T.J.G.S.F.U.
Things Just Got Seriously Fucked Up.
I don't even think I need to write a summary or even a foreshadowing for this. I feel so mindblowned right now that I can't even think straight. I hope none of this confusion on anyone. Except to that guy, Kayne West. That guy just needs to forget who he is for a while. Just saying.
"What the fuck, Isabella? Or should I be calling you Bella now?" Jacob screamed at me from across the table in this office. This was probably one of the nicest offices I have ever been in. But of course it was the best. It was Edward's office building.
I flinched when he shoved a newspaper in my face with the headline 'Cullen Lands A New Lady 'Bella'.' Oops. I forgot that Jacob would be seeing that.
"Jake, he's just helping me with the lawyer stuff." I told him in a cold tone. I nodded to Mr. Jenks, Edward's lawyer, to let him now I was ready to proceed.
Mr. Jenks cleared his throat, turned towards Seth, Jacob's lawyer, and said, "Well, I say that Isabella get's $300,000 from the million he had attained in Vegas and the home they were staying in, since Jacob is building a new one."
"No! I can't do that! Jacob won his money fair and square!" I exclaimed.
Jenks raised his eyebrow at Jacob, "You haven't told her? Very well, Isabella, Jacob did not exactly win those earnings. He-"
"STOP!" Jacob shouted before Jenks could finished his sentence.
I jumped up and stared at Jake. He had sweat dripping down his face and Seth had an uneasy look on his face. What the fuck? What is going on?
"No, tell me." I told Jenks. "Or would you rather do those honors, Jake?"
Jake looked at me and the look in his eyes scared me. What was he so ashamed of that he does not want to tell me? Jacob clenched his jaw and got up from the table. I watched as he left the room with an angry stride.
I looked at Jenks and nodded to him again.
"Isabella, Jacob was given that one million dollars. He didn't win it." He said gravely, while he cleaned his glasses.
I drew a blank. What does that mean? "Who gave it to him then?" I asked.
"Uhm, I think we should wait to finished this conversation until my client gets back in the room." Seth said awkwardly.
"No. Who gave him the money, Seth?" I asked clenching my teeth.
I felt a presence behind me and a voice I recognized said, "I did."
I jumped at the voice. Velvety and smooth. It could only be one person. Edward. I turned around to him and gave him a confused look. "What do you mean you did?"
He sat next to me and signaled the lawyers to get out of the room. After they left he turned to me.
"I ran into Jacob before I came to your room the night we were going to my birthday party," he breathed in deeply and looked out of the window of the office. "I told him I had heard about your hard times so I wanted to make a deal with him."
I felt my face reddening at the fact that Edward thought he could have just make a charity case out of me. Had I put out vibes that I wanted his money? Or that I would stoop to that level and take it? I had just met the man!
"What gave you the right to-"
"Let me finish." He cut his eyes to me. He watched me as I took a deep breath and looked back out. His hands ran through his hair. "He didn't want to take my money at first. He thought the deal was badly made and that I was going to take advantage of the situation, but I explained I did not want anything sexual to happen between us to happen. Though I didn't keep my word."
I stood up. "What situation?"
He turned to where his back was facing me. "Don't you recall how calmly Jacob reacted when he saw the two of us together in the elevator? How he did NOT make a scene when you told him that you were going to a party with me? With me, a person that wasn't him."
I felt the memories flooding over my eyes to where I couldn't see anymore. As I felt something dripping on my cheeks I realized it was tears. "Don't tell me you...you bought me."
He turned to me and I flinched at his eyes. There was a burning in them that I had seen at the Casino when he wanted me to kiss his dice.
"For some reason you make me want more of you, Bella. I don't understand. The first time I saw you, you captivated me. I wanted to give you everything you wanted." He laughed harshly. "When I found out you were married, well, I can't say I wasn't disappointed. But the craziest thing was, I still wanted to be with you."
I sucked in a breath and angrily wiped my cheeks. "That did not give you the right to...buy me like some hooker off the street!"
I stalked to the door, feeling justified that this was enough. I didn't want to hear anymore. As I got to the glass door I could see Jacob's worried face behind it. As soon as I started opening it, a hand came from behind me and slammed it back shut. I whirled around ready to slap Edward in the face.
"Yes, I gave your husband money. Money for you. So you wouldn't be burdened with the worry of debt. I wanted you to be happy. So to continue with the story, I only paid for you to accompany me to the party. I never knew we would have sex on that boat. I'm serious, Bella." I looked away from him not wanting to look at him anymore. "LOOK AT ME, BELLA."
I snapped my eyes back at him. "Do you think that just because you paid my husband, that you can order me around? No, Edward. I am not some person you can buy because you want to have fun with messing with their lives. Even though you meant good, all you did was cause my divorce."
I felt him flinch back. He took a step back and I took one advancing to him. "I wish that I wouldn't have slept with you. I could be happy right now with Jake, and right now-"
"Be happy?" He spit at me. His suit made him look even more intimadating. I tried not to get discouraged. "You weren't happy with that man! That man sold you for a million dollars. Do I have to remind you of that?"
"Do I have to remind you that you paid that said man for a date? Because you wanted his wife?" I said in a monotone voice. Now I really wanted to leave. "Look, Edward, I can't accept that you paid him. I don't think I would ever get over it. So now that I know that whatever feeling I felt that night we had together, was bought, I don't think I can ever have that feeling with you again.
He crossed his arms and looked at me coldly, "Can you really expect me to believe that you divorced your husband because of that one night with me?"
I felt my defenses fall down then. I just felt cold and empty. I took a shuddering breath and looked at him.
EPOV
When she looked back up at me, I felt everything inside of me melt. "Yes Edward," she said. "Because what I felt that night with you, was more than I ever felt in my whole marriage with Jacob."
I felt my breath catch and all I could say was, "I love you."
She bit her lip and looked down. "I can't love you, Edward. I would never respect myself if I did."
And with that blow to my heart she walked away, and this time I let her. I couldn't move after she spoke those words. Who was I too make her disrespect herself. I watched her retreating form and couldn't help but walk to the doorway and continue watching her until she was gone.
I watched as her and Jacob locked eyes. He said something to her that she shook her head too. She looked back at me and then she walked into the elevator. She took a deep breath as the doors were shutting, but right before they shut completely I watched her face crumple into a look of pure sadness.
What am I doing?
I should be going after her right now. I flung the door open and ran out to catch the next elevator. I felt like an idiot for letting her walk out on me. I should have explained how much I loved her. How much I didn't care that she hated me. How I just wanted to be in her life.
As I ran to the elevator I felt a hand pull my around and there wasn't any reaction time for me to shield my face as a fist came slamming into my eye. I braced myself on the wall as I heard a shriek from my secretary.
"Call security! Get that man out of here! He attacked Mr. Cullen!" I heard her scream.
I opened my eyes at Jacob fuming in front of me.
"That was for sleeping with my wife." He seethed at me.
BPOV
I couldn't help that as soon as I got out of the building I ran to Barnes and Noble across the street. Of course they would have some sort of book there to help me out.
As I walked through aisles and aisles of books I started to relax a tad bit. I looked at a few randomly but just couldn't understand what I had to do. I couldn't go back to Edward's place. That was the first place he would find me if he wanted to look for me. I needed my stuff though. I thought of the only person I could call.
Sigh. I brought my phone up to my ear as I called the number I had just recently programmed in.
"Rose? It's Bella. I need your help."
Did anybody like my refrence to Breaking Dawn with that last line? So did I. Thank you everybody that even glanced at my story and thought "Hmm..sounds interesting." I try for you.
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Taryn
