Twelve

Pain. I was aching all over, it hurt to breathe, I groaned I opened my eyes and quickly shut them again. Where was I? I reopened them and looked around I couldn't move my whole body was aching. I managed to turn my head to the side and groaned again, it was so painful to move. I couldn't remember what had happened after leaving the house, it was all a blur. I saw Derek fast asleep in the chair next to me, he had my hand in his and hadn't let go of it even though he fell asleep. I turned my head to my left, Freya was in the other chair on her phone, "Freya," I said. My voice was so quiet for a second I didn't know if she had heard me, she looked up at me, and as soon as she saw I was awake she jumped out and wrapped her arms around me hugging me tight.

"Lissa," she whispered. "You scared us, god what were you thinking?!" I didn't get a chance to reply because she hugged me even tighter. "I'm so glad you're okay, I love you Lissa. I best get the doctor."

She left the room and came back in with a doctor who checked me over, "you will be in pain for a few days, we will give you some medication to help with the pain but I'd like to keep you in for another 48 hours," she said.

I nodded, I sat up and groaned in pain, I sat up and watched Derek, he hadn't even woken up, he looked so tired. I wondered how long he had been sat there and how long he had to sleep because he looked rough. "He hasn't left your side you know," I heard someone say. I turned to look at the door and mom was walking in, "oh my baby girl." She shut the door quietly and came over to my bed.

"I'm sorry," I cried. She pulled me into her arms and let me cry, "I didn't know how it happened I'm sorry."

"Honey you have nothing to be sorry for," mom whispered. "It's our fault that we didn't tell you what we were, I thought I was protecting you from what you were in truth I was hurting you. Your sister told me you ran away the night of the accident because you thought you were a danger to us, honey you aren't we are going to learn how to control it."

"But I hurt you" I whispered. "I don't want anything to do with my magic if all it does is hurt the people I love, you could have died mom."

"Felicity I won't let you reject your magic any longer, we will learn, you will learn. Your sister was born to protect you, just like you were born to protect your sister, whatever is happening with you links to her and vice versa. Your heart is pure Felicity."

"What if I can't control it?" I asked quietly. I looked over at Derek and smiled a little, I was so lucky to have him.

"I want you to understand something Felicity," mom said softly. "I didn't try and break you and Derek apart to hurt you, when I saw you with him for the first time I couldn't have been more happier, you were smiling for the first time since we left this place. The way you look at him and even more the way he looks at you. You were right the other day when you said if it was a crush love I would have let it play out, I knew that you were falling for him hard and fast. I couldn't understand what you saw in him, his family is horrible but I suppose you aren't with him for his family. I love you Felicity and I know this may not make sense to you but I was trying to protect you."

"Why didn't you want us to be together?" I asked curiously.

"Your trigger for your powers is love," she said. "When you were 4 you caused a storm, we hid your powers from that moment onwards. Whatever happened that night you managed to trigger your powers."

"He told me he loves me, I mean I already knew that we both did, but we never said the words because we both knew it, but he figured after hearing what he said when you and dad were eavesdropping that I could do with hearing him say it," I said. "Are you okay?"

"Yes, the doctors cleared me the day after they brought you in, they didn't mind letting me go as I was just going to be sat by your bedside," she said softly. "I'm going to take your sister home, she's not really left you since she found you 5 days ago, she went to school and comes to the hospital. Is there anything I can get you whilst I go home?"

"My blanket," I said. "Some pjs too, I don't want to be stuck in this hospital gown." Mom leaned down and kissed my head she stood up and walked towards the door she opened it, "mom is dad mad at me?"

"No honey, he's been here to, evidently we all took turns watching you," mom said. "He's at work, I'll get him to come by after." I nodded and she smiled softly, "I love you Felicity."

She shut the door, and I turned on my side and laid back down, I brought Derek's hand up to my lips and kissed his hand. I moved my head closer to his hand and just watched him, I didn't know how long I sat there and just watched him. I saw his eyes flutter open and he looked at me, "your awake," he said softly.

"Come lay with me," I said softly. I moved to give him room, he kicked off his shoes and got under the blanket with me, I laid my head on his arms and he held me tightly. "Thank you for being here."

"Where else would I be?" He asked with a chuckle. "Why didn't you run to me?"

"I wanted to," I said softly. "But that is the first place they would have looked, so I went to the cliff, I stayed there and it was fine for a few hours then something attacked me. I was unconscious I don't remember anything other than waking up here a few hours ago. What happened?"

"It was a week before anyone raised the flag to us that you were missing your dad had filed a missing persons report and Freya was at the hospital 24/7 so she didn't realise once she did she got the rest of us together. We searched all night for you, at about 1am we all came back we hadn't found you. I was outside and Freya came to talk to me she asked if there was a place you would go that meant something to us," he explained. "I thought of the cliff but I didn't think you would manage to climb up but you did, and I found you in bushes muddy, wet and cold, you were bleeding something had hurt you. I brought you to the hospital that was 5 days ago, clearly that week you were doing who knows what you needed to rest."

