Beyond Darkness
Act 11: Here we are
L's POV:
The cool water is soothing as it saturates my hair and runs down my face. Washing away all those old fears, all my mistakes, all my flaws. If I am to die this way, I think I could be content.
This garden is beautiful, the master work of someone who clearly loved what he was doing. There is a little pond filled filled with cool, clean water and though I cant see them I am sure there are fish swimming about amongst the lilly pads or perhaps they are tadpoles? I can here the sweet, repetitive music of frogs as they sing out in the rain. The grass is beautiful and green although it looks to have been neglected for the past few weeks as it is growing long and starting to become wild. The bushes and trees are beautiful despite the few weeds that have appeared between them. I am sure in the sun they would be ablaze with the most stunning of little, brightly coloured flowers. Yes, someone truly loved this garden...
I have never had anything like that... Something I have loved the way this person loved his garden. I cant say I disliked being 'L'. In fact the job has advantages that no other position could ever have. The thrill of the chase, the pride of knowing I have succeeded in solving a crime no one else could, the chance to use my intellect to its full potential. Even with all these good things however I still never loved my work.
Is that upsetting to me now? Am I going to die knowing I never loved anything? Knowing I never loved anyone? There is a 95% chance that this will be the case...
Slowly I look up at my captor. Even if I was to suddenly reappear again now, even if I was to survive and escape his clutches, things could never be the same. No doubt they have already replaced me, most likely with the boy Near or even Mello. I am disappointed I never got to chose for myself. I haven't even met this Near and my meeting with Mello was to short. It dose not matter who replaces me, the point is that it would have been done by now and my position in the world taken from me. People have already forgotten who I am no doubt.
So here we are. Sitting in the rain and waiting for my death.
Can I do that? Can I sit here idly and let go of everything that has happened? Everything that could happen if I where to live on?
No!
"R-rue..."
"Yes Lawliet?"
"Take m-me b-back i-inside! I w-want t-to fight this!"
I will not give up this easily! I want to live to find something I love!
