A/N: so this is the second flashback.
Yes I know you don't want a flashback right now because you want to know what's going to happen next.
BUT…you need this chapter to know what they're talking about.
Wednesday Night July 4th 2018
When Blaine got to the Hummel's house he was already drunk and high on top of that. Finn had met up with him earlier that day and they went to happy hour.
And Blaine got a little too happy that hour because he downed 4 beers and had 5 shots and hasn't stopped drinking since.
Finn dropped him off at his hotel so he could shower and change.
But when he got upstairs he started dreading about going and started drinking some more.
It's not that he didn't want to see everyone. It's just he didn't want to see Kurt. He knows that it's his house how isn't he going to see him.
But how can he go there and put on a fake smile in front of Kurt and act like what Kurt did doesn't still hurt him to this day.
Nine times out of ten, Kurt probably thinks that he hasn't done anything wrong.
That's what pisses him off the most.
Kurt always thinks that everything he does is okay and it's going to be copasetic.
But it's not and the fake that Kurt hasn't called him not once in the last 2 years, it just shows that Kurt doesn't give a flying fuck about him.
So he drank and drank.
A few hours later he called a cab to come and get him.
On the cab ride to the HudMels he tried to sober up and get his mind together.
Yes he was pissed and yes he has hate.
But he is not going to embarrass himself to the point of no tomorrow.
But in the end he did.
When Kurt first woke up that morning his first thought was…
I have a bad feeling about tonight.
Kurt showered and got dressed.
He went to the market and got the last minute things for the bbq.
When he got back to the house Carole had just got home from work and was setting up the decorations out in the backyard.
Kurt got started on the cooking.
As he was cooking he started to kind of dread the night's festivities to come.
He was ecstatic to be able to see everyone after so long.
He's glad he's on summer break and he misses his boyfriend.
He misses New York City.
He loves being home, it's just that it holds so many memories that he has to admit that he screwed up.
He hates feeling like everything he's working for is honestly going down the drain.
He's not as happy as he could be.
He loves his boyfriend but he's still kind of twitchy about the way they got together.
Yes they didn't get together on a clean slate.
Kurt was still with Blaine.
Kurt was still talking to Blaine.
Still video dating with Blaine.
Still having phone and Skype sex with Blaine.
In love with Blaine.
Everything he had going on was with Blaine.
He couldn't figure out if he was tired with doing those things with Blaine or was he looking for something else because he couldn't have those things with Blaine all the time.
When Blaine stopped calling, texting and video chatting he should have known then.
But he brushed it off.
The next time he thought about Blaine it was almost a year later.
Yeah he thought about him here and there but when he actually looked back on it.
But what is he to do.
He's the one that did this.
There's no way for him to change what he did.
The only thing he thinks might change things is to apologize.
When I got to the HudMels I texted Finn to let him know I was here.
In the cab I sobered up as much as I could.
The worst thing about me being drunk is I tend to let everything that bothers me be known.
Maybe with me being intoxicated I can tell Kurt how I feel when he asks me how I'm doing.
I'm going to be on my best behavior.
But if someone has things to say that pisses me off, it will be none.
Finn comes and opens the door for him.
He hugs Finn for the umpteenth time today.
They walk thru the house to the back yard.
When he gets there he see's everyone and anyone from school and neighborhood.
He says hello to Sam, Mike, Tina Brittany, Marley and Jake.
He walks over and says his hello's and gives hugs to the HudMels.
He sees his family and goes over there and says very few words.
Then he spots him.
All of a sudden he has that feeling again.
He feels anxiety, hate, and pissed.
He knows what he was signing up for but he didn't think he would feel it this strong.
So he tends to his own business and walks around and talks to everyone except to people in his range.
Kurt looks up towards him and Blaine looks back.
They both have blank looks.
Kurt try's to smile to him.
And Blaine just looks at him.
No emotion what so ever.
Kurt looked disappointed.
But he expected the coldness that Blaine was giving him.
Kurt turned back to the conversation he was having with Mercedes, Lauren, Puck, Quinn and Finn.
Kurt felt upset that Blaine hadn't said a word.
Not even a Hi.
But he was persistent on knowing what was shoved up Blaine's ass.
A few hours into the party things were going great.
Blaine went inside to go use the bathroom and that's when Kurt seen his chance to talk to Blaine.
Well actually corner him to see what animal crawled up his ass and died.
Before he could get far to the door Finn walked up behind him and took him to the kitchen.
