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Me: What. Is. That?! *Pointing at a furry ball with fangs and blood dripping out of its mouth?*
Emmett: That? *points at the thing*
Me: *nods*
Emmett: That's my new pet, cuddles. * he walks towards it and it hissed at him*
Me: Em? What is that thing? And did it just hissed at you? Why is it here, in my room? And why is it twitching like that *I asked walking away from it as far as possible, without startling it*
Emmett: Its a squrriel, vampire squirrel, it did just hissed at me, I had to hide somewhere, and its thristy, that's why its twitching. *He said calmed*
Me: If I say that twilight doesn't belong to me will you get that thing out of here?
Emmett: maybe.....
Me: I don't own a thing!!! Now get that thing out of here before it aims for my neck.
Emmett: Oh! You're no fun. *Walks out of the room with his vampire squirrel thingy*
Chapter 11: Messing with some vampires heads.
BPOV:
I Know that I was going to hurt so much, but it would be so worthy in the end, right? They would understand what I felt, How I feel. They would pay, for their lies, for the pain, for the heartache, for making me believe that I was part of their family, that I finally belonged.
Today was going to be hell. That I knew, today is going to be the day when I finally face them, even if Ray is there in all of my classes, they would try to make me talk to them, ,they would try to make me feel comfortable around them, because thanks to a vision I had last night during Mine and Ray's 'play' time I knew that Alice and Jasper had Edward know what happened at the forrest, and he would fill in the rest of them, after annoying them by having a very heated silent conversation with Alice.
-" Are you sure you want to go with this 'plan'?" Raysa asked me while coming out of the closet already dress for school.
-" Yes, don't worry," I told her wrapping my arms around her waist. " I'm going to be fine, I will have some fun, wasn't that what you wanted of me?" I asked her after listening to her worried thoughts.
-" I just don't want you to be in more pain, I just don't want you to close up again, and leave us out," she said snoozing into my neck.
-" I'll be fine, I promise you, I won't close up, even more I'll open up more, I feel like there's going to be a mayor change around here," I told her remembering the vision I had while being semi-concious.
-" What did you see?" she asked catching on, on what I wasn't saying.
-" You'll find out, eventually," I said letting go of her waist, and running out of the room to meet Ferdi and Lehana at the front door, waiting for us to get down so that we could go to school, Raysa came chasing after me, screaming "COME BACK HERE!!!" and I hid behing Lehana.
-" What did you do, Misha?" Ferdi chuckled, " What did you hid from her, this time?" he asked amused as I hid behind Lehana, and Lehana wouldn't let Raysa get to me.
-" Nothing, I swear," I said scared, she might look like a 13 year old, but she can get inside your head, literally, and really mess you up, she can be so scary.
-" Just let me see and I'll leave you alone," she said still trying to get pass Lehana.
-" You can't, it'll change the future if I show you and I need it to happen so you have to be kept out until it happens," I pleaded with her.
-" Can I see?" Ferdi asked.
-" No, you'll help her stop it, I can't let that happen," I said closing my eyes and willed myself in the car, and when I opened them I was in my Midnight blue Corvette Stingray C3. I love this car. I knew that she would pop out the second she knew I was gone. And 2.6 seconds later Ray and Lehana knocked on my window. I sighed. And open the door, Ray slipped into the passanger seat and Lehana waved and turned towards the blood red Mustang GT500 Convertible in which Ferdi was already sitting.
Ferdi took off and I turned on my car, " I really want to know," Ray whispered.
-" I really can't tell you, I wish I could, but I can't," I said taking after Ferdi towards the school. " I'm going to hate myself for going through with this," I said as I parked next to Ferdi's car and got out.
The Cullen's stood by a Red BMW, and a black Sedan, who's was it I don't know, They noticed us and started to walk towards us, I stiffened and Ferdi, Lehana, and Ray where by my side as soon as 'humanly' possible, they basically hid me behind them, and Ferdi warned them not to get much closer, I knew that They were confused, because before hitting school ground I had place my shiels on all four of us. I used Ian's power to communicate with Lehana, and Ferdi.
-" Guys, I need you to do that fake me scene," I said to their minds.
-" Right now?" they both asked at the same time.
