Deidara continued to stare at his bedroom wall, too tired to do anything else as he lied in his bed. It had already been a day since Sasori had disappeared and no one has heard from him, nor could they reach him.
No one bothered Deidara, knowing he didn't want to be bothered in the first place. His mother would make attempts to talk to him but he just tuned her out. She left food one time and came back two hours later to find it untouched with her son still in the same spot.
He hadn't eaten in over a day and she was beginning to worry, almost to the point of tears. She had never seen her eldest son so broken. It was like his soul was stolen and whoever took it had no remorse for the crime they had done. Her husband tried to reassure her but she knew that she wasn't the one who needed it.
Kin wasn't upset or even sad, he was angry beyond belief. His son had been hurt beyond belief and no one could help him, and it was all because of that stupid fiancé of his. He had asked Deidara in the beginning if he thought it was a good choice and the blond had said yes. It was his fault as much as the Akasuna's.
Kin had decided that once he had found the redhead he wouldn't let him hurt his son again.
"Dei, I brought you some food," Izanami said as she slowly opened the door to her son's room. "I got your favorite; oatmeal with cinnamon," She said, trying to bring her sons spirits up.
The blond didn't even flinch. He hadn't gotten a wink of sleep and he still wasn't tired. He just felt the pain as it festered inside him.
Izanami sighed. "You have to get over it, Deidara. You can't let this run your life."
She was only greeted by silence. "... I began wondering why he didn't show up," A small voice said through the emptiness. "Did I say something? Did he not want children as much as I did? Did he play me from the beginning? What was so wrong for him to disappear without a word?"
The brunette was about to speak up but was interrupted by her husband entering the room. "Deidara, I have to show you something."
Deidara just snuggled closer to his pillow, not interested with what his father wanted at all. "I don't care," He whispered.
Kin ignored his words and put the papers in front of his son's face. They were receipts. More specifically a receipt for an airplane ticket to Sunagakure. Deidara slowly read the information and it felt like his heart broke even further when he saw his former lovers signature there at the bottom as he had payed with a credit card.
Just the truth right in front of his face, that his fiancé had left him made him go into a hysteria. He remembered crying and his parents trying to calm him down. His mother demanding what his father had shown him. The argument they got in to. The screaming. As he felt his younger siblings peaking through the door to see what was going on.
It had only taken one person to tear this family apart and Deidara would never forgive him for all the agony he had caused.
-Later-
Soon, Deidara had cried himself to sleep and Kin was doing everything in his power to trying to find Sasori and to make him pay. Deidara honestly didn't care what he did anymore, as long as he didn't have to see his ex-fiancés face.
Everyone who was at the wedding knew what happened and they blamed the blond for falling for the puppet master. No one really pitied him. Maybe some empathy but they all saw it as his fault. He chose to love a man like that and that's what caused him pain. It was all his fault, which made Deidara want to disappear for his terrible mistake.
-Dreams-
Deidara was suffocating. He couldn't get a wisp of oxygen at all and it felt like his lungs would collapse at any second. Water was all around him and it was dark. He reached out, trying to at least signal someone of his distress. His eyes opened only to find more darkness.
It felt like he wouldn't last much longer and his eyes were slowly closing. He felt a pair of arms grab him but air still didn't come to him. He felt himself be placed on the ground as gently as possible and he felt something pumping his chest and soft mumbling.
"Come on... Wake up, damn it!"
A pair of lips sealed his own and he could breath again once air flowed through them. He began coughing and he looked through his half closed eyes to his savior looking down at him with teary brown eyes and a worried face.
"Deidara...!"
The said blond woke up with a start and realized he was panting and sweating. He didn't sleep very long. Only four hours and it was now around midnight. Deidara could feel the sunken sensation in his body and he realized he was hungry but he didn't care. He just wanted to be forgotten for his actions.
He stared out the open french-doors to his balcony and realized that there was no moon. A new moon. A new beginning. That sounded nice. To be rid of Sasori once and for all. It almost made him smile, even though he knew he wasn't going to in a long while.
