Ok the newest chapter! I just wanted to thank you all for reviewing! I got 12 reviews for the last chapter! The reviews really motivate me to update, the more I get that faster I type! Lol. Also I'm sorry for oocness and bad spelling and grammar!
Anyway, on more serious matters, I want to talk to you about this chapter. This chapter is probably going to be more controversial, but with the subject of abortion, no matter what you write, it's going to be controversial. Yes that's right, Sakura gets an abortion, but come on, you should've known. I mean did you expect her to get pregnant, not get an abortion and somehow be able to hide it from everyone for nine months? Anyway I know that some of you reading may be pro life and some of you may be pro choice. I myself am pro choice. When I wrote this I really researched the procedure. Of course I know there are laws about underage girls getting abortions, but I just focused on the actual procedure. You know a lot of pro life people will often say that a woman who gets an abortion are doing it to be liberated or that they just don't value life and they don't care. That is not true. I believe that if one chooses to terminate a pregnancy than that decision is a very difficult, grueling, and emotional one. So as I wrote this I tried to show the emotional turmoil one might go through when going through with an abortion.
Now I'm not saying that abortion is the solution either. I think in some situations it's the best choice, but that really depends on the person. Abortion should be a personal choice and a woman should not be treated negatively for making that choice.
So please when you read this chapter, stay open minded. I'm not trying to promote abortion to you guys and I'm not gonna try to change the opinions of my pro life readers. Just please, if you are pro life and you hate me writing this chapter about abortion, skip the flashback or if you read the flashback, please don't flame me.
Anyway, I hope you'll enjoy my new chapter and I hope to get reviews!
Sakura stepped off the bus and sighed as she walked to her destination. Kakashi's office. The bus was ahead of schedule so she was there about 15 or 20 minutes earlier than usual. As she walked she took the time to look at all the buildings and stores she had never paid attention to before. She noticed a salon, a floral shop, a few clothes stores, a café. But what really caught her eye was a group of protesters outside a building she couldn't quite see. As she got closer she noticed that some of the signs said things like 'God Hates You!' 'Life Begins at Conception' . She realized they were anti-abortion activists and that they were protesting outside a woman's clinic. The woman's clinic she had went to four years ago.
Her feet stopped and she froze as she stared at the angry protesters as they yelled at a young women and her boyfriend probably only a couple years older than her. The girl looked so sad and vulnerable and her boyfriend's face was etched in worry and fear.
She could only imagine what that poor young woman was going through. At least she had someone there to hold her hand though.
Four years ago
It was 12:30 on a Sunday, so not many people were out because most stores closed. But the women's free clinic was open 24 hours a day 7 days a week and Sakura.
Sakura took in a deep and walked inside the clinic, there weren't many a lot of people there, at the reception there was a plump, older nurse, probably in her late 30s or early 40s, with light blond hair that curled tightly and was in a loose messy bun, the woman's eyes were tired but still held a warmth and kindness in them, her slightly dry lips were lightly coated in a pink lip gloss, and over her purple scrubs was a fuzzy white sweater. In the waiting area was a young couple in their late 20s, the women had dark brown hair that hung around her head and covered her face as her head was laying on her companions shoulder, her tan hands trembled slightly like she was nervous or scared; the man next to her kept his skinny arm around her and his large pale hand held her small trembling tan one in comfort, he had short dirty blond hair that looked like he'd been stress-fully running his hands through it, over his brown eyes was a pair of thick rimmed glasses that hid the tears threatening to fall. Across the room from the couple, a young girl probably 19, leaned against the wall, she had short, black hair that was held back in a pony tail and a headband, her pale blue eyes were void of emotion and she appeared to be in a daze, her arms were wrapped around her body in a protective manner; she looked so lonely.
Sakura went over to the nurse who smiled kindly at her.
"Hello, how may I help you?" She asked. Sakura looked down nervously as she grasped for the words.
"Do you have an appointment or are you making one?" She asked nicely. Again Sakura found herself unable to answer.
"Maybe you need to speak with a counselor?" The nurse asked. Sakura shook her head and looked up nervously.
