A/N: Hey guys. My last chapter didn't accomplish much with R/J. But hey, it's good that L/L got their own chapter right? And this chapter is going to be a R/J and R/D mixture (mostly R/D...sorry). It is the decision this time.
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Chapter 12: The Decision
The past week had been hectic. Rory hadn't talked to anyone other then her mother. She ignored her friends at school, she ignored the towns people, including Luke, but especially Dean and Jess, not quite to sure who to choose yet. She didn't want to say or do something she would regret.
She got off the bus from Chilton and made her way into the diner, she decided it might be alright to have a cup of fresh coffee, since her mother had been making it for her it for a week now. She sat at the counter. She looked around for Luke, but she didn't see him. Then she looked around for Jess or Caesar, but no one was in sight, Caesar was probably cooking in the back, she assumed.
Since she didn't find any of them, she went behind the counter and poured herself a cup, no one seemed to notice, and she was happy about that. She went back to her seat and gulped down half her coffee, nothing could make that coffee taste better then it actually was.
"Hello." A voice said behind her, which made her jump and almost spill her coffee; she turned around and eyed him evilly. But maybe something could make that coffee worse. she thought.
"Don't do that Jess, Geez."
"Alright, I promise never to say hello to you when you are dinking your coffee and sitting on this stool ever again." He smirked.
"You drive me crazy sometimes."
"Was there a second meaning to that?" she blushed furiously. "I was kidding."
"Ugh, I have to go." She said and pushed past him, taking the mug with her.
"Rory wait!"
"What?" She replied bitterly, not turning to look at him.
"The mug." He said smirking. She turned around and shoved the mug into his chest, causing it to spill all over him. "Hey! What was that for? This is my favorite shirt!" He said, referring to his Metallica shirt.
"Oops, my mistake." She said mockingly, putting her hand over her mouth. He just nodded and took her by the wrist and dragged her into the storeroom. "Jess, let go of me!" she yelled trying to pull away, he was too strong, yet he wasn't hurting her.
"Look, I don't know what got into you, but I do know for sure that I did nothing to offend you, or if I did it wasn't intentionally. So let go of this grudge and stop acting this way around me, because I am very good at holding grudges, and you are the last person I want to hold a grudge against." (A/N: Jess is really ooc this part, sorry about it.) He said while shutting the door.
She looked at him sadly. "I don't want to do this, alright, I have to go." She said trying to push away.
"Oh no. Wait." He said taking his shirt off.
"Jess, what are you doing." Rory said gasping.
"You're going to wash this." He said, this time he shoved the shirt into her chest. "Enjoy."
"What makes you think I am going to wash this?"
"You dirty it, you wash it." He smirked.
"Ugh, fine." She gave up and left. She left the diner, looking upset, why was she even mad at Jess? He didn't do anything wrong. Maybe she was jealous…of Shane? No way, why would she be jealous of a blond dumb girl like Shane? She couldn't be.
She went home and sat down, turned on the TV and watched, she was to wierded out to think. She sighed when nothing good came up; she kept flipping through the channels hoping something worth watching would just jump out of the screen. Then just like she hoped "That's 70's Show" started and she smiled a bit. It was a good enough show.
Soon enough it was getting dark and Rory wasn't sleepy. Lorelai wouldn't be home until eleven that night because she had a wedding at the inn and Rory didn't have to worry about homework until the next morning cause it was the weekend. Rory was bored from watching TV all day, and she was hungry. She didn't want to go to Luke's because of what happened between Jess and herself earlier that day.
Rory really hoped no one noticed that Jess was shirtless when she they exited the storeroom, because otherwise that could really cause some problems. So since Luke's was out of the question, Rory sighed; the only place Rory could think to get some food at would be All's, Weston's and Doose's.
First of all cross out All's because Lorelai always gets sick after having barely even half a sip of their coffee, let alone their food, Rory was not willing to take that chance. And Weston's only and best thing to eat was sweets and Rory could say for sure she was not up for sweets.
That only left Doose's, she didn't mind snacking on junk food, or buying some bread and some cheese. She guessed Doose's was the best she could do, and all Rory could do was hope Dean wasn't working the night shift.
Rory put on her coat, but didn't bother to put on any shoes because she hadn't taken them off earlier. She walked the short distance that lasted about seven minutes. When she entered, she made her way to the back, where the bread/cereal's were. She grabbed a large box or 'Cheerios' and one bag of bread. As she was headed to the dairy section she bumped into someone, she really hoped it wasn't who she thought it was.
"Sorry, I should have paid more attention to where I was headed." Rory mumbled as she tried to get away.