I sighed and turned around to face him in his arms, I had to be careful I hadn't pulled the IV out of my arm, "I'm scared," I admitted. "I hurt my mom, I threw her magically down the stairs and against a wall, I'm a witch and love was the trigger."

"Your dad told me after I yelled at him," Derek admitted.

"I was serious in that note Derek, I felt like a danger to everyone around me," I said pressing my lips into a thin line. "Everyone is telling me that I can learn to control it, but Derek what if I can't? What if I accidently hurt someone again you can't just chain me to something like you do with wolves, witches are new territory to all of us."

"Do you remember what you said to me that night? How you love my eyes because they've seen real pain," he said quietly. I nodded, everything I said was true his eyes were the things I loved the most even though I knew what they meant. "Well let's for a moment pretend you being a witch are my eyes, you don't need to be self-conscious, it's okay to be scared too but remember you said we are better together, and that still applies to now we are better together." I pressed my lips to his and kissed him softly, "I'd do anything for you remember that." I nodded, I closed my eyes enjoying the feel of him being wrapped around me, I was still so tired I yawned, "try and get some more sleep."

"I don't want to," I whispered.

"I'll still be here when you wake up, try and get some sleep beautiful girl," he whispered. He kissed my head and I buried my head into his chest.

I woke up a few hours later I could hear talking, I was still buried in Derek's chest, I could hear talking, I yawned and rubbed my eyes, I opened them up and looked up, Derek was smiling at me, "are you feeling better?" I nodded, "well good because there is a hospital room full of people." I sat up and winced I was hurting again, I looked around to see Lydia, Jordan, Malia, Scott, Stiles and Liam all sat around the hospital bed, "are you okay?"

I shook my head, "hurts," I mumbled. I reached over and hit the call button, I looked down at my side and the hospital gown was red and wet, "I'm bleeding Derek." I couldn't help but sound a little panicked, he got out the bed pulling back the quilt I had been bleeding quite a bit, I looked down to see my legs covered in scratches as I looked at myself I couldn't help but scream slightly I was covered in scratches and cuts, I ran a hand through my hair shaking, "what happened to me?" I spun around in a circle trying to find a mirror was I like this all over?

"Felicity calm down," someone said. I turned to see my dad grabbing my hand and keeping them by my side, I looked at him, "you need to calm down or they will sedate you, sit down on the bed." I did as he said and looked up at him, he leaned down to look at me. "I know you are feeling scared Felicity, and you don't remember what happened to you but all you need to focus on is getting better and then we will figure out the how. Now the doctor needs to look at the bleeding wound who do you want to stay in the room?"

"You and Lydia," I said.

Derek leaned down and kissed my head, "I'll be right outside."

They left and the doctor came in, told me to lay on the side and she opened up the back of the gown revealing only my side. "Your stitches have re-opened, we are going to need to re-stitch them you lost a bit of blood but you should be okay. I'm going to numb the area and re-do them ok?" She said. I nodded I felt gel being put on my side and I flinched slightly, "it will take a minute or two to numb I'll grab the equipment."

She left the room and I looked up at my dad and Lydia, "thank you Lydia for staying, some things Derek shouldn't see," I chuckled. "I have to ask, when I was gone, did you get a sense? I mean did you-"

"Did I feel you about to die?" She finished. "No, you weren't about to die, maybe in another 2 days yes but they caught you just in time Felicity and yes your in a bad way right now, but the great thing about the time we live in we have doctors that can help, although it sucks you did not get your magical healing from your family. For what it's worth everyone was looking for you."

I looked up at my dad and then back down at the floor, "I had hurt mom I was scared I hadn't done anything like that before, it shocked me, and nobody was around to explain it, I suppose it was more punishment to myself, I didn't think I could be around anyone in case I hurt them. Except Derek I mean he's strong enough to be able to deal with whatever I did, he's been with us every step of the way so I wasn't scared but I also knew that would be the first place people would look for me." I looked at Lydia, "how did you learn to be a banshee?"

"With the help of our friends, mainly Stiles he was very relentless," Lydia smiled. "We all have had learning curves, Scott turning into a werewolf and then a true alpha, Liam has just recently turned, Stiles was unpossessed, Malia had to learn to be human again, and Jordan had to discover what he truly was. He only found out because someone set him on fire in a dead pool. Anyway my point is we all have to discover and learn about something, and we all help each other, you and Freya are no different. You are part of our friends maybe not Freya but she's your other half and we will help you. You can learn and we will all be there to help."