Chapter 9
Uncertainty
Ever since the night I got so drunk I ended up waking up in Killian's bed we've grown closer as friends and he and Graham have gotten over their issues, and we can all hang out as friends again. We ended up getting most of David's list completed by October. The only thing left was to complete the last few cabins we were building up on the ridge and sell the last of the horses that aren't being used on the ranch.
"In celebration for the fall the whole town throws a random week-long carnival that overlaps Halloween." I try to explain to Killian why the whole town does this.
"So you're telling me that for pretty much no reason the town decides to have a carnival for a whole week and everyone on Halloween dresses up as something, and there's no purpose to this?" Killian asks driving his truck down the path from the cabins on the ridge to the house.
"Yes." I state as if it couldn't be any simpler.
"Oh the strange customs of this land." He sighs.
"Have you lived under a rock this whole time in Storybrooke?" I tease elbowing him in the ribs.
"I'll have you know that I wouldn't be this devilishly handsome living under a rock." He wiggles his eyebrows giving me a wink. "But I haven't been around this time of year since I moved here."
"Why?"
"…Just family matters tis all." He avoids eye contact and before I can say anything else we're pulling up to the house.
"So love has your mother made any of her pumpkin pie lately?" He opens my door for me and helps the very pregnant Jessie down before helping me down as well.
"Well you'll just have to come in and find out for yourself." I say before dashing up the steps into the house. Killian follows closely behind me and the kitchen is already filled up with everyone. The uncles, Ruby, Belle, Ingrid, Graham, and my parents are all eating already.
"Emma! Kilian! Grab a plate and join us!" Ingrid shouts over all the crazy relatives and friends. I pile my plate with food before grabbing a mug of hot cocoa and adding whipped cream and cinnamon to it and sitting next to Graham and Killian.
"Why can't I be surrounded by beautiful men?" Ruby asks looking at me wistfully.
"They may be handsome but I think their brains are broken." I say before thinking. Quickly taking a long sip of my cocoa to cover up what I just said.
Thankfully Killian pipes "I'll have you know I can tie my shoes without my mums help." He states with the goofiest grin on his face. We all laugh and go back to bantering as usual.
Later that night when Ruby, Belle, and I went over to see Ingrid about an offer for a couple of her older trail horses I noticed Jessie pacing the room.
"Aunt Ingrid?" I ask from my spot on the floor.
"Yes Emma?"
"Is Jessie alright? She's been pacing around for a while now." I ask pulling her toward me. She lays down between my legs and I can feel how hot she is.
"She could be having her puppies soon, I've read that they're usually restless before whelping." Belle says coming down from her spot on the chair and trying to comfort Jessie.
"Ruby why don't you go get Killian for me." Ingrid asks Red and she runs out the door to the barn where Killian stays.
"Why do we need him?" I asked confused, this is her third litter and Ingrid handled them just fine.
"Well Jessie's getting older and Killian studied animal medicine, and I just want to make sure she has someone to help her if there are any complications." She says softly before joining us on the floor and stroking Jessie.
I feel something warm and wet on my thigh, looking down I find a puppy laying there in a sack. "Oh my God! Guys she just had a puppy!" I scream and Jessie reaches back to bite the umbilicord off.
I'm holding the first puppy in my hands as Killian bursts into the house barefoot and no shirt on. "Let's get her into her box love."
"Where is it?" I ask and Ingrid motions me to follow her into the kitchen as I carefully transfer the puppy into the box she had hiding behind the sliding door of what used to be an old linen closet. I place the pup in there and Jessie follows her pup in there.
"When did you do this?" Red asks the question I was thinking.
"Killian helped me a while ago when I was trying to figure out where to put her box."
"Can you guys take care of this while I go clean up?" I say motioning to the wet spots on my jeans and shirt.
"You can borrow a pair of jeans and shirt, there should still be some laundry in the dryer." Ingrid says leaning against the wall by Jessie's box on the floor.
"Thanks Ingrid." I go wash up my cloths and find a pair of Ingrid's jeans on her makeshift line in the laundry room and an old white cotton shirt in the dryer. It too big on me clearly indicating it's Killian's but I'm sure he won't mind if I borrow it.
"Well you look comfy love." Killian says when I come back into the kitchen.
"Thanks I think it looks pretty good on me." I tease, his shirt smells like leather, spices and something distinctly him.
"Get over here girl and check out Jessie's puppies." Ruby pulls me down to the floor to check out the puppies.
"Awwww!" They're so adorable!" She had two more while I was gone and after a while we start playing poker.
I managed to take most of the M&M's we used to bet with but pass the bag around anyways. We stay up talking late into the night and eventually drift off to sleep. I wake up with my arms around someone and my face buried between their shoulders.
"It's about time you woke up, you wouldn't let go of me for like ever." Recognizing Ruby's voice I ignored her.
