Waking up was nothing like what I had been expecting. I had been ready for pain. Torture. I had been ready for darkness and coldness. What I had not been ready for was no pain. Comfort. The softness I felt underneath me. Before even opening my eyes I knew I was somewhere I had not been expecting. It was warm, cozy, quiet.
My eyes snapped open though as the thoughts of why I was here flickered though my mind. A fight. A struggle. And ultimately my loss. I had expected a lot of things, but for some reason I never thought Dimitri would be able to get ahold of me. I had actually held out a lot of trust in Lissa and Spiradon. I somehow believed they would keep me safe. In a way they had. But at the end of the day they would never be able to stop Dimitri. Not that it matter what they did, he was after all a god.
My hand slowly, without being too abrupt felt around my stomach, making sure I felt no pain. I did not want to alert anyone near me of my fears, but I had to make sure. Thankfully I felt good. I felt more than good and that scared me more than the pain I had been waiting for. Pain was something I was use to. After fighting Dimitri and clearly losing I was ready to wake up in hell. Not a high class suite.
My eyes scanned the room quickly as I sat up slowly, making sure to make no harsh sudden movements. I felt well over all but I was more than aware that it was the morning. The spinning in my head told me as much. I could only hope that I could hold out on the vomiting. My pregnant body craved food, but my mind knew better than to take anything that was placed before me. Which actually seemed to be a buffet across the room.
"You're hungry." My body tensed as I took in the voice.
I could not help but chastise myself, I had not noticed him standing only five feet away in what seemed to be a bathroom doorframe. I turned towards him and had to stop from running to him. He looked the same, he looked amazing. But I knew better.
Though his hair was probably just as soft, his face chiseled to perfection. His eyes were wrong, he was watching me in a way I did not like. So I turned away not wanting to look at the man I loved so much be so unlike himself.
"Don't ignore me Roza." I felt the bed dip and shot off the bed, ignoring my dizziness.
"You have to let me go." All I got was laughter, laughter that was mocking and lacking in any humor.
"Now why would I do that? I have everything I could ever want here in this room." He stood up walking towards me cornering me in a matter of moments.
"I don't want to be here. We could both leave." I knew my eyes were pleading but they did nothing to affect the twisted smile that formed in his lips.
"You don't have a choice." His voice was a growl as he inched closer to touch my cheek.
I simply reacted by shooting out my arm in a block. I used the momentum to try and push him away. I was fast enough that I got a few feet away, but it wasn't far enough. He grabbed my wrist and pulled me closer to him. Fear spiked inside of me, my need to protect myself and my baby. Without thinking a threw a punch. It hit its mark but Dimitri did not even budge. This caused me to full out attack him. I expected him to fight back but all he did was block. He even seemed amused at my attempts to fight him.
I kicked out to trip him but he caught my foot. I felt myself slip and my eyes grew large. If I fell I would fall on my stomach, the way I was twisted made it certain. I couldn't even put out my hands since I somehow had them behind me. Before I hit the floor Dimitri grabbed me his hand softly landing on my stomach.
Panic surged through me. I was happy to have him touch my stomach but fearful for my child. If he found out he would surely harm our child. Harm me. I couldn't let him do that, so I tried to fight again but this time he held me, back to his chest. His hand slipped under my shirt and caressed my lower stomach.
"You're not going anywhere Roza. I have everything I need here." A sob left my lips as he once again caressed my stomach landing where our baby was safely being kept. "I'm not going to hurt you. And I surely would never hurt an unborn child my love."
His lips skimmed my neck as he held me closer to him. I was scared, that much was certain. He knew about the baby. I had no idea what he was going to do. Would he turn me in to Victor? Would he do the job himself?
"Dimitri, please." He placed a hard kiss on my jaw and turned me around.
"You are staying here with me. We can have everything. You, me, our child." I was shaking my head before he finished.
"I can take you back home. We can go home and be happy there." He grabbed my chin roughly and forced me to look at him.
"No! They have nothing to offer us. You and I could and will live as King and Queen here. I just need to get rid of Victor and fulfill his plan." I snatched my chin away from him.
He wanted to take over. He wanted to stay here? No, my Dimitri would never want this. And he surely would never want me and his child to be a part of it. How could he not think of Ivan? Of me? Of the life this would mean we would have.
"This isn't what you want. We have to leave get Ivan." I thought he would say no or simply shake me off but a crocked smile made its way onto his lips.
"I have everything planned. Ivan will come with us no worries. After all what is a man without his heir." I attempted to get away but this time I felt drained.
"I can't do this." This was all becoming too much. I had set out to save Dimitri not become a part of what had taken him.
I could not help but ask myself if I was fighting a losing battle. Victor had already taken so much from us. What more would we lose if we kept fighting against him? Dimitri's offer suddenly sounded tempting. Ivan, my unborn child would be safe. We would be together. What the fuck was wrong with me? How could I think that would be the better choice.
"You don't look well love. Let me help you." Though the words seemed caring the tone was not. If anything he sounded annoyed.
"I don't need your help." I pushed him away and collapsed on the bed. My sleep suddenly was not enough.
"There's food, not poisoned." I looked up at him as he near a very solid looking door with a key pad. "Make your choice Roza and soon. Or I will make it for you."
With that he opened the door with lethal speed and left me alone. Something I was both grateful and afraid of. What had I done? I had no idea how to fix this. I had no idea where I was, who was around. And for the most part I had no idea what Dimitri was up to. If I denied him one and time again, I knew he would not take no for an answer. But to what lengths would he go to make sure I stayed with him?
I know I suck… I have made you guys wait again. But I hope you enjoyed this. Did you think Dimitri would find out about the baby? Are you surprised? Do you think he will harm Rose and the baby to get her on "his side"? Any guesses about his plan? Let me know what you think. I started writing the next chapter and hope to have it up soon… Until then show me some love. I know I have been taking forever but I fear I have lost you guys! I am truly sorry….
Luka update… He's trying to walk! Oh boy!