"Kurt I need you to promise me that whatever you say or intend to do to Blaine you be somewhat easy and cautious of what you say."
Kurt looked at him shocked.
When the hell did he become that bad guy around here?
"What gives you the idea that I'm the one who's doing any wrong here? He's the one who cut all ties. Not me."
"Really Kurt. Because the last time I checked when was the last time you called him in a year and few months ago? Look I'm not here to interfere. But you need to know that you started this thing that you guys are going through. So if you speak to him, let him speak too."
Kurt looked at Finn.
He couldn't believe his own brother would say that to him but he knew why he said that.
"Okay, okay. I let him talk and I'll speak rationally if it makes you feel better."
"Thank You"
Finn hugged him and went back outside.
Kurt headed towards the stairs and was prepared for whatever was coming.
Blaine stood in the hallway looking at some of the photos that were on the wall.
Even though that things between him and Kurt have been rocky, they still have a whole bunch of pictures up of him.
He must have been standing there for a while because he didn't know that Kurt had walked up beside him and was looking at the pictures too.
"Look Blaine I don't know what I did to hurt you but I'm sorry."
Blaine snorted.
"Sure you don't Kurt."
"What?"
Blaine then faced him and looked at him.
"Kurt you honestly don't know what you did?"
Kurt waited for him to continue
"you didn't think that I would find out that you had a boyfriend."
"Blaine people grow up and get boyfriends"
"See that's the part that irks me. You honestly don't think you did anything wrong."
Kurt got a little loud
"How am I supposed to know what I didn't wrong if you won't tell me?"
"Are you fucking kidding me? You cheated Kurt. A few weeks before I was supposed to see you again you got a damn boyfriend and cheated and acted like nothing happened. Now if I recall we were somewhat together. Am I right or wrong?"
Kurt bowed his head.
Kurt didn't think this through.
He knows what Blaine is feeling.
And that's heartbreak.
"That's what thought. I know what we had wasn't concrete but it meant something to me. I considered us endgame. I was going to move to New York and ask you out and everything. But then I decide to call you and who picks up, your boyfriend and not only that you were in the room doing whatever while he picked up YOUR phone."
Blaine took a breath.
"Look I know you might think that I didn't have interest in you until senior year, but I had always loved you. That day you walked up to me and said hi, you stole my heart. And then for you to do something like, feeling heartbroken doesn't even fit the bill"
Then Kurt finally speaks
"Blaine stop acting like you haven't done something to me that wasn't heart breaking"
"And what would that be because you never said. You never say anything or cared about anything that had to do with us. If I didn't say anything about this you wouldn't have even said anything."
Kurt fell silent.
"The last time I checked a relationship was between two people and if there was or is something wrong. You never mentioned that you were questioning our situation and as far as I know you were alright and I was doing my part."
Kurt was upset and now he felt hurt and he was about to explode and he was about to ignite.
"Just because you go thru boyfriends like Kleenex tissues, does not give you any write to give out relationship advice"
Kurt yelled out.
"Really Kurt this is the way were going with this conversation"
"Hell yes we are. Blaine come on let's get real. You weren't going to be around that long anyway. You were getting famous and you would have your groupies and we would still be in this situation"
"Kurt you know damn well I wouldn't have done that to you."
"Really says the one who slept with Sebastian Smythe who's hazardous to human contact with all the STD's he carries"
"Says the person who lost their virginity to their high school bully" says Blaine
Kurt stands there.
"And funny you say that, he's actually married to your bully now, so who's got the leg up now"
And everybody is just standing there speech less
Then Kurt just upright and punches him.
Blaine looked at him.
He knew that this wouldn't have been worked that easily.
But he didn't expect to get punched for defending himself.
After that night they both declared that they fucked up and there's nothing that's going to fix what they did and they didn't do.
Kurt went to his room and cried himself to sleep. He couldn't believe that he hit Blaine. He knew he was in the wrong from the beginning but he got so upset when he spoke about Sebastian and Dave.
Blaine went back to his hotel room and sat on the bed and thought about everything. The man he loved was not there tonight.
Kurt has never gotten pissed to the point where he would swing on someone.
Tempted but never would hurt someone.
Blaine sat there for a while and then got up and packed his bags.
He caught a red eye that night.
On his way to the airport, the cab passed a park that was setting off fireworks.
He looked at the fireworks.
They were bright and happy.
Ever since then, he has hated July 4th