"Rory?" Dean asked looking down at her, she sighed mentally; she wasn't having any good luck these days. She looked up and met his brown eyes. She noticed they were the same color as Jess' but something about them didn't have what Jess' eyes had. Maybe it was the shield that Jess had, you could never read his eyes, in fact you couldn't read him at all. "Rory?" Dean repeated when she dazed away. She was to wrapped up in her own inner turmoil though to realize Dean was talking to her. Then Dean grew aggravated and shook her while repeating her name, this time louder, "Rory?" He yelled.
Suddenly Rory felt someone shake her, and yell her name again. Then she remembered that she was just talking to Dean. "Huh, oh sorry."
"Yeah…what happened there?" he asked suspiciously.
"Oh, um…I was err…thinking about what to buy next?" She guessed.
"Right."
"Yeah, well I better head off now, nice to see you." She said trying to make an escape.
"Whoa there. Hold on. No one is leaving anywhere."
"What? Why?"
"Because we have to talk."
"Uh oh."
"No, no, not that way."
"Dean, I really have to go…" she trailed off, she was growing nervous.
"No. I gave you about a week, if not more, to decide."
"Decide what?"
"Between me and Jess."
"Dean, this is not a game! It's not like if I leave you, Jess and I will jump into each others arms, and the same goes between the both of us!" she exclaimed.
"What are you saying Rory?" Dean asked.
"I'm saying if I leave you, there is a almost no chance of Jess and I being together."
"What?" he asked now really confused. "Rory, why almost?"
"Um…almost?"
"Yeah, you said, if you leave me there is almost no chance for you and Jess."
"Oh, I meant no chance at all." She clarified.
"You want to breakup?" He asked unsure if that was the right decision. "I love you, don't you feel the same way anymore?"
"That's what I've been trying to figure out." She said, funny how she wasn't crying, usually by this time that water works would have been crazy.
"Oh. Any answers?" He asked looking disappointed.
"I think I-"
"Yes?" He said.
"I don't think I do anymore."
"Oh." He looked like someone just stabbed him.
"I'm so, so sorry Dean. I tried, but I just don't feel anything more then friendship between us." Rory said sadly, looking at the floor.
"How about Jess?"
"Do I love him, you mean?"
"Yeah."
She kept her gaze on a tile on the floor that seemed to catch her interest. "No…" She didn't know if it was a lie or not. "I don't love him as more then my friend no." She continued still unsure if all she was saying was true.
"Oh."
"I just don't think we can be together if I don't feel the same about you." She said looking up at him.
"Yeah."
"Dean…"
"I thought that this…us…was going to last forever, guess I was wrong." He looked down.
"Oh Dean, don't say that." Rory said quietly.
"Well, I guess not everything is going to turn out my way."
"Oh, I know. We can still be friends?" She asked hopefully. He looked up and looked straight into her eyes. "Please?"
He sighed quietly. "Yeah, I would like that." He gave her a sad smile.
"Please know I did truly love you. And I still do, not in the same way, but I do."
"Yeah, thanks."
"I'm really happy we can be friends." She said trying to lighten the mood.
"Yeah." He said glumly.
"Well, this was very um…I should go." She said turning around.
"Wait!" Dean called after her, which caused her to look back at him. He walked up to her and lightly kissed her on the mouth. He pulled away quickly, and pointed behind her. "This was where we shared out first kiss, and I also wanted it to be where we shared out last one." He whispered.
Rory gave him a small smile. "I guess one more wont hurt." She said and kissed him quickly, then pulled away. She grabbed a box of cornstarch, "Souvenir." She smiled a little. He smiled back seeming a bit calmer.
"Bye." He said.
"Bye Dean." Rory said then turned to go buy some other stuff.
Rory got home another twenty minutes later. She had bought all she needed, including a whole basket of junk food. She walked home slowly and quietly feeling sort of guilty that she didn't feel anything after she had broken up with Dean. She really wasn't in-love with him anymore, but how about Jess? Did she love him more then her best friend?
She went into her bedroom and changed into her pajama's to read a bit before heading to bed, after she had put away all of her groceries, ate a cheese sandwich, cereal, drank three cups of coffee, ate two chocolates bars, one bag of chips and twenty-six lickerish sticks. She was full to the top and she swore she would never eat until next week. (Yeah right)
Rory feel asleep almost instantly, she was extremely tired and she had a lot of things happen that day. Suddenly Rory felt someone shake her awake. It was her mom.
"Mom." Rory said groggily. "It's dark, and I'm sleeping." Rory moaned.
"Hun, I think Saint Nick came early this year because she have a whole whack of junk food and cereal and real food inside that room we call a kitchen. It's a miracle!" Lorelai said a tad over dramatically.
"Mom…" Rory whined.
"Hun, when did you get all this stuff?" Lorelai said seriously.
"Santa Clause Mom." Rory rolled here eyes.
"Hun, how many times must a mother tell her daughter that Santa is not real? His real name is Saint Nick."
