Author's Note: I will admit, I was a bit blocked for this chapter, so sorry if it seems pointless. Enjoy, R&R (:
I don't own iCarly, or Nathan Kress for that matter. Shame.
"Carly," I called, opening the door to the apartment. I was so excited to tell her all about my date with Pete. Rather than getting an answer, I heard piano music, followed by Carly's singing.
"We go back so far, swinging in your back yard, all the things that we used to do…" she sang. "We were cool back in high school, ooh I really liked you, must have been your attitude. That's why you keep on running in and out of my mind…As the years they'll roll by, baby, now I know why I keep coming back to you. You're the only one that knows me, love it when you hold me, never found a love like this. Let me hear you say now I'll never be lonely, look at what you've shown me, never found a love like this. Well, this life tried to keep us apart, you keep calling me back to your heart…" She stopped, turning to see me walking in the door.
"Sooo…?" She asked excitedly, "How'd it go?"
"Well…" I started, "He took me to dinner on his boat, and then we talked for a while, and then he turned on some music and we danced…and we might've kissed…"
"Oh my God, he kissed you?" Carly replied enthusiastically, "No way!" She hugged me tight and beamed when she saw my face light up at her happiness for me.
"Just out of curiosity," I asked tentatively, "When you kiss Freddie, do you feel sparks? Does your heart go wild, or do you get goosebumps? Do you go into an entirely different world? Because…"
"That's how it feels when you kiss Pete," she continued for me, "And, yes, that's exactly how it feels. You love him!"
"How can I be in love with him already?" I contradicted, "We've only been on one date so far!"
"Yeah, but you guys already dated before. And, you never got over him after. Think about it, Sam."
Suddenly, my choice is clear
I knew when only you and I were standing here
I did think about it; the whole night. What Carly said kinda made sense…okay, it really made sense. I fell hard for Pete back in high school…and never got over it. Maybe that was because I couldn't; because it was really love.
It's only you,
I know it's true,
It has to be.
I lay in bed reliving the magical night…I still felt Pete's lips on mine, and the tingle they left behind. I felt his soft touch, his warm breath, his gentle gaze…I could feel my heart going crazy again.
Suddenly, I can see what I didn't before,
And I don't care what they say anymore,
'Cause I'm falling, finally falling.
Then, I began worrying if Pete felt the same way. I saw the way he looked at me, but that wasn't enough to convince me that it was really real. What if he had gotten over me, and I was just afraid of letting go? What if he only felt bad for me because of everything that was happening? I couldn't get these thoughts out of my mind…
I don't need all the finer things, diamond rings, or nothing,
So show me something...
'Cause love is all I need, and all I ever wanted.
I didn't get much sleep, but when I finally closed my eyes, I dreamt of Pete. I dreamed that we kept dating, and we were together for years; I watched as he slipped a diamond ring on my finger, asking me to be his wife. I watched mini-me's dash around a perfect yard, Pete chasing after them; I saw Pete and I old and grey, drinking lemonade on a porch swing. I knew I was smiling in my sleep, because I couldn't help it.
If you can't find love when you're in it,
Don't forget it.
It would change your mind once you get it,
Don't you get it?
"Sam…" I knew Carly was trying to wake me up, but I protested.
"Shush," I replied in a whisper, "I'm having a good dream!"
"Pete?" She knew me too well.
"Maybe. Five more minutes?"
"No! Get up!" She dragged me out of bed and I almost ended up on the floor before reluctantly getting on my feet.
"What's going on?" I asked.
"We're all going to breakfast since Freddie's leaving again tonight."
"Kay kay," I replied, throwing on a slightly girly top and jeans.
"You can't even dress up a little bit?" Carly retorted at my outfit choice. I examined her get-up: a lacy mini skirt with a fancy top and wedge sandals.
"Ugh!" I groaned, throwing on a jean skirt instead, "Better?"
"Yeah," she replied, knowing that's as far as I would go when it comes to "dressing up". I saw the sadness in her eyes.
"You okay, kiddo?" I asked gently. When she didn't reply, I continued, "You know he's stayed as long as he can. You can make it 'till Christmas. I'm staying right here."
"I know," she smiled a little, "Anyway, what was your dream about besides Pete?"
"Well…" I began, "We got engaged, and married, and had lots of kids and a perfect house, and grew old together…and then you woke me up."
"Aww," she replied, smiling, "Well, I'm sorry, but at least now you realized that you love him."
Falling, falling,
I'm finally falling.
"True," We walked together to meet Fredweird and Spencer downstairs. I watched as Carly flung herself into Freddie's arms. It didn't nauseate me anymore; I just smiled.
"Oh, come on, you two," I said, only pretending that it annoyed me, "I'm hungry!"
They just laughed and kissed each other quick before breaking apart to just hold hands. I wondered what it would be like when Pete and I got to that point. I would probably be just as happy as they were.
We went to Galini's Pie Shop, sharing a coconut cream pie. It wasn't the most nutritious breakfast, but it was a place full of good memories for all of us…well, maybe not Spencer. But, we were still able to talk, and laugh, and have a good time; mainly for Carly's sake. We were trying to distract her. We were all very apprehensive as to what condition she would be in after Freddie left again. Just in case, Spencer locked every pill and bottle of alcohol in his safe that Carly didn't know about. However, since Freddie was able to say goodbye and keep in touch this time, we hoped it wouldn't be as bad. But, all we could do is hope.
A/N: Carly's song was "Love Like This" by Natasha Bedingfield and italics was "Finally Falling" from Victorious.
