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FN-2187 or 87 for short, was not like the other Stormtroopers. Kylo had gave me a brief introduction about them. They went through brutal training and were meant to fight and kill and do what is commanded by them. They did not think, they did not act, they did nothing that was mostly of their free will. But I could sense something in this soldier. Something more. I was escorted to a room on the far end of the ship. It was smaller than Kylo's room but there was a small cot with blankets that looked warm. I was so tired, that I felt that the gods answered my prayers. Being in this cool ship added to the sleep that was taking over my body. I was left alone and smiled and moved right into the bed and embraced the blankets. I closed my eyes and felt nothing but comfort as I slept.
I was staring at darkness now and I liked this. I liked not seeing anything for a moment. But soft sparkles began to pour into the darkness and I couldn't move, all I could do was watch as more glimmers appeared before me. Stars, beautiful stars were pouring from the darkness. They shined all over the place moving like waves of water all across the darkness.
Kylo's POV
I had to be alone again. Thoughts of what happened out in the desert were clouding my mind. I needed to be focused if I was going to be victorious. It was her. She was distracting me from my goal. I noticed my cock was pressed up against my armor from our earlier actions and I somehow managed to keep a hard on ever since we left the ship. She wanted me. I know she does. Damn, every second that she is close to me I feel my control slipping away. She is poison to my mind, my body. I moved back on the ship and hurried to the room I stayed in when I needed to be alone. I needed to just get rid of this fucking hard on! I arrived at my room and the door slid open. I moved in swiftly and now immediately paused when I noticed Ansara fast asleep in my cot. My eyes rolled to the back of my head as I looked up at the ceiling in frustration.
"Oh give me a break." I growled lowly and looked at her once more. Her back was to me and I could feel how content she was. As I neared her, I could feel my body calming, my cock no longer standing at attention. Could she sense I was stressed and somehow helped me? No, I wouldn't believe it. Her body couldn't sense mine and react to mine without her knowing. Or could it? Her calmness made me calm. Maybe it was possible. I slowly began to remove my armor, peeling off everything except my pants. She did not stir. She must have been exhausted from our outing. Secretly, I hoped I didn't cause her too much pain when my fingers almost went all the way inside her. I closed my eyes remembering the night I had taken her. It was like a wet dream. It was hot, she was hot and all mine and I had to have her no matter what. I had always wondered if I would ever give myself to anyone, thinking I would have to force myself on someone I found even mildly attractive. I was a monster, a beast who was feared by all as I wanted. No one would be willing, but she was. She was an animal just like me, she just didn't know it. I wanted to lie to myself that this couldn't work and I didn't want her. But I did. As a young boy, all I did was think of her. The grey eyed beauty with spiral curls and all kinds of beads hanging from her body.
I was glad she felt the same, even if she was in denial at the moment. I slowly moved over to the cot and began to gently lie down behind her moving closer to her. She did not even move. I wondered what she was dreaming about? I placed my hand on her shoulder softly feeling her soft skin. I placed my nose gently into the back of her head inhaling the sweat and oils that were painted into her hair. I can hear her even breathing and it soothes me. I thought maybe feeling my presence her current hatred for me would wake her and she would snap at me. But she didn't move, if anything she melted into me and I smiled deciding to see what she was dreaming about. I closed my eyes and immediately saw darkness and… glimmers, glimmers of sparkles. I feel something sloshing around me and I look down to see the sparkles around me and they floated around me as if I was in a pool of water peppered with sparkles. I could feel my face shrivel in a scowl, but when I look up, I see Ansara walking toward me.
Her hair is down flowing around her body, that was sparkling too and she's smiling. Does she know I am in her mind right now? It doesn't matter, her smiling tells me she is not upset.
"You're here." she said, her voice echoing gently. She's happy I'm here?
"Ansara… I'm sorry I know I shouldn't be here." I said and she shook her head and took my hands pulling me from the glimmering water and now I am standing in front of her.
"I knew you couldn't resist. My body felt you the minute you entered the ship. We can feel each other even when we are not close. We can see into each other's minds when we truly want." she explained and placed her palms into mine, and my long fingers closed over hers. I was happy she wasn't upset. I felt I had to say something, something to keep this going.
"I am sorry. Sorry that I hurt you earlier." I said. She shook her head and gently placed her fingers over my lips silencing me and now caressing my cheek. I sighed leaning into her touch.
"Don't. Don't bring the outside world here. Here it's just the two of us. We don't have to hide who we are. You don't have to act like you don't care and I don't have to be afraid and we can just be ourselves here, linked until we must awake." she explained.
"But I am not asleep." I said and she smiled.
"Are you sure?" she asked and I closed my eyes and opened them now looking at the back of her head again and for once I leaned back mildly surprised. I looked around to see I was back in the room and I sat up a bit and looked down at Ansara. She was gently smiling. A good trick to get me out of her mind. I started to lean back down with intent to go back into her mind, that linked world between us where I didn't feel so angry and filled with darkness. She was not shining bright and filled with fire and energy. We were both in between.
"Commander. It will be time to move soon on the village." Capt. Phasma said from beyond the door. I sighed heavily frowning some and looking over my shoulder knowing I could not go back now. I placed my hand gently over her ears as if to shield her from my voice.
"I will be out shortly. Get the ship in the air and get the troopers stationed at the village ready to attack." I instructed.
"Sir." she replied and I looked down at Ansara, to see she still did not stir.
"I'm sorry, I couldn't come back. See you when you wake up." I said leaning over and kissing her shoulder. I got back up and began to dress myself once more. My helmet was the last to put on and I held it in my head for a moment. Soon, grandfather, I will finish what you started and I placed the helmet over my head before marching from the room.
