.
I see Emma open Livia's door carefully and walk in. She closes the door behind her walks over to the window. She looks at everyone and smiles and closes the blinds. We couldn't see into the room, and she couldn't see out. I didn't care though. I just wanted Emma out, so I could see Livia.
(Emma's POV)
She laid there fragile and weak. I walk over to the side of the bed and look down at her. She was bruised heavily. Scratch marks and bruises still lingered on her skin. She was doing much better than everyone thought though. Everyone was convinced she wouldn't make it. Nurse Jackson told us her will to live was stronger than anyone else she has ever known. Livia wasn't awake though. Her eyes were closed in a deep sleep.
"Hey Livia." I say pulling a chair to the side of the bed.
I look down at her and my eyes well up. How did this happen? How come Livia has to go through this? How come life is so unfair!
"You know, everyone is worrying about you. I know you hate it when people worry about you though. It's been two days since the accident. We weren't allowed to come visit you. You missed it, your grandparents came to visit with your brothers and sisters." I say taking her hand in my own.
I look up and around the room. Livia and I use to come in here and just read. I could always talk to her about my eating disorder. She understood, she wouldn't beg me to eat. She knew that doesn't help. She just listened and offered advice. She's always been there for me. I'm realizing now I never let her talk about her own problems. I never push to see if she's okay. I promise from now on I will.
"I need you better Livia. I miss my friend. My best friend." I say with tears streaming down my face. "I know I should listen to you more. I should make sure you're okay. I promise I will. Just please, get better."
I watch my tears hit the blankets of her bed. She doesn't make any movements. I can see her chest rising and falling in a pattern. I think about how it's a blessing she's alive and okay. I grip her hand tighter.
"It's hard Livia. It's so hard seeing you like this. It really is." I let the tears fall freely tired of having to act strong. " I can't imagine how you feel right now. Jordi's going crazy without you." I laugh. "He feels like its his fault. You know you two are really good together. He deserves you and you deserve him. He's probably gonna kill me for getting to visit you first. I should go though. I promise to come visit you. Please get better Livia."
I watch her for a moment, almost expecting a response. I give her hand a squeeze and move to get up. I see her eyes flutter and I get excited. Nothing happens though. I walk to the window and open the blinds back open. I see everyone's eyes peering on me. I shake my head and make my way over to the door. I look back at Livia and let out a small smile.
"It's hard, but we'll get through this Livia."
With that I walk out and make my way over back to the group. Jordi meets me halfway looking anxious.
"How was she?!"
"She was just sleeping Jordi. She didn't hear me, I just talked to her. You can still see the marks he left though."
He looks down at his feet. Mentioning him always made Jordi mad or upset.
"I'm going in."
I step in front of him trying to stop him.
"Jordi, I don't think that's a good idea. You'll make yourself too worked up."
He looks me in the eyes. He looks angry at the idea.
"Don't tell me I can't go see her! I have to!
He pushes past me and walks through the door slamming it behind him. He walks over to the window and draws the curtains.
"He loves her…" Leo says looking over at me.
"Liv doesn't need that right now." Dash states.
"Yes she does, she needs him." Kara objects.
I look at the window realizing they're both behind the glass, broken in some way.
"No, they need each other." I say.
Everyone looks at me and I walk over to Leo. I take his hand and give it a squeeze. Kara comes up behind me and in a silence we both leave. I already know where we're all heading. Leo and Dash follow close behind. We take the elevator up to the roof. In a way, we were with Livia, this was her favorite spot.
(Jordi's POV)
I stand over Livia. I don't want to believe she's hurt. I want her to be okay. I take her in my own comparing hers to mine. Her hand is much smaller than mine, looking delicate in my own hands.
"Livia, I really need you to wake up." I say.
I watch her for a few minutes. I see her eyes flutter and then I see her gray eyes staring back at me. I let a smile break across my face.
"Hey Jordi." She says.
My heart races and I want to hold her and never let her go. The way she says my name makes me excited.
"Livia!"
(Livia's POV)
I see Jordi standing over me with my hand in his. My first reaction was to yank my hand away, but then I remembered it was Jordi.
"Hi Jordi." I say sleepily.
"Livia!"
He looks like he's about to jump on my bed out of excitement. I can see him hesitate though. I can only imagine how many things people have told him.
