Hey Guys! Thank you for the reviews for last chapter it was a hard one for me to write. As you probably know I am not one for drama. Or sadness. But, I can't make their lives a fairy tale, there has to be some sort of drama!

My favorite reviewer has to be…daniexbaby! I love you girl and you inspire me to keep writing! (She is truly my best friend, so yeah I had to make her the favorite reviewer) But if you reviewed (and you know who you are), you are awesome and you don't know how much I like hearing from you! Especially my regular reviewers that review every chapter! Oh, and of course my amazing beta VoiceInMyHead, she is my hero…Next to Rachel!

In other news, I am thinking about writing a new story! Don't worry, "Love is a Beautiful Thing" will always be my #1 priority! I just have this really awesome idea that I want to get going on! So if you don't have me on author alert either do that or just check my profile soon!

Now enough of me rambling on! I know you guys want to hear about Finn and Rachel! Here is chapter 11 of "Love is a Beautiful Thing"!

Disclaimer: I don't own Juilliard at all! And I don't own the song, "I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing." And as always…I don't own Glee or any of its characters! If I did it wouldn't be named Glee. It would be named "The Finn and Rachel Show!" LOL!

RPOV

Looking out the window I knew that things were going to change. For better or for worse, I don't know. I knew that, of course, my career as a performer was going to improve. But my relationship with Finn, I wasn't so sure about.

I didn't want to dwell on my thoughts anymore, so I pulled out my iPod and ran through my playlists. I had made over 20 playlists for basically every musical that I loved and then one for my favorite songs at the moment. My favorites were the last playlist in the row and I scrolled down to that. What I found surprising was a playlist I never created.

The title of it was "Just Listen" I knew I never added anything under that name, so I clicked on it to see what was in it. Only 2 songs were in it, both of them unnamed. I clicked on the first one to hear a very familiar voice.

Hey Rach. If you are listening to this right now, you are probably on your way to Juilliard and you wanted to listen to music to pass the time. I felt like putting this on here would be the best way to express how I am feeling. I am so sorry about everything that was said between each other. You were right, I was stupid. So stupid that I hate myself for it now. I didn't mean anything I said, I was just so caught up in the moment. You aren't anything like Quinn at all. You have every right to be mad and me and never talk to me again…but I wish you would. You can call me whenever. I really just want to hear your voice again. You probably are wondering why the heck I even put this on here. Well, I really couldn't say this all to your face without crying like a baby. Which to be honest, is probably what I have been doing since you left. But don't worry about me, worry about kicking everyone else's butts and showing them whose boss! I love you more than you can ever imagine. I hope to hear from you soon. Yours always, Finn.

I didn't even know I was sobbing until his message finished. I didn't know what to think, I didn't know what to do about it. I just kept listening to it over and over. Then I decided to see what the next track was. I clicked on that and it was silence for a couple seconds, then the music started playing and he began to sing.

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

"Excuse me miss, but are you alright?" The flight attendant asked me as I quickly wiped away the falling tears. I pulled the ear buds out of my ears and quickly shook my head.

"Oh yes, of course. Just this song, it's very emotional." I smiled at her and she just walked away. Wow, she really cared.

I wish Finn had never put this on my iPod. It just made think about him even more than I already do. But even though it broke my heart to hear him sing this, I kept replaying the song, thinking about our last moments together.

**Flashback**

After arriving back to the hotel, I quickly called my fathers to give them the news. They were more than excited for me and I gave them Mr. Wilson's number. They told me they would set up everything for me and I told them I was coming home soon anyway. Finn looked at me then with pain in his eyes.

After the phone call, I started putting things in my bag while Finn did the same. We did it in silence. We finished quickly and we both just looked at each other.

"So are we leaving tonight?" Finn asked me and I shrugged.

"I guess we could stay one more night here if you would like." I stated as Finn quickly nodded.

"I would love that Rachel." He said as we both laid on the bed. We were just watching TV when Finn wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me up against him. We both knew this was probably the last time he would be able to do this.

I looked at his face to see tears trailing down his cheeks. I leaned on top of him and kissed the tears away. He weakly smiled at me, embarrassed that I saw him crying.

"Rach, I don't know if I can ever let you go." He said as more tears began to fall. I felt the need to cry, but I tried not to. Not yet.

"Finn, we are going to be okay. I will call you everyday and we can talk as long as you want. I won't be gone forever." I replied as he took a deep breath.

"It will feel like forever. The hours drag on if you're not with me Rachel." Finn complained.

"Finn, you don't know how much I want to stay with you. But I can't let this go." I said as he nodded, understanding. He flipped over on his side so he could face me directly. He brushed some hair out of my face and held his hand to my cheek.

"You know, before I met you, I was some idiot jerk that thought that because I was the quarterback, I could get whatever I wanted. I thought that people should look up to me. But then I joined Glee club and met you and something inside me told me I needed to change. I needed to become better. Then we started becoming closer and I realized that just because you weren't popular, doesn't mean you weren't cool. I realized that people didn't like you because you were honest and truthful. That you were different from everyone else. They couldn't accept you because you weren't like everyone else. Then I fell in love with you. When I understood that, my whole world seemed to change. My mind works different now. My main priority was myself. What I wanted and what I did. Now, it is you that is my first priority. What you want and what you do. You have done something to me Rachel that no one ever has been able to do. You see the good in everyone and accepted them for that. You have shown me what it is like to truly live and to truly love a person. Because I don't love anyone else more than I love you." He told me as I then finally started to cry.

"Finn, I don't know what to say." I honestly said as he kissed my forehead.

"How about I love you?" He suggested.

