Thanks to everyone who reviewed my last chapter (Thanks especially to my 'usual' reviewers, you know who you are, and it means a lot ), I know it may have seemed a little much to have Rachel just shove Chloe, but you have to figure all of the hate that Rachel has been harboring towards this woman over all these years, and hopefully this chapter to show some insight on what she was thinking.

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Rachel had barely ever been in a fight before, and to say that this was a fight would be stretching it. Chloe has simply beaten her up, nothing else to it.

Looking around as Rachel lay in her and Ross' bedroom she shook her head and began a soft cry.

"Im so stupid." She said aloud to no one at all. Sure she and her baby were fine, but she had been stupid none the less. She was just thankful that all she got out of it was a headache that could kill, and a soar back, her baby had been fine and that's all that mattered.

But why did she do it? How stupid could she have been...a pregnant woman to attack some girl? She had known deep down inside that she was likely to do something that she would regret and she was right. Granted all she did was push Chloe, but still and all, it was a dumb move that sent Chloe off on her.

Rachel felt horrible; she couldn't imagine how upset Ross' must be. Sure he was concerned about her, but after all of that goes away, he was going to be angry, or at least that's the conclusion that Rachel had drawn.

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Out in the kitchen Ross was making a phone call.

"Hey Mon" Ross spoke quietly into the receiver, as he took a seat at the kitchen table.

"Ross! How's Rachel, is she okay? Is the baby fine?" Monica asked worriedly

"Yeah- Yeah Rachel's fine, and so is the baby, she's in the bedroom resting. Monica, I was so worried...how...why...why would she do that."

"Hold on Ross...so what did the doctor say?"

Sighing" Dr. Long said that she was really lucky. If she had been like a month or two more along, that kick to her side could have caused great damage. But I guess Chloe wasn't all that strong, I just don't understand what Rachel was thinking..." Ross said while looking down, he wasn't sure weather or not to be upset with Rachel, or feel bad for her.

"Ross, listen I think I get where Rachel was coming from, maybe its because Im her best friend, and I know how she thinks, or because Im a woman, but you know...you weren't living with her during all that time when she found out what you did, she was crushed.... and you know what, after all these years she never really got over it. I think that's just something youll have to talk to her about."

"I just thought we were past all of that now Mon."

"Ross that's not what I mean, she may be okay with it now, you know to forgive you and move on...but hunny she's never going to forget that. She is going to forever hate Chloe, no matter how much time passes. " Monica then paused for a moment before continuing. "You should have seen her, then next morning she was a mess...she didn't want to talk to anyone all day, all she wanted to do is sit in her room, for weeks she was in denial-"

"Really?" Ross cut her off. Rachel always appeared so held together...bitter towards him if anything.

"Defiantly, she really hid it well though didn't she? She was torn apart. Look go and talk to her, see where she was coming from, I should go and give Emma a bath before bed-"

"Mon, I should really come and pick Emma up" Ross said while starting to stand up.

"No, Rachel needs you now Ross, Ill drop Emma off tomorrow anyway, I have the day off"

"Thanks Mon."

Ross hung up the phone, and leaned against the wall by the door in the kitchen. He had never actually thought of Rachel being weak, sure he knew that he had hurt her really bad, but she always appeared so strong, even at her most vulnerable moments.

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Knocking on their door he called her name "Rach…"before walking inside to find her lying in bed with a tear stricken face, just staring up at the ceiling. She hadn't even acknowledged him walking in the room, as if caught in some type of trance.

Walking over to the bed as taking a seat next to her still body, he placed a hand on her thigh; she finally looked down at him, and gave him a forced weak smile. On the drive to and back from the hospital the two hadn't spoken much. Both in too much shock, to speak.

"Hey, How you feeling?" Ross asked genuinely, returning her smile.

"Ah, Ive been better" Rachel closed her eyes for a while before speaking. "Look Ross, I don't know what I was thinking okay?" Rachel spoke as if she were preparing to get a long lecture.

"Neither do I" Rachel sent him a look. "No Rach, I mean…I don't really understand why you would do something so stupid knowing you could put the baby in danger."

"I wasn't thinking."

