So I've decided to write from Haley's point of view. AND SOME NEWS FOR ALL! I Will write a couple of chapters from Brooke's POV. And I will also write from someone else's pov but I will not tell you who. :0 Ohh yeah I am! I've cracked. Not sure when I'm gonna post the Brooke chapters but it's gonna be soon.
So thanks for reading!
Firebluez…
HALEY JAMES
I waited impatiently by his locker. Other student's gave me a couple of odd glances but I ignored them. I anxiously started biting my lip as my eyes scanned the halls. Finally I saw him, through the crowd approaching. He didn't seem to notice me at first until he came closer. He stopped dead in his tracks and stared at me with wide eyes. I guess he hadn't planned on seeing me at all.
He looked horrible. His eyes contained dark circles underneath his eyes, and it looked like he hadn't shaved in the week that he's missed from school. Anger began to boil up in me, along with a mixture of pain that stung deep within my body.
He slowly walked toward me, never taking his eyes off me. As I looked at him I couldn't help but look at him differently. How could he do that to me? I just don't understand… I guess that's why I'm here.
"Haley." He spoke in a soft voice.
"Jake." I replied with a harsh tone.
He winced a little by my reply.
"There aren't any words to express how deeply sorry I am." He spoke calmly.
"I just don't understand how you could do that!" I replied.
"It was Lucas… he threatened to kick me off the team. I know it's no excuse." He replied lowering his eyes to the ground.
"You didn't even know me. And you were willing to hurt me just so that you could play on some stupid ass basketball team!" I threw at his face.
"I'm sorry!" he pleaded.
"You're sorry. Is that all?"
"Just tell me what you want me to do. Anything and I'll do it! I just… I don't want to lose you Haley. I know I made a mistake, but if I could do it over again I would. If I had known, I would've given up basketball for you. Anytime of the day or week."
I shook my head and looked down at the ground.
"I can't lose you. I can't eat, I can't sleep knowing that I've hurt you." He spoke in a hoarse whisper.
"What do you want from me Jake?" I almost shouted.
"I just want you." He whispered.
"This shows what type of person you really are" I replied.
He nodded.
"You are absolutely right. I'm a jack ass and I deserve everything that I get." He replied with heavy eyes.
"I think it's best if we don't see each other for a while." I forcefully shoved the words out.
He lowered his head and stared down at the floor. His eyes started glistening.
"I promise I won't bother you ever again." His voice became raspy.
I nodded and walked off. I quickly rushed past other staring eyes as I exited the school building. I headed out to my car and locked myself in. Tears burned my eyes as I slumped my head onto the steering wheel. I could feel the tears breaking through.
Jake Jagielski was the first boy that I've ever been close to well other than Nathan. He was charming, sweet, smart and really paid attention to me. It was the first time that a boy finally saw me. He didn't see me as this tutor girl who loved hanging out in the library, but as a girl who was herself. It eats at me every single time I think about him. How different he was.
A light tap rapped on my window. I glanced up to see a blonde curly headed girl with big green eyes looking uneasy through the window. I rolled down the window.
"Are you okay?" Peyton Sawyer asked.
"I'm fine." I replied with a nod.
"You're in your car, crying, during the middle of school." She pointed out.
I let out a soft sniffle and shrugged. She nodded her head and walked around to the passenger door. I unlocked the door and she clambered in. We both sat in silence looking ahead.
"So uhh…. I'm not sure how to do this… I mean we've never really talked before." Peyton spoke shifting in her seat.
"I wouldn't know how to explain." I replied wiping away the tears.
"What happened?" she asked glancing at me.
"I just found out the guy I liked was only using me to get back at Nathan. He did it to save his own ass to stay on the basketball team" I muttered out quickly.
"Jake right?" Peyton nodded.
I nodded.
"Let me guess, somehow this all has to tie in with Lucas. Right?" Peyton asked.
"Yep." I replied.
Peyton let out a low sigh.
"Look I've known Jake for a while. He's a really good guy. You know people make mistakes." Peyton responded.
"I know that, but he really hurt me. No one's ever been able to do that. And…"
"So are you mad at the fact that he was going to hurt you, or that he did?" Peyton asked.
"What do you mean?" I asked with knitted eyes.
"Well I mean I don't really know the whole story so I could be wrong." Peyton replied.
"Go on." I urged.
"Well Jake was supposed to break up with you, to hurt you, however it never got that far until you found out the truth of what was going on." Peyton replied.
"Either way, I still got hurt." I muttered.
"He cares about you. I know this may not be what you want to hear, but I've been watching the two of you closely. I mean at the party, and how you two act at school. He's never acted that way with anyone that he's been with." Peyton sighed.
"So what? I'm just suppose to forget what happened?"
"No. I'm not saying that. I'm just saying give the guy a break. Remember he was forced into doing this. I mean the poor guy hasn't shown his face in almost a week at school. He looks like shit. He's even stopped showing up to his practices." Peyton replied.
