CHAPTER 12 – You can't pray away the gay
CALLIE'S POV
This should be one of the happiest times of my life. I am in the house I grew up in. My family is surrounding me, the woman I love just agreed to start a life with me, in a home we can call ours. But I'm not happy like I should be. I'm not feeling like I'm on top of the world, or floating on cloud 9. Why? Because my mother and father are screaming at the top of their lungs about 20 feet away from the table that we are still sitting at. My mother stormed out of the room the minute I asked Arizona if she wanted to move in together. Up until this moment, a very small part of me had hoped that my mother was accepting me for who I am. I thought for just one second that she was looking past her beliefs, and was accepting my relationship. My happiness. I thought that she could see how truly happy I am in my life now that Arizona is in it. Isn't that what a parent is supposed to want for their child? To see them love another person with all of themselves and to have that person love them back. Isn't a parent supposed to love their child unconditionally? I know that she is in the wrong, but it doesn't seem to matter. She is saying so many horrible things about Arizona and I in that room. Of course her rant is in pure Spanish, so Arizona is only catching the parts of the conversation where my mother says "Arizona", but I can hear it. And the look on my sisters face says she is hearing every word as well.
I scoot my chair back, place my napkin on the table and ignore my sister as she tries to stop me, and I reach for Arizona's hand. I am shaking, and beyond angry. Arizona looks at me with an understand expression on her face, and she takes my hand as she stands to join me. I turn to my sister and finally speak. "I'm sorry Aria. But we have to go. I cannot… I WILL NOT stay here. If mami will not accept Arizona and my relationship, then I have no reason to be here. I am sorry. I wish we could have spent more time together, but I need to get away from here. And fast. Before I say so many things that I might possibly regret one day. Please tell Papi I will call him soon."
Arizona stays silent the entire time we climb the stairs. But once we are inside of the room and the door is closed to the rest of the household, she grabs my wrist to stop me before I enter the restroom to change.
"Calliope, talk to me please"
"Arizona, please. Can we please just change and leave. Once we are gone, you can ask me anything. We will talk about anything. But please, get me out of this house".
"Okay babe. Go change and I'll start packing our things"
I turn to the restroom and change into some jeans and my SGMW hoodie. I slip on my sneakers and pull my hair into a messy pony tail. I look at myself in the restroom mirror and see the tears in my blood shot eyes. I am on the verge of breaking down, but I will be damned if I give my mother the satisfaction. I know I will break eventually. It will become too much to handle, but I will deal with that when I am alone with my girlfriend and I can just let go. So I splash some cold water on my face, and head back towards the room. Arizona has the suitcases on the bed, and has all of our things inside them already. She is changed into some jeans and a t-shirt and sneakers as well. She walks over to the mirror by the dresser and pulls her hair up into a ponytail before spinning it into a bun and turning to face me.
"You ready Calliope? Our stuff is all packed up"
I can't even find the words to spit out, so I simply nod a yes and walk to wards the bed to grab the suitcases. I can feel Arizona walk up behind me, and place both of her hands on my hips. She puts her chin on my shoulder blade and I feel her nose against the crook of my neck. I close my eyes, and just inhale deeply taking a quick moment to just focus on the greater good in my life. And that is all Arizona. She kisses my neck and then reaches for the two carry on bags we brought. We are walking downstairs when I see my father walking towards us. He stops in his tracks, and looks towards Arizona and I with luggage in hand. I could almost swear that he has tears in his eyes. He quietly mouths an "'I'm sorry" and walks towards his den. We both hug my sister goodbye and walk our the front door. The family driver is standing against one of my fathers town cars.
"Dr's Torres and Robbins, you father has instructed me to take the two of you wherever you chose this evening."
I know that my father is trying to be helpful so I turn to my girlfriend and she nods in agreement. We both get into the car while the driver loads our bags. I look out the window, and see my father standing on the porch waving towards us. We both wave, and then break down. My father is a great man, and while he might not understand what Arizona and I have, he is trying. And that is what matters. I wish badly that I could say the same for my mother, but I know that will never happen.