Very slowly, he sat up in his bed and looked at his surroundings. Sasori didn't even bother to take his puppets, something that he valued more than anything. Deidara looked at the ring that was left on his nightstand. He didn't even know why his mother brought it up to him; to rub it in his face for his mistake? Probably.
But why would Sasori leave that as well? From what he knew his parents were one of the most important people to him.
Deidara scoffed and threw the ring across the room. It probably wasn't even his mothers. He most likely bought it. Deidara stood up and stared at the dark night. There was nothing left for him and he was glad with that.
He looked down at his bed with indifferent eyes. That's where he had lain and pitied himself like a cat having it's toy taken away. Pathetic.
Deidara wanted to get rid of anything that reminded him of Sasori, just to get rid of the pain he felt. He headed for the bathroom but stopped when he heard a click. He turned around, eyes alert as he stared at his balcony. Someone was climbing it and it looked like they were having trouble. Deidara grabbed the first thing he saw which was a lamp and threw it at the intruder causing him to lose his grip slightly but he still pulled himself up.
"Deidara?" The blond's eyes widened and he could feel tears fill them. Tears of anger and hatred. "You're okay?"
The bomber looked at the man who stood him up and clenched his fists. "What're you doing back here?" A shadow covered his face as he held himself back from attacking the redhead.
"I... I came to make sure you were okay."
Deidara scoffed as the tears now ran freely down his cheeks. "I am far from okay, Sasori. Now get out before I call my father," He warned, already turning for the door knob.
"Dei, please let me try to explain," Sasori said as he tried to get to the blond's side as quickly as possible.
Deidara bit his lip as he felt like he was collapsing. He was too tired to get away from the man he once loved. "Wh-why did you not show up, un? People were really worried and so was I... I waited for you for four hours out there. Where were you?"
Sasori stopped in his tracks and Deidara finally got a good look at him. His left cheek was covered by a bandage, you could see he was still in his clothing from the day before, but the tux was gone, only leaving the white shirt that was torn in random places, also revealing more bandages. Where had he gone?
"Did you find yourself in a mosh pit, un?"
-The day before-
Sasori began wandering around the church, trying to find a quiet place to think. It only felt right if he had told his parents what was going on in his life. He couldn't really talk to himself in the ceremony space so he settled by sitting on a bench by the graveyard.
"I met someone... He's really nice and energetic and he's the exact opposite of me, but... I love him. I wish I could ask you guys if for your blessing and all but... I can't. I can only hope that you're happy with my decision." Sasori decided that there was nothing left to say about his life and stood up. "Bye... Mom. Dad. I'll see you again, one day."
He turned around and gasped as a fist was connected with his stomach, knocking the wind out of him. He fell onto his knees, coughing and gasping for air as he attacker watched from above. It felt like no time when he was thrown in to the back of a van and was tied and blindfolded.
"What did he want us to do now?"
"Don't know. He just said to keep him alive until tomorrow afternoon, is all," One muttered bored.
"Let's go get some food," A new voice entered and the other two voices agreed.
Sasori tried to make a sound to alert anyone but he was soon gagged and he felt the vehicle moving to a new destination. The van was hot and sticky and it smelled of alcohol and smoke.
"I'm bored. Can I play with him now?" The third voice entered.
"Sure, just stop bugging me," One muttered.
The next thing Sasori knew, he was kicked straight in the chest, causing a him to grunt a bit in pain. "Hey. can I use my new knife?" Sasori felt himself panicking at that. What were these people planning on doing to him?
His phone buzzed in his pocket and he tried to silence it but someone picked it up.
"Hm? 'Where are you?' Oh, this is for the wedding." Sasori heard a few clicking sounds and realized they were texting back the person.
"Whad'ya say?"
"That, 'I'll be there soon,' or something like that."
"Boring~ I'm gonna go play with my new toy!"
-Soon-
Sasori didn't bother flinching as another cut was associated with his chest. He thought the spot would be raw by now. "Aw~! He's not moving around anymore... Maybe I killed him?" The voice chuckled before the knife was brought down against his cheek. "Red's such a pretty color. I wish I had red hair," The voice mumbled and Sasori could have swore the man was pouting. He only sounded to be in his early twenties at the most.
