Dear Diary, last night was fucking epic! It was amazing, and wow! We spent the night watching shit movies on TV. And not just any shit films – romantic films! And we didn't exactly watch them; they were just on the screen, while we talked, laughed, joked, kissed, made out, etc. You know what I mean? We went to sleep around 1am, after we both fought for about an hour, telling each other that we weren't tired. And you know why? Because, diary, we didn't want to stop the moment! Finn told me, well; he wrote to me, that he didn't want this moment to end! How fucking cute is that?! I gushed, and then I ended up making out with him, because his cuteness and honest is too fucking much to stand! It was the best way to end our fourth night together. And yes, diary, I'm still counting! Now it was Friday morning, and Finn and I are currently sitting in my bedroom; me on my desk chair, writing in you, and Finn? Finn is reading the chapters that he's forgotten to read. Tonight it was Chloe's party, and I was having mixed feelings about the whole thing. I was nervous about wearing my new dress. Yes, I liked it, and apparently so did Chloe and Izzy, but it didn't mean that Finn was going to like it! That's what I was shitting myself about. What if he hated it?! What if he thought I looked like a beached whale?! Diary, I am shitting bricks. Fuck, fuck, fuck. I'm freaking myself out! Okay, deep breaths. Just take deep breaths. Everything will be okay. Just gotta keep telling myself that.
I'll update you tomorrow after the party, Diary.
Bye.
Closing her book, Rae stood up from her desk, and she closed her diary and then she glanced over at Finn, smiling to herself.
"I was thinking…" She trailed off, watching him as he lifted his head to look at her. "While you read your book, I was thinking of going to see Tix."
Nodding, Finn closed his book,
"Okay, I'll drive you."
Rae shook her head and smiled,
"No, Finn, it's fine. I can walk it isn't that far, and-"
"I'll drive you." He stated, standing up and walked over to his girlfriend, kissing her cheek softly,
"I'll take you there, and I'll read in the car, till you come back."
Looking into her boyfriend's eyes, she sighed in defeat,
"Fine. But don't read in the car, you'll get carsick! Just come into the room, and read there. Yeah?"
Finn looked closely at his girlfriend's face,
"You sure?"
Rae smiled and nodded,
"Positive."
The mousy blonde haired boy smiled back in return and nodded,
"Okay."
Taking hold of her hand, the boy walked out of Rae's bedroom and downstairs, walking over to the front door. Letting go of her hand, the both of them slid on their leather jackets, and then they slid on their converses. Secretly, it was these little details that made Rae smile. The little things that she had told herself made them meant to be. Opening the front door, Rae walked out of the front door and she walked over to his car, leaning against the back door, watching her boyfriend lock her front door, and walk over to the car, sliding his key into the hole and unlocking the doors. Kissing Rae's lips softly once, Finn went to open her door, but she stopped him, smiling apologetically at him,
"Finn, you don't have to do that. Y'know I'm not that kinda girl."
Finn smiled sheepishly at her, and nodded, making Rae lean up and peck his lips softly. The black haired teen opened her door and climbed into the passenger side, as Finn jogged around the bonnet, unlocking the driver side door and then he climbed in. Starting the engine, the couple buckled up, and instinctively, both of them reached for the radio. Looking at each other, and laughing at their similarities, Finn moved his hand away,
"Go on. It's all yours." He smiled, reversing out of Rae's driveway.
Grinning big in victory, Rae turned on his cassette tape, and smiled hearing Oasis playing,
"At least it isn't Babylon Zoo." She teased over the music, making Finn laugh out loud and shake his head,
"We'll see how badly you're shrieking over them tomorrow night, shall we?"
Rae looked out of the window, smiling to herself. Tomorrow was going to be fucking awesome!
"Hi Tixie." Rae whispered softly when she reached her best friend's bed. Reaching out, the black haired girl took the lifeless girl's hand, and she squeezed it gently. "Finn's here again, Tix. Something tells me that he wants to meet you." She let out a small laugh. "So you need to open those eyes of yours, and you need to get your Tix game back on." Licking her lips, she scanned over Tix's fragile body. Tears welled up in her eyes, and she blinked them back; knowing that even though Finn had come in to read, he was still keeping an eye on her every once in a while. "I think Danny's been thinking about you. Went past him after my last session with Kester. And he, uh. He was sitting in your bathroom stall, Tix. Y'know when you lied to me about liking him." A small smile played on the older teen's lips. "I think he's good for you, Tix."
