Save Me (Muse)
Chapter 12
Raven's POV
The preparation for the party was treacherous; my mom did everything but the whole time I felt like some big Raven doll. As I looked in the mirror as this beautiful girl was being sculpted straight of the red carpet, straight from an airbrushed magazine ad, I felt less and less like me. I sat there blankly as my mom pulled the long cocktail dress over me and the silky fabric hugged my curves. The she straightened my hair in to a long black water fall of black, silky hair, and then finally curled the front slightly, for effect. Then she did my makeup. She didn't plaster on the foundation or eyeliner like I would have, no she put a very conservative amount on and then put a dark blue eye shadow on to match my dress and then curled and massacred my eyelashes. I just felt helpless. The only touch of me I could add was my Corpse Bride clutch purse and a few blue hair extension pieces. That's all, and even that was drawing the line a bit, if I could just hide the cover of my clutch purse then maybe Trevor wouldn't get all upset…I was really getting tired of all this black mailing, I really didn't need to hear his ego.
After I was finally ready my mother forbid me from eating drinking or even coming 10 feet of anything messy, which include my room because everything was covered in cat fur.
I sighed as I sat in the living room and stared blankly at the TV as it played random News stories. I fiddle with my purse and found my phone. I felt so…wrong, doing all this, I wanted to ask Becky for help, but I didn't know what to say, for years she has looked up to me, as a strong confident role model, but now? I was taking shit from the one guy who I promised her I would never let get to me. I couldn't let her see me like this. It was me that gave her the confidence to be with Matt, seeing me being Trevor's slave girl would be like…Nerd boy reading a comic where Superman was Batman's bitch…okay so maybe that isn't the bet comparison but I don't read comics, the closest I get is reading manga and watching anime. I just, I just couldn't face Becky, I didn't want to see her disappointed in me, she was my best friend, she gave me my confidence, I wanted her to look up to me, I didn't want her to be disappointed in me. I didn't know what to do. I was completely lost.
It seemed an eternity before Trevor finally arrived. I groaned as he walked into my house holding himself as if he belonged here, as if he came here all the time. I swear if my parents really knew the whole reason of why I had dumped Alexander for Trevor they would even let him even 50 yards near the house let alone in it. Yet here he was, standing in my living room, looking me over with a huge smile on his face and hunger in his eyes, it made me sick.
"You ready to go baby?" he asked. I stiffened. Baby, sine when was I baby? He always just considered me as some monster girl! My mom smiled at Trevor.
"Yup, she is all glittered and glam-ed up, all ready for the party~!"My mom said happily. I groaned.
"Perfect," Trevor said as he held his arm out for me. I stood up and walked right past him holding my Corpse Bride clutch purse tightly in my hand. I thought I heard him chuckle behind me but I paid it no attention. I walked out and froze for a minute as I saw his car. A red 2013 Camry… it through me off for a minute, I had been so used to seeing a black Mercedes out in front this very sleek and cool looking car sitting out front seemed almost wrong. I'd never had the chance to ride in a car like this but I would be lying if I said it wasn't awesome. It reminded me just how far we had come with technology. There was a touch screen in the car! Who needed knobs to change the radio (which there was but who cared) I was going to use the touch screen, or maybe I would plug in my IPod or even use Pandora, ah the options were limitless! If I wanted to I could lie back on the smooth leather seats and call Becky with the hands free feature and talk to through the car itself it was so amazing. I felt myself get all excited and geek out, I looked around the car excitedly when I got Trevor's gaze and I was reminded just who's car this was. I sat back against the seat, now uninterested.
"Having fun?" Trevor asked smiling at me. I said nothing; I just kept my gaze forward. He just kept smiling and leaned in towards me. It was when I felt his breath of my neck that I finally jumped back. I blushed more with surprise than actual attraction and pressed my back against the door.
"What the fuck are you doing?!" I gasped, he just smiled. I knew that smile. I saw him use it often at the club that was his "I'm going to get lucky with you" smile.
"I'm getting close to my girlfriend, I'm pretty sure that is allowed," he said. As he puckered his lips and leaned towards my face.
"Ah! Get off me you jerk!" I screamed pushing him.
He blinked and then his eyes were filled with anger. "We had a deal," he said. I looked up at him.
"Yeah, the deal was that I would be your girlfriend and you wouldn't tell Alexander, you said nothing about kissing and stuff," I told him.