Sasori was sure he was about to pass out from the blood lose but it stopped right away as a fist came across his cheek. More blows were followed and he gave a gasp when he heard a crack from his chest. He didn't even want to describe the pain.
"I think I broke something," The younger male laughed out in joy, "Let's hear some more!"
Another rough kick and Sasori felt yet another crack and he bit his lip to prevent himself from groaning in pain.
"I think it's time. Let him out," The leader of the group commanded and he was thrown out of the moving vehicle.
"Oh, my goodness! Nurse!"
When Sasori woke up again he realized he was in an uncomfortable bed and there were tubes sticking out of his arms. "You're awake. Good. You had some pretty bad damage yesterday. It'd be best if you didn't move around too much," A nurse said as she walked up to him with a small smile on her face.
"I... I need to go," He rasped out and the woman just shook her head.
"I'm sorry, sir, but you can't. You had two broken ribs and you're recovering from blood loss-"
"I need to see someone. Please?" He almost begged. He had no idea how much time had passed but he needed to find Deidara before he freaked out.
"I'll go check with the doctor to see if you can leave," The nurse muttered under her breath before leaving.
She left and Sasori waited. He looked at the clock and saw it was five o'clock. He cursed silently to himself when he realized it was already the day after the wedding. He knew it wasn't morning because it was bright outside but the sun would soon set. He had to get out of there.
As gently as possible, he sat up and got out of bed, almost making him collapse. He pulled the wires out of his arm and walked across the room, trying to find some clothes to wear because he refused to walk around in a hospital gown. He realized his clothes from before were siting there neatly folded on a chair so he quickly changed in to those. The only thing that was missing was the tux.
He began walking steadily to the door and opened it. There were only a few nurses out in the hall so he began moving. He was in a large hospital and it nearly took ten minutes to locate the exit at the pace he was going at.
Once he found it he got out as quickly as possible and began heading back to his lovers house. He had to see if Deidara was okay. What if they hurt him, too? He didn't want to think about it.
He vaguely recognized where he was and began walking back to the more rich area of Iwa. He got very curious looks but not one bothered him. It was still hot and Sasori began feeling woozy. He didn't lose that much blood, did he? All he knew was that he needed to get water before he passed out. The heat was unbearable.
He managed to turn into an alleyway before he threw up any contents left in his stomach from the day before. He continued to walk, still bent on finding his fiancé.
He felt around his pockets and sighed when he still had his wallet but his phone was gone. He took out the leathered object and saw how much money he had. Only two dollars. He cursed, wanting to bang his head against the wall. Why didn't he have more? This was probably only good for some water, or a ketchup packet. He wished Iwagakure wasn't so expensive.
He looked around some more and found his credit card was gone, also his debit. When did he lose those? Swearing to himself once more, he found a store and bought a bottle of water with his two dollars.
"Are you okay, sir?" Sasori looked up to see the cashier looking at him worried. "I could call the hospital," She suggested as she reached for the phone.
Sasori shook his head. "No, I just left there," He answered as he left the convenience store. He was still a far ways from his destination.
It soon turned to night time but Sasori kept on walking. He wanted to just fall down and pass out but he wouldn't allow himself to do that; he couldn't. Not until he found Deidara.
Hours passed and Sasori almost cried out in joy when he saw the blond's house. It was close but he was still tired from his long journey, so he paced himself.
Once he was at the gate, he pushed a button so he could talk to someone. "Who is it?"
"Sasori Akasuna."
There was a short pause, then a short answer. "Denied, now move along."
Sasori looked at the little speaker confused and pushed the button again. "But they know me. Even ask Deidara! Why won't you let me in?"
There was a sigh as if the man wasn't getting paid enough for his job. "It says on my paper to not allow a Sasori Akasuna on here. And to alert Kin-sama. Now, I haven't told him yet, so I'm giving you a two minute head start to get out of here."
"Why can't I go in?" He almost screamed.
"I heard some guy didn't show up at the wedding and nobody knows where he is. He also seemed to mess everything up because he was the groom."