Finn looked up from his book, at the mention of Danny's name. If Rae's friend, Tix, liked Danny, did that mean that the whole Danny being her boyfriend thing was a lie? Deciding to ask her another time, he wandered back to his book. Rae ran her fingertips over her best friend's pale right cheek. Sniffing silently, the black haired girl leaned down and kissed the pale cheek softly, and then she whispered,
"Wake up soon, Tix. I need you."
Finn frowned hearing her whispered words. He never realised how dependent his girlfriend was on this girl. Not that he minded. She never spoke about her, until after the wedding speech, and the first time they went to visit her. He knew that Rae was suffering with Tix being in hospital. And he hoped, prayed, that he was helping her feel okay when they're not here. When she's not talking to her rock. Her other rock. He knew that Chloe was her best friend. Chloe was Rae's oldest friend – her childhood best friend. But Tix, Tix knew things that we all didn't. Tix was there for his girlfriend when she had nobody else. Finn prayed that she would wake up soon, as well. So he could thank this girl for looking after his girlfriend, while everyone else was oblivious to Rae's situation.
"You excited for tonight?" Finn asked Rae, as he rummaged through his bags.
The black haired teen smiled big and nodded, as she wrapped the god-awful toothpaste dressing gown her bare body,
"Fucking hyped!" She giggled, walking over to the wardrobe and opening the doors.
"Can't wait to get there and show you off as my girl." He smiled to himself, already imaging the scene. He imagined dancing with Rae; his arms wrapped around her waist, Rae's arms wrapped around his neck; their bodies pressed together as they danced. Every once in a while he'd steal a kiss, whisper something in her ear, or just dance in silence. Coming back out of his small trance, he smiled to himself. He noticed that Rae's cheeks were slightly pinker. Chuckling softly, he pulled out some black jeans and a blue checked, long-sleeved shirt. Putting the clothes onto his girlfriend's bed, he then pulled out a white polo shirt. Rae pulled out the bag from the bottom of her wardrobe, and then she pulled out some ballet shoes that Izzy and Chloe had forced her into buying. Rushing out of her bedroom, the teen walked into the bathroom, closing the door behind her. Finn laughed to himself, watching her, and then he changed out of his blue faded jeans and he slid on his black jeans. Pulling off his black polo shirt, he then slid on his grey polo shirt, and shrugged on his blue checked, long-sleeved shirt and then he ruffled his hair and he sat down onto the bed, sliding on his black converses on. Picking up his clothes from the floor, he walked over to Rae's hamper, throwing them in. We really need to do the laundry. He told himself.
Rae finished getting ready, and she leaned over slightly, getting a better view, as she smoothed out the bottom of her dress. Her heart was racing fast, as she slid on her black ballet shoes. Rae had decided to wear leggings with the dress, knowing it'd make her feel slightly less self-conscious about wearing a dress. After running a hand through her hair, she frowned and then got an idea. Clipping up the top layer back to the back, she brushed the bottom layer of her hair and smiled, feeling a little bit girlier. She didn't want to wear makeup, but she wanted to feel pretty. And after talking to the girls, they both agreed that wearing lipgloss would be the best way to go for Rae. They even insisted on buying the clear lipgloss themselves. Quickly applying a small bit of lipgloss, Rae then threw her other clothes into the hamper in the bathroom. Taking a deep breath, the teen walked out of the bathroom, and back into her bedroom. Finn looked up from his hands, and his mouth dropped open slightly. Looking from her head to her feet, he swallowed slowly and then he looked up at her face; standing up. Walking over to Rae, Finn wrapped his arms around her waist and leaned close to her, whispering in her ear,
"You look beautiful, Rae-Rae. You're gonna be the best looking girl in the room tonight."
Rae blushed a deep red, and she smiled to herself, relief spreading through her body,
"Thanks Finn." She said quietly.
Leaning back slightly, Finn met her gaze and he smiled big,
"You're lucky I don't wanna mess up your look. I could easily take advantage right now." He smirked.
Rae smiled and rolled her eyes playfully,
"Well, maybe after the party, we could…" She trailed off.
