A/N: Adult themes, issues of consent and violation thereof.
Pearl could feel her legs shaking even as Pink pressed her firmly against her own body, tongue pressing past her lips. It tasted sweet and felt urgent and needy. Her limbs felt numb as she clung to pink skirts of her Owner. She whimpered into Pink's mouth and tried to twist away from her. Suddenly she was released and fell backwards onto the floor.
They stared at each other for a long moment. Pink's mouth was wet and swollen and she imagined hers was too. "My Diamond, I'm sorry."
She pulled her knees up to her chest and curled her chin into her chest. Her mind was racing. It had felt odd when they were Rose and Pearl on Earth but this felt dangerous and terrifying. There was something there that told her were they to be caught by anyone it would lead to her being shattered. It was her responsibility to say no and keep the professional boundaries between them. Fraternization, especially between such a low class gem as herself and a diamond were strictly forbidden. Even if Yellow and Blue did this with their diamonds. Even if it was swept under the rug.
Pink sat down across from her, cross legged. "I'm sorry Pearl. I didn't mean to push you. I thought you were ready."
She picked her head up and rested her chin on her knees, eyes sad and worried. "I'm sorry my Diamond. I want to be everything you want in a pearl. I will be, I promise." She breathed deeply. "May I be excused my Diamond?"
She nodded, not moving from her spot on the floor. Pearl rose rather ungracefully on her still wobbly legs and she saluted before turning and leaving her Master.
She arrived at Yellow's work quarters and Yellow Pearl stood at the door. A look of interest crossed her features. "I'm surprised to see you back so soon after that fiasco," she told her.
"This isn't about Pink Diamond," she answered quietly.
It was then that Yellow really took a look at her fellow pearl. The bruised lips and slightly disheveled hair. She sighed heavily. "What happened?"
She looked around and stepped closer, lowering her voice to the barest of whispers. "She kissed me. I think she wants to..." she trailed off.
Yellow looked at her sympathetically.
"Does your Diamond make you do this?"
She nodded, looking at the floor.
"What do you do? I can't- it makes me feel ill."
"Me too. I just kind of float away and out of myself when it's happening. It's usually quick though."
She shivered a little and reached up to fix her hair so that she looked more presentable in case another higher class gem came by. "Do you and Blue talk about it?"
"Sometimes, though I think that Blue likes it more than I do. I think her Diamond is much sweeter with her."
"Do you two ever...?"
"With each other? No. We've talked about it. I want to, I think. I know she does but she never makes me feel bad but every time we try to do anything I can't stay with her. I just float away."
"And she doesn't?"
"No, I don't think she does."
The pair of them had never really been this candid or friendly but this mutual bond of uncertainty and being forced to perform the tasks that their roles commanded of them even if they were the underbelly of their society was a thread of connection.
"I'd better go, I don't want you to get into trouble." She looked around and reached out to touch Yellow Pearl's hand. "Thank you."
She slipped away in search of the third in the triad. She found Blue Pearl absently doodling in front of the fountain. It was quite good of a drawing.
"Blue?"
"Pink," she smiled sweetly. "Good to see you."
"Good to see you too."
"You seem bothered by something."
She blushed a little and sat down next to her, quickly scanning the area for other gems. "Where is Blue Diamond?"
"Off soaking."
"Do you and your Diamond ever... Do things together?" She mumbled out as the flush grew deeper teal.
"Of course. We do everything together."
"That's not what I meant. I mean other things... things that you maybe don't tell other gems about?"
"Ooh that. Yes."
"And you're OK with it?"
"Of course, why wouldn't I be?"
"B-because it isn't our task! Really it isn't something gems do!"
Blue Pearl smiled wryly at her. "That's what you think? Why do you think that those parties exist? Even if we did get the idea from Pink's humans. Enough gems were bored and wanted something to do. So this is it now."
Her shoulders sagged and dropped her face into her palms. What was wrong with her that she was so repulsed and afraid of the act of sex?
Blue's hand brushed her shoulder. "It's OK to not understand or want to do it. I know Yellow doesn't really care for it either."
"I haven't done it yet. But I know my Diamond wants it." Her voice dropped even lower. "She kissed me in her chambers and I just couldn't. I'm an awful pearl not worthy to serve anyone much less a Diamond."
Blue was quiet, not sure what to say. "I don't think that you're unfit to serve. I just think you're learning. It will be OK."
"But you seem so fine with it! What if I never am?"
"Blue Diamond has always given me the option to say yes or no. She loves me and even though she outranks me in ever possible way, she wants me to be happy."
Pearl was quiet. She knew what she had to do. "Thank you for talking to me."
She rose once more and headed back with her mind made up.
