Chapter 11

How to say Goodbye…

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Allison's POV

Oh, I am never going to let her live that down. Lily totally pulled a damsel in distress, ha! Man, I wish I could have recorded that, it was priceless!

I had hidden a couple feet behind Lily, in the shadows, while she listened to the people in the room talk. I was kinda proud of her sneaky ninja skills, until she ruined it and exposed her hiding place. She still has much to learn from me, the Stealthy Ninja Queen. Well, having slight telepathic abilities could help with that, but shush!

I snickered under my breath as I forcefully yanked Lily up off the ground and broke into a sprint back to the TARDIS, all before the Doctor yanked up the curtain. The whole action may have been possible thanks to some slight altering of time, nothing too big, just lengthening a few milliseconds. It wasn't illegal or anything, sort of a party trick among Timelords.

"Allison?" Lily exclaimed while still being dragged by me.

"Last I checked, that's my name." I said with a smirk on my face.

"Um, how much of that did you hear?" Lily asked after we were a good distance away from where he Doctor was. I slowed to a walk and Lily walked beside me.

"All of it," I replied. My smirk grew even larger when I saw the look of pure embarrassment on her face. "But my favorite part was probably the little damsel action you got in at the end." I stated, wiping nonexistent tears of laughter from the corners of my eyes.

"Whatever, let's just get off this planet." Lily said while rubbing her elbows. I know that move, it meant that she was beyond scared shitless.

"Alright." I complied as we continued walking. Though something wasn't right in my head, and after a few minutes, I voiced my concerns.

"But, uh, why didn't you just run?" I asked, breaking the deafening silence.

"What do you mean?" Lily questioned, genuinely confused.

"You could have easily just yanked that cord off of your legs and booked it away. So, why didn't you?"

"I don't know… Maybe because I was terrified."

"See, that's what doesn't make sense to me."

"What?" Lily asked as if I somehow offended her. I was just stating what I was thinking, I don't know why she getting snippy.

"Were you really so freaking terrified of being caught by the Doctor and Martha, that it petrified you?" Something just didn't add up here.

"Yes, and I probably wouldn't have freaked out if you hadn't made me follow those stupid rules about avoiding the Doctor." I stopped abruptly in the empty hallway that was dimly lit.

"Those rules weren't stupid." I said, defending what I had said from earlier today. I could smell a fight, but I didn't do anything to stop it.

"Well, then why can't the Doctor know about you?"

"He just can't! Okay?!" I snapped. Why couldn't she just understand, I cannot be seen by the Doctor, if he knew about my existence it would throw everything in this universe off. Lily just stared at me silently for a while before she finally just went to a wall and slid down to the floor. I groaned inwardly before going over to the opposite wall and sitting. Oh, why did I snap at her, she's my best friend?

"I wanna go home." Lily stated after a few minutes of just staring blankly at nothing.

"Okay…" I said, looking up from fiddling with my sonic. "Let's just get back to the TARDIS and you can head home to your apart-"

"No!" Lily yelled, interrupting me. "I want to go home. I want to go back to the real world."

"Why?" I asked. Why would she want to go back to such a boring world?

"Because I like the normal world, where people aren't evil murdering robots, or space rhinos, or huge dying faces. I want the normal world where I can go into a room, without there being a bloody skeleton there. Is that too much to ask?" Lily exclaimed, a single tear slipped from her eye. I knew that she needed help and she really needed to seriously talk to someone, but I, being the little shit I was, didn't do that.

"Well, do you see any glowing doors?" I asked, gesturing around me. If I could go back and change anything in my life, this would be it. I would smack myself upside the head for saying that, because my friend needed me but I was just wallowing in my own self-pity and unresolved crap. "We're stuck here."

"I know that!" Lily yelled, when she spoke again her voice was much calmer. "It's just I miss that place, and I'm terrified that we may be stuck here, forever." she said before ducking her head between her knees.