"Damn right you weren't thinking" Ross snapped, and then immediately calmed himself down. "Look, Im sorry, that's not what I meant. Im just really confused Rach-"

"Okay, so I was thinking…Okay" Ross looked at her confused. "I was thinking about…you and her… and you both we're lying in this bed so many years ago…and how she was more important than out relationship…just all the pain she caused me. And when she was just there flirting with you, I couldn't handle it…so I was about to leave, because I knew I was going to snap at her…and then you brought me into it." Pausing, she rubbed her eyes and let out a small sigh. "And she said that we didn't have much a relationship when she got to you and I just, I snapped Ross. And I know it was stupid, but it felt so good. Everything I had ever wanted to say to her, I now had my chance, and I just…without thinking, I took that chance Ross."

"Rachel, first of all she was never more important than our relationship." Ross said while reaching to hold her hand.

"It sure felt like she was, and it hurt. God Ross, over these years Ive learned to forgive you, but I can-will never forgive her. Okay. Say you had run into Mark today, and he was touching me, and basically asking me out, I know…I know you couldn't handle that. Im just so, so sorry." Rachel began crying again…she couldn't help it. " Im a horrible Mother to this child, who isn't even born yet Ross. I could have killed it. And then, if that had happened…I don't know how I could live with myself-"

"Rach, hunny its okay…. everything is okay. Just, never do anything like that again…all right? You have no idea how worried I was about the baby, and you. I'm not going to lie, I was really mad at you at the same time, but thinking about it now…just as long as your both okay, Im fine with it. I mean, Im still shocked that you did it…but now…I think I almost understand. I just can't be upset with you. Just PLEASE think next time Rach, okay. I mean you heard the doctor, if you were just a couple months more along, a lot of harm could have been done."

Ross then sat up a little and kissed Rachel on the top of the head. They sat in the room in an uncomfortable silence for a few moments, both trying to recollect their thoughts. Trying to change the subject to a lighter topic he brought up the only thing that came to mind. "So did I hear right, are you and Monica going to go over things about the wedding tomorrow."

The mere mention of her wedding brought a smile on Rachel's face. "Well I mean, I told her that we hadn't actually decided on a date yet, but we're stilling going to talk about, you know the basics."

Ross nodded. "So, when did you want it?"

"I don't know Ross, I was thinking that it would be better if we waited a couple of months until after the baby is born, so like probably not until like a year or so from now-"

"Its up to you, I just can't wait to be married to you."

Rachel smiled at this, she felt the same way. "I just want to be able to wear a really nice dress, and I don't think that be being pregnant is going to give us the most options." Rachel joked. "I just really wanted it to be at the Plaza…but now with daddy against things, Im not sure that's going to happen."

"Ill work on it Rach-"

Rachel cut him off smiling" Although Phoebe did tell me that you once said that you wanted to have you 'next wedding' in Hawaii at sunset?"

Ross laughed. "Yeah, I think I did say that, and I think someone else said that…you had a dream of wanting a wedding in Barbados…on a cliff"

"Yeah…but you know what, I don't think that would exactly be the best thing…thinking of everything that happened when we were there before…but I mean Hawaii, if you were serious about it…that, that would be beautiful…" Rachel said while playing with the engagement ring on her finger, before giving him a small smile.

Ross smiled back at her, grabbing the hand with the ring on it. "It really would…as the sun was going down…the music could begin to play, and your father would be there, to slowly was you down the-"

"My Father isn't going to be there Ross…he just isn't, especially if we would plan over having it farther away…" Rachel said while looking down.

"Hey, Rach well work everything out, don't worry." Ross then crawled over her, and laid down next to her. Placing his hand on the top of her head, he began stroking her hair reassuringly. "He'll come around, youre his little girl right?" Ross then studied her face, her eyes slowly drifting shut; it had been a long day. "I mean, who could say no to you…your beautiful smile…those big blue eyes…and you know what, even if he doesn't come around, he'll be the one who is missing out"

Rachel glanced up at him one last time, and wrapped her arm around his waist as she buried her face into his chest. " Your so great Ross…you really are" She said quietly before drifting off to sleep.

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Ross sat on the orange couch in central perk, sitting on his coffee; he had been waiting for Chandler to arrive. A few weeks had passed since the incident with Chloe, neither of the two had brought it up since that night, and that's the way Ross liked it, he had known that Rachel still felt horrible over the whole situation, and there was no need to bring it up again.

Ross was deep in thought when Chandler sat down on the couch next to him. "Hey, man." Chandler spoke up first. "What's on your mind?"

"Nothing, I was just thinking about Rachel…"

"Well…here's a hint, you have her now, no need to fanaticize." Chandler joked." Hmm..so where is the ray of sunshine?"