Sasori's eyes widened. He didn't even think about that. His absence would have caused a distress to people. If Kin found him he would be as good as dead and Deidara... What was he going to tell Deidara? He had no idea what kind of condition the bomber was even in and he was in such a rush to go find him.
"'Kay, I'm going," He lied as he walked away.
He hid in a bush and found a rock. Half an hour later, he threw the rock at the camera and it broke the lens. He seriously didn't care, he just wanted to see if Deidara was okay.
After climbing the gate, he quietly maneuvered around the lawn till he saw his lover's balcony. There was a large trellis under the balcony and there were only a few vines growing so he should have been able to get up with ease. Once he was climbing over the railing an object hit him square in the face causing him to almost swear and lose his grip but he managed to pull himself up.
"Deidara?"
-Present-
"Why should I believe you, un? My dad even found paper work of you buying a ticket and going back to Suna," Deidara near screamed and Sasori tried to cover his mouth, only to have an elbow jab at his broken ribs.
The redhead cried out in pain and collapsed to his knees, panting heavily. "Y-you have no reason to believe me but you know me, Dei-"
"Don't you dare call me that," Deidara hissed as tears fell from his eyes.
"You know that I would never hurt you," Sasori finished as he looked up at the blond.
"What about children? It seemed that since you didn't want one, we wouldn't have one, un. It was like my input didn't even matter. Maybe we aren't meant for each other, Sasori. Maybe that's why we're in this fucked up situation, in the first place!" Deidara screamed as he cried even more. Sasori wanted to calm down his lover but it seemed that Deidara didn't want that. "G-go... Go now before someone finds you," Deidara whispered almost pleadingly as he turned around and walked to his bed before lying down.
Sasori shakily stood up and limped over to the blond. "I'm not going anywhere, Deidara. I'm staying here till we get this sorted out," He retorted as he sat down on the bed and Deidara just cried in to his pillow.
"I won't let you hurt me again," He rasped out before turning around so he wouldn't see Sasori.
Sasori shook his head and reached out to touch the blond's hair, only to realize that was a bad idea. "I would never hurt you, Deidara. I'm sorry that this happened but-"
"Just get out!" Deidara screamed into his pillow as he wailed even more.
Sighing, Sasori grabbed the bomber and pulled him in to his lap, getting many protests in return and many more hits to his chest. "Calm down," He whispered in his ear and Deidara paused to listen like morse code. "Know this. We are going to find out who did this and we will right the wrongs, okay?"
The blond stayed silent for a while and looked at his ex-lovers eyes, his face void of emotion. "I know who did this, un... You."
Sasori stared at the bomber and frowned. It seemed that Deidara's mind was set. He wasn't going to believe Sasori at all, was he? Sasori gulped and looked at took Deidara's face in his hands. "I'm not leaving you, Deidara. No matter how much you hate me, I will always be here. I love you." Sasori held him close ignoring the pain and Deidara just stayed limp.
Deidara's body just shook. "If you love me, then go. It hurts to be around you, un," Deidara said, his voice breaking at the end, before he shoved Sasori away.
The redhead just looked away. "If that's what will make you happy." He leaned in and kissed Deidara's forehead, the blond not even reacting to the touch. "I'll be going and if you ever need me, I'll find you." Deidara just ignored him and got out of his lap before climbing under his sheets. "I love you." And Deidara heard Sasori leave his room; but what he found frustrating is why he wanted him to stay. He was losing him again and it was just as painful as the first.
"W-wait," He barely whispered. Sasori stopped and turned his head slightly to see what Deidara wanted. "C-can, you stay... till morning? Then you can go."
Sasori gave a small smile. "I can do that for you," He replied as he sat on the floor by the foot of Deidara's bed. He saw his things scattered around and he made no move to touch any of them. It was like they weren't even his anymore. He blinked when he thought he saw something sparkle. He quietly crawled across the room to retrieve the unknown object. Once his fingers found it, he pulled it up to his face. His mothers ring. One of the only things he had left of his parents. He noticed a piece of it was chipped off and that's when he realized it must have been discarded as nothing.
