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Chapter 12:
I was woken up the next morning to my phone vibrating underneath mine and Kendall's pillow. I picked it up and answered it in a tired tone. "Hello?" I say wiping the sleep from my eyes as well as Kendall, who had also been woken up by the vibration.
"Hey baby girl," It was mine and James' mom.
"Mom?" I say, climbing out of bed and waking James up. He looks up at me confused until I mouth 'its mom' to him. He climbed out of bed shocked and I put it on speaker phone.
"Honey, is James there with you?" She asks, sounding like she had been crying.
"Yeah he is right here. What's wrong mom?" I ask her concerned. Did something happen to her?
"I am so sorry…" Mom said, breaking down into tears again. I look up at James as he takes the phone from me.
"Mom, what's going on? Are you alright?" He asks her, concern flooding his voice as well.
"You father… They found him. He died from lung cancer yesterday morning." She says before breaking down into another flood of tears and sobs. I put my hand over my mouth and almost fall to the ground, but luckily Kendall was there to catch me. James hung up the phone and put it on my bed.
"Oh my god, Jamie!" I break away from Kendall and dart over to James, who catches me and starts crying too. Kendall, Logan and Carlos all just stand there in silence, not knowing what to do. I remember we did the same thing when Kendall's father died when he was 7. Granted he was a lot younger when his dad died, but he still understood what we were going through.
Later on that night, I was lying on the couch with Kendall. He had been cuddling with me a day since we found out the news from my mom and he was really supportive of me and James. He would only speak when spoken to, afraid of saying the wrong thing. I didn't think that was possible, but he was afraid. We must have fallen asleep because I woke up around 12 to see Kendall still asleep. His head was laid back on the couch so I switched our position so we were lying down on the couch. I got up and walked back to our bed areas and saw everyone else was out cold. I grabbed Kendall's guitar and a notebook and started writing. I was going to debut the song at the next show, which was tomorrow. I finished and went back and cuddled up with Kendall before falling back into a deep sleep in the warmth of his arms.
We arrived at the next show with people consistently asking James and I if we were alright to do the show. We weren't going to be alright for a while, emotionally, but we weren't going to disappoint our fans over it. When it was time to go on for me, I got ready in mine and Kendall's dressing room. "Hey baby?" I say, grabbing Kendall's attention.
"Yeah babe?" He asks, looking up at me from his very intense game of fruit ninja.
"Could I use your guitar out there?" I ask him, hoping he would let me. I felt more comfortable performing with Kendall's guitar, and I didn't know why.
He gets up and hands it to me "Sure baby girl, of course you can." I take it and kiss him before we all headed to the stage. They still watched me whenever I performed, because it still calmed my nerves. I walked out on stage and sat down on the stool. I sang 'Perfect Two' and all my other songs before introducing another new one.
"Well guys, as you may have heard by now via mine and BTR's twitter pages, mine and James' dad just recently passed away. Last night I wrote this song for him, I love you daddy and I hope you're proud of us." I look over at James and the other guys and see tears in their eyes. James and I weren't the only ones who lost a dad, we all did too.
Found myself today So I won't give up Seen that ray of light So I won't give up It doesn't matter what people say So I won't give up
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I won't be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
When I finish singing that verse, I put the guitar down and get off the stool and grab the microphone and start singing again.
That I won't give up Someone's watching over me
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me
When I finish I have a few tears falling down my face. I turn and look at the guys, James has the tear stained cheeks and Kendall has his arm around him as well as the other guys. I say thank you to the fans and run over to James and hug him tightly. We needed each other before, but not as badly as we need each other's support right now. When James walks away, saying he was going to go and wash his face before they go out, I walk over to Kendall and he engulfs me in a hug filled with love and comfort. I smile as the feeling and lean up to kiss his cheek. James returns and they go out for their performance. I do what I do and watch them when they start to sing. I loved watching them perform because it makes me happy and smile watching them so happy.
