I'm really glad you guys liked the prior chapter!
PS- I'm sorry it wasn't humor… I got carried away. I don't exactly have an outline I just go with that comes into my mind. Hehe
Sorry again.
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Chapter 12
Mikan's POV:
What is the worst part of this whole situation? Hmmm, hard to pick.
My mom keeps nagging about how much she loves me, she thinks I tried to kill myself because she doesn't give me attention.
Sumire is like a second mom always calling me every hour just to make sure I don't try committing suicide…again.
Hyuuga just won't leave my mind.
It's been about 2 weeks since I was released from the hospital and Hyuuga is all I ever think, dream or fantasize about. I turn my head and see a red carpet it reminds me of Hyuuga. I see a couple hug I think of Hyuuga. I eat a burger it reminds me of Hyuuga. I turn on the TV to see a football match, Hyuuga Hyuuga Hyuuga Hyuuga! I think the only time I don't think of him is when I pee. Ok that was gross. Please ignore.
I just got home from school, I remove my tie and unbutton the first 2 buttons of my shirt. I jump on to my bed and sigh.
I guess I shouldn't be complaining about how much people care about me. I mean yes I'm happy about it but I just don't want that attention. It makes me feel like I'm a baby and more importantly it reminds me of that…
I really sound like a spoilt bitch don't I?
"You shouldn't leave your front door open like that berry." A voice came from my front door.
"You are such a pervert Hyuuga I swear." I mumbled not bothering to even look at his face, like I don't know how he looks like since he's all I think about unfortunately.
I heard him chuckle under his breath, he walked up to the edge of the bed and just sat there for a good 2 minutes without talking.
"Are you…ok?" he actually sounded concern. Ironic.
"Yeah I'm fine Hyuuga. What exactly are you doing in my house again?"
"I followed you home…"
I shot up and gave him a cold glare.
"Why were you following me?"
"Because I felt like it."
I hug myself into the other edge of the bed opposite to him. I give him a cunning but suspicious look.
"Stalker."
I saw the corner of Hyuuga's eye twitch a bit. I got him good this time. This would be a fun moment for me to enjoy… until he started to crawl on my bed like a possessed demon sent from hell and said my name is a very creepy way. The red eyes really lighten the mood too. (NOT)
"Mikan…." He purred. He grabbed one of my leg and pulled me. Immediately I caught hold of a pillow and started hitting him non-stop. He didn't take it too well.
"Ouch! Berry- I swe-stop it now I'- ill you" he yelled but like you I didn't understand a word he said so I just went on with my rampage. I was laughing so much my tummy started to hurt.
"Ok little girl. Stalker has now gone deranged."
"I'm so scared. Help me" I said with a straight face.
"You should be.." he said with a dark voice.
He stole my pillow away from me and hit me three times, then threw it in a i-don't-know-direction. He caught hold of my other leg and dragged me to the center of the bed where he caged me underneath his body.
This isn't funny. This position felt too familiar and it brought me back to the depth of fire. I stopped everything. My laughing, my kicking and I think my breathing too. I think Hyuuga picked up in the change of atmosphere and let me go.
"Hey berry, can I ask you something?" he said all of a sudden.
I nodded my head.
"Why didn't you do anything?"
"What do you mean?"
"What happened…to that..person?" I saw his hand turn into a fist and he clutched on to my bed sheet really tight. Was he angry?
"I honestly don't know… and I don't even want to know." I said with a stern voice.
"So he just got off like that? After what he did to you?" he raised his voice a bit. He looked at me like he wanted me to tell him he was wrong, that that guy was locked up rotting somewhere in the world. I would usually laugh my ass off at a stressed Hyuuga but when he was frustrated about me? Not so much.
I didn't say anything to him and just looked out my window. How could I look at him? There he is with all his glory of a life with no stain. I envy you Hyuuga, your perfect life.
"Why…?" was all he said.