"He has?"
"Yes." Peyton nodded.
I glanced outside the driver side window.
"How did you know about all of this?" I asked.
"I've been hearing some rumors.. I didn't know they were true." She sighed.
I nodded down and pushed away the strands of hair from my face.
"Just give it some time. When you're ready go find him, because Jake is one of the good guys. The kind that you shouldn't let slip past your grip." Peyton gave a friendly smile.
I let her words seep into me.
"Thanks Peyton." I gave a weak smile.
"No Prob." She smiled.
"What are you doing out here anyways?" I asked.
"Taking a walk." She shrugged.
I nodded.
"Well I'm gonna head back. But if you ever maybe wanted to do this again… I'm always around." Peyton gave a smile.
"Okay." I replied.
With a small wave she hopped out of the car and slammed the door. Leaving me alone in my thoughts.
Later on…
I sat on my fluffy bed staring at my ceiling. When did things become so complicated? Rolling across my bed I flung my hands to my hair. All I wanted to do was just pull all the hair out. But a part of me knew I would never do that. I grabbed a nearby pillow and screamed with all I had in me. Tears streaked from the side of my face as my stomach ached.
Suddenly my doorbell rang throughout the house. Rolling my eyes I rolled off the bed and headed downstairs. I pulled open the door to find a hesitant Brooke.
"Brooke? What are you doing here?" I asked letting her in.
"I needed to talk with you." Brooke replied with a hollow tone.
"Okay." I replied leading her upstairs into my room.
We both took a seat on the edge of my bed. Brooke seemed a little off today. Her hair was messily tied in a pony tail, which was unusual because she was always dressed to perfection. I could tell she hadn't gotten much sleep either because you could still see the traces of dark circles under her eyes. Her shoulders tensed as she took in a deep breath.
"What's going on?" I asked studying her.
"I need to know what happened." She mumbled as she started fumbling with her hands.
"What are you talking about?" I asked becoming very concerned.
"What happened to you?" Brooke replied looking into my eyes.
I suddenly started to panic. Nathan didn't tell her? Ohh shit.
"Nathan didn't tell you?" I asked.
She shook her head.
I drew a big breath. Closing my eyes I glanced away.
"Remember the fight that Lucas and Nathan got into last week?"
She nodded.
"Well Lucas threatened Nathan. He told him that if he didn't stay away from you that he would tell Jake to break up with me. Turns out, Lucas forced Jake to go out with me as a way to get back at Nathan."
Brooke's mouth dropped wide open. Her big hazel eyes started faltering. She held her hand to her mouth as she stifled a sob. Her hand shook as she closed her eyes. It looked like the wind had just been knocked out of her. She wrapped her arms around her waist and bent forward as she started crying. Her hair fell down to her face. I leaned over and rubbed her back.
"How can I be so stupid?" Brooke uttered out through sobs.
"It's alright!" I spoke.
"Haley I am so sorry!"
"You don't have to apologize to me. You didn't know. It's not your fault." I whispered.
"Yes it is! It's my fault!" she almost shouted.
"No. Lucas made his own choices." I replied.
"Gosh… Nathan must hate me!" she sobbed out.
"Why would you say that?"
"Because! I mean you should have seen him the other day. I've never seen him angry. He practically bit my head off. He was right! He was right all along."
I gave a small chuckle.
"Nathan could never hate you." I replied with a small smile.
She stood up and shook her head.
"Yes he does. I mean he was ruthless. And I.. I'm so stupid. I said bad things… to him. And.." Brooke spoke in between sobs.
I stood up and gently grabbed her by her arm.
"Brooke. I get it. But Nathan doesn't hate you. We both know that's not the truth. So what's really bothering you?" I asked.
"The reason why Nathan got hurt is because of me! I did this. I caused all of this."
"But it's not your fault." I repeated.
She slowly began to compose herself as my words seemed to seep in.
"When did I become this. This stupid pathetic girl!" Brooke murmured.
"Brooke you're not stupid." I responded.
"For the longest time, I've always been this girl who's always needed a boyfriend by her side. Hell I can't even stand on my own feet. But I'm done! Something needs to change and that's me!" She spoke with a strong voice unlike her usual self.
I stood back in stunned silence as I watched her. She held her head up high, and something in her eyes started lighting up. All I could do was watch with a little envy.
"I think this is something that you have to do." I agreed.
"Yeah I do." She stood with shining eyes.
"So what are you going to do?" I asked.
"Just watch, and see." She flashed a smile.
"Should I be scared of this new transformation?" I asked.
"No. But there's definitely going to be a change." She nodded and started grabbing her things.
"Okay." I nodded with confusion.
"Thanks Haley. For everything." She gave me a small hug and quickly rushed out of the room.
What the hell just happened?
So what do you think? What's going to happen next? Anyone got any ideas…. Cause I know what's going to happen… hehe! REVIEW!
