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Previously on This Union: "You must help me, they took Clarke" he yelled while looking straight at Bellamy and dropping on his knees.
Two weeks earlier:
Clarke's POV:
Another morning that I wake up alone in my room. The sun is coming in through my window and as I lay here I wonder if Bellamy too is waking up. Surprisingly I have been able to sleep without him. Not like I was when he was here, but it wasn't as bad as when he was first gone. That didn't mean that I didn't miss him, because I did. I would sometimes wake up in the middle of the night and reach for him thinking he was there and end up waking up when all I felt was an empty bed. Yet again I find myself questioning if I did the right thing by staying.
Without another thought I got up from the bed and dressed for the day. I now helped out more than just in medical bay, but really with whatever needed to be done. We had less people to do many of the things we needed before and it also helped me be distracted during the day. Today for example I had to go out and gather herbs that helped with medicine, a task usually Bellamy used to do while he went out hunting.
I got ready pretty quick and was out my room earlier than anyone else. Before going to the gates I grabbed a quick coffee which I drank on the spot. Coffee was all I needed in the mornings. Finally, I went to the gates making sure I had my knife with me just in case. To my surprise Finn was there waiting for me as it seems.
"What are you doing here?" I asked the surprise clear in my voice.
"I heard you were gathering, I thought I should go with you it's not good for you to be alone" he said with a small smile on his face. He seemed to be ready with a bag over his shoulders.
"I can take care of myself" I said defensively a bit harsher than I intended to.
"I know that, but it's better if we all keep together" he said while putting his hands up as if saying he means no harm.
I knew he was right; it was something that I mentioned to everyone whenever they went outside the camp. I just hated feeling defenseless, I know that's not what he meant by coming but for some reason I felt that way.
"Yeah you're right" I finally admitted while walking out the gates, Finn following right behind me.
We walked in silence for quite a while. We had to gather some seaweed from the river and that was a good three miles from camp. We used to talk about everything, all the wonders that this world had but now everything seemed so unnecessary. After about twenty minutes of silence he finally spoke to me.
"You miss him" he said in a statement not really asking me. I glanced at him curiously wondering why he was bringing this up.
"Yes" I said answering a question he didn't really ask.
"Why didn't you go with him?" this time he was asking; he was in the river now searching for the seaweed.
"I couldn't leave our people" I answered while looking away not meeting his gaze.
He didn't respond right away he was quiet thinking about what I said. It seemed like he wasn't going to answer so I kept on walking a bit farther down the river. I placed all of what I gathered in the bag I brought with me and when I was done Finn walked to give me what he found.
We filled a bag all the way to the top and went looking for other herbs we needed. We were gathering some herbs now that helped as pain relievers.
Finn once again spoke and said "You deserve to be happy Clarke" I stared at him not really believing what he was saying.
He smiled at my expression and said "Sometimes you worry about others before you worry about yourself, but you deserve to be happy. If you go to Polis we'll be fine here, you don't have to stay here."
I didn't know what to say, to this point no one had told me it was okay if I went. Even my mom seemed to be glad that I stayed, which caused me to think I had made the right decision. What surprises me is that out of all the people it's Finn who's telling me it's okay if I leave.
I couldn't help it but I gave him a quick hug and whispered in his ear "Thank you Finn, you're a great friend"
He seemed a bit surprised at first but quickly returned the hug. After we pulled away he said "so will you be going to Polis?"
"Do you really think everything will be okay without me?" I asked needed more confirmation to what he had previously said.
"Yes Clarke we can handle things how that we're at peace with the grounders, besides some of them will stay stationed here anyways. And, you can come back and forth between both places." He said reassuringly.
It made sense what he was saying I could travel to both places to make sure everything kept on working out. He was right we were at peace and there shouldn't be attacks at the camp, not only that but Lexa was keeping a close eye on Ice Nations. They too wouldn't dare try to attack our camp, it was so well guarded now that it would be difficult for anyone to really through it.
