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NPOV

My muscles were begging me to get up and move. I wanted to run at full speed but instead, I was bound to this bathroom. I couldn't run. I couldn't move. Jake was acting like an anchor while I stared up at my grandfather as he looked back at me and Jake with frightened eyes.

"Renesmee, what did you just do?" Charlie asked again.

"Charlie, don't… please." Sue begged from his side, pulling on his arm to move him away.

I looked up to Adrian and he was looking at his feet, he looked up quickly but he wouldn't look me in the eye. He'd driven all the way out here to help me through things and now he had just witnessed something he'd worked so hard for me not to do. Helping me through me shakes and holding me when I cried because of the thirst.

I've just thrown that all away because I was weak.

And now my granddad had been let in on a secret by accident and I could do nothing to stop the inevitable talk that was about to come my way. And he would be angry. And upset. And scared.

And disgusted.

I'm a disgusting monster who lives by killing innocent animals and humans.

"Renesmee, I am going to ask you one time and one time only: why did you bite Jacob?" he asked, using the voice I had no doubt he used while talking to people he arrested.

I looked around the room and no one dared to look at me. I was the taboo in this room; I had the genetics that no one wanted to talk about. If it weren't for my relationship with Jacob, I would have been chased away long ago.

"Erm… Charlie-" Jacob started as he pulled us both up into a standing position but keeping his arm around my waist.

"I asked Renesmee the question, not you Jacob." Charlie said angrily, looking at him and then turning back to me.

"Charlie, it's a need to know thing." I said using words my dad had told me to recite when I was little and my vampire side came out a little more.

He grumbled to himself and then gave me a stern look. "You're not throwing me off with that, now tell me why you were drinking his blood."

I knew he knew why, I knew he knew. He'd always suspected and now I have just confirmed to him. He just wanted me to tell him. He wanted it to come from my own mouth.

I couldn't lie my way out of this. Drinking blood is an out of the ordinary thing and I couldn't pass it off as something normal. Drinking blood kept me alive and Charlie should know what I am capable of. What my body begs for me to do.

"I was thirsty. I… I need blood to survive Charlie." I told him while looking at the floor.

"But she drinks animal blood mostly. You just witnessed her falling off the wagon." Adrian said from the corner.

I looked over to him and he was sharing looks between his brother and his father who was stood behind Charlie.

"Keep out of this Adrian." I growled at him.

I would not go back to drinking human blood. It was sweet and pure but I can last without it. I was satisfied now, Jacobs blood satisfied the fire in my throat and his blood was a high enough percentage of wolf's blood that it only had the sweet undertones of human blood. And they faded quickly.

"No, let the boy tell me," Charlie demanded and turned to Adrian. "Give me a straight answer, like my granddaughter won't. And then explain why you say she has fallen off the wagon."

Adrian looked at me, then to everyone in the room for no more than a second each. His eyes landed back on mine and he looked as if he pitied me. I didn't like when he looked at me that way. He looked at me this way when he thought he could save me.

"She's a hybrid vampire. Her dad is a vampire, her mom was human, and they conceived and brought her to term. She drinks blood to survive, usually animal blood but about a year and a half ago, she started drinking human blood. She told me she killed seventeen people. She drained them; she came off human blood a year ago. We worked hard and chained her up to stop her cravings. I thought she was better, I thought she had overcome this. But I guess she hasn't."

"It wasn't that simple." I said, mostly to myself, to give myself some piece of mind. It wasn't working. The thoughts were coming back. The doubts. And they are making sense.

Charlie looked at me and I could see the disgust in his eyes, Jacob let go of me and I could no longer feel his presence behind me. I turned to my side to look at him and he looked at me like I was a stranger.

"Seventeen people?" He whispered and looked at me again, this time it was like he couldn't even bare to look at me.

"Where did you kill these people?" Charlie asked, his voice filled with authority.

I moved into a corner, away from everyone. I felt as though I was a small animal and everyone else around me saw me as prey. I didn't like being seen as prey. Nahuel never treated me like prey, he held me while he drank. He cared for me.

"It's not that simple…it's not what you think." I said, looking at them and pleading with my eyes.

I looked to Adrian but he wouldn't look at me. Noah was staring at the floor as was Jensen. "For God's sake, you know I had no choice!" I screamed at them.

Tears I didn't know I was shedding were streaming down my face and I gripped the side of the counter. I felt strong yet so weak.

"You drank blood to please him Ren." Adrian said.

I shook my head violently. Nahuel made me drink the blood. I wanted him to love me and he said he would if I drank blood. I thought he loved me… He wanted me to drink the blood and who was I to defy him.

"You don't understand!" I screamed at him.

Adrian took a step toward me and I bared my teeth in defence, I didn't want him near me. He had just told my grandfather about my past, the only member of my family who didn't know, who still saw me as little Nessie. Now he'll see me as a monster.