The remainder of the tour flies by after our father's funeral. We had a few days off during the tour so we flew out to Minnesota for the wake and funeral. We stayed in a hotel and I refused to see Dave. Luckily for me, he wasn't at the funeral because he didn't like my dad. Good, I wouldn't have wanted him to disgrace my father's name by going. Before we knew it, we were back in LA and back recording at Rocque Records. The day of our return, Gustavo wanted to see us so we went right there from the Palm Woods. When we walked onto his floor, we walked down the hall, but James made an erupt stop in front of us, making us all stop.
"What is it James?" I ask him, he just stares. I look over his shoulder and see my picture next to theirs. I smile really big and run to Gustavo's office, and there is Kelly standing behind him holding my CD in her hands. I scream and run over to her to hug her. The guys follow me after they hear me scream and Kendall speaks first.
"What's going on?" He asks, looking over at me hugging Kelly. Gustavo doesn't even say anything. He just dives into the box and throws each of them one of my CD's.
"Are you kidding me? My sister's CD came in when we were out on tour?" James yelled, reading over the back of the album. I run over to Kendall and jump into his arms and wrap my legs around his waist. He laughed and held me up with his arms as the others laughed and looked over the album. Kendall let me down and the rest of them hugged me and congratulated me.
Later that night, Kendall and I were out at the beach at around midnight, so we didn't think we were being watched. He held my hand as I held my shoes in the other and his other hand was in his pocket. I had on a pair of black shorts with his blue striped zip hoodie on and carried my converse in my hand. "Are you excited?" Kendall asked me, as we walked along the water.
"Beyond excited. I can't believe it's happening, so fast too." I tell him, whispering the last part.
"You have been through so much in your life. If anyone deserves this, it's you." I smile and unlock my hand from his and wrap my arm around his waist as his arm goes over my shoulder. We laugh and do our usual this we do to have fun. We throw our stuff into the sand and run out into the water. We may do this after our dates, but it will never get old, because it is mine and Kendall's 'thing'. Around 1 in the morning, Kendall and I decide to head back to his apartment and go to sleep.
When were woken up the next morning to screaming coming from the living room. I lifted my head off of Kendall's bare chest and realize it is Carlos and James playing Xbox. I look up and see Kendall opening his eyes slowly too so I lean up and kiss him quickly before getting up and going into the bathroom. When I get out I see him sitting on his bed with his baggy blue sweat pants on and a black t shirt. I walk over to him wearing (http: /www .polyvore. com/ cgi/ set? id= 42813263). I lean down and kiss him again but this time he stands up and deepens it, wrapping his hands around my waist, pulling me closer. I put my hand on his neck and the other on his forearm. We slowly pull away, knowing it can't go that far here with everyone out in the other room. We catch our breath before opening the door and walking out, sitting down at the table with Mama Knight. "Hey kids," She says standing up and walking into the kitchen "I made the boys and Katie pancakes this morning, you want some?" She asks nicely and we gladly accept. I go in to help her and Kendall goes into the living room to play Call of Duty with the others. "So how are you honey? I know James is doing better, but what about you?"
"I'm doing well now Mama Knight. I've come to terms with it, and am accepting it too with the help of your son and my brother and the other guys." I tell her with a smile as she stirs the batter.
"Well that's good sweetie, and they told me your album came in yesterday! Congratulations." She says with a huge smile.
"Thank you." I break out with a huge smile and hug her. Then I get out the pan so she can make the pancakes. While she is cooking, I walk out into the living room and sit down watching my brother and Kendall play now. While we are watching and playing, Logan gets a phone call.
"Hello? What Gustavo? Oh really, when? Tonight?... Well that's kind of last minute don't you think? Yeah okay, we'll be there." He hangs up then shuts the game off causing all of us to yell.
"Okay before you attack me, let me explain. Gustavo just called and he wants us at a movie premiere tonight to give BTR some publicity. So after you two eat, we have to go out and get outfits." He says, walking into his room with his phone to his ear, I'm assuming to call Camille and let her know. Carlos soon does the same but to call Stephanie. Kendall and I eat then get dressed, but before we can walk out of his room, he grabs my hand and brings me back to him.