"You're right, I'm not really needed here" I said in almost a whispered, this being a realization to me too.
"You'll always be needed here, but we can survive without you" he said jokingly. We were making our way back to camp now, having gathered everything we needed.
I didn't respond back but I was deep in thought to what he was saying. For the first time I felt like it was okay for me to leave. And, even if I did leave it wouldn't be forever. Like he said I could travel back and forth I'm sure even Bellamy would be willing to come with me.
"When do you leave?" I head Finn say as we reach the gates. I had no idea we were at camp already the time seemed to have flown by. He asked this as if he was sure I had already made my mind, and I guess I had.
"I have to speak to my mother, but I guess in two days I could leave" I said finally this plan coming together without me even realizing it. My mother would probably disapprove of me going, but Finn was right it wasn't necessary for me to be here they were safe now.
"You're making the right choice" said Finn as he squeezed my hand reassuringly. I smiled at him and said "Thanks Finn, you've always been a good friend to me." I gave him a hug because I felt happy that he was so accepting of me and Bellamy now.
He only smiled at me in returned and we went our own ways. I had my mother to speak to.
I made my way to medical bay where I knew she would be, I also had to prepare the herbs so that gave me an excuse to speak to her. As I walked in I saw her and Kane speak quietly, they were closed together almost touching but not quite.
I cleared my throat to let them know I was in there; I don't know why I always felt like I had to do that. They turned to see me and put some distance between them.
"Where you able to find the herbs?" asked my mother once she saw me.
I walked towards a table at the back of the room and put my bag on top of it. "Yes" I responded while taking the herbs and begin to clean them. The seaweed still had to be boiled in order to get the properties of it.
"I should go, I need to meet with Rave, we'll speak later Abby" said Kane as he touched my mom's hand before walking away. I turned around pretending not see what just passed between them. As he was going out to me he simply said "Clarke" to which I nodded in response.
I like Kane I think he's a good leader and a good person. The hard part for me is seeing him with my mother, I know she should be happy but it still didn't mean I found it strange. I was so used to seeing her happily in love with my dad, but then that ended when he was floated. An event that still caused anger inside of me, knowing my mother is the one who turned him in.
"I'm leaving" I said while continuing to clean the herbs, not even bothering to look at her.
"What do you mean you're leaving?" she asked her voice already going up an octave.
"I'm leaving to meet Bellamy in Polis, where I will stay with him" I said this time I put my stuff down and turned around to face her.
"You can't" she said with a shocked expression on her face.
"You no longer need me here; I can do more while being over there" I responded my face I knew must be harsh because I was now angry at remember what she had done.
"I need you here" she said in a voice that was almost begging.
"You have Kane, you don't need me" I responded harshly and walked out before giving her the chance of responding. I didn't mean to say that but for some reason I knew it was true, she had him now. Instead of going to my room I went to see Raven and let her know that I would be leaving.
I walked into the engineering building where she was working with Monty and Jasper. They smiled as they saw me walk in but quickly their smile fell at seeing my face expression.
"What's wrong?" asked Raven quickly knowing there was something going on.
I sat down with them and said "I'm leaving to Polis tomorrow afternoon, but don't worry I will be traveling back and forth between both places."
They seem to digest my words and after about two minutes Raven spoke and said "I will miss you but I think this is what you need to do."
"You guys aren't mad?" I asked, honestly surprised that they were taking this so well.
"Clarke you've given so much for us already, if going to Polis will make you happy than go" it was Jasper who spoke now. Monty nodded his head in agreement and I couldn't help it but get up from my chair and run to hug them. After hugging them I gave a long hug to Rave, I couldn't believe they were okay with this.
"We'll be fine here Clarke, and you came just in time because I have working radios now so we can communicate when you're in Polis" said Raven excitedly.