-" That still freaks me out, but yes now," I said and a lucky us a girl with the same hair cut and hair color passed by us, I place my shield on her and Lehana chaged her appareance, her smell, and when she talked to greet her friends it sounded like me, when I used to greet Angela, they all turned to look at her and their jaws dropped and their eyes widened, and one of the school jogs passed infront of her and she was back to normal, they blinked furiously still looking her way.
-" Hey, are you ok? You guys look like you just saw a ghost," Lehana asked to seem like it was just their imagination, if only they knew. I laughed in my head, I was still scared of them getting any closer and finding out who I was to actually laugh. The bell rang and Raysa dragged me to my first block, Drama class where I would be sitting next to Alice. Oh joy, note on the ultra thick sarcasm.
I walked into the class to meet the teacher, Mrs. DePaulo, she told me to take a seat on the empty table on the balck left corner of the classroom. Unfortunatelly She sat Raysa all the way across the room, and I had to sit next to Alice, this is going to get ugly.
I walked stifely towards my chair, I masked my scent again, because thanks to whoever is up in the sky, higher being thingy, I not only look, like a human, I still smell like I used to, like strawberries and freesias ( A/N: I'm not sure how to spell this) only that it has the hint of vampirism in it. I was freaking out, what if she wanted to talk to me? What if she wanted to be my friend again? The pain in my chest was back eating me alive, or watever we are, consuming me like fire. I sat down on the chair and I saw how Alice went from basically vibrating on her chair to statuesque stillness. She was in a vision, she came out of her vision and she turned to see me straight in the eye, with worry and curiosity.
-" What are you exactly? You're not human, that's for sure, you look like a vampire, but you faint? And you need to breathe What are you?" she whispered so low that if I wasn't a vampire and were sitting right next to her I wouldn't have heard it.
I didn't reply I just sat there looking at her, remembering all the times, we would have a sleep over, the pain increased, every time she would drag me shopping, how she tried to make shopping more bareable for me, the pain doubled. I was having breathing problems, I couldn't get the oxygen into my lungs, other of my 'human' traits, I need to breath. The many times she had to help me shower and dress myself after the whole James thing, the pain was full force, and I wasn't getting any oxygen, I fell off the chair and I heard Raysa near me and yelling at the teacher to call for either Ferdi or Lehana, and to tell them that Misha was having another episode, I felt my eyes starting to roll to the back of my head, maybe this was it, maybe I will finally die... after all, the 'episode' had being going on for about some 2 minutes, and neither Ferdi nor Lehana here here with the solution that Lux came out tainted blood, they would inject me avout 350cc of wolf blood with a blue colorant making it purple, and not so bloody.
My eyes were in the back of my head I was starting to loose consciousness and I heard Raysa, say in my ears: " Nemůžete mě nechat, slíbil jsi, že zůstaneš se mnou, jsi slíbil!? Nemůžete mě opustit, musíš držet ..." (A/N: You can't leave me, you promised to stay with me, you promised!!? You can't leave me, you have to hold on...)
I wanted to hold on, I wanted to keep my promise, I wanted to protect her, them, but the pain was even worst than the transformation, because I knew the transformation would eventually get to an end, but this pain has being with me for over a year now. I was sucked into the now familiar nothingness, I felt nothing, I heard nothing, I smelled nothing. I don't know if I'm alive, if I'm dead, if I'll ever go back, at least the pain isn't with me in here, that would have suck.
A memory: I was with Edward in our meadow, it was the first time I saw him under the sunlight, I saw how his skin sparkled like it had millions of tiny diamonds inbedded in it, he was beautiful, yet he always thought that he was a monster, now I understand he was guilty he was playing with my feelings yet he didn't put an end to it, not until I was too deep into him, when I needed him to live. The pain wasn't back, but I also felt nothing, no aanger, no sadness, nothing.
Another memory: All those night that he would stay in my room as I slept, all the times that he would hum me his lulaby until I was asleep, or how he kept the nightmares away, nothing still....
Another memory: Raysa holding me in our room, as I cried my eyes out after telling her about them, I remembered that that was the very first time I had an episode and if it wasn't for Lux and her experiments on the whole you need to feed more often, and trying to get me to feed more she came running in with a seringe (A/N: is this how you spell it, I don't know, it's being a long week and I'm just writing this because Liz is pushing me into writing, i'm aboput to give it up, it's not getting enough attention, so this might be the last chapter unless I get like 7 more reviews) and injected it into my skin, aparentelly my skin is penetrable when I'm having an episode.
