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She sat there with her mouth open. Her mind was completely unable to make a coherent thought. She would look from the note to the badge and back again. She was pretty sure if someone had looked at her, sitting in the car staring into space, they would have thought she was a real life bobble-head.
She would have thought she'd have a thousand questions going through her head, but at the moment, there was literally nothing there.
And that's exactly how Deeks found her 15 minutes later. His badge in one hand, the purple paper in another. He walked up to her car and sighed, knowing this could have happened when he decided on this course of action. Jogging with Monty up to his apartment so his furry companion didn't have to witness this, he grabbed a Twinkie and went back outside.
Knocking on the window and getting no response, he opened the passenger side and climbed in. She looked up for half a second then continued with staring at the badge.
"Deeks… I… uh…." Yeah, he was gonna have to help her with this.
"Read the note, Princess." He gently nudged her arm to help pull her back to reality.
She nodded at him, letting him know that she understood. Taking deep breaths, and now taking her eyes back and forth between Deeks and badge, she managed to set it down. Shaking, she had to use both hands to open the note.
To My Partner
In our line of work, I can't guarantee that I will never leave you. But with this badge, by signing those papers, I can guarantee I will never voluntarily leave you. You are my partner at work, my partner in crime, and now my partner in life. I love you. Smile Sunshine! - D
He watched as her eyes misted up again and a small smile adorned her face. She couldn't tear her eyes away from the paper for a good 3 minutes. He sat there patiently, waiting for movement. As soon as she looked up at him, her eyes still not completely clear but a little better than before, he put his finger under her chin and brought his lips to hers, sealing the promise he made in his note. Pulling back, he unwrapped the Twinkie and handed it to her.
"I love you Kensi. And I will never willingly leave you. I signed those papers as soon as I got back today. Before I knew about your accident, before the scavenger hunt, before the beach and before you told me you love me. What you said to me today? It wasn't what made me decide to do this, although it's an added bonus. Okay?"
She looked into his eyes, and leaned in to kiss him. Her senses were starting to come back to her, and she knew that it was exactly what she needed to do. She needed that connection more than anything right now.
"Deeks, I thought… I thought being a cop was who you are?" Her eyes danced between happiness and panic.
"Yeah, I used to think that. But being with you, Kens, that's who I am, what I need. Thinking about you while I was gone, that could have gotten me killed." He saw the guilt wash over her face. "It wasn't because of something you did or did not do. It was because I was constantly worried about you. I can't put myself or anyone else in that position again. If I am going undercover, I need to know that you are the one watching my back. Just like I need to be there to watch yours. This" he pointed between them "this is real, and it's what gets me going in the morning and keeps me on my toes during the day. It's what helps me sleep at night and what I dream about."
He kissed her once again, tenderly, passionately. She responded with fervor, running her hands through his hair at his neck. Hearing her moan, Deeks pulled back, unhappy with the console between them.
"Come on Princess, let's go inside. There's a special someone up there waiting for you."
Her eyes lit up immediately. "Monty!" She jumped out, grabbing the remaining cake from the backseat. Walking around the car, she smiled as she realized just how perfect today had been.
"I love you Deeks." Pecking her on the lips, he returned the sentiment and opened the door.
She was immediately attacked by a jumping mound of fur. Laughing, she handed Deeks the cake to put in the kitchen and squatted down, rubbing Monty's tummy and ears as fast as she could. He was so excited to see her he couldn't stop licking her hand. She laughed, telling him 'good dog, good boy' as Monty ran to the bedroom and back, ready for another round of love. Deeks stood in the kitchen, watching his girlfriend play with his dog.
"Hey Kens, just so you know, I am making this thing official. I love you, you love me. There's nothing else to it. You okay with that?" His eyes almost held a challenge to them. She stopped what she was doing, and answered as best she could.
"I love you Deeks. What made you think I wouldn't (would) be anything but okay with that?" She smirked at him, walking past him to get a beer when she turned and slapped him on the ass. "Now, Mr. Official, I need some food. Remember my instructions on taking care of Fern? Well, I do believe that it's your duty to love and take care of me, so, get on that." She saw the wicked gleam in his eye and right before he pounced on her, she shrieked and ran, Deeks chasing her, laughing manically.
She had anticipated the chase. What she had NOT anticipated was being unable to get his bedroom door open. All of a sudden his hands were on her, tickling her and she couldn't stop laughing, powerless to stop it.
Doing the only thing she knew how at the moment, she dropped her weight, falling completely to the floor. Deeks, unsuspecting of her latest move, ended up falling with her, landing on top of her. They laid there like that for a minute, laughing at each other. Deeks brought his hand up, wiping the hair away her face and then settling his hand on her cheek. All laughter now gone, she brought her hands up to his arms, grasping them as he lowered his mouth to hers. It was like the room exploded and fireworks erupted around them. Nothing compared to this for either one of them. Their hands explored, tongues dueled. He felt her hand lift the hem of his shirt up, and he was brought back to reality.