I was so happy to see their positive responses that I wanted to cry. I of course didn't but I did have a huge grin on my face. "That's great Raven, I'll come back tomorrow so you can explain how it all works" I said while standing up on my feet getting ready to leave.
"Yes make sure you come back so I can show you it all works; you should go pack now it's getting dark pretty soon" she said while continuing to study her radios.
With one last smile at them I left to my room to pack. For the first time in two weeks I felt excited, I couldn't wait to see the surprise look on Bellamy's face when I showed up in Polis. As the sun came down I was in my room packing, I didn't pack too much because it would be hard to carry all of that on my journey.
I think it was a week worth of traveling to get there but a week was better than another full month until I saw him again. As the room got darker I glanced out to see the moon wondering what Bellamy was doing now, this was my new past time wondering what he was up to.
After I was all packed I went to sleep and for the first time I slept the whole night, just knowing that tomorrow I would be traveling I wanted to sleep in order for the time to go faster.
The next day it went all pretty fast because by lunchtime I was Raven as she was explaining how the radios worked. It was all pretty simple I just had to make sure I checked the battery and kept on charging it with the sun. Once that was done it was time for me to leave.
I knew that before I left I had to speak to my mother, I couldn't leave with the way we ended. I probably had to apologize at being so harsh to her, I was upset which is why I acted like that. I walked into medical bay hoping to see my mother but instead came across Jackson. "Have you seen my mom?" I asked him.
He glanced at me and with a smile said "yeah she wasn't feeling too good so she was going to stay in bed today"
"Thanks Jackson" I responded before leaving to find my mother.
I went back inside the ark and once I found her door I knocked on it.
"Who is it?" I heard her voice asked from the inside.
"It's me" I said knowing she would know who it was. I was right because within a minute she had the door opened wide letting me in through.
As I walked inside she did in fact look a bit down, but it didn't seem to be from being sick. I sat at the edge of her couch and faced her.
"I came to apologize I said some harsh things yesterday, I was angry and you didn't deserve that" I said, getting straight to the point.
"I know honey; I just don't want you to go" she said while coming to sit next to me.
I held her hand and said "I know, but I will be okay"
"I know you will be" she said with a small smile. I turned around and gave her a quick hug I was going to miss her too.
I let her go and got up from the couch I then said "I should go now, but we'll be in contact through Raven's radio she'll explain how it works"
With one last hug I left her room feeling better at leaving now. Before I left the camp however there was one more person I needed to see.
It was in the meeting room that I found him, he was going over a map and seemed surprised when I walked in. Harper was there with him discussing some things but once she saw me she left the room to allow me to talk to him in private.
"Please watch over my mother, she's going to need you now" I said trying not to sound mean.
Kane nodded and said "How long will you be gone?" I guess my mother had told him about me leaving.
"I don't know, but will be in contact" I responded already leaving the room.
Before I left he said "May we meet again" his words stopped me and I turned around to face him and said "May we meet again."
Now I walked towards the gates, it was time I left. There was horse waiting for me there I had asked someone to have him ready, maybe with him it wouldn't take as long to get to Polis. To my surprise there were two horses there and next to the black stood Finn.
Before I could ask he said "You didn't think I would let you go alone"
I was surprised and said "But, you don't like grounders"
"They're not all bad" he said while taking my bag and tying it to my white horse.
"Besides I need to start fresh again, and this could be my chance" he added this time climbing on his horse.
I too got up on my horse and said "If you're sure I won't stop you."
"I am" he said while meeting my gaze. I studied him for a minute before finally nodding my head. I began trotting out the gates we had a long journey ahead. In a few days I will be in Polis reunited with Bellamy, Octavia, and Lincoln. Thinking this I rode even faster, Finn following right behind me.
AN: Thank you guys so much! I truly love all of your reviews, they always bring a smile to my face!
I wanted to keep this chapter this was for a reason, but the next one we will find out what happened to Clarke.
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