Hey guys! Here is another chapter for you! This was my first attempt at a song chapter so be nice to me lol. The song used is "Permanent" By: David Cook.. he wrote it for his brother who died of brain cancer and I thought the lyrics would be good for this.. so read review and enjoy!


Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry

"Dean it's for the best." Anna said as she put her hand on his shoulder and he looked into the panic room.

"Why do I feel like shit for locking him up in there then?" He asked as he looked back at Anna. "Why can't I look him in the eye without feeling ashamed?" He added.

Before Anna could reply Sam let out a scream causing Dean to flinch.

He quickly wiped away a tear and looked at Anna.

"I told him I would never shed a tear in front of him now look at me, I'm bawling like a little bitch." Dean said as Anna put her arms around his waist.

And everything, it will surely change even if I tell you I won't go away today

"Sam I promise I won't go away. I'll be right here until all this shit is over." Dean said into the little opening as Bobby walked up behind Anna and sighed.

"He does know that Sam will never be the same again right?" Bobby asked Anna as she shrugged.

"I think he knows deep down that he won't be but he is keeping faith that he will go back to normal." Anna said as she looked down at the floor.

Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?

Sam screamed in pain again as pain overtook his body.

"The withdrawals are in full effect now, maybe you should go to the other room Dean. It's only going to get worse." Bobby said looking at him.

"No. I won't leave him." Dean said without taking his eyes off the door.

"This is my fault. I wasn't around to look after him. He was alone and I wasn't there to stop him from getting himself like this." Dean said as he looked at the floor with tears running down his cheeks once more.

"Dean you can't hold his hand and influence his decisions forever. He has to learn things for himself." Anna said as Dean continued to watch over his little brother.

And all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary rest your head
I'm permanent

After a little while Sam had quieted down and lay down on the bed.

"Bobby can I go in there and give him some water?" Dean asked as Bobby nodded at him.

Dean quickly grabbed a bottle of water and went into the panic room closing the door behind him.

"How are you feeling Sammy?" Dean asked as he gave Sam the bottle of water.

"I'm sore and my head hurts like a bitch. Other than that I'm fine." Sam said as he took the lid off the bottle and drunk some of the water.

"You know all the hallucinations are temporary. You will get better. I'll see to it." Dean said as Sam smiled at him.

I know he's living in hell every single day
And so I ask oh god is there some way for me to take his place

Sam lay back down on the bed and put the bottle of water beside him.

"Sam I know your going through hell right now and you have been for a while." Dean said as Sam looked at him. "I'm sorry that I wouldn't listen when you tried to tell me what was going on." He added.

"Dean it's fine really. I got myself into this mess all the fault is my own no one else. I will get better, it may be hell but I won't give up." Sam said as Dean looked down at the ground.

"You know when you first started screaming in pain I prayed to god to find someway for me to take your place Sammy." Dean said as Sam shook his head.

"Dean you sacrificed so much for this family already and you made the ultimate sacrifice when you went to hell for me. Let me fight this on my own. I will get over it." Sam said as he slapped Dean's shoulder.

"I'll just be outside the door yell if you need me okay?" Dean said as he walked towards the door.

Sam nodded at him as Dean went out the door.

And when they say it's all touch and go I wish I could make it go away
But still you say

"How long does it take to detox?" Audrey asked Bobby as the four of them sat and waited.

"I have no idea Audrey. I've never done this before." Bobby said as Sam started to scream again causing Dean to lay his head on the table.

"So basically we are playing the waiting game?" Anna said as she rubbed Dean's back.

"Basically. We are in for a long night." Bobby said with a sigh.

"I'm going to go and make us something to eat and get Sammy something." Anna said getting up from the table. "Audrey will you help me?" She added before she got to the door.

"Yeah sure." Audrey said as she followed her cousin out the door.

Dean and Bobby sat in silence as they waited on the girls to get back with the food.

After a few minutes the girls brought them sandwiches and bottles of beer.

Audrey quickly got Sam's food and walked towards the panic room.

She stopped dead in her tracks as she saw Sam up against the wall being held up by an unseen force.

"DEAN!" she screamed as she ran back into the living room.

"Dean, Bobby, Anna… you have to come quick something's wrong." Audrey said as she quickly ran back to the room with the other three close behind her.

Will you think that you're all alone when no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent
I'm permanent

Dean saw what was happening with his brother and quickly tried to go into the room only to be stopped by Bobby.

"Don't be crazy boy. He could hurt you if you go in there he's still dangerous." Bobby said as he held Dean back.

"I can't leave him alone like this Bobby. You have to let me go in there and help him!" He yelled.

"Dean he knows you are here. He has to go through this alone. If you go in there you are endangering yourself." Anna said as Dean looked up at her with sad eyes.

Is the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my promise that you'll never see me cry

Dean walked over to Anna and put his arms around her and hugged her tightly as tears started to fall down his cheeks.

"I can't take this much longer. It's killing me seeing him like this." He said as he wiped his tears away and quickly grabbed the beer bottle off the table and began to drink.