Finn's eyes widened slightly as he took her hand,
"No teasing. Let's just leave it silent for now, yeah? Otherwise I may end up pounding on ya at the party."
The black haired girl giggled at her boyfriend's response, before he walked over to the bed with her, picking up their leather jackets,
"Ready for the party, babe?"
Rae smiled and nodded,
"Let's get it over with."
"That's the spirit." Finn chuckled softly, shaking his head.
"Hey, you guys!" Chloe greeted Rae and Finn when she opened the door.
They both smiled at her,
"Hiya!" They greeted at the same time.
The brown haired teen stepped aside, opening the door wider, as the two walked in. The party had already started, and Chop and Izzy were dancing in the middle of the living room. Rae smiled as she noticed them, and Finn linked his arm through hers, leading them into the kitchen. Setting his bag of beer down onto the counter island, he then turned to Rae, placing his hands on her hips,
"You look beautiful tonight, baby."
The black haired teen smiled and blushed slightly, glancing down at the ground and then she looked back up at him,
"Well, you look very handsome tonight."
"Mmm." He smiled.
Kissing my forehead softly, he then took hold of my hand, and then he led me out of the kitchen. Chop rushed over to us, two cans of beers in his hand,
"Ey ey! Here they are! C'mon now, drink up!" He jeered, handing the two cans over to us. Finn and Rae laughed, taking the beer and they took a sip. "Now 'ave fun, yeah?!"
Rae rolled her eyes, smiling down at her can, when she was suddenly pushed by one of the party people.
"Ow." She mumbled.
Hearing this, Finn's head snapped to hers,
"Y'alright?" He whispered in her ear.
The black haired teen looked up at her boyfriend and smiled nodding.
"Watch it, will ya?!" The blonde haired boy shouted to Rae over the music.
The two looked over at him, and Rae furrowed her eyebrows together,
"You bashed into me." She stated.
Finn watched the boy look up and down at Rae, and then he swallowed slowly, seeing the smirk on his face.
"Er, what the fuck are you wearing a dress for?! You absolute beached whale! A fucking dress? Are you kidding me?" His friends behind him laughed.
Finn looked around the small circle, seeing that everyone was laughing at Rae. Then the bastard looked at Finn,
"Finn, mate? What're you doing going out with 'er? Is it a bet, or somefin?"
The mousy blonde haired boy let out a laugh without humour. Clenching his fists, he looked at Rae, seeing that her face was filled with shame and embarrassment,
"What did ya say?" Finn asked.
"I said, why're you going out with this fucking fat beached whale?"
And that was it. Finn pushed past Rae, making her stumble back slightly with her eyes wide, as she watched her boyfriend. Finn grabbed the bastard by the collar and shook him,
"The fuck did you just say? Huh? You wanna repeat that again?!"
"Whoa, Finn! Finn!" He cried out.
Throwing his punch across the boy's face, Finn then kneed him in the stomach, the boy letting out a cry.
"Finn…" Rae whispered, as her eyes filled with tears. She looked around the room, and noticed that everyone's eyes were on the three of them. She noticed that Chloe and Izzy's eyes were on her; their face filled with sympathy and shock.
The mousy blonde boy shook the boy in his hands, and then he kneed the boy again twice in the stomach. He was just about to punch the boy again, when Rae couldn't stand it anymore. Her tears rolled down her cheeks, and she quickly pushed past the crowd and upstairs, rushing into Chloe's room. Archie seeing this, he quickly pushed past the crowd and rushed after her.
Punching the boy across the face, he noticed now that Finn had made his nose bleed,
"You better say sorry to her, or I will fucking kill you! Ya hear me?! You fucking little twat!"
Chop rushed into the middle of the group, wrapping his arms around Finn's waist and pulling the two apart,
"Finn, man! Stop it! Stop it, alright?!"
Finn growled, trying to move out of his grip,
"Let go of me, Chop! Lemme kill the bastard!"
"No!" Chop shouted over his struggling. "Go and find Rae!"
Finn froze. Looking over his shoulder where Rae was once standing. He swallowed slowly, and shrugged out of Chop's grip. Pushing the boy to the ground, as he tried to regain his breathing, he then pushed through the crowd and he ran upstairs.