"Jordi, look, I'm fine. Please don't baby me. That's the last thing I need."
I get up out of bed and twirl around in a circle showing him I'm ok. He stays his distance, I can see his eyes lingering over my body. The marks are clearly visible. He almost looks upset. I know why, he feels it's his fault. I hated what happened to me. It haunts me, but Jordi makes it better for me. Feeling his touch makes me forget Luke's. I walk over to Jordi grabbing his hand.
"I'm okay Jordi, feel..."
I take his hand and place it over my heart. My heart has a regular beat, almost calm. He looks at me in the eyes almost like I'm lying.
"Livia...I can't begin to tell you..."
I motion for him to stop.
"Jordi, I don't want to talk about what ifs. I just want you to be here for me."
His hand still stays over my heart as he moves closer to me, filling in the space between us. My heartbeat goes faster and he notices.
"So, I make you nervous?" He asks.
"I guess I can't help it around you."
He moves his hands down to my hips and I shudder. I look him in the eyes trying not to cry out. I'm bruised all over and it's painful not only physically but emotionally to be touched. I refuse to let Luke rule me though. He wouldn't take away the one thing I cared about. He wouldn't take away Jordi. I move my hands to the back of his neck and pull him in closer to me. Right before our lips are about to touch, I let out a laugh.
"What's so funny?" Jordi asks.
"I never thought it'd be so hard."
"So hard for what?"
I look at him, into his deep brown eyes.
"To try to fight something that you can't."
I pull him towards me and I feel our lips connect. We stay like this for a while until I break away. I let out a yawn, trying to cover up my tiredness.
"You tired Livia."
"No, where'd you get that from?" I flirt.
"Come on Livia."
He scoops me up bridal style and I giggle. He places me on my bed and I know he's about to leave. I don't want him though too. The dreams become my reality at night and it's too hard to face alone all night.
"Jordi... will you please... stay...with me for the night." I ask nervously.
Without answer Jordi slides into the bed next to me. His warmth radiates and I feel protected. He wraps his arms around me as we face each other.
"Now just go to sleep. I'll be here if you wake up."
I bury my face in Jordi's chest and let his warmth envelope me. I'm terrified to go to sleep. Jordi rubs the small of my back and sings softly to me. Soon I'm into the slumber I tried so hard to never face.
"You think he could ever love you! YOU"RE WRONG!" Luke glares at me.
"No, Jordi's not like you! He cares!"
"No Livia, he only wants you for your looks. Once you get to crazy he'll leave you."
I shake my head at him.
"You're wrong."
"Am I?"
Luke runs over to me and tackles me to the ground. He's clawing at my neck, trying to grab something.
"STOP!"
He rips something off my neck, it looks like a necklace. I've never seen it before.
"There, I've taken everything away from you now. Your hope, innocence, now the only thing you care about."
I feel a weight being pressed on my chest and I see Jordi looking down at me.
"Jordi help!"
He shakes his head at me leaving me alone with Luke. Luke laughs as Jordi takes his side. Jordi's eyes go blank.
"AH!" I yell out.
I look around realizing I'm still next to Jordi. I let out a sigh of relief and try to relax. I lay in his arms trying to convince myself he cared. Why else would he be here?
"Jordi, I love you." I mumble into his chest. "Please, don't hurt me."
I watch his chest move up and down and hear his even breathing. He's asleep, he wouldn't hear me. I've wanted to get it off my chest.
"I love you Jordi. I love you. I can't tell you though, but it's too hard to try to fight the feeling away." I speak again.
I feel Jordi shift on the bed and my heart stops. What if he heard me?! I listen, but his breaths are still even and he's still asleep. I push my way closer to him and try to sleep again.
(Jordi's POV)
I wake in the middle of the night to make sure she's okay. I hear her mumbling something.
"I can't tell you though, but it's too hard..."
It's all I can make out and I pretend to stay asleep hoping for her to say something else. She relaxes and falls back asleep in my arms. I wait a while longer to make sure she's asleep. I kiss the top of her head and lean over to look at her face. She's looks perfect when she's asleep.
"I love you Livia." I whisper into her hair.
I pull her in closer to me so I can feel her body pressed against mine. I listen to her breathing and soon it soothes me to sleep too.