"Uhm m-my name i-i-is Sakura Ha-Haruno, I…. I was here a couple d-days ago. I-I have an appointment for… for a surgical abortion." Sakura stammered out. The nurse nodded and typed Sakura's name in and nodded again.
"Yes, here it is" The nurse said looking at the screen, she then got up and went to a file cabinet behind the desk and pulled out a form, she then went back to her desk and put the forms on a clipboard.
"Here," She said handing the clipboard to Sakura, "you'll need to fill these out, your name will be called when the doctor is ready." Sakura nodded and took a pen from a cup on the desk.
"Also, I'll need your $400." The nurse said nervously, like she didn't want to say it. Sakura nodded and dug into her bag and brought our a messy wad of bills and placed it one the desk. The nurse smiled and counted the many twenties, tens, fives, and ones. She suddenly frowned.
"I'm sorry, but there's only $378 here." She said. Sakura stuck her hand back into the bag and pulled out another twenty and two ones. The nurse smiled and took the money.
"Ok then, you can have a seat." The nurse said.
"Thank you." Sakura said as she turned and took a seat on a chair. She took another deep breath before taking the cap off the pen and began filling out the form.
After about 10 minutes another nurse came in to call out a name. Sakura looked up wondering if it was her name about to be called.
"Sa-" Sakura held her breath in.
"-yuri Iwate." Sakura exhaled. The girl leaning against the wall nodded towards the nurse and followed her into the doorway. Sakura sighed and finished filling out the forms and handed them back to the nurse at reception, who gave her another kind smile. 20 minutes passed and another name that wasn't Sakura's and the young couple got up and followed the nurse.
After another 20 minutes the finally came out again and looked over to Sakura and called out her name.
"Sakura Haruno?" She asked, Sakura nodded and got up to follow the nurse into the doorway and down the hall and through another door.
"Ok, let's take a look at your chart." The nurse said as she looked at the clipboard in her hands.
"Hmm, you've already had you're first appointment, you've had your ultra-sound, pap smear, and you've met with one of our counselors… Everything appears to be in check. You're about 8 weeks along… Ok, the doctor will be here shortly, so relax." The nurse said, Sakura nodded and had a seat on the gurney/bed thing. (I don't know what it's called) After a few minutes the doctor came in. The doctor was a woman with honey eyes, blonde hair, and very huge breasts.
"Hello I'm Tsunade." The woman said and picked up the chart the nurse was looking at earlier.
"Sakura… what a pretty name." Tsunade said as she looked through the chart.
"So, you're 14? Is someone here with you? A parent or friend? Maybe a boyfriend?" Sakura said nothing. Tsunade sighed.
"Sakura, you were informed that if you're underage you need to have someone here to pick you up, right?" Tsunade asked.
"Uh, yeah my… my boyfriend is going to pick me up." Sakura lied. Tsunade looked at her skeptically, but continued on anyway.
"I also need to confirm with you if whether or not you ate 2 to 3 hours before you came." Sakura nodded and Tsunade smiled and continued.
"Ok, well the procedure is generally short, approximately 5 to 10 minutes. You will experience some pain so you'll be given a sedative. We'll also dilate your cervix so we can insert the cannula. During the procedure you're going to experience some cramping that can be minor to severe, but it usually ends once the suctioning stops. During the procedure if you experience any pain to severe you may self-administrate NO2, the NO2 will help you manage the pain. When it's all done we're gonna keep you here for another hour or so to recover." Tsunade explained. Sakura nodded processing the information.
"Alright, let's get started." Tsunade said.
Sakura laid back as she was given the sedatives and pain killer, and showed her how to use the NO2. She then took in a deep breath and shut eyes, not wanting to see anything, even though Tsunade had assured her she wouldn't.
As the cannula performed it's suctioning function Sakura began to feel cramping. She closed her eyes tighter as the cramping got more painful.
"Agh…" She squeaked out from the pain of her cramps. She felt a warm comforting hand on her knee and she peaked her eyes open to see Tsunade smiling at her.
