Hey guys I decided to switch it up on this one and write from Ellie's point of view. I thought it would be really fun. I noticed that you guys tend to commenting about the relationship about Arizona and Ellie a lot which I'm very thankful for because I don't have any siblings myself so I'm glad I appear to be getting it right. Thanks for all the support! And with that said I really hope that you enjoy seeing things from Ellie's point of view!

Eleven. Keep Holding On

"Keep holding on, cause you know we'll make it through, make it through.
Just stay strong, cause you know I'm here for you."
- Keep Holding On, Glee Cast (Avril Lavigne)

I had been admitted to Seattle Grace-Mercy West Hospital this morning after countless tests that would try any sane person mad, poking, prodding, the whole works. I've been sitting here in my room with only a television for company.

"Hey, stranger." A vaguely familiar voice echoes through my room. I take my eyes off the television screen to find my sister-in-law standing in the doorway, leaning against the door frame, her arms folded across her chest.

I really take in Callie's form for the first time. Her raven black hair was straightened, reaching an inch below her shoulder, her russet eyes are those of my niece and seem to be so expressive; her features accenting her Hispanic complexion. I only now notice how tall Callie actually is, if Zona was standing next to her she surely would only reach to about her shoulders or slightly more. My sister had found what she was looking for, Callie's beauty was inevitable.

"Hello? Anybody home in there?" Callie's voice causes me to jump slightly.

"I was just admiring your hair." I spit out, to eagerly. Callie raises her eyebrows in disbelief. "Sorry, I was just checking you out." As soon as the words leave my mouth I realize what it must have sounded like. "No, no! I didn't mean it like that, I don't swing that way!" My hand flies up to my forehead. "I meant I was just she how well Zona had done for herself. Don't worry I don't swing that way and I would never think of doing that." I shut my eyes and prepare for anything.

"Chill, Ellie. Not a big deal, I'd do the same thing for my sister, I get it. I was coming down here to get to you know better." The tone of her voice is as if she's trying to calm me down.

I let out a sigh of relief. "Thank God." I mumble under my breath.

"Arizona was going to visit but she got paged, she said she would visit later on, so I thought this would be an ideal time to get to know you." Callie's voice has returned to normal; but you can sense the curiosity.

"Well, take a seat. What do you want to know?" I wasn't sure what she wanted to know. She could want to know anything between what Arizona was like growing up to what my favorite book was.

"Don't mind if I do. How about we make this easier and have a deal. For every question I ask you, you get to ask me one. Deal?" She gives me a smile as she sits down in the probably uncomfortable chair next to my bed.

I don't need to contemplate the deal very long to realize it's a more than fair deal and that it would break the slight tension between us. "Okay, you've got yourself a deal. Shoot."

"Let's start with an easy one. Did you go to college after high school, if you did what was your major?" I know why she asked this; a person's major said a lot about them.

"I followed in Zona's footsteps, choosing not to go into the military like she did. I went to university at Brown and got a BA. I majored in English." I can't help but nod as I answer her question. I can tell by the look on her face she never took me as the artsy type. "I eventually went and got into the journalism program at Columbia."

"Very prestigious universities there, Ellie. I didn't you as the journalist type." She says confirming my assumption. "I would have said something more along the lines of business and all that jazz." I understood her; most people automatically assumed I either followed in my father's footsteps joining the military or my mother's by becoming a head hunter for some international corporation.

"Nope, I'm a hardcore arts girl, always have been." I give her a smile. "Hmm, let me think. You said you had a sister, what was your house like growing up? At our house there were almost fights daily. I'd always want to play with the other girls and only Zona would pick up for me when they'd tell me I was too young. That sister of mine is a fighter I tell you." I can't help but laugh at the memories of Zona fighting with our older sisters. She'd pull their hair until they said uncle.