He tried to pass off my need for blood as something simple. It wasn't simple. He doesn't understand what happened. I never told him. He doesn't know. Nahuel was kind to me. He loved me. I was giving him life. My scars showed that. And blood made him strong. My blood made him stronger.

"Ren, what are you thinking?"

Adrian didn't understand. He didn't understand what happened. Nahuel said he loved me. He needed me to drink human blood. He needed that. I gave him that. I made him strong. Stronger and stronger.

"He loved me. He needed me to drink human blood." I screamed again.

Adrian's eyes widened. "Ren, the blood changes you. It makes you weak. And you know he didn't love you."

Jensen pushed his way into the room, passing everyone else without a care. I bared my teeth in a warning, he didn't know me. He didn't know what happened.

He did not back away or stop though. He grabbed me and pulled me close to his body, gripped me tight. I screamed into his chest.

But not because I wanted him to let go of me. I didn't want him to let me go. He held on to me as I screamed and cried. I clutched his shirt and tried to grab on to him like he was a life support ring and I was drifting out at sea. The sea of doubts that surrounded me when I drank human blood. And how it linked in with everything. How his control over me took over when I drank human blood.

I thought he loved me. My addiction to blood wasn't simple. I always needed it.

"Get out!" I heard Jensen order. "Everyone. Just leave us alone, she doesn't need this."

He lowered us to the floor and rocked us back and forth. "I mean it Adrian get out, and you Jacob. You're treating her like she is a murderer. You know what he did to her."

"She didn't need to drink his blood." Adrian grumbled.

"You are just jealous because she didn't use your blood. She doesn't need this right now, we were right to come, she is weak without our help. You should leave now."

I was still crying and Jensen kept rocking me and him back and forth and back and forth.

In the beginning he didn't take well to having a hybrid in his care. He hated the idea actually but he was doing Carlisle a favour. He then grew to like me and eventually he treated me as if I were one of his own. When I couldn't talk to my family, my dad, I went to speak to him. He'd often end the story by relating my problem to some woman who he had slept with but for some reason that helped. He made me laugh with stories and sometimes, I wish me and Adrian had worked out, so I could have stayed with his family. So that I could have been part of his family.

I want to be part of a family.

I want to belong.

I thought I belonged with Nahuel.

Maybe I did.


JPOV

I sat in my kitchen with strangers and someone who couldn't look at me. Emily checked out my wrist before she left but there was nothing she could do, it was healing well and I would eventually see nothing, not a trace that Nessie had even bitten me.

I took a swig of the beer in front of me and winced when Nessie's cry got a little louder. I was in pain when I heard her cry but I could go and console her. I couldn't even look at her.

Seventeen people. She has killed seventeen innocent people. Seventeen people. Who were these people? I bet they had family and friends and lives, and she had taken them away from their life because… well I didn't know why she drank blood.

I didn't want to ask the strangers because I was scared they would tell me something I didn't like.

I'd learnt too much about her today.

I didn't want to learn anything else.

Seventeen people.

Little Sarah was going to be eighteen.

I couldn't wrap my head around why Nessie had started drinking human blood. She had been told how wrong it was to kill people when she was young, she didn't drink human blood.

"Dude, have you got another beer?" Adrian asked from behind me.

I looked up from my beer and to him. "How old are you?"

The kid looked eighteen, and I probably would've given him one if Charlie wasn't there, but since I had a cop in the room, I had to ask. I know Charlie wasn't gonna arrest me though.

"Nineteen. But come on man, I need a beer."

"Get one." Charlie said, and then added, "I'll have one as well."

Adrian went into the fridge and got out three beers. His brother sat down next to Charlie and he sat next to me. We were silent as we drank our beers and listened to the crying from upstairs.

"My little granddaughter is a vampire." Charlie said.

"Hybrid." Me, Adrian and his brother said in unison. It was like we didn't want to admit we cared for vampires.

Charlie grumbled something but it was too rough and mumbled to hear properly. It is a lot for a human to wrap his mind around, when the supernatural elements of life come in the ordinary and open.

"Why did she drink human blood?" I asked quietly when Nessie cries started to subside into hiccups.

I was met by a silence and the sound of Adrian and his brother both picking up their drinks and taking a swig. They gave each other a look as if they were fighting over who should talk first. Did I want to know what they were about to say? Did she just drink human blood because she felt like it? Was it because she'd spent so much time around Red Eyes. I know Carlisle wouldn't have approved of her drinking human blood so why?

"She should explain that to you. It's her story, not ours. What I can tell you though is that she got into a bad situation with a guy, and that lead to her drinking human blood." Adrian said.

No one said anything after that. Who was the guy? Did he hurt her?

I would find him and kill him if he hurt her.

