"Nikki there's something I need to talk to you about" Harry said two days later when he and Nikki were sitting in her hospital room talking. Nikki frowned from where she was sitting up in bed and moved over slightly and patted the duvet next to her indicating she wanted Harry there. He got up from his chair and gently climbed onto the bed and wrapped one arm around Nikki's shoulders and pressed a kiss onto her hair. "When they did all the tests on you I didn't hear the results because they would have also checked for pregnancy and I didn't…" he stopped and tried to think how to word it so he didn't sound thoughtless "I didn't want to know whether you were pregnant or not"

"Why?" Nikki asked quietly and looked down at the duvet that covered her legs.

"Because I was losing you I didn't want to lose a baby as well" Harry explained and Nikki looked up at him her eyes glazed over with tears "If I didn't know then I was only losing you, that was bad enough"

"Okay Harry" Nikki nodded and reached up to kiss him "I understand" she paused "Do you want to know now?"

Harry nodded quickly and gave Nikki a smile which she returned.

"Leo knows" he added and Nikki frowned at him "I asked him to go and get the results, just in case you know, you were pregnant....and Dr Winters told him"

"Right" Nikki replied slowly "He didn't tell you?"

"I asked him beforehand not to, then I asked him to tell me but he stuck to his word and refused. I think we should give him a medal for not giving into peer pressure" Harry joked and Nikki couldn't help but laugh at him and roll her eyes. At this moment the door opened and Dr Winters walked in to no doubt check on Nikki's progress.

"We'd..um..like to know the results from Nikki's tests" Harry told the doctor after he had finished examining Nikki and Dr Winters looked from one to the other "The pregnancy test"

"Ah" Dr Winters said softly and looked down at his clipboard even though it was a completely different set of results and both Harry and Nikki knew it "I was waiting until you had recovered a bit more before I told you this but yes you were pregnant Nikki"

"Were?" Nikki repeated quietly as her eyes filled with tears, she knew instantly what that meant "I lost the..?"

Dr Winters nodded and left the room quickly after saying he was sorry to leave Harry and Nikki to have some time together to deal with what he had just told them. Harry gently wrapped both of his arms around Nikki as she started to cry, his own eyes filling with tears at their loss.

"It's all my fault" Nikki whispered into his neck after she had calmed down a bit.

"How is it?" Harry asked as he rubbed her back and let her cling to him "It wasn't, these things happen"

"If I hadn't have been ill I wouldn't have lost the baby" she told him and had to close her eyes to force back more tears as she breathed in her husband's comforting smell "I'm such a useless mother"

"Don't you dare say that" Harry said forcibly as he looked down at her and moved so he was looking at her. She tried to look away but he brought his hand to her face and made her look him in the eye "You are not...you're not going to be a useless mother Nikki"

"Going to be?" Nikki repeated as she looked at him "You want to try for more children?"

"Of course" Harry nodded and let Nikki rest her head on his shoulder again "It could have happened to anyone Nikki"

"I love you" Nikki whispered into his neck and Harry looked down at her and pressed a kiss onto her lips which Nikki quickly deepened, she reached up and ran one hand through Harry's hair while on of Harry's made it's way up the back of the baggy t-shirt she was wearing.

"I love you so much" Harry breathed against her neck as he kissed his way down it causing Nikki to moan "Don't you ever scare me like that ever again"

"I'll try not to" Nikki laughed as Harry captured her lips under his again.


Yeah cheesy ending but I just couldnt bring byself to kill Nikki. I wrote the chapter but then deleted it because I didnt want Nikki !

Well that's it folks..all over. As I've said I've got another story in the works which should be up sometime after I come back from holiday and type it up. I will miss reading all your fanfics while I'm away..I will be logging on as soon as I get home to read . See you in about eleven days!

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