Archie was sitting on Chloe's bed. Rae had her head stuffed into his chest, as she sobbed. He had his arms wrapped around her, rubbing her back. They heard a stumble by the door, and when Archie looked up, he saw that Finn was standing there, his hands leaning against the doorframe. Smiling up at his best friend, Archie stood up, making Rae sit up too. She sniffed, wiping her tears away and gasped, when she saw Finn walking over. Sitting down on the bed next to his girlfriend, Archie closed the door when he walked out.
"Rae…" He whispered.
She shook her head fast,
"N-No…"
He instantly wrapped his arms around her body, pulling her in close to him, kissing the top of her head softly,
"Baby, I am so, so sorry."
"I-I already said I was a beached whale!" She exclaimed hysterically. "So why-why did it matter that some fucking prick said it too?!" More tears rolled down her cheeks, as she sniffed, sobbing once again.
Finn frowned, brushing some hair away from her face,
"I don't think that." He told her softly.
Rae sniffed, looking up at him.
"I think you're beautiful. Rae. I-I, I don't want you thinking those things. Don't ya get it? I fucking love ya. I-I'd do anything for ya. I just can't have you thinking those things. Things that ain't true. You're better than of them downstairs." He paused, brushing his fingertips along her arm softly. "You're a warrior." He mumbled.
The black haired teen let out a small laugh,
"That's not true." She whispered.
"Yeah?" He asked her with a small smile, and he watched his girlfriend nod. "Well, I think you are. I think you're the bravest person I know. To hear anyone," he paused, scrunching his face up into a pained expression, "say anything, mean or hurtful about ya. It kills me, y'know?"
Rae nodded, wiping her nose with the back of her hand. Finn smiled small, leaning over and kissing her forehead softly,
"You wanna stay up here for a little while?"
The black haired teen nodded again, and then Finn wrapped his arms around her waist, and he pulled her in close to him.
"Thanks, Finn." Rae said quietly, leaning the side of her head against his chest.
"It's what I'm for." He whispered, stroking her side softly. "Remember, you're perfect."
The black haired teen smiled small and sniffed, writing along her fingertip: THANK GOD I HAVE YOU. Finn smiled down at her, and he sighed contently, writing on her thigh softly: YOU WERE ALWAYS MEANT TO BE MINE. Rae closed her eyes smiling to herself, and she blushed softly. Her heart was racing, and she felt so content, and so happy, so quickly – she couldn't believe that she was here. With Finn. Being so happy, and so carefree.
"Finn?" Rae said quietly.
"Mmm?"
"Can you get Chloe, please? I need her help in sorting my face out. I look like a puffy mess."
Finn let out a small laugh and he kissed the side of her head softly,
"I think ya look fine, but alright."
Standing up, the mousy blonde haired boy walked out of Chloe's bedroom, and he stopped at the doorway, glancing over his shoulder and smiling at his girlfriend. Rae smiled back at him, and then he walked down the hallway and downstairs.
The black haired teen sniffed and wiped her tears away. He really loves me. She thought to herself, with a smile. Standing up, she walked over to Chloe's mirror. She stared at herself in the mirror, and she began tugging slightly on the dress, as she cocked her head to the side slowly.
"Didn't realise beached whales looked so good." Chloe commented, her arms folded over her chest, as she leaned against her bedroom doorframe.
Looking over at the doorway, Rae let out a laugh and then she turned to her best friend, shrugging slightly,
"Yeah."
Chloe unfolded her arms, walking over to her best friend, and then she smiled stopping in front of Rae,
"Now, let's de-puff your face." Chloe tried to keep her face serious, but when Rae flashed her a 'what the fuck?' face, she burst into laughter. Finn was leaning on the wall outside the bedroom, listening to their conversation. And when Rae began to laugh too, he smiled to himself. Chop walked over to him and when he was about to open his mouth, Finn pressed his finger to his lips,
"Shhh." He mouthed.
Nodding, he glanced at Chloe's open bedroom,
"Y'alright, man?" He asked quietly.
Finn nodded and smiled small,
"Yeah." He whispered.
"You really care about 'er, don't ya?"
The mousy blonde haired smiled to himself, and he nodded,
"Yeah." He whispered. "I really do. I don't want anyone hurtin' her, y'know?"
Chop smiled and patted his arm,
"They won't with you around."
Finn let out a quiet laugh, and he nodded,
"Yeah."