"It's ok, it's almost over. Just a few more minutes." Tsunade said, Sakura sucked in her breath as the cramps got more severe and nodded. Tears gathered in her eyes from the pain.
"It's ok." Tsunade repeated and Sakura nodded again as she self administrated the NO2. After 3 minutes the suctioning finally stopped and the pain from the cramps began to die down. Sakura relaxed her tense body and opened her eyes to find Tsunade looking at her.
"Alright, come with me, I'm gonna take to a place where you can rest." Tsunade said. Sakura nodded and followed the woman to another room where she saw the 19 year old girl, and the young couple. Tsunade lead Sakura to a bed near the 19 year old girl.
"ok, rest here and someone will be here to check on you in about an hour." Sakura nodded and Tsunade smiled at her one last time before leaving. Sakura laid down and closed her eyes, but she found it difficult to sleep so she just gazed up at the ceiling and let her mind wander.
"Can't rest either?" The 19 year old, Sayuri, asked. Sakura shook her head.
"No…" Sakura whispered, loud enough for Sayuri to here.
"So what's your story?" Sayuri asked. Sakura looked at her confused.
"What got you here I mean. You look a little young to be doing this." Sayuri said. Sakura stayed silent, unsure of what to say. Should she just tell Sayuri she was raped? Would it be easier to tell a stranger? Sayuri looked harmless and friendly. Maybe she could help her.
"I'm here because the condom me and boyfriend were using broke." Sayuri said.
"Where's your boyfriend now?" Sakura asked. Sayuri scoffed.
"When I told him he knocked me up, he said he wanted nothing to do with me or the baby… Fucking bastard." Sayuri said.
"Oh, I'm… I'm sorry." Sakura said. Sayuri shook her head.
"Don't be. At least now I know now and not 10 years from now that he's a dick head." Sayuri said with a bittersweet grin on her face.
"So… why are you here?" Sayuri asked. Sakura sighed and thought of a lie.
"Uh… I had sex with my boyfriend and…. We…. We didn't use protection." Sakura said. Sayuri didn't seem to believe her, but decided not to say anything. It was obvious Sakura didn't want to talk about it.
"So where's the bastard now?" Sayuri asked.
"He's picking me up." Sakura said, lying again.
"If you say so." Syuri muttered. Suddenly a nurse came in and went over to Sayuri.
"How are you feeling?" She asked.
"Good, I think I'm good to go now." Sayuri said. The nurse smiled and nodded.
"Ok, you can come with me then." The nurse said and Sayuri got off the bed and followed the nurse out.
"Hey, good luck and feel better." Sayuri said to Sakura before leaving the room. Sakura nodded and closed her eyes again and tried to relax. After awhile the young couple left too and Sakura was on her own in the room. After a while longer Tsunade came in.
"Hey Sakura, how you doing?" The robust woman asked.
"I feel fine. The cramping is gone." Sakura said. Tsunade smiled and nodded.
"Alright. Would you like to wait in the reception area for your boyfriend?" Tsunade asked. Sakura nodded.
"Yeah… yeah he should be here any minute." Sakura said and followed Tsunade out of the room and back to the waiting room where the plump nurse from earlier was. There were also a few more people in the waiting room. Tsunade spoke to the nurse at reception and told her Sakura was underage and shouldn't leave until someone came to get her. (Not all are getting abortions, some are here for gynecologist visits, std tests, birth control. A lot of things.)
Sakura took a seat and sat there patiently, even though she knew no one was coming. She watched as different patients went in and came out for about an hour. Tsunade came in and was surprised to see Sakura still there.
"Sakura why are you still here?" The blond woman asked, Sakura shrugged.
"My boyfriend…. He's probably just running late. He should be here soon." Sakura said, half trying to convince Tsunade and half trying to convince herself. Tsunade nodded and continued on her way to the receptionist.
"Hey Mayu, I'm off work, wanna go out for drinks with me and Shizune tonight?" Tsunade asked the plump nurse, Mayu, who smiled and nodded.
