So sorry for the long wait to this chapter. I've been kind of busy with "When Things Change" and trying to do homework. Luckily I haven't forgotten about this story. Thank you for all the reviews and favoriting this story, I really appreciate that. I hope you enjoy this chapter. O and "little Finn" is Finn's-well I bet you can figure that out ;). Haha.

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Chapter 12: Open Up Your Heart

Finn Hudson had some really bad nights in his past but tonight sucks! He had just hurled his girlfriend to the floor, even though it was an accident he just couldn't forgive himself. He had bought a motel room, not wanting to spend the night at Kurt's apartment. He didn't want to explain the situation to anyone. All he wanted, hell, needed was time to mentally berate himself and think about what he is going to do when he leaves for Lima, Ohio. New York no longer felt like a safe haven for him, instead it felt like a deep, black chasm that will swallow him into nothingness. He had been known to fly off the handle and kick inanimate objects, but to throw Rachel to the ground? That is the worst thing he's ever done. Accident or not, he had physically
inflicted pain on Rachel. Calling it abuse was the accurate term.

Finn sighs as he stares at the ceiling, silent tears streaming down his cheeks. He pulls down his sweater sleeves to cover his hands so he can wipe the tears away. She'll never forgive him, she'll never look at him with love. Instead that love will be replaced by fear, anger, and possibly regret. He cries some more.

"Don't you dare touch me," she had said with venom enveloping her sweet, soothing, and angelic voice.

It stung, no, burned to hear Rachel spit those words at him. He had never felt so small, and his size no longer matters, Rachel being angry at him makes him feel so small, so insignificant. He sighs as he closes his eyes.

Rachel came home to an empty apartment after crying for hours. The rehearsal took her mind off of Finn, but only for a couple of hours. As soon the director ended rehearsal, she could feel the tears pooling around her eyes, ready to fall at any time. She had to keep sniffling and remain calm, but once she was in the confides of her own car, she let the tears pour out. Who was she mostly angry at? Herself or Finn? She was angry at herself and Finn. She was angry at herself because if she had confessed that she did indeed feel something for Jessie than maybe they would talk it out and he wouldn't have thrown her to the ground by accident. But no! She had to shut herself up and accuse him of accusing her of infidelity. When she came home she found the place empty, she checked the one bedroom to see if he was still there even though she knew in her gut that he wouldn't be. Sadly, he took everything of his and he also left with her heart. She leans against the bedroom door frame and sinks down, hanging on to her knees for support as she cries her eyes out. Why hasn't her tear ducts dried after all the crying she's done tonight? Rachel Berry screwed up the best relationship in her life.

Finn Hudson screwed up the best relationship in his life.


Finn had fallen asleep on the couch and woke up to the smell of cookies, but not just ordinary cookies but Rachel's vegan chocolate chip cookies. He is in his mom and step-dad's house and he had fallen asleep watching TV. Rachel and Finn had been invited over to the Hummel household to talk about their engagement. It was so stressful that all of the wedding talk had tired his mind out. He was surprised the Rachel hadn't fallen asleep. He gets up and heads to the kitchen to see Casey on the counter, watching Rachel and Carol bake the vegan sugar cookies.

"Hey," Finn greets.

Carol turns her head and smiles at her son. Rachel turns around and smiles at her fiancee while Casey jumps off the counter and hugs him.

"You're finally awake, Finn," she says.

Finn chuckles. "Yeah, you watching Rachel and mom bake cookies?" he asks.

Casey nods. "Yep, Rachel said that they are healthy and delicious and they are," she answers.

"Mhm, they are indeed, Casey," Rachel says.

Finn looks up and sees that Rachel is still busy with the cookies. He sighs. "So Casey, wanna play outside?" he asks.

Casey shrugs. "I don't know, it's almost dark."

"No, Finn you cannot take your sister outside," Carol says.

Finn sighs. "Fine, sorry, Case."

Casey giggles. "It's ok, Finn."

"Yes, it's all right, Finn," Rachel says from behind. He turns around and he smiles at her.

"You're done baking, right?" he asks her.

Rachel giggles. "Yes I am, I'm all yours."

Finn smirks, takes her hand, and leads her up the stairs. Rachel reluctantly follows him as she is worried that his mom or sister will notice her absence.

"Finn Hudson, I demand you let me go," Rachel says as they enter his old room.

Finn looks at her, a seductive look playing across his face. He closes the door and begins unbuttoning his shirt.

"Finn, here? Your parents house?" Rachel questions as he moves closer to her.

"Why not?" he asks, gently pushing her down unto his old bed.

"I-I think it is inappropriate to give into our desires for each other in this house," Rachel answers.

Finn stops in front of her. "Yeah I guess you're right, but tonight it's just you and me, Rachel."

Rachel nods, scoots over, and taps the space next to her. Finn sits next to her and before he could say anything, she attacks him and tackles him with her lips. He is at first surprised and he reciprocates the kiss. Losing himself in the passionate dance of their tongues. His hands move up and down her back as his lips dance with hers. Her hands tangle themselves in his thick, black hair and holds his face, claiming him as her one and only.