"Oh, I know. She nearly took out my best friend Mark at our wedding because he made an inappropriate comment in front of your parents." Callie chuckles. I notice now that her laugh is just how my mother had described it to me one day on the phone; cheerful yet subtly insecure no matter how genuine it was. "Well, my family is pretty wealthy so my sister and I were spoiled rotten. I was really close to my parents growing up, especially my dad. There's a pretty big age difference between my sister and me, I was fourteen when she was born, so things were kind of weird when I when I moved out of the house and went to college because she was only four. I remember how confused she was. When they brought me to the house my dad had bought on campus for me to live in with a few of my friends she had constantly asked 'P, why are you leaving me?' and it just made me so said that I had to leave her home by herself. She used to call me 'P' because at that age she still couldn't manage to say Calliope." Callie chuckles again, "She was one crazy kid at that age."

"She sounds a lot like me when I was that age." I laugh. "So what do you do for fun, you have any hobbies?" I'm really curious about what types of things she was interested in because initially Callie didn't seem to be my sister's type.

"I'm big on video games to be honest. Sounds geeky, I know, but it's true. My 360 used to be my best friend before I met your sister." Callie lets out a fully pronounced laugh this time. "Major dork alert." A subtle blush creeps up on her cheeks.

I'm taken aback by Callie confession. She hadn't seemed to be the gamer type but clearly I was wrong. "Join the club, Callie." I laugh. "What's you're usual?" I'm glad we've been able to make a connection over something that isn't my sister, even if it's only video games.

A surprised smile forms on her face. "I don't play as much now but I used to play a lot of COD but I gave it up when I met your sister, I couldn't handle the look on her face when used turn it. I couldn't put her though all that pain for something stupid like a video game. I changed to Resident Evil and Halo."

"I'm more of a Need for Speed type of girl, but I wouldn't say no to a good game of Resident Evil." Our conversation is interrupted by a loud beeping noise.

"Sorry, Ellie, surgery calls. I'll visit you again later I'm sure. It was great getting to talk to you." A frown crawls across my sister-in-law's face.

"Not a problem, Callie. It's not like I'm going anywhere anytime soon, my door is always open." I laugh. Even with this simple interaction with her I knew my sister has found the one for her.


Zona visited me later that day after dinner. "Hey El. How's your day going?" A small smile is plastered on her face.

"Not to shabby, Zona. A bit boring but Callie visited me earlier which lightened the day up." The smile on Zona's face widens at the mention of Callie.

"She said she was going to, but I wasn't sure I she had just said that because she was a little nervous." She takes a seat where her wife had sat only hours prior.

"I like her." I state simply.

"You do?" The look on her face was completely worth the awkward moments and the yelling I received when I first arrived here in Seattle.

"I do. I was a little bit hesitant at first because she didn't seem to be your type of girl but boy was I wrong. Even only spending the short time I did one on one with her I could tell that she was the one for you." It was true. I could see that Callie was the competitive, humorous girl that may sister always hoped for.

"Thank you, thank you." My sister hops out of the seat and pulls me into a hug.

"No thanks are need." I smile.

"I was so afraid that you wouldn't like her." She lets out a deep breath.

"No worries there Zona." I say as I brush my bang out of my eyes.

My sister looks me straight in the eye; her face is now full of concern. "El." I know exactly what she's about to say. "What, what happened?"

As Zona pulls away I put my hand in my lap; looking at my left hand it seems empty. The golden band that was once on my left hand ring finger is gone. I can feel the tears forming in my eyes. I open my mouth to speak but no words come out. I put my head in my hands; disgraced at what has happened.

"Its okay, Ellie. I'm right here." Zona arms wrap around me once again. I try to speak again but I only accomplish an undecipherable mumble. "Don't force it. I'll be right here when you're ready." Her voice is concerned but without a doubt I can sense the patience in her tone.

I pull away from her, looking straight into eyes that mirror my own. "It happened two years ago, a few months after you married Callie." The concern on her face grows as she comprehends the pain in my voice. "David, he just left. He told me he couldn't do it anymore." The tears that have been forming in my eyes now begin to roll down my face. "He said that he couldn't watch me kill myself." I sniffle slightly; my need for a tissue is becoming unavoidable. "And I, I just let him go. I couldn't tie him down because on some level I knew he was right. I knew he was right but I just couldn't admit it to myself."