Slowly breaking the kiss that he was pretty sure could have gone on forever, he started peppering her face, eyes, and neck with light kisses. Kensi just laid there, moving her hands up and down his back, feeling the muscles tremble where her fingers played. Both got control of their breathing and looked at each other.
"Kensi, believe me, there is nothing else I would love more in this world than to take you into my bedroom and do what I only thought I would dream about. But we are doing this right. We are going on at least one date before you rip my clothes off." His eyes sparkled with merriment and she smirked.
"You sure you want me in my clothes Deeks?" she asked, watching his eyes grow darker.
"Not really." He licked his lips while staring at hers. She cleared her throat and almost giggled at the look on his face, shaking her head.
"C'mom Deeks, I was serious about being hungry." He stood and helped pull her to him. Putting a little more sway than normal into her hips, she walked back to the kitchen and grabbed her beer. "Two choices here Shaggy. Food or the rest of this cake is mine" she challenged him.
Grabbing his phone, he made a quick call their favorite Chinese restaurant down the street. After placing their orders and being told it was going to be about 15 minutes, they both agreed that walking Monty while picking up the food would kill two birds with one stone. Picking up their food and walking hand in hand on the way back, both were startled when Kensi had to suddenly stop and sit down for a minute.
"What is it, what's going on Kensi? Can I get you anything? What do you need?" She had her head in her hands, trying to get her bearings.
"I just need a minute. I'm okay Deeks. It's an after effect of the concussion I had. I get real dizzy for a couple minutes and then in about half an hour I am going to have a headache."
She looked up at him, seeing the worry in his eyes and knowing she needed this as much as him he did, she brought up what she had been scared of before. "I didn't have you there at the hospital with me, but I would be okay if you wanted to take me home and take care of me. I have had some pretty unpleasant episodes with these headaches."
He opened his mouth to ask her something but she beat him to the punch.
"They can last anywhere from a week to a couple of months to a year. I've noticed that over the last 2 weeks the dizziness isn't as intense and the headaches aren't as bad. Hopefully they will be completely gone soon." She tried to smile at him, but she could already feel the dull thud at the base of her neck. He saw the pain behind her eyes and snapped into action.
"Well, good thing we are about 2 minutes from my place. Let's go Sugarbear. I'm going to take the best care of you, you are going to wonder why you have never taken me up on my offers before." She wanted to laugh, but ended up leaning against him as they walked down the street. She had gotten really tired, but she also knew that was another after effect of the head injury. Making it back to his apartment, he shuffled everyone inside.
"Sit. Do you want to try and eat or wait until later?
"Umm… I think later would be the best bet. I don't want to eat and then get sick," she said to his retreating back as he walked down the hall to his room. A couple of minutes later he reappeared.
"Okay, I put out a pair of sweats and an old t-shirt. Go get changed and then we will just lay on the couch and relax. Is there anything I can get you? What else can I do for you?" Yeah, this was what she had needed at the hospital. This insane, crazy man who would literally do anything for her.
"Just some water and some Advil and I will be ok."
"Didn't the hospital give you any pain pills for this?"
"They offered, I turned them down. Really Deeks, I am good. I just need you, okay?" Their eyes met and he nodded.
"Okay. Go get changed. I'll get your water and Advil.
10 minutes later, both partners laid on the couch, Kensi's back pressed against Deeks chest, his arm drawing lazy circles on her hip. He had turned all the lights off and lit a few candles to give a slight ambiance to the room, letting it cast a soft glow. The TV played softly in the background, but all he could hear was her little snort snores. Once she had laid her head down she was out. And he didn't blame her. The last 8 weeks had been hellacious for both of them, but especially for her. He regretted his absence every day he was out there, always wondering if everything was okay back home. And at least twice she had really needed him and he hadn't been there.
'Never again' he thought to himself. As long as he could help it, he wouldn't leave her side.
The first week he was gone he knew he had made a mistake and regretted the decision immediately to take the assignment. There were a few times that his thoughts had almost gotten him in trouble, but he had been able to talk his way out of it.
The one time he hadn't, last night when the OP had gone south and LAPD had had to go in and get him out, he had slipped up and said something he shouldn't have. Right now, he couldn't even remember what it had been but suddenly he had been staring down the barrel of a gun and he vowed that if he got out of this, if God was going to answer him this one prayer, he would do what he had to to make sure he never left Kensi again. He hoped that God would understand that she had already had too many men in her life leave her and she couldn't go through it again.
And God had answered his prayers. LAPD had bust through the door at that moment, and before the dealer knew what was happening, Deeks had the gun taken away and the guy on the ground. He had walked out of there, gone to the precinct to fill out the paperwork and shower and change. And then he had gone to the Mission, where Hetty had offered him the position again, and this time, he had taken it.
Watching the woman he loved more than anything else in this world, he was so thankful that she returned his feelings. She had shown him exactly what was missing in his life, literally his other half. He was nothing without her. And he would spend forever trying to show her that.
Smiling, he turned the TV off and pulled the blanket off the back of the couch, covering them both. As he laid there, listening to all of her noises and committing them to memory, he decided he really needed to plan their first date.
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