The drive to the hotel was long and quiet. Arizona held my hand and was silently there for me. And I think that is the best thing for right now. Mainly due to the fact that I cannot express how I am feeling right this moment in words. So instead, she holds me when I need it, wipes my tears as they fall, and reassures me that it won't always be this hard. Once we arrived at the hotel, Arizona stepped out of the car and instructed the man to take our bags inside before she came back to the car for me. I felt like I was having an out of body experience. I couldn't make myself form any words to express how I felt. I let Arizona lead me inside and get us checked in to the hotel. I didn't even realize we had made it inside the elevator and inside the room until I felt Arizona pull me to sit down on the side of the bed. She pulled my shoes off, then my jeans. She took my hair down, and laid me on the bed. After she covered me up, she undressed herself and climbed in the bed next to me. She pulled my back into her front and held me so tight. The last thing I remembered before falling asleep was Arizona whispering in my ear, "It's all going to work out Calliope. No matter what, I am right here and I am never leaving. You will never be alone." And then.. blackness.
I woke up the next morning in the same exact position I fell asleep in. The only difference was when I opened my eyes, the blonde that was holding me all night was no longer there. I looked around the room and finally laid eyes on her. She smiled at me so sweetly and I couldn't help but return the expression. I sat up in the bed and that is when I took in the full surroundings of this room. Arizona had ordered room service for breakfast, and had tons and tons of red roses around the room. I looked around and smiled. I started to speak when Arizona cut me off before I had the chance.
"I know that this hasn't been easy for you. I know that you feel like everything is going horribly wrong. But you did it. You told your parents exactly how you feel about me. We have taken a huge step towards our future by deciding to look for a home together. Things won't always be easy Calliope. I know that. But things will be easier when we approach them together. As a team. I wish I could make your mother open her eyes and see how amazing this is. Us. But she hasn't caught up to it yet. And even if she never does, I will spend every day trying my best to make you happy. I hope we can enjoy our last few days of vacation together and just be insanely happy for ourselves. Because when we get back to Seattle, we get to start an amazing journey together. And I for one, am SUPER excited about it."
I sat there and listened to Arizona give me another one of her amazing speeches. She is so good with words. And I know how lucky I am to have her. This thing I'm going through with my family is hard, but knowing that I have this beautiful, caring woman in my life reminds me of why I am doing this in the first place. Because she makes me happier than anyone or anything ever has before.
"Ari, thank you for taking such great care of me. You are the only thing that keeps me going. I cannot wait to enjoy the rest of our vacation together. So what do you say we enjoy this beautiful breakfast you have for us, and then get ready to hit he beach? We are going to make the best of this trip."
Arizona kissed my lips softly before turning to get our breakfast. We sat on the balcony of our room and the breeze coming from off the water felt great. It was refreshing and exactly what I needed. After breakfast, and a slight make out session in the shower, Arizona and I were dressed and ready for the day. We packed a small bag for the beach, and headed out. I was determined to make this trip end on a good note. I would not let my mother ruin the happiness I have found. I knew coming into this trip that there was a possibility that it would end something like this, but I shook that off. Today is about my girlfriend. About how happy I am when I am with her. So my mother can either get on board with my lifestyle, or not. Either way, I will be with Arizona. And I will be happy.
We walked to the beach, and found a nice spot under an umbrella. Arizona spread the towels on the sand, and I couldn't help but keep my eyes on her as she took of the extra small blue jean shorts. She slid them off her slim and muscular legs in a painfully slow motion. Then she reached up and pulled the light pink tank top off of her body to completely expose her baby blue bikini. I could feel myself becoming incredibly turned on.
"Calliope, your staring. Didn't your parents teach you it isn't nice to stare?" Arizona said with a wink.
I couldn't even find words to respond to that so it came out as more of a grunt and a nod. Arizona found that even more amusing as she handed me the bottle of sunscreen.
"Would you mind putting this on my back for me babe? I burn really easily" the beautiful blonde says to me.
"Sure! How could I pass up the opportunity to rub you down in public." I reply with a sexy whisper into her ear.
I feel Arizonas body shiver as the words leave my mouth. My hands take their time rubbing the sunblock into her skin. Making sure to cover each inch of her exposed skin on her back.
"Do you need me to put it on the front too?" I ask, raking my tongue across her earlobe.
"U-Uh I think I should do the front Cal, or we are going to end up giving a lot of innocent people a lesson in Lesbian-ism right here on the beach. And I'm not sure they are ready for that." Arizona says only half kidding.