"I'm so sorry, El. That was extremely brave and selfless to just let him go, after all you two have been through all those years." She was right. David and I had been together since our junior year in high school.

"I couldn't do it to him, Zona. I just couldn't." I wipe the tears out of my eyes.

"I know, sweetie. I know." Zona wraps her arms around me, as if she was sheltering me from a danger I didn't know existed. All I could do now was hope that whatever happened next my big sister would me there for me because God knows that I need her, because I can't do this alone anymore.


I have been in the hospital almost a week and the only highlight of my days recently was when Arizona and Callie would drop by, often having Rory with them. I swear that the two of them were going to have that little monster spoiled rotten, but, thankfully, knowing Zona she was going to my sure my niece wasn't a spoiled brat.

"Hey, what's up butter cup?" I'm thrown from my current thoughts as my sister announces her presence.

"Seriously, Zona, tone it down on the perkiness would you. I'm no one of your patients." I chuckle, I know that it was mere impossible for her to tone down the perkiness at work; unless she was in the OR or lecturing a resident or an intern on something they did wrong.

"No, I will not tone down the perkiness, you goof." She gives me a wide smile before taking a seat on the edge of my bed. "Besides, I brought something to cheer you up, it's your favorite."

"Good, because daytime television can really bore a girl after so long." I can't help but roll my eyes. You can only watch so many episodes of those soap operas before your brain turns to mush.

Zona can't contain her laughter while she nods in agreement with me. "Okay, close your eyes and hold out your hands."

I reluctantly follow her instructions; she could treat me like such a child some times. "Is it ice cream? Because you know ho much I love those Dixie cup things!" My voice has now changed to that of a five year old about to get their birthday present.

As I feel my hands become heavier I open my eyes. "Sorry, El. It's not ice cream, you know you can't have that stuff. So, I brought the next best thing." I can sense the sadness in her voice.

I find a small container of no sugar added strawberry frozen yogurt and surprisingly a gameboy color. "How the hell do you have one of these, Zona?" I ask trying to hide my obvious excitement. I had always been a sucker for video games since we were teenagers.

"Well, Calliope reminded me yesterday that you loved video games because she was talking about how much she likes you and that you must be bored to tears the past few days. So, I went to the pawn shop down the street and they happened to have one." The sadness is gone and pride has surfaced.

"Thanks a lot Zona." I put the belongings in my lap before pull her into a bone scrunching hug.

"You're very welcome El. But you're squishing me." Zona pretends to be gasping for breath before I let her go.

I look back down at the contents in my lap and I can't help but laugh. "Uhm, Zona, you didn't get me a spoon."

A small frown forms on my sister's face. "You've got to be kidding me. I'll go get you one from the cafeteria it's only down the hall." The frown is gone as she gets up of the bed. "I'll be back in a minute. These babies are faster than running." She says with a smirk pointing to her classic Arizona heelies.

As soon as she leaves the room I turn on the game boy, hoping that it came with a Super Mario Bros. game, they had always been my favorite. Sure enough, it did. As the title flickered across the screen I begin to feel lightheaded and slight nauseated.

I lie back against the bed trying to regain composure but the dizziness is inevitable. Almost immediately my vision begins to blur and I feel tired. Outrageously loud beeping is coming from the monitors next to my bed. I can hear foot steps rushing into my room but I see no one; all I see now is darkness.

"Ellie! El!" My sister's voice enters my conscious. "Ellie don't do this! Just hold on a little longer! Don't leave me!"

Those are the last words I hear before everything is simply gone.



Author's Note!
I have a really busy week next week so I'm not sure how much writing I will be able to get done between school and a music festival. I will try to my best to get as much writing done as possible, I will try and get a chapter written this weekend so I can update on Monday. Fingers crossed! Again, I really hoped you like this chapter! Feedback would be greatly appreciated! =D