NOTE: this is the whole chapter, its not much longer, it was but i took some out. sry to keep you so long, i was in canada with no computer. I did write some there but its handwritten and i have to type it up. sorry but thanks for sticking with me.

Chapter 12

I approached the door to Edward's room. I hadn't seen the inside yet and I really wanted to. It was early morning, still dark out. Carlisle had gone to work soon after he left me; in fact he left only 10 minutes before I finished my book. He had to be there by six in the morning but he always got there about 5:30. The door looked very menacing. I looked at my feet and wiped them on the floor. I was having second thoughts about going to him. He's probably not even there though because he goes off to who knows where at night. Actually to Bella's but she needs to sleep so I don't know what they do. I was about to turn around and go to my room when Edward opened the door. Was he just reading my thoughts? Shit, I have to use my ability. "O hi Edward," I managed to say while stopping his mind reading. He didn't look too happy. I walked into his room, with out asking, but I wanted to know. He didn't have a bed, only a couch. There wasn't much to see really. I noticed a CD player but that's it before Edward spoke to me.

"What do you need?"

"Are you mad?"

"Mad about what? You coming in here without asking?" I shook my head. Edward knew what I was talking about. He knew that I knew about Bella and that I was thinking about her. "Well to tell you the truth that's a bit annoying."

"Seriously, what are you mad about?" I pressed.

"You want to talk now? About the past?" I nodded because I was scared to do much more. "We shouldn't here. It won't be private and I think it would be better if the family didn't know yet."

"Where will we go then? I want to talk now." I needed to do that because he would procrastinate if I didn't. He thought for a moment.

"The woods I suppose. I know a good place." The place where you took Bella? That place is pretty but I don't think she would be happy if you shared it. "Follow me." Edward left his room and the house at vampire speed. I shrugged and followed quickly. Edward was the fastest in the house. He was probably the fastest vampire I have ever met but I'm not slow either. He kept going through the woods to the place I thought he would. I kept up with out much difficulty. The lush green forest went by as I ran. The ground was damp and cold on my feet. I felt mud and leafs gather on my feet and between my toes. It wasn't raining for the moment, or it felt that way with the trees for protection. He stopped at the edge of the clearing and took a deep breath. The sun still wasn't up but it was coming soon. Even with out the light the area was breathtaking, it had a bit of an eerie glow as did Edward. I walked over to some flowers, aware of Edward watching me, and picked one. It was a yellow orange color and quite pretty.

I twirled it between my fingers and repeated my question from before, "Are you mad?" He didn't speak for a moment, just stared at the flowers. I walked back closer to him still twirling the flower in my fingers. "Really," I said softly. Edward took a breath.

"Honestly I am. You knew who I was, you knew we had a past and you said nothing. You didn't mention a word to me about whom you were or that you knew who I was. It's quite frustrating."

"Well I didn't know! Not at first at least. I only figured it out when I found a picture with you."

"You could have told me then! It would have been better."

"You don't know that," I said. As I did I broke half the stem off the flower on accident. I put it behind my ear and brushed the hair out of the way. Edward's eyes followed my hand.

"Wait a second; you still have a picture of me?"

I nodded, "You and me in Canada with a few other people." There was silence for a few minutes. "You're still mad about something else. I can tell." Edward said nothing. "Tell me please so we can fix it." It's got to be about Bella, he heard me thinking about her. He doesn't want me to know yet or want us to meet.

"How do you know about Bella?" I almost grinned, and I did just a little.

"I have ways." Edward glared at me and looked madder than ever. My grin went away completely and my feet felt a sudden chill. "Sorry. I heard you talk about her a few times and saw you run by with her on your back once. She's a human and my ability doesn't work on her."

"How do you know that your ability doesn't work on her?" Busted, now he knows I've seen her more than that. "Why didn't you tell me you knew either?" I groaned.

