Part XII: Is it Me and You Again?

Everything was still and her routines where making her feel no less than bored with her life. She felt like a robot now. Work in the morning, dinner with a girl at night, another woman in her bed, then do the routine all over again.

Katie Singer sat on that conference room chair as Anna her companion explained some of the points she needed. The woman's mouth was moving but Katie couldn't hear the words. Her mind was way off. Way… Way… Off…

"So you see… Katie?" Anna stopped and placed the folders on the table.

"Hm?"

"Tired? We could do this tomorrow. Your people are still fixing the IT department's audits. We still have time." The blonde walked over to Katie was and stood in front of her.

"Need to loosen up...?" Anna asked taking a seat in Katie's lap.

The woman caressed Katie's cheek, a placed tender kisses on her chin. She eyed Katie's expression, it was still blank. The brunette was still unmoving.

"Um… I need to be myself for a while. Would that be alright?" Katie asked giving the woman on her lap a quick peck on the cheek.

"Sure… You know you could call in case you need company tonight."

"I'll keep that in mind." With a smile, Katie allowed Anna to move away from her lap.

She stood up then took her coat. As she walked from those glass doors, Anna knew Katie Singer wasn't going to call tonight.

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"Hey Jess! Want go out for a drink tonight?" Russell peeped from Jessie's office door.

The blonde was still engrossed with her work. She looked up and took off her eyeglasses.

"Come on Jess. Loosen up. A drink or two? You might meet someone you know. Come on…"

Jessie looked up to her friend again and thought of the last time she did go out and had fun. To her recollection it had been a while since she did. She fought with herself, Katie could be having fun, not thinking about her. But here she was like a helpless puppy, feeling sorry and sad. It wasn't fair. Jessie had to try to be happy.

Somehow.

"Alright… Just pray to whoever you pray to that I meet someone worth my time." Jessie replied taking off her hospital coat then standing up.

Time to party.

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She rested her chin on the bar. She sat at the end, deciding not mingle with the women tonight. The bartender didn't mind because she was already a regular. She knows she promised Sarah she wouldn't drink this much again. But it was really tiring though. She wanted to at least loosen up with some alcohol in her system.

"Miss Singer… You need help with that?" The bartender began to worry seeing Katie was a bit off tonight.

"I'll be fine. Can I just rest here for a while? I'll be on my way later. I think my so-called chauffer is already outside."

Just then a blonde sat at the opposite end of the bar. On the corner of her eye, Katie saw glimpses of Jessica Sammler.

"Nah…" Katie told herself.

Katie thought Jessie wouldn't be in a bar filled with single people. Not unless Jessie had a date with her fiancé or even husband tonight. Turning to look at the woman on the opposite end, she noticed she was alone. Katie collected her thoughts.

"I thought you didn't want to take home a girl for a change…"

Smoothing her skirt, Katie stood up and prepared herself to meet, yet, another new woman in her life. Or so she thinks.

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Jessie sat on the stool and ordered her margarita. She left Russell by the bar door. The guy was busy chatting up some of his friends, neglecting to notice her presence.

As she drank from her glass, Jessie's thoughts suddenly drifted off to Katie once more. The blonde could hardly contain her heart. She was somewhat craving for days now. The dreams are becoming more adamant about her feelings.

"I need to go find her in London. But what will you do? Apologize?"

"Is this seat taken?" A voice behind her asked.

"No." Jessie replied.

She drank her glass dry then turned to the person who was beside her now.

She was surprised.

She was shocked.

The woman looked like Katie.

"I… Do I know you?" Jessie asked nervously careful not to jump to the woman's lap and ravage her with all her might.

"I don't…" Katie turned to find herself face to face with Jessica Sammler.

A million thoughts of anger surged through her head. Katie eyes blinked a few times before settling at staring at the blue orbs she once found irresistible. Ruby lips that were so luscious she couldn't get enough off. Obviously her desire was winning over her anger. Katie stood up and turned to leave.

But.

A hand, a warm gentle hand took hold of hers, with a voice quivering.

"Katie… It's you… You're here."

"I am. So what? Nothing has changed."

With those words coming right out of her mouth, Katie mentally slapped herself.

"Katie… I'm sorry… I didn't mean to… Please…" Jessie was ready to beg, kneel even follow Katie the whole night just to apologize.

To be with her again.

Katie closed her eyes and gritted her teeth. Just then she felt something, no ring on the right hand ring finger. She opened her eyes and examined the hand that was keeping her from leaving.

No wedding ring.

No engagement ring.

She felt her heart jump. But then, she was left behind that cruel morning with just a note to make her endure what was coming her way.

"I have to go." Katie spoke before disengaging her arm from Jessie's grasp.

Jessie looked at her sadly, hoping they could at least talk about things, to at least set things right.

"Katie… At least tell me where you're staying…"

"Jessica Sammler." Katie turned to Jessie.

Jessie stared at the green eyes. Those eyes which once looked at her with so much love and passion. She shouldn't blame Katie. The love she had turned out to be a one night stand. Who could blame her?