I can tell she is just as turned on as I am and we have a long day ahead of us, so I decide to change the subject to help us both out.
"Would you like to go for a swim? The cool water might do us both some good".
"That is an awesome idea babe" Arizona says with that beautiful smile. Showing off those dimples that I love so much.
We walk hand and hand to the water, and the next thing I know we are waist deep in the beautiful blue salt water. I reach out and place my hand on Arizona's hip and start to pull her towards me. Our lips are inches apart and just as I'm moving in for a kiss, a huge wave hits the side of us, soaking us both. We pull apart and after the wave subsides, we both look at eachother and see we are a couple of drowned rats. We break out in laughter as Arizona jumps up and pushes my shoulders forcing me under the water. This is the beginning of a wrestling match that lasts a good while. It's fun and the laughter helps pull me out of the funk I was previously in. After we both equally surrender, I feel Arizona's lips press against mine with an urgency. I kiss her back and melt into the feeling of her tongue against mine, and the cool water surrounding us. I am lost in this moment. Lost in my Arizona. I can't imagine being anywhere else than right here with her.
After a nice swim, we walk back to our towels hand in hand. Laughing and talking about what we want to do with the rest of the day. I am sitting on my towel, while Arizona has walked over to the refreshment stand that is on the beach when a familiar voice comes out of nowhere.
"Callie Torres? Is that you? Hell, it is you! I knew it." Matt says.
Matt is my ex boyfriend. I dated him my last year of high school, and most of my pre-med years of college. At one time I thought he was someone that I could marry, but we grew apart before I even began med school and after graduation, I never saw him again.
"Matt. H-h-hey." I stutter. I stand and he wraps me into a huge hug. "How are you" I ask.
"I'm doing great. Working downtown at Bosh and Bosh Law firm. Going on four years now. What brings you to Miami? Are you working at a hospital here? Gosh, it's been what? 7, 8 years?" he says.
"No, no I'm not working here. I came to visit my family actually. Only in town for a couple of days then back home to Seattle."
"Oh, Seattle. That's a long way from here. How is work? Did you pick a specialty? I"
"Yes, I'm the Head of Orthopedics at Seattle Grace Mercy West. I love my job and life there is wonderful. How are you enjoying the life of a lawyer?"
"Eh, its okay. It pays the bills. Hey, I don't mean to be so forward, but I noticed you don't have a ring, and I would love to take you to dinner. Maybe catch up? Like old times." He smiles at me.
"Um, well I am-" I begin to say as Arizona comes walking over to me with two glasses of lemonade in her hand.
"Hey babe, they didn't have the raspberry one you like, so I grabbed these instead." She says before realizing that there is a third person in the mix. "Hi" she says in her bubbly voice.
"Babe?" Matt says to me with a confused look on his face? "As in…?"
"As in babe" I respond. "Matt, this is my girlfriend, Dr. Arizona Robbins. Arizona, this is Matt. My ex boyfriend from college" I say looking at Arizona and hoping that she isn't uncomfortable.
Without missing a beat Arizona smiles and extends her free hand to introduce herself.
"Nice to meet you Matt."
"Ehemmm. Likewise. Well, Callie it was great to see you, and I hope you enjoy the rest of your vacation. Goodluck to you in Seattle." Matt says while staring at the sand before he quickly retreats from the direction he came from.
"Ooo-kay. That was weird" Arizona says to me.
"Yeah, he had just asked me to dinner when you came walking up. So I'm sure being shot down with the news of me being a member of the other team was a shocker." I say before we both break out in giggles.
"Well, too bad for him. Because I plan to keep you on my team. He had his chance, and luckily for me, he let you go". Arizona says with a wink.
The rest of our day at the beach was relaxing. We went for a walk, attempted to build a sand castle, and laid out in the sun. After several hours we decided that we should head back up to our hotel and grab a shower. When we walked back into the room, I checked my cell phone for any missed calls. Part of me hoped that there would be something from my parents, but to no surprise there was nothing from them. I did have a few missed calls from friends back in Seattle, and a couple of texts from Mark. Just as I was starting to respond to him, his name appeared on the caller id. I didn't miss the look on Arizona's face when she noticed that he was calling. Even though she knew that Mark was my friend, she always swore that he had deeper feelings for me that I chose to ignore.