"I'm sure even unromantic you know that all that is incorporated in the whole girlfriend title. I'm not going to have a girlfriend that I can't have any fun with! Listen, I know you think of this as a terrible punishment for your mistake but I am telling you that you are wrong. The truth is that I fell in love with you Raven, and I know this black mail and all bad and whatever but I don't care, this at least gives me a fighting chance with you. So for once in your life why don't you try thinking outside of you little Goth box and be opened mindedly dammit!" He shouted as he grabbed my face and kissed me.
The funny thing I guess is that I have actually thought about what kissing him would be like. Not because of attraction but I guess to see how he got all these girls he seemed to always be with. I mean sure he was good looking and a star sports player for the school, but still, there had to be some sort of attraction beyond that. I imagined his lips to be very soft and his breath to be sweet, but not an alluring sweet that Alexander seemed to h imagined him to be very skilled and confident and take control. Which he was, but I suppose to force someone into a kiss you had to be confident and take control, but there was still something off about it all. Don't get me wrong the kisses were really good, his practice showed, but at the same time, it didn't seem like the belonged to me. He kissed me with other kisses. I kissed him back as I suppose I am obligated to do with this whole agreement but it was all halfhearted and yet, when he pulled away, he had a huge smile on his face like he couldn't tell one bit, his lips were a slight crimson color from my lipstick but I didn't say anything. He sat back in the driver's seat and turned the key to start it.
"That's more like it," he said as he began to drive.
I sat there in the passenger seat and just looked out the window and thought about my dream last night. Those were real firework I felt…and I missed them desperately.
Alexander's POV
"I kissed her," I told him. "Last night, I was giving her a ride home, she tripped and her lip was bleeding and I kissed her."
Sebastian blinked. "Wait, what, you kissed who?" he asked as he looked over at me. I sat next to him on the bar stool.
"Raven, last night, I kissed her," I said again.
"Wait, Raven who?" he asked.
I rolled my eyes. "Raven Madison, who else would I be talking about?" I asked. He looked at me.
"Raven Madison, as in the Raven, THEE Raven?" he asked.
"Yes," I groaned. Why was he suddenly acting so stupid?! Who else could I ever be talking about other than the dark Goddess who broke my heart?
"What, how, where, when, why?" He asked in a flood of questions.
"Dude, I swear if you ask who I will punch," I told him.
"Just tell me about it," he said. "Everything!"
"Well I pretty much already did, she was at the club, Trevor left her, so when closing time came and she was all alone, I offered to drive her home, we were walking to the car when she tripped bit her lip, I looked at her and caught her so she didn't fall. Her face was against my chest and she was so warm, then she looked up at me and I could see and smell the blood, I couldn't help myself I leaned into lick the blood off. I kissed her and sucked the blood off of her rose petal lips, and…she kissed me back. After the kiss ended I drove her home and that was that," I told him.
"So…does this mean you two are back together?" Sebastian asked. I looked at him and thought for a moment. I really didn't know…I mean…she was going on about a dream, did that mean that she may not even know about this whole situation. She could have thought it was all just a dream, but if that was the case did that mean she still had secret feelings of me.
"I don't know,' I said answering both Sebastian and myself.
Raven's POV
I left the country club and stood out in the front filled with boredom. I was seriously only here as arm candy! I was allowed to wander around for a little bit, but as soon as Trevor saw someone he knew or needed to impress I wasn't allowed to leave his side. I was finally able to sneak away when Trevor and a college recruiter went into a long conversation about sports and crap like that. I wished Becky was here; at least I would have someone to talk to. At first I had wondered if Matt was here but then I remembered that this was about Trevor, ever since his friendship with Matt ended he would do anything he could to get the upper hand over him, he wanted to get into the good colleges and he wouldn't let Matt into this college sport party until he scooped up the best college in the room. I missed Becky but then again I would never ever want her to see me with Trevor so I guess this was the best. I stared up at the stars bored out of my mind when suddenly my phone buzzed. I figured it was Trevor demanding that I come back in and accompany him. I rolled my eyes but then was surprised to find it was from someone else.
Alexander
Hey, it's me, I was wondering if maybe you want to go out tonight? Read the text message. I blushed. Was this real? I quickly texted back, trying my hardest not to show how much he affected me,
Sure, but only if you bring me scissors and eyeliner, I'm outside of the country club
I waited a minute and then my phone buzzed again.
Sure, it's a date ;)
When I read the message I squeed so hard and happily that I am sure the whole town could hear me.
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