They release each other to gasp for air, their foreheads resting on each other.

"I thought you didn't want to be 'inappropriate'?" Finn asks.

Rachel giggles. "You leave me defenseless, Finn. I can refuse you and surprise you all I want," she answers.

Finn chuckles. "There is no arguing with that."

Finn and Rachel arrive at his apartment with the answering machine beeping. Finn walks over to the machine in the kitchen and presses "PLAY". It's a message from Puck saying he's helping Quinn study and won't be home til the morning.

"So we have the entire apartment to ourselves," Finn says to Rachel as he joins her on the couch.

Rachel snuggles against him. "I think we need to get a few things out of the way before we can consummate our relationship," she replies. She looks up at him, telling him she really wants to talk.

"Oh you're serious? I guess we should, huh?" Finn asks.

Rachel nods. "It would be better to say everything before anything."

Finn nods. "Well I've already said what I needed to say."

Rachel nods, takes a deep breath, and looks into his eyes. "Finn, I love you and I've always loved you. When I arrived at the apartment after rehearsal, I was expecting you to be there, even if I knew that you would have left. A part of me knew you wouldn't be at the apartment, but I just had to have a little bit of hope to get me through the drive. If I accepted the truth, I would have never returned," she begins. She hadn't realized that she was on the verge of tears. She laughs as she wipes her tears.

Finn takes Rachel into a hug and smoothes her beautiful black hair. "I was in pain too, Rach," he says he cups his hands around her cheeks and stares into her eyes, "I didn't want to leave, but I had to. I couldn't look at you after what I did, I didn't think that you would forgive me. I cried that night, Rach."

Rachel sniffles and leans in to kiss Finn on the lips. As their lips meet, strange and familiar sparks fly. This kiss is just not an ordinary kiss, in fact, it's the revelation of truth moving around as the kiss escalates into something more. Finn presses his body against Rachel's as they are on their knees prepared to take off each other's clothes. Rachel takes off Finn's buttoned shirt and feels his muscles under his thin plain white tee. Finn holds Rachel close with his right hand holding her head; he then moves both hands easily down to her butt as she encircles her legs around his waist. He gets up and as they kiss, leads them to his bedroom. He drops Rachel onto the bed, takes off his shirt, and crawls on top of her. Rachel smoothes her hands over his muscular physique as she undoes his belt, Finn then takes her and pulls on top of him. He unzips Rachel's black polka-dotted dress and easily slides it off her exposing her pink lacy lingerie. Rachel and Finn stop kissing for a second to make sure they are really doing this.

"You ok, Rach?" Finn asks.

Rachel nods. "I'm fine, Finn. Are you ok?" she asks.

Finn chuckles as he holds her bare waist tighter. "I'm perfect, Rach. Do you-are you fine with this?"

Rachel giggles. "I'm content, Finn, I want nothing more than to finally make love to you."

Finn grins his adorable grin. "Then let's do this."

Rachel laughs as their lips meet again and they continue to intertwine their bodies together.

Rachel wakes up to the scent of Finn Hudson. She presses her small hand onto his chest as she closes her eyes and sighs. She had butterflies and she was glowing so bright that sun would envy her. After three years of remaining faithful to Finn, she finally had the opportunity to make love to him and only him. She couldn't do it with Jessie because no matter how hard she had tried to give into Jessie, she couldn't give herself to someone she doesn't love. Suddenly she feels Finn move under her hand. She peeks up to him and finds him trying to go back to sleep. She giggles and moves up to his face. She takes his chin in between her fingers and turns his whole face to look at her. Finn feels his hand turning, but not by his own will, but by someone else's. He opens his eyes to find Rachel looking at him with so much love, little Finn couldn't help but tremble.

"Good morning, Finn," Rachel greets as she kisses him.

"Morning, Rach," Finn says as they part.

Rachel licks her lips. "So what are we going to do on this lovely day?" she asks.

Finn giggles. "We should probably talk to Kurt. I mean I'm pretty sure he wants to talk about the wedding. I can't believe we're going to be married in 3 weeks," he says.

Rachel's eyes grow wide. "Oh my god, that's right, we'll be each other's forever in a matter of three weeks. I-I should call Kurt," she answers as she pulls the covers off her. She is about to walk out of the room when Finn clears his throat.

She turns to look at him. "What is it?" she asks.

Finn chuckles. "You're completely naked, babe. You might want to put on some clothes if Puck is out there," he answers.

Rachel stares down at her body. "Oh thank you, honey. Do you mind if I borrow your shirt?" she asks as she puts on her lacy pink panties and Finn's plain white tee on her.

Finn shakes his head. "You can use it all you want," he answers in a seductive tone.

Rachel glares at him and throws her bra at him as she exits the room. Finn laughs as he takes off Rachel's bra from his face.


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