"Because, I made a promise to a very important person." I smiled at the thought of Roxy, at the same time I felt a tear crawl on my cheek.
"What the fuck? Mikan, a guy freaking took away your purity and you didn't do anything because of a dumb promise with someone? Are you mentally retarded?" he yelled at me with rage I never saw from Hyuuga.
Ouch, that hurt.
"Don't act you know everything about me Hyuuga. Just because you know a little clip about my past you think you own me? Fuck no. You don't know shit, you don't know the shit I had to go through and you don't know the shit people put me through because of my decision. But you know what? I don't regret it. I'm sorry I am to fucked up to know you in your stupid picture perfect world." I growled back at him. I think that was the longest thing I ever said to Hyuuga, ever.
He just got up and sighed in vexation. He rubbed his eyes as if trying to see things clearer.
"It was her last wish…" I said in a soft voice. Hyuuga stopped what he was doing and looked at me with a confused look.
I didn't want to have to tell him what happened; it was too much of a hassle. And I would have a mental breakdown again if I tried.
I got up and walked to the other side of my bed to where my lamp shade was. In the drawer laid my diary. I took it out and opened it looking for it, that last shred of remembrance I have of Roxy. There it was, I took out the folded paper. I couldn't abide to read her words again. My fingers traced the tear stains on the page. I don't remember if it was her tears or mine. Honestly I didn't care.
"This was the last thing Roxanne Hulem (Roxy) ever did before she…walked away." I lowered my face so he can't see my expression.
I couldn't understand why she had to do that. I asked myself so many times why, I hunted for the reason behind why she did it. I even went to the doctors and asked, I got my answer but who knew that the truth was a bitch. They told me she was delirious, that she was obsessed with something so badly that if she couldn't have 'it' but someone else could? She couldn't handle it and so she did the only thing she thought that would relieve her. She killed herself.
I handed the paper to Hyuuga and he started reading it…
Dear Mikan,
I know that I have been a complete bitch to you these past few months. And I know that you could have just left me there in my own misery but you didn't. And for that I am grateful. I have put you through too much pain, I never meant to hurt you this bad. I love him Mikan. Even now I know there is a part of me that loves him, even after what he did to you. I don't know what is wrong with me. I see him everywhere Mikan. He follows me, he talks to me, he hugs me tight when I'm about to lose my mind, he reminds me to take my medicine. He says that he loves me, and I love him too. He promised me that he would take care of me. This is the only way I can be at peace with him. We are going to run away Mikan! Don't worry; I'll message you all the time alright? Thought I don't know if you will ever see it.
I love you Mikan! Thanks for being there for me, even in my suckiest of times. I'll miss you my one and only best friend! Be happy ok?
Ps- Please take care of him for me ok?
Love you lots,
Roxy xxx
Natsume's POV:
What…? I didn't understand shit in what I just read. It's so mind-fucking. One minute she sounds like she's sorry in her letter, the next line like she's stating how he looks after her and then she runs away with him but asks Mikan to look after him? Where the hell is she?
I stare at the page, thinking of what she must have been thinking. And as if reading my mind Mikan answers all my doubts.
"She had a mental disorder." Mikan said.
I went and sat down right next to her and folded the paper and gave it back to her. I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what to think. If I could take back all my words just now I would. I choose to stay silent instead. If she wanted to tell me she would, my curiosity would just have to deal with it.
"She killed herself the same night she wrote me that letter… unfortunately I was too late to realize what she meant. If only I had been abit smarter…" she said in a voice that had no life but just pain and hurt. I don't even know if she's talking to me anymore.
"After she did that, her mom blamed everything on me.'If you just open your supposedly big mouth, she would have been fine and not in that fucking abyss of misery! This is your entire fault she has to go through the tragic experience of living in constant fear. If you just never met her then maybe she would have had a glimpse of the better life but guess what? You bloody took that away from her.' That was the last thing her mom ever told me when she was on her death bed. But who could blame her? I didn't tell her everything, I was thinking about Roxy's happiness instead of her well-being. This is why I didn't do anything Hyuuga. I know it's not a good enough reason, I know that I am the biggest idiot in the whole world for letting something like that slip. But I didn't know what else to do… I didn't know who to choose, myself or Roxy." She burst out crying after that.
