Author's Note: Hi everyone! I'm sorry for the delay with this chapter! With Easter the other weekend I got behind and didn't have a chance to sit down and write. But, here it finally is! Enjoy!
Belovedfinch11: He is finally opening up (even if it is mostly when Alyss is drunk lol)! He of course has to do the whole "I like you one second, and am distant the next" to me he's kinda tsundere.
Chapter 12: Stop Looking Start Seeing
I woke up with a pounding headache, I glanced over at my datapad which was placed on my nightstand, Didn't I throw that on the couch at some point? How is it already past the lunch cycle? What the hell was that wine made of?! I groaned rolling on to my back, attempting to mentally prepare myself to get up. I had managed to finally get upright when the door slid open to Bebe rolling in, trying to balance a tray on its head. "Hey little one, what have you got there?" I leaned over taking the tray before the droid crashed in to the side of the bed. Bebe let out a few beeps shaking its head from the collision, "This is from Kylo you say? That's surprising..." my voice trailed off. Bebe chirped informing me that Kylo was very adamant that I finish everything on the tray, and that I no longer drunk message people on my datapad.
I paused half way through lifting off the lid of the tray, "Whoa whoa! Wait?! I did what?!" My head throbbed as my voice rose. I pressed the palm of my hand to my temple in an attempt to dull the ache, "What exactly happened?" Before I could get an answer from the droid, it let out a series of beeps saying it had another job to do. Bebe rolled out as quickly as it could, but not before running in to the door frame twice. I sighed and finally removed the tray's lid. There were a couple bottles of water, an electrolyte package, pain pills, and a sandwich from today's lunch cycle.
I mixed the electrolytes in to one of the water bottles, and chugged it down greedily before taking the pain pills. Resting my head back against the headboard I closed my eyes taking a few minutes before attempting to eat. I let the silence of my room relax me as I tried to reach Kylo, Are you busy? There was a pregnant pause before he responded, What is it? I frowned at his taut response. Sorry for bothering you, even with my thoughts I knew he could sense my sarcasm, I merely wanted to thank you for the supplies you sent me, and apologize for my behavior. There was another long pause before he finally responded, What do you remember from last night? I tried to concentrate and see if I could recall anything, the only thing I remembered was having a few sips of wine and feeling good... wait... I remember thinking that I really hoped I remembered what happened... but what did happen? All I remember is having few sips and being buzzed, that's it. Kylo remained silent before dismissively brushing me off, It's of no consequence. Do not let it happen again, no one else is allowed to see you like that. Do you understand? I must be going. Before I could retort, our connection was gone. I opened my eyes and stared at my ceiling, Asshat...
I nibbled on my sandwich trying not to eat it too quickly and make myself sick. Being alone in the solitude of my room had my mind wandering now that the headache had finally ebbed away. My thoughts kept drifting to Kylo leaving for Jakku in two days, my heart sank at the thought of not seeing him. I couldn't lie to myself anymore, I truly did care about that man, even if he was a giant man child who pissed me off most of the time. I had just gotten so used to being around him, it was actually weird knowing I wouldn't see him for a few days... the events from the previous day in the training room replayed in my head. I couldn't help the blush that crept over my cheeks thinking about the way Kylo had kissed me, I really wish I could remember what happened last night... I set my tray aside and slid back under the covers, the physical toll of my hangover left me exhausted. Since I didn't have to actually be anywhere for once I just decided to drift back off to sleep.
Hours had passed, and it was the middle of the sleep cycle when I woke back up. I stretched out on my bed debating what I should do given the time. I suppose I could go to the training room for a bit, hopefully then I'll be able to sleep some more. I got dressed and threw my hair up in to a ponytail. I wandered down the empty hallway past a few mouse droids and the occasional trooper or officer. I turned the corner and almost collided with the General. Hux looked up from his datapad, his gaze running over my form, a perplexed look crossing his features. "What are you doing up at this hour? Shouldn't you be in bed?" Hux said tersely. Annoyed that he was still holding the pilot incident against me. I couldn't help the bitterness in my voice, "My apologies, I didn't know that I was to be confined to my room, only allowed out when approved by you." Hux scowled, his lips pursing in to a thin line, "Have care with how you speak to me Alyss, I'm still your General." I scoffed, "Oh! So now you're actually acknowledging me again as working with you? I thought I was just as bad as rebel scum?" I crossed my arms glowering right back at him. "Perhaps next time you will actually prove your loyalty to the Supreme Leader and the First Order... I... still have high hopes for you Alyssandra." Hux stepped past me, his shoulder brushing mine as he walked away. I turned my head, my eyes following him as he made his way down the hall.