I felt something brush my arm, then my head, I was feeling something maybe I was coming to consciousness again. I wanted to open my eyes, but I couldn't, they were so heavy, I was hearing my name being called, it was Raysa and Lehana, they were calling my name, in whispers. The weight in my eye lids was becoming nothing until I could finally open them, when I opened them I was in the school nurse's office, and Raysa, Lehana, Alice, and Jasper where there.
I didn't feel the pain, this time, was it because of Jasper, but my shield would have blocked his power, did I let it down? I tried to pull up my shield but nothing happened, so it can't be Jasper, then I noticed that Ray had her finger entwined with mine, so it was her, she was giving me this sence of relieve, of peace.
-" We need to talk to you," Alice said with sadness in her voice.
Had they found out about me? Has she seen me while I let my shield down? I started to panick again, and the breathing became a problem again.
-" We only want to know what's going on, because, you look like twins," she said pointing at Raysa and Me, " you look more like a clone than anything, because not even identical twins are that alike, you faint, you need to breathe, and you cry with tears, while she doesn't, Why?" she asked.
I wouldn't answer and hid behind Raysa, Ray answered for me, " That's beccasue we weren't biten by the same vampire, and her 'creator' didn't get to leave enough venom in her to make the transformation complete," Ray defended me.
Jasper shifted from beside Alice, " do you always hurt this much, I can barely be near you, everytime that I caome close to you the pain is unbareable," he said.
I nodded my head to his questiion and he came in closer extending his hands towards me, I wanted to take it, let him take the pain away but I was afraid of touching him. What if some of my memories get passed to him? Or my powers? What if he couldn't get passed my shield? I looked at Ray for confirmation, she nodded her head letting me know that everything would be ok, I extended my hand to him, and kept repeating in my head, ...if you see anything just let it go, I'll talk to you later about it....
He took my hand and I felt a tingle run through my body, I knew I was absorving his power, and in exchange he gasped, as he saw my past in his head, I talked to him in my head, ….Jasper, please don't say anything, I will tell you anything you want to know just don't tell the rest, please?...
….Bella? Is that really you?....
….Yes Jasper it's me, i'm, so sorry I didn't say anything, but you have to understand, it hurts too much to be around you guys to talk, you understand right?....
….Yes, Bella I understand, I will try my best to not let Edward or Alice know about you, I must tell you I am sorry for what happened at you 18th birthday, it was my fault we left, whatever Edward told you afterwards was all lies, believe me.....
….I never blamed you, I knew that if I ever hurt myself around any of you, that would have happened, I only wished it hadn't being you, you being the newest into the diet....
….We should get together sometime to catch up, what do you say?.... he asked hopefully.
….Are the others going to come?....
….No, just me, will you spend some time with me?....
….Yes, but know that Raysa will be there, and then you can ask me everything that you want to know, but as of right now I need your help with the others, with you tell them to back off? It really hurts when you are all so cliose to me....
….Sure, anything for my little sister.... he smiled at me as he held my hand.
The exchange didn't go unnoticed, Raysa and Lehana where narrowing their eyes to Jasper, and Alice looked utterly confused. Jasper dropped my hand and turned around to wrapped his arms around Alice, she smiled at me sadly.
….Ray? Lehana? I want to go home, I've had enough for a day, and I need to hunt.... I used telepathy to let them know, they nodded their heads in agreement, and Lehana walked to the nurse and let her know that I still wasn't feeling well and that I wanted to go home, the nurse handed her a pink slip and told us that she hoped that I would feel better soon. We walked out of the nurse's office and Ferdi was leaning on the wall, he nodded his head and we all headed to the main office to sign ourselves out, and we headed home.
The next couple of days are going to be Hell......
Here you go th elast chapter I will post, willingly, I only posted it because of my friend Liz has being pestering me about it, so thank her, I'm giving up on the story since it hasn't being getting any attention what so ever, and I could be using the time I take to write this story to finish the other ones I have.... So sadly this is a goodbye... unless I get 7 more reviews....Sorry, Sa-llie.