"Hey Mark. What's up?"
"Torres! I have been going insane here. When are you coming home? I am in desperate need of a drink with my friend. Lexie and I had a huge fight last night and I do not know what to do?" he says quickly.
"Mark, we will be home in a couple of days. Just try to stay clear of Little Grey until I get back. You know that you push too hard, and that never ends well." I tell him as I look across the room to see Arizona walk into the restroom and shut the door behind her. Not inviting me to shower with her is my first clue that she is less than impressed with my conversation with Sloan. "Look Mark, just apologize for whatever stupid thing you did, and go from there."
"What makes you think that I am the one who messed up? You just assume."
"Mark, I know you. Am I wrong? Was it Lexie who messed up?"
"Well.. I.. ok, well no. I might have—"
I cut Mark off because I know that I am right, and he did something insensitive like usual. "Mark, just apologize. And you need to stop being so petty about things. You're going to end up 40 and still living in a bachelor pad if you don't watch it. Lexie is good for you. Now fix it. I have to go now. My girlfriend and I are on vacation remember? So I will talk to you when I get back to Seattle."
"Thanks Torres. Enjoy your trip and tell blondie to give it up. You're would up way too tight" he says with a smirk.
I just hang up the phone and toss it back onto the bed. I walk towards the restroom, and open the door. Arizona doesn't hear me come in because she has her head under the shower spray. I began stripping off my swimsuit and shorts, then step in behind her. She feels me wrap my arms around her waist and pull her body into mine. My breast pressed firmly into her back. She reaches behind her and pulls my thigh to press my body closer to hers. She leans her head back, and turns her head to face mine. I lean down and take her lips with my own. Our kiss grows more and more passionate and quickly she is turned around and facing me. I press her against the shower wall, and my center is against hers. The pressure building up is enough to make us both moan and our breathing speed up.
I lift Arizona and her legs instantly wrap around my waist. Her arms around my neck squeezing me tight as her tongue takes control of my mouth. She pulls away only to breath in much needed air and says "I need to feel you Calliope. Inside of me. I want you inside of me." That is all I need to hear and I place my hand between her legs and immediately feel how wet she is. I slide two fingers inside of her and her fingernails dig into my shoulders. She leans her head back against the wall and her eyes are shut tight. I kiss every inch of her very exposed neck and continue to pump in and out of my very wet girlfriend. I latch onto the pulse point of her neck and suck and bite, knowing it will leave a mark. But I do not stop. She screams my name and it only pushes me forward. Making me want to please her even more. My center is on fire with want, knowing I am the reason she is screaming in pleasure. I feel her walls tighten around my two fingers, signaling her upcoming orgasm. She tightens her legs around my waist and her body begins to shake as she lets the orgasm take over. "OH CALLIOPE! YES! YES! OH GOD YES!" she screams as it rips through her. I don't stop moving in and out of her until the very last second. Wanting to drag the orgasm out as long as I possibly can.
After a few moments, just holding Arizona close and her breathing returning to normal, I place her feet back down on the shower floor. She has a hand on each side of my face and kisses me long and deep. I feel as though I will explode any second if she doesn't touch me. Hearing her come like that almost pushed me to the edge myself. But before I can even tell her how badly I am aching for her, I feel her start to kiss down my body. She takes my hard and swollen nipple into her mouth, and I feel her tongue circle it. I am incredibly turned on at this point and I pull her head into my chest. Showing her how badly I want her. But Arizona doesn't stop there. She continues to kiss down my body until I feel her warm tongue on the inside of my thigh. The next minute I feel her tongue slip in between my center and both of her hands grabbing my ass pulling me into her mouth. I reach down and grab two hands full of blonde hair, and pull her into me. It only takes a few swipes of that skilled tongue across my swollen and throbbing clit before I feel the hot liquid pouring out of me. Arizona moans and pushes her tongue inside of me. I open my eyes and look down into dark blue ones. Our eyes stay locked as Arizona finishes her work on my center. After she stands, I pull her in for a kiss and I can still taste myself on her tongue. I feel her pull away, and instantly I miss the contact. She steps out and grabs two towels. We wrap them around each other as Arizona pulls me towards the bed. I see her drop her towel and turn to face me with her eyes dark with desire. I know I can't get enough of her…