"What did the General have to say to you?" The familiar modulated voice caused me to snap my head back, facing the way I had previously been going. Why the hell are these two up at this hour?! Honestly! Don't they sleep?! "I ran in to him on my way to the training room..." "Why are you going to the training room in the middle of the sleep cycle?" I shifted on my feet, "Well, I slept most of the day and was no longer tired so I decided to go train... Why? Am I no longer permitted to train when I please? Plus, you're not going to be here, so I might as well enjoy peace while I can." I folded my arms with a smirk. Kylo clenched and unclenched his fists a few times. "I expect to see an improvement when I return. Don't disappoint me." Kylo was yet again a swirling mass of black robes down the hall.
Could he be more dramatic? I let out an audible sigh and continued on my way. I trained for a few hours until I was finally tired once again, not wanting to completely ruin my sleep schedule, I took a nap and when I awoke I set out on my own personal mission for the day. Since Kylo would be gone, I figured I might as well take this opportunity to get a new outfit and weapons. If I'm ever going to go on a mission, I can't just go in sweats and a tank. Not to mention, the clothes I had with me when I came here have long since been discarded.
I made my way to Dzhessika's office and tapped on the door, "You may enter." The doors slid open to reveal Dzhess at her desk with her glasses on, hair a mess, and datapads scattered all over the place. "Uhhh... is this a bad time?" Dzhess growled and slammed her fists on the desk, "This is all because of that son of a bitch!" My eyes were wide in shock from her actually swearing out loud and not just in her head. I made sure the door closed before she could say anything else. "So... I take it things are going 'well'..." I walked over and sat on her desk picking up one of the datapads. "Wait a second... are these... all expense reports?!" "Yes! Dammit! These are all from Kylo Ren! This is what his temper tantrums cost us! Not to mention that damn ginger fuck has decided to punish me with all of this!" Dzhess seethed out. "Great! You should take a break then and show me where the weapons and clothing providers are." I couldn't help my wolfish grin. Dzhess leaned back in her chair, "Fine. I get the weapons department, but why clothing?" I stumbled over my words, "Well... I... I just... want to wear um... other clothes?" "Uh huh. And this has nothing to do with the one who caused all these expense reports does it?" "No, it doesn't!" My cheeks started to get a light dusting of blush across them. "Whatever you say. I can't stand to look at these anymore, so let's go."
Dzhess first took me to the weapons department a few levels up. We were greeted by a stoic looking man who was working on a blaster. "Lieutenant, what brings you here? Is your blaster canon malfunctioning?" "No, we're here to get Kylo Ren's apprentice new weaponry. We stand to reason that she may be in need of it in the near future." I have to give it to the woman, she knows what to say, I tried to conceal my grin at how eloquent Dzhess made everything sound. The man turned his attention to me, "Well, what is it that you want? I can't build you a lightsaber you know." "Well, Sir." I did my best to be respectful so as to not upset him, "I prefer to use twin swords. Is there anyway to adapt them to... well, hone and access my fire abilities with them?" The weapons master rubbed his chin thoughtfully, "Give me a few days and I'll contact you when I'm ready." The man dismissed us and went back to his work.
"Thank you Sir. This way then Alyss." I turned on my heel and followed Dzhess back out in to the hallway to the elevator. We went down few more levels before we reached our next destination. We passed the laundry room where the droids were pressing and ironing uniforms. I couldn't help but be slightly mesmerized by scene, I had never been down here and I found it fascinating. "Come on Alyss." Dzhess drawled out. I trotted up beside her until we reached the main office area of the laundry floor. An older woman with her grey hair pulled back in a tight bun looked up at us. "Ah Dzhessika, What can I do for you?" Dzhess stood at attention, her authority rolling off of her. I could see why Dzhess was such a well respected Lieutenant, she knew how to command a room. "This is Kylo Ren's apprentice, and she is in need of a new wardrobe befitting being at his side." The older woman chuckled, "Ah, I see. Do you have a preference? Or shall I just put something together and see what you think?" I thought about it for a minute, since I honestly couldn't decide what I wanted, I opted for her to just surprise me. "Very well then. I'll have it ready before Commander Ren returns from his mission." I thanked the woman before we headed out the door.
"Thanks again a Dzhess. I appreciate your help. I probably would have gotten lost numerous times before finding these people." We stepped aboard the elevator. "You're welcome. Besides, I needed a break. I just hope Commander Ren doesn't throw anymore hissy fits when he returns." It dawned on me that everyone was speaking as if Kylo had already left, "Did Kylo leave already? I thought he wasn't supposed to depart until tomorrow?" The doors opened to Dzhess' floor, "Apparently he left early today during the breakfast cycle. He should be back tomorrow or the next day I presume. Well, it was good seeing you Alyss. Try to stay out of trouble." Dzhess waved goodbye as she headed down the hall back to her office.