"Kendall, what are you doing? We have to go and get our stuff for tonight." I tell him, confused.
"I know, but I wanted to give you this before we left." He goes over to his nightstand and opened it looking for something. He gets out wrapped present then walks back over to me. My mouth opens in shock and he hands it to me.
"Baby, my birthday isn't until next week…"I tell him taking the present out of his hand and holding it gently.
"I know, but I can't wait until then to give it to you." I start to unwrap the present then I see a velvet case. I open it and see the most beautiful necklace (http: /www. kay .com/ product1%7C10101%7C10001%7C-1%7C172405007%7C15055.15091.15438%7C)
"Oh my god, Kendall it's beautiful…" The tears start welling up in my eyes as I run my index finger over the hearts and look up at him.
"The 4 hearts represent all 4 of us, who love you with everything in us." I was about to speak when he started again "But the gold one is for me…" I throw my arms over his neck and shed a few tears onto his shirt. I smile into the crook of his neck as I feel him wrap his arms tightly around my waist. I put away and take the necklace out. Without words, he takes it from my hands and I hold my hair up so he can put it on. I turn back around and touch it again as it rest on my chest. I smile up at him and lean up to kiss him. He returns the kiss then we leave to split up and go shopping.
When we meet up with everyone in the lobby, we all drive to the mall together then split up when we get there. I go with Stephanie and Camille as the guys all go together. While we are shopping, we stop for a moment in between stores just to take a break. "So Ashley, a little bird told me that your birthday is next week…" Stephanie says with a sly smirk.
"Let me guess, this little bird is named Carlos…" I smirk back at her. She smiles then I answer her "Yeah it is, and I got my first present today" I smile at them both. The both smile then Camille speaks.
"From who and what was it?"
I smile then touch the necklace resting on my chest "This, from Kendall."
"Awww" They both say at look at it "What does it mean" Stephanie asks, touching it.
"He told me that it represents all 4 of them but the gold one is his"
"Awww" after that we all start shopping again. After about 3 hours we meet back up with the guys and head home. The girls and I get Mama Knight and Katie so they can help us get ready while the guys took over 2J so they could get ready.
While we are getting ready, Mama Knight takes notice of the necklace "Oh sweetie, he gave it to you early!"
I smile at her as she does my hair "Yeah, he said he couldn't wait another week. Did you go with him to help pick it out?" She smiles and nods. I knew Kendall too well.
"But in his defense, he picked it out, he just wanted my opinion." She states as the other girls besides Katie 'aww' at how romantic Kendall can be, and I loved it.
Later on that night we all walk back to 2J but the guys are spread around so Mama Knight makes us all go into her room she can let us make a grand entrance, like we were going to prom. Jennifer was already here for my brother so she was sitting on the bed waiting for us. "Wow you guys look really nice." She compliments us. She was wearing a short white gown that went to about her knee and some strapped heels. Her hair was half up and curled.
"Okay girls, the guys are ready so walk out when you're ready." Mama Knight pops her head it and says before shutting the door again. We fix our makeup and check our hair one last time before walking out one by one and walking to our individual guys. Camille walks over to Logan wearing her long white gown and her curly hair straightened and put into a pony tail. Stephanie walks to Carlos with her long purple dress and black heels, her hair curled and left down. I think Carlos jaw hit the floor when she approached him. I walked over to Kendall wearing (instead of the color, it is like a sky blue instead of coffee colored [http: /www. polyvore .com/ cgi/ set? id= 42932197] that's if you don't like the color it is already).
"Wow baby, you look amazing…" He whispers as I approach him.
I shyly smile and look down at the bottom of the dress "You don't think the dress is too much?" As I lift it slightly off the ground then drop it again.
"Absolutely not, you look amazing and appropriate for this event." He says in a jokingly proper tone. I laugh and he grabs my hand then kisses me lightly before we all headed to the event.
When we got there, we walked the carpet and did some interviews and took pictures with the guys. My friends and I laugh and smile as we pose for the pictures. Kendall even kissed my cheek in one photo that was just us. The night was amazing.
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