"Of course Tsunade!" She said. Tsunade nodded and walked over to Sakura.
"Ok, so I need to go now, but here," Tsunade reached into her lab coat pocket and pulled out a small white card, "this is my number and contact information. If you ever need anyone to talk to or maybe a ride… feel free to call me." Sakura nodded and took the card. Tsunade placed her hand on Sakura's shoulder and gave it a squeeze before finally leaving.
Sakura sighed and waited another two hours. The waiting room was empty. Occasionally Mayu would bring Sakura some water, or offered her a bagel from the break room, and sometimes she would talk to Sakura. Finally Mayu, got up to leave and another nurse to her place. Mayu informed her about Sakura's situation and the nurse nodded. Mayu said goodbye to Sakura and left.
Sakura looked at the clock on the wall. 5:47. She sighed. It was obvious she was going to be stuck here until some nurse took pity on her and let her leave. After 30 minutes a car pulled up and Sayuri came back into the clinic. When she spotted Sakura she gave a smile that said 'I knew it.' The black haired girl went up to the reception and spoke to her. The nurse smiled and had Sayuri sign something. Sayuri then walked over to Sakura.
"Ok, come on, let's get you home." Sayuri said. Sakura nodded and followed the girl out to her blue 1990 blue Subaru legacy. When they reached the vehicle Sayuri turned around and leaned against it facing Sakura.
"So why did you lie?" Sayuri asked. Sakura looked away and shrugged.
"I don't know…. Why did you come?" Sakura asked.
"Because… I had a feeling you needed help and well 3 years ago I was you… Alone, pregnant… not knowing what to do…" Sakura's eyes teared up.
"It's ok. I'm Sayuri Iwate." Sayuri said sticking her hand out for Sakura to shake.
"Sakura Haruno." Sakura said shaking the older girls hand. Sayuri smiled.
"So are you hungry?" Sakura nodded.
"Ok, get in the car. I'll get you some food and I'll drive you home." Sayuri said pushing herself off the car and opened her door.
"No, you don't have to drive me home, I live 40 minutes away." Sakura said getting into the passenger's seat. Sayuri shook her head.
"No it's fine. Besides I live thirty minutes away." Sayuri said. Sakura nodded and the two drove off.
An hour later after they had stopped at the drive thru at McDonalds the two were parked outside Sakura's house.
"So are you gonna be ok?" Sayuri asked. Sakura shook her head.
"No… I… I… feel like a monster." Sakura asid as tears fell from her eyes. Sayuri shook her head.
"No Sakura… you are not a monster!" Sayuri said reassuringly, but it didn't help, the tears just fell faster.
"No, no I am!" Sakura said as she wiped her eyes. Sayuri grabbed her hands and looked Sakura dead in the eyes.
"Sakura… Sakura listen to me. No matter what ANYONE says, know that you are not a monster. You're not. You just did the best and smartest thing for you to do in your situation." Sakura let out a sob and Sayuri squeezed her hands in comfort.
"You're not a monster."
End flashback
Sakura snapped out of her daze when a car passed her honking. She remembered where she was and what she needed to do. Not wanting to cross paths with the protesters she walked across the street and continued her way to Kakashi's.
As she walked she spotted a familiar face.
Karin.
What was Karin doing here?
"Well, well, well if it isn't Sakura." Karin said. Sakura looked down.
"What are you doing here?" Sakura asked softly. Karin paused.
"Just… shopping around. What's your excuse?" Karin asked. Sakura shook her head.
"It's none of your business." Sakura said as she continued walking deciding that it'd just be best to ignore Karin. Karin watched Sakura walk away and shook her head.
'I will find out what you're hiding Sakura.' Karin thought determinedly and continued on her way.
Ok, so there was chapter 10. I hope you liked it. Also that song I used at the last chapter was 'I Like it, I Love it' by Tin McGraw, it wasn't the song 'Tim McGraw' by Taylor Swift. Anyway please review and I'm sorry if I offended anyone with the issue of abortion, also if any of you want to ask me questions about it, like my views or where I got my information just PM me or ask in a review. Please review!
