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Quinn and Rachel were so messed up they hadn't heard the knock at the door.

"Hey Mr. Schue" Santana said standing by the door blocking the man's view of the inside

"What's going on I heard a scream. Are you guys alright?"

"Yeah we're fine Brit and I were having a tickle fight and she couldn't take it so she screamed out for me to stop." The blonde came to stand behind her

Damn he's nosy the Latina thought

"Hey Mr. Schue. She tickles really good want her to tickle you?" Brittany asked smiling at the now confused looking man

"Ummmmmm no Brittany. Where are Quinn and Rachel?"

"They're-" Brittany started

"Rachel's sleeping and Quinn's in the shower."

"Why can't I hear the water running?"

nosy ass man

"Are you trying to say I'm lying Mr. Schue do you want to come in and see for yourself although I'm sure you'll be arrested for child pornography or something for wanting to see Quinn naked?"

"W Wh-" the man stood there shocked and shook his head "I was just checkieng in on you girls. I'm going to go now see you tomorrow." With that the man walked away.

Brittany smirked and held Santana's hand locking the door behind them as they went back to their friends.

"Maybe we should leave them alone san." hesitating to enter the room

"I'm sure Q has this but let me just make sure Rachel is okay first."

"You care about her." The blonde said as more a statement than a question.

The Latina shrugged "who knew?"

When the cheerleaders walked up to the other girls lying staring at one another not saying anything, just staring.

"Um guys. We'll give you a little privacy so you two can talk." With that Santana grabbed Brittany's hand but stopped at the sound of her name.

"San?" Rachel said huskily

"Yeah rach" she went and bent down next to the girl

"Stay."

"Are you sure?"

"I need to tell her san and I can't do it on my own. I need you and Britt to be here."

Quinn and Brittany watched the exchange quizzically. Brittany took a seat next to Quinn who sat up and the girls all sat in a circle

"Okay I'll stay."

"Thanks. It's best to get it all out in the open. I realized that when I saw your face." She said turning to Quinn "I saw the pain you were in and I knew Santana was right. I have to tell you."

"Rach. You don't have to do this now. I'm not going anywhere."

"No its time." the brunette took a deep breath as couple tears spilled over. Santana took Rachel's hand and squeezed it reassuringly.

"When we hit sophomore year my dads got a divorce. The reason for divorce was because my daddy left me and my dad and ran off with a woman. I was really depressed and my dad started drinking I started seeing this guy and although I never rebelled at school I did at home well don't have much of a home so I used to go to parties and drink with him. This was the year I stopped coming to glee as much. One night we were at this party although it wasn't as much a party as it was me alone with him and 2 of his friends drinking and hanging out. I remember drinking something that tasted funny and when I woke up the next morning there was blood on my clothes and I was at the beach on the sand alone. I don't remember what happened and I'm kinda glad I don't but I remember the pain I felt when I tried to move and I remember the rain falling all over me when I couldn't move. My dad was at work that entire weekend he didn't even realize I was gone and I couldn't tell him what had happened as he already blamed me for my daddy leaving. I tried to ask Jesse what happened but he kept telling me they lost me and he didn't know where I was and that he couldn't date me anymore because I was a dirty slut who gave it up to anyone who wanted it and not to come near him ever again. Like I said I don't remember anything but I always get flashes of what happened like I remember being held down and I remember the pain as one of them entered me and laughing I remember lots and lots of laughing but otherwise I don't remember anything. That's when I started regressing. That's why I don't say anything when you guys used to do stuff to me I felt like a worthless piece of shit that no one wanted and I deserved to be treated that way. That's why my daddy didn't want me anymore and that's why my dad doesn't want me now. That's why you saw me working at the school. I work there so I don't have to ask my dad for anything. I didn't want to tell you because I'm afraid you'll leave me like everyone else did." She buried her head into Santana's shoulder.

There wasn't a dry eye in the room. Quinn tried to calm herself to be there for Rachel. She wanted to show that she was strong enough for this but all she felt was anger for Jesse whom she wanted to kill, heartbreak for the girl she liked and regret for the way she treated her.

Brittany gently nudged Quinn motioning for her to take Rachel.

Quinn showed no hesitation she lightly tugged on the brunette's arm pulling her into her allowing the girl to continue to cry and let it all out.

Brittany and Santana sat quietly watching the girls.

Time unknown to the teenagers had past and they finally calmed down enough for Quinn to say something.

"Rach, I know apologizing isn't going to make up for the things we did to you. Just know that I will never do anything to hurt you and I will never leave you I'm not just saying that for the sake of doing so. I meant what I said when I said I feel protective over you for some reason I will never cause you to hurt like you have in the past. No one will ever hurt you again baby. I'm so sorry you had to go through all of this and most of all I'm so sorry you had to go through it all alone, but you aren't alone anymore. You have Santana and Brittany and most importantly you have me and I love you rach. I'll never be able to show you how much I love you but I do love you and I will spend every day trying to show you how much I love you. I'm glad you let me in and I will be here for you always. I love you rach."

Quinn was rambling she didn't know how to say it but she wasn't sorry she said it. She loved Rachel Berry. Even though she just admitted that she liked the girl she knew in her heart that she loved her.

"Quinn?" Rachel said drawing in those hazel eyes with her brown

"Yes rach?"

"I love you too." Rachel said and kissed the blonde tears and all forgetting that their friends were in the room.

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