For the rest of the elevator ride back to my floor, I couldn't help but wonder why he had left early, and why he didn't tell me. Not that it was my business, but still... my heart sank at the thought that Kylo wouldn't say goodbye before he left. I suppose it was just wishful thinking on my part. I sighed looking at the time on my datapad, it was already the lunch cycle. Rather than just going back to my room, I dragged my feet down the hall towards the dinning hall located on my floor. It was smaller than the main one, but it got the job done.
After eating and wandering about the halls, I was bored out of my mind. I finally wandered back to my room and began reading Tie Fighter logistics and diagnostics. Hours had passed and my eyes began to grow heavy. Before I knew it, I fell asleep with my face pressed to my datapad. I woke up to a feeling of rage which was radiating in my head. It had to have been coming from Kylo. Is he back already? I groggily opened my eyes, How long was I asleep for? I looked down at my datapad to see it was already the following day, well in to the evening cycle. How? How did I sleep that long and not realize it? I felt very unsettled, something has been different about me ever since that dream. Then I saw that face again in the mirror a few days ago, and now I'm losing track of time and myself. What's going on with me?
There was slight pain in my temple, I glanced down at my reflection on the datapad and my blood ran cold. My eyes were again the inhuman black and red, with the red lines running down my face. I threw my datapad across the room, running in to the refresher to check my reflection in the mirror. The other me was gone, all I saw were my normal electric blues eyes and slightly tanned skin. What the hell? As I stared in to the mirror, a loud screeching sound filled my ears causing me to cry out in pain. I collapsed on the floor with my hands clamped over my ears. My vision turned red and I saw the battlefield once again with Kylo and the unnamed girl. A distorted female voice that sounded like me, but also not, filled my ears. You can't stop me Alyss, we will destroy everything. We will watch the galaxy burn... "No!" I cried out. You can't stop this Alyss, we are one. It's already begun. The scene before me blurred in to flames, and I was once again in the refresher on the floor.
My body was trembling and blood dripped from my nose. The terror I felt shook me to the core. I couldn't hold back the bile that rose up in my throat. After wiping my mouth clean and regaining my composure, all I wanted was to see Kylo. I didn't know who else to turn to. I was pretty sure he had actually returned and it wasn't just part of whatever the hell just happened. I used the Force to try and feel out Kylo's location. When I finally made contact with him, I asked him in a panic where he was. Why do you wish to know? I could tell Kylo was already angry. Please! I begged, my fear causing my thoughts to come across pitched and hurried. Interrogation rooms. I have business with a resistance pilot. You are to stay outside. Do you understand? I breathed a sigh of relief, Yes sir. With the information I was given, I ran down the hallway to the elevators frantically pushing the buttons before once again taking off towards Kylo's location. I stopped outside the interrogation room doors next to the stormtroopers stationed outside. I could hear a man screaming behind the closed doors. General Hux rounded the corner stopping in front of the doors staring at me, "Don't tell me you're actually going to assist in the interrogation this time Alyssandra." I glared back at the General, "I'm here to see Commander Ren." Before Hux could say anything else, the screaming stopped and the doors slid open. "It's in a droid. A BB unit." Kylo's modulated voice resonated throughout the hallway. I caught a glimpse of the pilot before the doors closed, he looked close to my age maybe a little older, with curly dark hair and tanned skin. The pilot had blood running his face, veins were bulging out in his neck and temple from the physical and mental torture.
My attention snapped back to the two men before me. "Well, then. If it's on Jakku we'll soon have it." Hux smirked in confidence. "I leave that to you. Come Alyssandra." Kylo was already making his way down the hall before I had a chance to even start walking. I finally caught up to Kylo after we rounded a few corners. "Ky... Sir..." since we were still out in the open I did my best to be as respectful as possible for once. "What happened? I felt a disturbance from you." Kylo stopped and turned to face me. "Well... I... that's what I wanted to..." before I could finish my sentence the high pitched screeching rang in my ears once again. My vision started to turn red then black. I couldn't hold back my screams from the pain. Before I blacked out I saw my reflection in the silver of Kylo's helmet. My eyes were black with my irises red... I couldn't put in to words the cold fear that ran through my body. I knew this time I wasn't hallucinating... it was real. Before anymore screams could rack my body, I passed out and fell limply in Kylo's arms.