Then the crying stopped and we heard two sets of footsteps come down the stairs. Everyone was silent and we heard hush male mumbling from the other side of the door before it opened and Adrian's father and Nessie came into the kitchen.

Nessie's eyes were red and the make up she had been wearing had vanished, she had cried it away. She clutched Adrian's father's arm, like he was holding her up. She had changed her clothes. She was now wearing sweat pants and a white t-shirt. She looked as if she were ready to go to bed. She wore sweats to bed.

"I'm sorry, Charlie. I'm so sorry. I never wanted you to find out. It was never meant for you to find out. I can leave if it makes you more comfortable." Nessie said.

I looked to Charlie and he looked at his granddaughter, and stood up. He slowly walked over to her and it was silent, everyone was holding their breath. Nessie let go of Adrian's father and stood.

I didn't want her to leave. I just needed to get my head around the situation. Nessie was still my imprint and I still loved her, it was just a difficult situation. She had a side to her which was the side of my natural enemy. She had the ability to kill people.

No one knew what Charlie was going to do. He could just walk straight past her or except her.

He placed his hands on her shoulders and then wrapped arms around her shoulders. "I don't want you to leave. You're my baby's baby, my little Nessie. And you were born this way. It wasn't your fault you are like this and if it is instinct then it is instinct. But I can't have you killing people Nessie. Those seventeen people you killed have families and friends and they had lives. I can forgive you for your mistakes but I can't condone killing. My blood is blue; I'm a cop through and through." Charlie said and then chuckled. "That wasn't meant to rhyme."

Nessie exhaled in happiness, and wrapped her arms around Charlie. "I had a problem Charlie, but I'm working on it. That part of my life is over. I haven't had human blood in a year and two months. And I don't have any intention to drink it ever again." Nessie told him.

Charlie pulled away and cupped her face and then he brushed his hand down to her shoulder. He then made a questioning noise and then brushed her hair over her shoulder.

"Nessie, what are these lumps on your neck?" He asked as he felt her neck.

My instincts quickly went into over drive and I kicked the chair from underneath myself and quickly made my way over to her.

There were raised crescents scattering over her neck and down below her shirt. I moved Charlie away from her and pulled down her shirt collar to show her collarbone and shoulder. Crescents scattered and crisscrossed there way across her skin.

She looked down and then moved my fingers away from her shirt, moving it up to cover up the scars that weren't on her neck. The ones on her neck seemed to be angrier and they crossed over each other more.

Someone had bitten her. Repeatedly. The crescents were all the same shape and size.

Someone had hurt her.

Drank from her.

"Who… what…who did… who hurt you," I asked. My voice was small, I was scared of the anger I felt. I was scared of the thoughts running through my mind and how they were so fast that I couldn't catch them fast enough, first they were there and then they were gone.

I ran my fingers across her cheekbones, and she looked at me. Her brown eyes looked up at me, the melted chocolate pools were wet with tears and I couldn't do anything. I couldn't stop her hurt. Someone had hurt her and I wasn't there to protect her.

I could feel the tears coming but I had to stop them. I had failed her and I had to be here for her now. I had to protect her now. It was my duty to protect her, and I had failed without knowing about it and I had to try now. Protecting her was my main priority now.

She wouldn't see anyone I didn't know without me being there. Any time she was in danger, I would be there, putting my life on the line to protect her. If I died and she lived, nothing would be wrong, she would be breathing and she would have a life that is all I wanted. I can't let my romantic feelings of love toward her change my duty toward her. My life was nothing compared to hers. Hers was more important.

"I can't tell you. You'd go and find him. You'd kill him." Nessie said, her voice quivering.

I pressed my forehead against hers and told her: "I would rip that son of a bitch apart, as far as I am concerned, he is a dead man walking."

She closed her eyes and tears spilled out. Her eyelashes became heavy with the tears.

"My dad left to kill him and he never came back. I haven't seen him in months. I don't want to lose you too." Nessie said, her voice filled with tears.

I brought her to my chest and vowed revenge on that son of a bitch. Whoever he was, I would find him. And I will make his death slow. I will carefully rip him apart and then slowly burn his flesh piece by piece.

Nessie's arms wrapped around my waist and pressed her cheek into my chest. I pressed my lips into the top of her head. I let some tears leak out of my eyes and onto her hair.

I had failed her.

"What happened to you?" Charlie asked from behind me. "Who hurt you?"

Nessie moved away from my chest but remained in my arms. The only place I deemed for her to now be safe. In my arms and in my house were the only places she would ever be safe ever again.

"It's a long story. I was stupid and lonely and he played on that. I let him do this. I thought he loved me." Nessie said quietly.

She thought that if someone was drinking her blood that meant that he loved her?

I would never do that to her.

I will never hurt her.

She was the one person she loved and she will never hurt.

"I want to know the whole story." I told her.


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