"I love you Finn. No matter how far apart we are, that isn't going to change." I said as he then put his left hand on my cheek and lightly brushed his lips up against mine. I put my hands in his hair and pulled his face closer, deepening the kiss. He abruptly stopped kissing me and I pulled back, looking at him, confused.

"Rach, I think it was time I was honest to you." He told me as I raised one eyebrow.

"What do you mean?" I said, my teeth clenched together. I don't like it when people keep things from me.

"You know when I went on a date with Santana and I told you we didn't have sex? Well…we really did. I'm not a virgin anymore and I regret it more than anything." He confessed as my jaw dropped.

"I lied to you too. I am a virgin; I couldn't go through with it with Jesse. He wasn't you." I confessed as well. Finn looked okay with the fact that I lied to him, because the truth was something good. While I on the other hand, was extremely angry with him.

"I feel so much better now that I have told you that." He told me, smiling.

"I wish you would have just kept lying to me." I said with ice in my voice. He looked shocked.

"What do you mean? You always tell me that you want the honest truth, well here it is!" He yelled at me.

"I appreciate you telling me the truth but how could you? How was I able to wait when you couldn't! If you truly loved me like you say you did you wouldn't have done that!" I screamed back!

"I was trying to get over you Rachel! I thought that if I was with another girl, that the pain would go away!" Finn shouted.

"How STUPID can you be? I was still in love with you Finn; I knew that wouldn't go away with SEX!" I screeched as he flinched.

"So now you think I'm STUPID! You are acting just like Quinn did!" He yelled as he rolled off the bed. I sat up and his words hit me like I was slapped in the face. I couldn't be another Quinn.

"If I am "just like Quinn" now then I guess you don't want me anymore!" I shouted and he froze.

"You're right. I guess I don't." He said, his eyes cold. I started sobbing, just standing there and looking at him. He got his bag from the corner of the room and just walked out. I collapsed on the bed and felt my heart tearing inside. Not breaking, just tearing into a million shreds.

After a few hours of sobbing, I had no more tears to cry. I called a taxi to take me home. I slowly looked around the room, wondering how things turned so bad, so fast.

When I got home, I didn't tell my dad's anything about the fight or breakup (which I wasn't completely sure of.) They had arranged everything for me for Juilliard. I would be living in one of the dorms with two other girls in the summer program. I would leave in 2 days.

I told Kurt, Mercedes, Tina, and Quinn about the offer and they were all very excited for me. They wished me luck and I had to promise each of them that I would call them with an update. Finn never called me.

But I did realize that Finn still had my iPod with him, so I knew I had to talk to him soon. But I didn't have to. The day before I left for Julliard, someone had knocked on my door and I found my iPod sitting on the front porch. At least Finn still cared about me enough to give it back.

**End Flashback**

The seatbelt sign came on and I knew we were here. I looked out the window to see that we were very close to landing. I started to put my things back into my carry-on, thinking about Finn.

Did he really just get caught up in the moment? Did he really love me? I couldn't make a decision now, I had to think of something a little bit more important now. Juilliard.

FPOV

"Finn honey, you have to come out of your room sometime!" My mom yelled at me. I just groaned and put a pillow over my head.

"Mom, can you just leave me alone? I will come out when I want to!" I shouted back. She sighed and I heard her footsteps walk away from my door.

I lifted the pillow off my head and looked around the dark room. My shades were shut and all the lights were turned off. I had gone out of my room…for the bathroom and to sneak some food.

I can't believe I was so stupid to say those things to Rachel. I was just so upset that she thought I didn't love her. When she said that I was stupid, it was like time had turned back and it was just another worthless fight with Quinn.

When I got back to my house that night, all I did was sit in my room and just punched the crap out of my pillow, something I only thought nerds did. It did help me and I finally got my head cleared. That is when I realized I screwed everything up.

I found her iPod in my bag and once I saw it, I began to cry harder than I ever did before. I cried for about a day straight, no joke. Then I decided that crying about it wouldn't change anything. So I made Rachel those tracks on my computer and downloaded them on my iPod.

When my mom was at work, I drove to Rachel's house and dropped it off on her porch. I wanted more than anything to talk to Rachel, but I don't think I would have been able to handle myself if she just slammed the door in my face. So, like a chicken, rang her doorbell and ran as fast as I could to my car. I drove away as quickly as possible.

Since then, I have been waiting for Rachel's call. If it doesn't come in another 2 days, I was just going to have to give up. Even just thinking about it now made my heart throb. I didn't want to give up but I had to respect Rachel.

My phone suddenly rang and I quickly looked at the screen. The name that flashed across it wasn't the one I was hoping for. Even though it was her, I pressed the small green button.

"What Kurt?" I snapped.

"Wow…That was a warm greeting." He said sarcastically. I didn't even have the energy to roll my eyes.

"What do you need Hummel, I am not in the mood." I said coldly.

"I think everyone knows that Finn. We all talked to Rachel and we know what happened. Jerk." He commented.

"I know I was a jerk Kurt. I just don't know how to fix it. I told her I was sorry and to call me, but I haven't gotten anything." I mumbled.

"Of course she isn't going to call you! You just apologized? Boy, you need to do a whole heck of a lot more!" He said. Why? She should know I am sorry.

"What do I need to do then Kurt?" And before I even got the words out of my mouth I knew I just got myself into something. I could literally hear him smiling through the phone.

"Get some paper Finn. I helped you get Rachel, now I am helping you get her back."

I love getting Kurt involved! Haha! And yes Finn was a total jerk but on the other hand Rachel called him stupid. Which side are you on? Please Review! Love you all!