I just held her tight and allowed her to pour it all out. She cried and cried for a while. I didn't do anything but just hug her, because no words in the world could make her feel better right now.
We stayed like that for about an hour I guess? She fell asleep in between. I shifted her to the bed and looked at her sleeping face. She still whimpered a bit but other than that she looked fine. I guess I'll just leave if I don't want her mom thinking I'm a pervert or anything.
I caressed her rosy cheek, it was still warm from her crying session. I don't know when I fell for you Mikan Sakura, all I know if I'm happy I did.
I kissed her forehead and tucked her in and left the house. I made sure to lock the door this time. Unlike her I'm not a clumsy idiot.
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I walked out of her house and decided to walk home since I have nothing else to do for the day, might as well kill time by walking home.
As I made my way to the right side (since my house was in that direction), I noticed a guy who was sitting on the bench a few meters away from me. I shall ignore him.
When I was just about to pass by him he got up and stood infront of me. What does this prick want? Don't tell me I dated his girlfriend before and now he wants to kick my ass. I feel sorry for the guy if that's his reason.
"How is she? Is she ok?" he says franticly to me.
"Who?"
"Mikan."
What the fuck? He knows her? Who the hell is this guy? I give him a cold glare.
"She's fine." I say in a not so pleasant way.
"That's good to hear." He said and then smiles at me.
"And you are…?" I'm getting impatient. This guy is wasting my time but how does he know Mikan…
He stops smiling and then gives me a poker face. Ok I am so close to punching this guy and walking away.
"I'm well… I am her… Ex." He says while he smirks at me.
I take a look at him from top to bottom. He has brown hair, and purple eyes. He's not that bad looking at all, but of course I'm way hotter than that.
"Then why don't you ask her yourself?" I said with a bored face.
"Well, me being here is a surprise you see! I'm just waiting for the perfect moment to see her again…" he looks away like he was dazed or something.
Fucking creepy guy. I can't believe Mikan dated 'this'. And NO I am not jealous. Why should I be? He is not with her anymore. She's mine now so HAH.
"Don't tell her you saw me ok? And thanks." He said with a gleaming smile.
"Whatever. Now would you please get out of my way?" I didn't really wait for him to give me way; I just walked past him, brushing my shoulder lighting on him as I passed.
Well this was an interesting day.
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Mikan's POV:
"Mikan…mikan…WAKE UP!"
SPLASH!
I felt the cold water trickle down my entire face. I woke up like a vampire on steroids or something. I rub the water off my face with my shirt. Oh I'm still in my uniform. Once my vision was clear I turn to my right and see my mom with an empty glass in her hand. I glare at her and she glares back.
"Why did you have to wake me up like that?" my voice was cold but funny. I sound like shit when I just wake up so yeah.
"Sumire called and is coming over in 20 minutes. You slept all day long so I bet you are pretty energized now right? Clean your room." She left my room and went down stairs to do whatever mothers do.
Ok first I have to get on a fresh shirt. I change in my shorts and an oversized hoodie with Chicago written on it.
"Why can't this room clean itself…"I said as I look at the mountains of junk all over my room. I start by picking up all my clothes that were on the ground. Hey! I found my favourite bra! I then vacuum the floor until it was dust free. Then I change my bed sheets in a panda print. I love pandas by the way! Cute things.
I am cleaning my mirror right now, after it was spotless and shiny I look at my reflection. Behind me is my bed and then it all came to me. Me bursting into tears infront of Natsume. I cuddle myself and reminisce how his arms felt around me.
"Loner."
I turn around and see Permy standing by my door with a paper bag in her hand. She brought Chinese food!