"You don't really get it do you? I didn't tell you because I knew you didn't want me to know. It makes it easier and kept you from stressing. It's just better. As for the controlling her thing I can't. I want to know why. I saw her, before I knew who she was, and tried to stop her from falling." His mood seemed to lighten a bit at hearing that I tried to help her, so I thought. "You get so mad but I didn't do anything! That's pretty much why." I felt bad that I was being so hard on him but honestly he did this a lot, I saw. I don't remember him being like this before.

"Sorry, it's just I don't want her to get hurt," He stopped for a moment and seemed lost in thought, "Victoria is after her and she's already in enough danger. She may get jealous as well. Honestly I wasn't sure if I could trust you. I could when you were human with almost anything, but I didn't really know if you were good with the diet. Even Jasper has trouble. I just couldn't be sure." He trusted me. When I was human he did. That's a start. Wait Victoria, the bad vampire, she was after Bella

"I-I understand." Well kind of but I'll try. "Victoria, the vampire? She-She's after Bella? Why?" Why the hell would she be after one human? "And don't worry, you can still trust me." 'Still' that sounds weird.

"You do?" He sounded a combination of relieved and surprised. "Well yes, Victoria is after Bella. She wants to kill Bella because I killed her mate James. A mate for a mate is what Victoria thinks."

"That's terrible!" I shook my head while saying it and the flower in my ear became looser but didn't fall out. "What are you going to do about it?" Edward sighed.

"I really don't know. We've been protecting her. There's always someone near her house but Victoria keeps getting away. Even the werewolves are looking out for her." He sighed again. I took a step forward and touched his hand. My fingers just brushed his but he flinched. That was supposed to be comforting. I stepped back to where I was and the action caused the flower to float to the ground. The sun colored petals violently fluttered in the wind. It was hit by a few drops of water on its way down as well. I stared dumbly at it as it hit the ground and stayed there.

I was trying to muster up the courage to ask about our past, and then maybe more about Bella. I looked up and Edward looked me straight in the eyes, I almost melted. "I guess you want to know about us then?"

"Ya, I would. We were together the summer of 1941, but what happened?" He looked away again.

"So much happened that year. I had run away from Carlisle, which was unfair to him. He was worried sick the whole time I was gone but he couldn't do anything," Edward stopped, "Wait, what do you remember?"

"Does it matter?"

"It kind of does, I want to know," He said angrily. He has a short temper. I told him anyway. I told him about my memories of us in Canada. I told him what I knew about our relationship, even though some things were embarrassing. He knew all this but I guess he just wanted to know what I knew so he didn't have to explain everything. After I finished recounting my memories we were both quiet.

"Is that what you wanted know? That's really all I remember," I told Edward.

"You don't remember how we met then?" I shook my head. I didn't think about that too much actually, I was worried about how it ended. "Well then do you want to know?" I shrugged but now I really did want to know. "If you don't want to, if you're not ready or something, this can wait. I can tell you some other time," Edward said this with an air of annoyance and agitation.

"No! I do want to know. It's just I- Never mind tell me."

"Well we didn't actually meet in Canada," he began. I gave him a quizzical look. "We met in Massachusetts where you're parents had sent you to take a break from school. This was in March and you were staying with your aunt, uncle, and cousins."

"I met you there? I remember I stayed with them for a bit, it was Carolyn, William and their parents' right?" He nodded. I gestured for Edward to go on.

After a momentary pause he continued with his story, "When I first saw you from a distance I thought you were a vampire too. I was so excited to see someone like me. I ran up to you in the street. You were pretty creped out by me. I can see why, some guy just randomly introduces himself on the street."

"You thought I was a vampire when I was human?"

"You were relatively pale and you had small circles under your eyes. You had slender limbs and fingers and a defined nose. You were a very attractive and vampire-like human." If I was human I would have blushed. Edward described how he had followed me home to find out who I was. "You might want to sit down for the rest, Canada and everything could take a while." I obliged and he sat as well. The forest floor was cold and hard. Edward spoke quickly; a human would not have understood most of it. I listened intently and was lost in memories of us, as told by Edward.