Ansara's POV
His body dissolved into tiny little stars when he left my mind. I knew that's what it would take from him to get out of my mind. But I was not upset he was here this time and I couldn't explain why. When he was here, I felt our bodies needed to be connected. It seemed the more we resisted the stronger the connection grew. I may be in denial of the ending outcome, but I knew what I wanted, and I still had to try.
The stars suddenly fell away and now there was darkness again and I heard something in the distance. It was small but I was sure it was screaming. I turned in the direction and I looked around but still saw nothing. Now the screaming was louder and it sounded like women and children. I started to run in the direction of the screaming, without thinking. Was my dream fading into a nightmare? I kept running, but was not getting anywhere. I saw nothing and was not reaching anyone. I didn't like this. I was scared and I stopped running screaming at myself to wake up. And when I did, I was expecting quiet and cool air against my face.
However, the screaming was now even more vibrant and alive in my ears. I sat up quickly and knew my dream was happening. Like on Ranpure with Aren. It was a vision. I heard explosions and more screaming. I pulled the blankets off me and hurried from the room.
"Princess!" someone called for me, but I did not stop. I hurried through the ship until I saw the open bridge and ran down it immediately and saw the villagers were rounded up and now storm troopers were surrounding the different people and I looked around seeing my nightmare coming to life as I looked around. I saw Kylo standing before an old man speaking to him and I winced wondering what it was he was doing. I looked in the direction of the villagers and saw their faces, how scared they were. Some aliens held their young ones to them and I knew what was going to happen. I heard Kylo's light saber activating and I looked at the back of him to see the old man staring at me and immediately I saw Aren's face in my mind. I moved up to Kylo until I was at arm's length of him.
"You are so right." he suddenly said and my eyes widened as I watched him cut the man down. Everyone screamed and he turned and looked at me. "Get back on the ship!" I shook my head.
"No. You want me to see your vision then I must watch!" I shouted.
"NO!" we heard someone scream, and I looked to see a blue light shooting across the air toward us. Before I knew it, a black shroud was before me, Kylo's hand raised and the attack was quelled. I blinked before realizing what was happening. A man a few feet from us was frozen almost, his gun out and his eyes looking around with shock and confusion. Two storm troopers ran over and immobilized him. I saw this from around Kylo's hooded helmet and he turned and looked right at me, his hand falling slowly. He stepped in front of me even when he did not have to. Instinct.
"You were given a command." he said angrily. I shook my head slowly but firmly, holding my ground.
"I am not your soldier." I stated, and he just stared at me for a moment before the troopers brought the man before to us and kicked him down on his knees. I observed the tan, suave looking man with nice black hair. Kylo leaned down to his level and I could imagine he was observing the man who tried to kill him. There was a brief silence between the two.
"So who talks first? You talk first, I talk first?" he asked which I found oddly humorous in such a situation.
"The old man gave it to you." Kylo concluded. Whatever it was he was looking for pertaining to Luke Skywalker, this man had.
"It's just very hard to understand you with all the…" he said motioning to his helmet and then his own face. I looked the man over now with mild interest. He didn't scare easily. "Apparatus."
"Search him." Kylo commanded, and now I turned feeling something was distant and off. I turned in the direction of some of the troopers and noticed one of them with a bloody hand print over his helmet. He looked around almost confused and I stepped away from Kylo and the others to observe him. I sensed… uncertainty.
"87?" I asked wondering why I was sensing this from him. The other soldiers did not give off such an aura of confliction. Something was wrong with him. That much I could sense.
"Put him on board." I hear Kylo say and now I bring my attention back to him as he was looking in my direction. I walked back over to him now, Phasma behind me.
"Sir, the villagers?" she asked. I stared up at him wondering what he was going to do. But he looked away at the innocents before him.
"Kill them all." he commanded and I gasped gently looking at them all as they screamed, while guns were pointed at them. I felt my heart racing as I watched the sight before me.
"On my command." Phasma said in a polished firm tone. I looked at her and then looked at 87 to see he slowly raised his gun toward the villagers. He even looked at the soldiers around him. I looked back toward the villagers feeling as though I couldn't do it, I couldn't just watch. "Fire." The bright red lights shot from the large black guns and struck at the villagers. Screaming tore into the sky, and my hand jerked violently, gripping Kylo's hand without thought. Their bodies fell to the ground in their undug graves and it was quick. I looked away for a quick second to notice 87, did not fire a single shot. That caught my attention, but I looked away unable to see the other soldiers murdering the men, women and children. I just stood there, tears falling slowly down my cheek as I realized it was over. Kylo did not move, except look at me and I didn't even want to know what he was thinking. This was what he wanted me to embrace, wanted me to build something greater on the bodies of the dead. And he expected me somehow to not change through my stay here, to stay pure and innocent and oblivious to all of this. No. it wasn't possible.
I turned and moved back toward the bridge with a slight jog, only to pause a bit and look over in 87's direction. He was just standing there looking down with what I could imagine maybe guilt beyond that helmet? I wanted to see his face. I wanted to look in his eyes and see that I was not the only person here who was completely heartless.
I made a gesture to move in his direction, only to have my wrist grabbed quickly. I looked to see Kylo staring at me.
"Go." he commanded and I winced and looked down in mild submission causing him to release me and I did my best to block any intentions of what I wanted from my mind as I moved back onto the ship. But Kylo was smart, I knew somehow, he found figure out my curiosity of the soldier. I hoped he stayed alive long enough for me to see him again, to actually talk to him.
Author's Notes
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