"I went to Doose's 'cos I was hungry, can I go to bed now?" said asked, although it sounded more like a statement. She turned around so her back was facing her mother. Lorelai wasn't that easy to get rid of, she turned Rory around so that she was in the same position she was in a short moment ago.
"Why didn't you go to Luke's?" Lorelai asked suspiciously.
"Because."
"Because what?"
Rory eyed her mother evilly and sat up in her bed. "Jess and I got into this thing-"
"A fight?" Lorelai asked raising an eyebrow.
"Not exactly, it was to small to be considered a fight, you couldn't even call it half a fight."
"How about a quarter fight?"
"Not even."
"An eighth of a fight?"
"Nope smaller."
"Honey, no fight is ever that small, it was probably just a teeny weenie disagreement."
"Yeah, that'd probably do it." Lorelai just nodded and motioned for her to go on. "Anyways, something happened that I don't remember completely 'cos I'm half asleep," she mumbled, "but somehow I go his Metallica shirt all coffee stained and I had to wash it, and since I didn't yet, I didn't want to go."
"Really? That's why?"
"Yeah." Rory said.
"Alright."
"Yeah." Rory repeated.
"So, anything else happen today?" Lorelai asked wanting to make sure she knew everything.
"Um…well one more thing."
"Are you going to tell me or am I going to have to blackmail you with naked baby pictures?" Lorelai asked smiling wickedly.
Rory's eyes widened at the mention of baby pictures. She immediately shook her head. "No. No. I'll tell you." Rory said quickly.
"That's my girl."
"Ok, so when I was in Doose's buying stuff, I bumped into none other then Dean himself." Lorelai nodded. "And he kept questioning me on my decision on weather I wanted to choose him or Jess, and I told him it wasn't a game and-" Lorelai cut her off.
"Honey, I don't want all the details, the gist would do just fine thank you."
"Oh, okay." Rory said nodding. "Well, we talked and then he asked me if I loved him and I said no then we talked some more then we broke up." Rory breathed in. "But as I was walking away he stopped me right in front of the cornstarch and he kissed me, telling me that he wanted both our first and last kiss there so we kissed and the end." Rory said taking two big breaths.
"So, you and Dean are definitely broken up?" Lorelai asked sadly.
"Yeah." Rory nodded.
"Yet you kissed?"
"For the last time, he wanted our last kiss to be right where our first one was." Rory explained. "See, a couple years back I went to Doose's to buy something that is now blurry in my mind and I saw him and something happened and we kissed there, for the first time, right in front of the cornstarch, and now as I walked past it we kissed in front of it to mark our last kiss mom."
"Oh right, I remember, you told me about it. Right… how could I forget?" Lorelai said.
"Yeah."
Lorelai went back to serious now. "Oh, sweets, you must be heartbroken…you are heartbroken right?"
"Actually, I broke up with him." Rory clarified.
"You…broke up with…Dean?" Lorelai asked disbelievingly.
"Yes."
"Why?"
"I didn't love him." Rory said quietly then she added, "anymore."
"Oh, honey, when did you know you stopped loving him?"
"I think I stopped when Jess came back to town." Rory said even quieter.
"You mean…"
"Yeah." Rory nodded.
"Your…love…Jess?" Lorelai asked, the words not coming out quite right.
"You mean, am I in love with Jess?" Rory asked.
"Yes." Lorelai answered.
Rory stayed quiet for a few minutes then breathed in and answered sadly, "Uh-huh." She breathed in again and continued, "But mom," Rory said crying. "He has her."
"Her?"
"Shane…his girlfriend…blond…beautiful…everything a guy would want."
"Oh honey," Lorelai said hugging her daughter as she cried.
"It's to late, I should of left Dean the second I kissed Jess. The second I knew I liked Jess." Rory said crying more and more. A few minutes later she had calmed down and wasn't crying as much. "You know, just two hours ago I didn't know if I liked him, but now that we are talking, I know I do. I know how Dean felt!" Rory whined.
"Honey…shh…" Lorelai comforted her hugging her. Rory cried a lot, she let all her emotions free, crying on her mother. She felt heartbroken, sad, mad, confused, aggravated, angry, upset; everything that could be used to describe someone unhappy was how Rory Gilmore was feeling.
After an extremely long cry, both Gilmore Girls fell asleep on Rory's bed one crying in her sleep and one really worried.
A/N: Well there you, chapter 12. I am going to warn everybody that chapter 13 will be the last chapter for this story. I seem to have lost all interest in it, and it seems to be bugging me. I am going to be working on my other story Teach Me Tonight Version II and I am trying to come up with another one. It also seems that my readers are not enjoying the story as much as they did in the first few chapters and never forget that bad reviews are always welcome, I would really appreciate it if you told me the truth about how you feel.
I'm looking for ten reviews and then I will update. Ten is not much, and it only takes like 30 seconds, or less, to write one. Thank you.
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