The silver band was chipped by the three diamonds and the sapphire in the middle looked like it had also been chipped away. Deidara probably didn't want it anymore.
Sasori felt a tear slip his eye when the realization struck him that they wouldn't be together anymore.
"... Sasori, un." The redhead looked up and turned around to see Deidara sitting up, his arms wrapped around his knees. "C... Can you sleep with me?" He asked, slightly hesitant. He noticed the reason he hadn't slept all this time was because Sasori always held him and it helped him sleep.
Sasori nodded and stood up. "Yes," He answered, a little bit happy that he would get to spend more time with his former lover. He slowly walked to the edge of the bed and Deidara moved over for the redhead. Sasori got in and slowly as possible to avoid any discomfort but once he was down he almost gave a sigh. From being beaten in a van, to thrown out of a moving vehicle; then going into an uncomfortable hospital bed to walking for hours on end; being in Deidara's bed was like heaven now and he fell asleep almost instantly.
-Morning-
When he woke up it was only five o'clock. He looked to his right to see Deidara snuggled up to his arm and he frowned. He supposed he should leave before the blond woke up.
Very carefully, Sasori sat up and got out of the comfortable bed. He had to go before someone noticed he was there. He heard his ex-fiancé mumble something and he opened his eyes. "Where're you going?" He asked groggily as he sat up, rubbing his eyes. That's when Sasori noticed how bloodshot they were, not to mention puffy from crying.
"I'm leaving. So you'll be happy," Sasori replied, smiling.
Deidara looked up confused. "O-oh... yeah, un." He looked away, frowning. He promised himself that he would never forgive the redhead, but he didn't have to forgive. He could just forget. The idea of not being with the puppet master ached him to the core. "M-maybe you could stay a little longer?" He suggested as he looked up at the redhead with tired eyes. "I can't sleep without you."
Sasori gave a smile. "I would love to, Deidara, but from what I've heard, it's better if I leave," He answered.
Deidara felt tears form in his eyes and he bit his lip. "I could convince my dad to not be so angry anymore-"
"That's not what I meant," Sasori interrupted. "You made it pretty clear that you want nothing to do with me, so why drag it out any longer?" He walked up to the blond and kissed his forehead. "Goodbye, Deidara. I hope to see you soon," He whispered against the blond's tan skin.
Deidara cried and clutched at his shirt. "I-I won't l-l-let you leave, Danna," He sobbed out. "I was telling you to leave so you don't get hurt."
Sasori continued to smile. "That's nice of you to consider how I feel, but I don't think that matters anymore-"
"Don't leave me again," Deidara continued as he sobbed into his lover's bandaged chest. Sasori opened his mouth to reply but the door opened, revealing Deidara's father. "Dad?" Deidara asked as he turned around.
"Deidara, I am giving you to the count of three to get away from him," Kin said, his eyes fixed on Sasori, who just stood there. He didn't want to touch Deidara for fear of the older male as seeing it as some kind of threat. "One," He began.
"Deidara..." Sasori whispered, afraid that the blond was going to get hurt.
"Two."
Deidara just held himself closer to Sasori and the redhead tried to get him off.
"Three." And a gun appeared.
Once Deidara saw it, he stood in front of Sasori and turned to face his father. "You don't have to do this, Dad, un."
"You say that after all the shit he put you through?" Kin yelled in question and the blond just shook his head.
"Someone set this up. We can find them and-"
"Deidara, listen to your father," Sasori interrupted.
"You shouldn't be talking, Sasori."
The redhead just stepped around Deidara. "If you want me to leave, then I will."
Kin just pointed the gun and Deidara moved forward, but it was too late. Sasori was already falling. He remembered screaming and his father trying to get him away from the dying man. His youngest brother peeking through the door, horrified.
Soon, his mother came and was also screaming but only words. Something about a hospital but all Deidara wanted was to be by Sasori, who was still smiling in his dying moments.
One of the last things Deidara saw was the gun being pointed at his lovers head and he screamed and begged for it all to stop.
To be honest, it's hard for me to make a story and make it only happy. Sorry for peeps who dun't like sad stuff but I like it!
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