She should blame me.

I left her with a mere note on her bed.

I didn't return her calls until she probably got tired and moved on. I neither showed her the same love I spoke of the night I gave myself to her. No one even knew she's the one who took my heart.

The one who still has my heart…

"I have nothing more to say to you."

Were the last words Jessie heard before the brunette made her way out of the bar.

"Way to go Sammler. Try to make her angrier why don't you?" Jessie took her seat again.

She stared at the bottles of wine that were displayed on the bartender's shelf. After what seemed hours, Jessica Sammler found herself drinking a little too much.

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Katie laid herself on the couch staring at the ceiling. She went straight home after her encounter with Jessie. It was as though her feelings were going to burst, denying her of the same pleasure to hurt her former lover. She was going down that same road again. That naïve road that tore her heart out. She imagined how Jessie was. She imagined how gorgeous the blonde was.

As gorgeous as I could remember…

Katie then sat up then stared at the moonlit street just outside her rented apartment.

"Did she go home alright? Maybe I should check."

Picking up her mobile phone, Katie Singer phoned in her so-called chauffer.

"I need to know she got home just fine."

An hour of travel, Katie found herself in a cab right in front of Jessica Sammler's apartment. The same apartment she was supposed to be in with her ex-fiance.

"If I don't go out in two hours. Come back for me in the morning." Katie reminded the cab driver turned chauffer.

"Another night with a date Miss Singer?"

"No. Just a friend."

"She looks drunk Miss Singer."

"She seems so." Katie replied going out of the cab.

She found Jessie vomiting on the hedges in a wobbly fashion.

Instinctively, Katie wrapped her arms around Jessie's waist to secure her from falling over.

"Hey…! Welcome! Are you new?" Jessie asked slurring.

Katie was a little dumbfounded, but then realized Jessie was so damn drunk to even recognize her.

"No. Want to go inside where it's warm? You have your keys?"

"Uh… Yeah… I'm sure it's in my bag…" Jessie replied pulling the keys out of her bag.

Katie took it with her now free hand, but held on to Jessie when the blonde began to falter with her steps.

"Easy…"

Jessie, unknowingly, snuggled onto her shoulders and giggled.

"You smell nice…" The blonde whispered before giggling again.

"Thanks…"

Katie kept Jessie in her arms to ensure she wasn't going to fall on the floor. She opened the door quickly as she could. Jessie then walked and stopped by the doorway.

"I shouldn't let you in… I don't know you…" Jessie whispered then giggled afterwards.

"Nah… You would let me in… I'm cute anyway…"

"True… True…" With a nod, Jessie was now inside the house falling on her ass.

"Did you drive home by yourself?" Katie just had to ask.

She took Jessie's hand and helped her stand up.

"Russell… My gay friend… Took me home."

"I see…"

Katie closed the door behind her. She turned to find one of the paintings she left in the old house hanging in Jessie's living room.

"She stole it?" Katie asked herself.

Her attention shifted when Jessie stumbled on her couch starting a laughing fit.

"I'll get you some clean clothes… I'll be right back… Don't go anywhere." Katie smiled at Jessie who was seemingly, still on another planet.

When Katie got back, she found Jessie almost, naked.

"Sorry. Was hot." Jessie giggled.

"Good… Go…" Katie dropped the clothes on the floor as Jessie slowly stripped off her blouse revealing her milky white skin underneath.

"Jess… Put the blouse back on…"

"But you said they were dirty…"

"PUT THEM BACK ON!"

"Why?"

"Jess…"

"Why?"

"Because…"

"Don't you like what you see?" Jessie asked purring in the end.

Katie found herself shivering as she watched Jessie walked towards her.

"I think I know you…" Jessie spoke wrapping her arms on Katie's neck.

She tilted her head, somewhat, eyeing Katie's features sleepily.

"You think?"

"I think…" Jessie began but did not finish.

She stared at Katie for while then bit her lip. She leaned slowly before capturing Katie's lips in a gentle kiss.

She pulled away staring at Katie with a happy smile on her lips.

"Didn't know vomit tasted sweet." Katie smiled resting her forehead against Jessie's.

"I have mouthwash… Over there…" Jessie pointed to the kitchen then began kissing Katie once more.

Little by little, Katie felt her breathing hitch. She knew her walls were crumbling but she was loving every moment of it. She closed her eyes as she deepened the kiss. Jessie gladly opened her mouth to let her tongue in.

Heaven.

I'm always in heaven when she's around me.

Can I deny myself this?

Katie's thoughts were now a mess. Her heart aching to have more yet aching to hurt the woman in her arms as well.

"Jessie won't even remember what happens tonight." She thought to herself.

I shouldn't take advantage of her regardless of what she did to me.

"Jess…" She whispered as she painfully tore her lips from the blonde's.

"You need to rest."

"No…"

"Jess…"

"I want you…"

"Jess…"

"Please…"

Next thing Katie knew, Jessie had fallen limp in her arms, sleeping.