"I miss you too Permy!" I said as I hugged her and took the paper bag from her hand.
We were now sitting on my CLEAN bed and eating our dumplings. I swear if I was stuck on an island but had dumplings with me I'd be pretty happy!
"Mikan, I have something to say." Permy said all of a sudden while playing with her food.
"You're pregnant?" I said just to annoy her.
"What the fuck? NO! are you crazy? I use protection ok! I am not that stupid Mikan honest-"
"You had sex?! What the actual fuck Sumire Shouda!" I yelled on top of my voice but she covered my mouth before I could even say more. Well sorry but some guy just took my best friend's virginity. How the heck am I supposed to be cool with that?!
"Shut up Mikan! Your mom might hear you and my reputation with her will be just as fucked." She harshly whispered at me.
I had to calm down a bit, ok Mikan be mature about this. It was bound to happen anyway.
"Who?" I try to say in a peaceful manner.
"Ummm… well…." She looked away and is blushing at the moment. What the hell woman!
"Sumire, if you don't tell me I am going to disown you as my best friend." I threatened her!
"It was with Koko ok!" she blurted out.
Koko… as in one of Natsume's best friend Koko… as in Kokoroyomi?
"He? And you? And that? And oh my God…" speechless would be an understatement.
"Mikan! Don't get all weird on my like that!" she said as she hugged my pillow tight.
How would you react is your best friend lost her virginity with the guy-you-liked's best friend. I'll tell you how you should react. Strangle her and then ask her how it happened. Yeah I think that's a fabulous idea.
"Tell me everything now!" I said. Yes I accept the fact that she just did it with Koko. See how cool I am?
"ok, so it was like since you were too busy and shit with Natsume I got bored. So Koko calls me up and he was like let's hang since our best friends are hanging we should follow their example and shit" she was mimicking how Koko talks and it was pretty epic.
"And then?"
"So then I rejected him the first 4 times but you know I like to be chased abit so I said yes the fifth time. And it was kind of fun, he is really funny and when the other guys stared at me he would put his arm around me or just tell them to fuck off which I found really sweet and funny." She was acting like a fan-girl. Her nails were pierced into my pillows and she had Koko's goofy smile. Oh so the smile is contagious after all.
"We started going on a lot of more dates. And then it all got so serious and then last week I was at his house and we were having a few shots-" I just had to cut her off.
"You were drinking?!" I squealed like a little mouse at her.
"Oh shut up and just listen. So yeah we were drinking and then we kind of got a bit drunk. And all I remember was having a sexy make-out session and I woke up with him next to me. The end" she said as she smiled at me like some crazy person. Who knows? Maybe she is crazy.
"I'm gonna kill that prick. Just wait I will slaughter his guts." I said. I am mad but at the same time I want to laugh. Some best friend I am.
"Nooo! He's my baby, you can't kill something I love!" she tried to reason with my tantrum.
I give off a really big and long sigh.
"As long as you're happy and he doesn't hurt you, I'm happy for the both of you." I said. I am not her mom to tell her what she did was bad. If she was happy let her be, plus I can trust Koko. He is a nice guy even if he is friends with Hyuuga.
"So how was the you know… that?" I said slightly nervous about the topic.
"He was so yummy…" she said seductively. Oh my god! Really?
I took my pillow and started hitting her, we ended up having a pillow fight for about 15 minutes.
We were exhausted from all the screaming and hitting and jumping and running. It's been a while since me and Permy did something like this before. I am glad we did.
"Hey Mi, I got to go. Got school remember? And I bet my mom is going to screw my ass. Bubye!" she said as she took her bag, kissed me on the fore head and went out through the window.
What a day. I guess I'll sleep again. I got ready for bed, brushed my teeth and all. I was laying there in my bed. I thought about how cute, Permy and Koko looked together. I wonder if me and nat- what am I thinking? Sex was a LONG way for me and Natsume. Shoo dirty thoughts! Go away!
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