"Im not sure actually, she wanted to take Emma out for a bit. "Ross said still staring out into the distance

"Ross…where does one take a two year old 'out' I mean are they going dancing drinking…what?"

Ross laughed. " She took Emma out shopping actually." Ross smiled "Yeah the other day, Rachel and I were in bed together, and Emma was on the floor looking through our magazines, when she got up, and I pulled her on to the bed, she…she actually took one of my Science magazines to look at-"

Chandler then cut him off "That's the picture in your dream man"

Ross smiled the biggest smile "Yeah, I know" He paused " Anyway Rachel noticed and panicked, so now she's trying to get Emma started early and 'show her the light'. "

"Wow…and fashion clearly is the way to go, Im sure everyone would be thrilled to hear that it is, in fact the light . " Chandler said in his usual sarcastic manor. "So when is the wedding have you decided? I mean its already August, I figure you probably have to start making plans soon."

"Did Monica send you?" Ross questioned.

"No Im just extremely interested in your marriage Ross, I mean this will be what…the fourth one we have to try and make this one last…for at least a week." Ross sent him a look. "Yes, is it that obvious?"

"Pretty much…I don't know we've been thinking about a wedding on May 6th, a year after she got off the plane."

"Still planning on the Hawaii wedding?" Chandler questioned "Id like to work on my tan"

Ross clears his throat. "Hey whatever works man…I don't know, we've been swaying back and forth, its really important for Rachel's father to be there..well for her anyway, you know I couldn't give a damn if the man was shot dead. Anyway, Rachel seems really excited about the thought of it there, and Id like to make her happy…"

Chandler then got serious. "Ross, I don't think it really matters where you get married, or who is there…just getting married to you is going to make her happy…"

"Yeah…I just…I want it to be really special-"

Chandler cut him off "hey, Ross youll be getting married to Rachel, who youve loved for more than half of your life…just that alone makes it special."

Chandler really was right thought Ross. The reality of it all was that, it really didn't matter to him or Rachel where they got married, just as long as it happened. But he would really love to get married in Hawaii, for his LAST wedding, and he couldn't get over the way Rachel's face lit up when they were talking about it…still in all, but it just wasn't feasible, everything would work out find.

"So how did you get so smart" Asked Ross "Aren't you the man who doesn't want people to go to him for advice?"

"Well I normally don't, but Ross, we've all been watching you two try to make it last for like 9 years now, I think the rest of us, know more about the two or you than you give a credit for…we've all rooting for you." Chandler said sincerely. "And aren't going to stop until you make this last."

"Really?" Chandler nodded his head; Ross then embraced him in a friendly hug, while pulling away Chandler spoke up. "We will never talk about that again…"

Ross cleared his throat "About what…? Uh, Hm, so when is Joey visiting?"

The rest of the gang hadn't seen Joey since he had left two months ago for Hollywood, in fact the only person who had spoken to him often was Chandler. It wasn't that Joey didn't care it was just that he didn't have much money to keep flying back and forth, and calling the long distance phone calls.

"He's coming for Thanksgiving, and staying for a few days, it's all he can afford now, but its something." Chandler sighed, he really had missed Joey. "So you're really not going to tell him about the wedding, and the new baby until then?"

"No, I don't know, Rachel thinks it would be great if it was some big surprise when he came. Which actually sounds pretty fun to me too, I mean the next time he sees Rachel, if he's coming to thanksgiving, she should be pretty big."

" Right…she should be what…a little over six months pregnant by then?" Chandler questioned.

"Yeah pretty much…and knowing Joey, Im not sure he'll know what hit him." Ross laughed.

The truth was Ross couldn't wait for Joey to find out, he would be so shocked. Rachel and Ross had also planned on asking Joey to officiate their wedding like he had done everyone else's over the years. This thanksgiving was also going to be the first one held in Monica's new home. Ross chuckled to himself when he thought of the day Rachel told his sister that she wanted to hold Thanksgiving this year. It was pretty clear that no one wanted that to happen, after the trifle fiasco a few years ago.

The months to come should be pretty exciting, thought Ross as he smiled to himself exhaling before going back to his conversation with Chandler.

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So there's the next chapter, sorry there wasn't too much going on here, but I needed to move the story along some how, and I think it provides a little information for my next Chapter, which is probably going to be about Thanksgiving. I think Im going to stop skipping around with time like this to get the story flowing more.

I had actually considered a miscarriage, but I couldn't do that once I thought about it lol.

Reviews welcome