"What's so bad about sticking around here?" I asked. Lily head shot up and new tears streaked down her cheeks.

"Well, for one- as you said, we don't belong here. We just popped up here and the universe had to compensate for our weirdness. Two- what if we die here?" Lily explained but before I could open my mouth to answer, she continued. "I mean, back in the real world, I knew where I was going. There were two places that I knew I would either go, upstairs or down. I was personally hoping for upstairs, but here? I don't know what will happen if we die here, will we wake up in the real world? We just cease to exist? I don't know!" Lily said as even more tears flowed down her cheeks. I didn't say anything, partly because I was terrified of upsetting her more and partly because I didn't know what to say. "And back home, at least I had an idea. Oh, and three- what if we're dead in the real world, or in a coma, or what if that light was an explosion and we're dying right now? What if-"

Lily was interrupted as I wrapped my arms around her. I had quickly moved over to her when my sisterly sense told me it was time to intervene. She curled her head into my shoulder, staining my coat with her sobs. Man, this coat was just getting drenched in tears. Wow, even my attempts to cheer myself didn't work, how can I possibly help Lily?

I didn't know what to do so I just stroked her head as she cried even more. Oh, why didn't I watch more chick-flics back in the real world so I would know how to deal with this? Oh, right, because they're terrible.

I had a basic idea of what to do so I did that. I just muttered, "it's gonna be okay", multiple times. I wasn't sure if that helped or not, but I really hope so.

Lily had finally ran out of tears about three minutes later. She dropped her arms from wrapped around her stomach and finally looked up at me.

"You okay?" I asked, holding onto her shoulders so that she would look at me. Sisterly mode activated.

"Yeah, it's just some stuff that I'd been putting away." Lily said while wiping her eyes with the back of her hand.

"Well, you can't think about 'what if's. You can't just live in fear. If we die, we die, that's fine. People do it all the time. But we can't think about that, alright?" Lily just stared at her knees. "Hey, it's gonna be alright. Okay?" Lily nodded. "And if you really want to find this thing and get home, let's go find it." I said with a smile. Lily's eyes lit up.

"Really?" She asked in a childlike voice.

"Heck yeah, we're gonna find that thing that zapped us here, and punch it in the face." I said. "But we'll probably have to go back to the TARDIS to find it." I pulled Lily up off the ground. It was surprisingly easy, thank you Cross Fit.

We made our way back to the TARDIS, not running into anymore Timelords or cat creatures. I had given up on trying to figure the Cat Nurse's name anyway. I hanged up my now super tearstained coat and walked over to the console. I snapped my fingers and the door closed as Lily shuffled off to bed barefoot, she had kicked off her sandals the moment the TARDIS door opened.

I was just about to send us into flight when something stopped me. I quickly ran around, setting the TARDIS to appear right next to where Boe was. I never got to say a proper goodbye.

I stepped out and closed the door, not bothering with shrugging on my coat. It was night time now, so Novice Hame (that's her name! Ugh, that has been driving me crazy) wouldn't see me even if she was still awake. I walked over to where Boe was laid out on the floor.

His eyes were closed so it almost looked like he was sleeping, but I knew better. I laid a hand on Boe's still warm cheek, my eyes glistening with tears that I wouldn't let fall.

"Goodbye, Boe… And I can't wait to run with you, Jack." I said, smiling, before standing up and walking back to my TARDIS.

The doors closed behind me automatically as I walked over to the console and sent us into space. My TARDIS hummed slightly and that made me cheer up just a smidge. Even though my TARDIS was a machine, he's always been there for me. Yes, he. I remembered that in my fourth regeneration, I would call my TARDIS, "Kos-Sigma"; the name was made up of parts of the Academy names' of my two best friends on Gallifrey. I would refer to my TARDIS as that so it felt like whenever I traveled alone, my friends were there with me.

I snapped out of my memories and quickly set to the controls, searching for whatever it was that sent us to the Who-niverse in the first place.