Alex:
I couldn't believe what I had heard. They told me about the day they gave me up... no lost me. I was taken. Sebastian took me from my family. They loved me, he didn't. I felt rage wash through my body as I listened to everyone explain their story of that day. Sebastian had taken me and knocked out my family that loved me. I felt something drain out of me.
Sebastian has beaten me over the years and lied to me. He didn't love me over the years. He never cared and he still doesn't. He just used me as a revenge toy so my parents would be upset that they lost their only child. Why did he send me back after all these years though? Thinking that he could use me because he molded me into what he always wanted.
I'm still tied to the chair with everyone around me but I don't struggle. I don't really move. They waited for me to say something. I hung my head for a moment before looking back up.
"You didn't save me from Sebastian when you found me." I said slowly. Shock and confusion was written on all of their faces.
"But honey someone notified the Clave of where you were located." Clary said.
"That was one of Sebastian's followers that said that." I said sadly. I was having trouble getting the words out.
"Why would someone that followed Sebastian turn in his location?" Carter asked.
"Because Sebastian told him to." I said quietly.
"Why would he want that?" Simon asked with his arm around Izzy protectively.
"Because he wanted you to find me... or us." I said. They all gave me confusing looks. I shook my head trying to find the words. "After he took me he took me to a warlock that changed my memories of that night making it seem like you gave me up. I trained for years hoping that one day I will be strong enough to come and make you regret giving me up. Sebastian had/has other plans though. Sebastian sent us here to get close to the Clave's most successful shadowhunters. If you were gone then there wouldn't be anyone that could stop us from taking over. He comes sees us every once in a while to see how everything is going but I started to get attached after a few weeks."
I looked at Malachi in the eye. He had so much sadness, hurt, and betrayal in his eyes. I looked away and continued.
"He took me back to the warlock that day to get an even more powerful spell cast on me that made me hate you more than ever." I finished with my vision blurry and it took everything I had to not cry. I felt their stares but I didn't look at them. I didn't want to see the betrayal and disappointment in their eyes.
I felt someone put their hand under my chin forcing me to look at them. Dad is standing in front of me with sadness and love in his eyes. He kissed my forehead lovingly and I let a small smile make its way to my lips. But it was whipped from my face when I saw Malachi standing there with his arms crossed in front of his chest. His face was blank but his eyes showed so much hurt and pain.
"I didn't mean to hurt you." I said shaking my head.
"Yeah you did." Malachi says.
"I'm sorry." I say softly and I know he hears me because his eyes soften.
Out the corner of my eye, I saw Kory with his scarlet hair hanging in front of his eyes and his blackish-blue eyes pinned to the floor. I narrow my eyes at him. "...A little fairy boy..." is what Magnus said who was with Sebastian when he took me. I felt the anger inside of me burn even hotter. Kory has always taken care of me. When Sebastian would beat me, he would bandage me up and put a healing rune on. I thought he cared for me but he help kidnap me.
I reached my hand into my back pocket to get a small knife that I always kept on me. I kept quite a few knives on me for protection. I started quietly cutting the ropes that tied my hands behind my back. I wanted revenge on him and Sebastian. They took me away from my family and made me come here in a plan to hurt.
The ropes fell to the ground and I saw Malachi lunge for me. I was too fast for him to grab me. I ran straight for Kory. I grabbed him and threw him out of his chair. Simon and Carter grabbed my arms but I threw them off. I ran to were Kory landed on the floor. I grabbed the collar of his shirt before I started hitting him repeatedly. I felt someone try to grab me to try to drag me off Kory. I threw my fist back and it connected with the persons nose sending them gasping off me. I hit Kory once more before standing.
I look around and almost everyone is breathing heavy. Dad is holding his nose while mom is putting a healing rune on him and cleaning the blood. Dad lets his nose goes after it stops bleeding. Malachi glares at me from where he stands near the seat.
"See what you did." Malachi said. Dad touches his nose and winces a little. Clary examines it for a moment.
"I think it's broken." She says. Malachi throws me another glare before stomping out the library.
"That's my daughter alright." Dad says smiling and jumping up to give me a hug. Everyone looks at him in shock. "What my daughters got some punch in her." He says with a little laugh. I try to laugh but I'm too upset Malachi is mad at me and the family I thought loved me for the past nine years doesn't.
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I stood outside Malachi's room. I wanted to knock but I was afraid he wouldn't want to see me or that he would yell at me. I was about to knock when the door flew open. Malachi stood in the open doorway. He had his arms crossed in front on his chest.
"What do you want?" I flinch back at his stern tone in his voice. His eyes were blazing with anger and betrayal. I knew he was mad that I didn't tell him anything but he didn't understand. I shook my head.
"I came to say I'm sorry for not telling you." His eye's never change as they stare into mine. They never soften. I didn't want him to hate me. I cared for him so much maybe even loved him.
"I don't give a shit what you say Alex," he hisses out my name like it was poison. "It doesn't change anything. How could you turn on your own family like that?" I look down at my hands not wanting to look into his eyes.
"I didn't think any of you wanted me. I thought you all abandoned me." I said sadly.
"That's Bullshit, Alex!" He yelled. I cringe at the anger in his voice. Something in me snapped and I felt my own anger run through me. I snapped my gaze up to his and Malachi seemed to freeze as he saw my anger in my eyes.
"It wasn't my fault Sebastian rearranged my memories! The only thing I remember about that night is that you abandoned me. Which wouldn't be wrong in your case!" I yelled. I regretted the last part once it rolled off my lips but it was true the only person that abandoned me that night was Malachi because he made the choice to let me face Sebastian for years alone. I saw the hurt and pain flash in his eyes.
"I'm sorry," he said softly which only made my blood boil. He didn't forgive me what I said I was sorry so why should I?
"You didn't know what could have happened! Sebastian could have killed me that first week instead of brainwashing me and It would have all been your fault!" I yelled at him. I felt Malachi grab me by my hips and pull me into his room. I heard the door bang shut before I was roughly thrown against it and Malachi's body pressed up against me.
"Never talk about your death. I couldn't live without you." He said as his nose trailed up and down my neck. I was confused. He was just yelling at me and now he was kissing my neck like nothing had happened. "I love you." Malachi said against my neck. I froze. He loves me? Did I love him back I know I liked him but could I love him.
Malachi started sucking on my pulse. I leaned my head back on the door so he had more room to work. He kissed up and down my neck and I knew I would have a mark there. He pulled away to look me in the eyes. They were filled with lust and love.
"You don't have to say it back just know I love you." Malachi said. It was the first time of him saying he loved me. He understood if I wouldn't say it back because I wasn't ready or didn't know just how I felt yet. I felt my heart melt he had said he loved me. I got butterflies in my stomach and I felt myself falling for him.
I didn't need to think it over anymore. I knew I loved him and I would never want to be without him.
"I love you too." Malachi looked at me with wide eyes. I could see the shock behind them before they softened into love. He pressed against me to get closer.
"Say it again," he commanded. I smiled at him before saying that I loved him again. He mirrored my smile and I saw so much love in his eyes before he crashed our lips together. This kiss wasn't like the others. This kissed had so much passion and love.