"The floor's too cold." I grumble.
"All the more reason to get up off the very hard floor. I swear my hips are bruised." She whines.
"You're warm." Is the only thing I can say.
"It's bad enough you wouldn't let me go but Killian won't get off my legs and I've been pinned here all morning."
Sleepily I kick at Killian's head and try to wake him up. "Wake up Jones." I whine.
"Yes love?" His voice is thick and his accent is heavy. It gives me butterflies in my stomach I try to ignore.
"Get off us."
"Us?" He asks rolling off Red's legs before promptly falling back to sleep.
"Finally freedom!" Red squirms out of my hold and gets up off the floor.
"You're too loud." I slap her leg.
"You're too lazy." She nudges me in the head with her foot.
The next time I wake up my back is pressed against something very warm and solid. The only one I can think of that feels like this is Killian and I try to roll away without waking him up. Groaning he wakes up too.
"Emma, Killian you guys woke up just in time for breakfast." Ingrid says leading over the island looks at us.
"What are we having?" I ask.
"Wake the others up and you'll see." She disappears and I hear glasses and plates clanking together.
Waking up the others Ingrid feeds us like she's feeding an army with pancakes, bacon, sausage, scrambled eggs, and fruit. We finish most of it and check on Jessie before heading back to the ranch to get the horses worked and work on the cabins before the carnival tonight.
"Oh! I'm glad I caught you two, we need to have a meeting later today. I want to go over the records for the horses and I received a call today with someone interested in the last Arabians." Belle says enthusiastically holding up some papers.
"Great! Emma and I are almost done here so we can talk over lunch?" Red says brushing down the horse she was working with. Belle runs out the barn and back up to the house.
Once we get done working with the horses we chat over lunch about how we need to mail out some papers on the horses to their new owners and when would be the best time for the man to see the horses. Belle calls the man back and tells him later today would be best because of the carnival tonight.
Later that evening after loading up the last Arabians we sold, I help Ingrid set up her ice cream stand downtown. When we all but finish Killian comes strolling up.
"You missed out on all the fun." I tease wiping the sweat from my forehead.
"Just saving my strength for the…High Striker tis all." He flashes me a goofy grin.
"Uh huh, okay Mr. Strong-guy we'll see how strong you are later, but help me open this awning on Ingrid's truck." I try fiddling with the poles as Killian finishes his side and watches me struggle. "Enjoy watching me struggle?"
"I'm enjoying the view, that's for sure." He says holding the ladder I'm standing on.
"Ugh I can't believe you." Just when I think I have the pole right it falls and I lose my balance falling on Killian. We both land on the ground with and 'umph' and I noticed that I landed on top of him.
"Well that was a graceful dismount Swan." Killian laughs and roll off of him.
"Ugh, you can get that one too I'm just gonna take a break…down here." I lay on the grass watching as he gets up and brushes himself off.
"Yes wouldn't want the Swan falling back off the ladder." He fixes the pole and Ingrid's truck is ready for the carnival.
"That looks lovely guys." Ingrid comes up to us.
"I did all the work though." I grumble.
"But you used me as a cushion Swan, I think we're even." Killian says helping me up.
"Swan? Really Jones?" I ask exasperated.
"It's only befitting such a graceful lady." He winks at me.
"Do I even want to know what happened?" Ingrid chuckles as she sets up the inside of her ice cream truck.
"One rocky road for the lady." Killian tells Ingrid and she just smiles and shakes her head before getting the ice cream.
"For you milady." Killian holds out the cone for me bowing.
"What's this for?" I ask taking it.
"It's only right that since you set up most of this by yourself you should be the first customer to try some."
"Why thank you." I say never turning down free ice cream.
"Why don't you guys go find your friends, I'll be fine here for a while." Ingrid says shooing us off.
Later that evening after working a shift with Ingrid, Red, Belle, Will, Graham, Elsa, Anna, and I were wandering around the carnival playing games and trying to see who was better at them. It's been a while since Elsa and Anna were around, they just finished up their business degrees at Montana State. The whole gang was back together and it finally felt like home again.
"I'm out of quarters Red!" I whine to her, we're having and epic round of skeeball though the boys are beating us.
"You can have one of mine Swan." A voice says behind me.
Spinning a little too fast around I crash into them, more than a little tipsy. "Oh thank you!" I see Killian's face and give him a peck on the cheek for the quarter he gave me before turning back to the machine to throwing the balls.
"If I knew giving you a quarter would get me a kiss I'd've given you all my quarters a long time ago." He says leaning against the pole holding up another quarter.
"Ooooo! Get some Emma!" Red howls at me.
"The only thing I want is another quarter Red." I stick my tongue out at her.
"You can have one of mine Emma." Graham says holding out a quarter for me. Just to tease him I give him a peck on the cheek too and turn back to play some more.
"Bloody siren you are Swan." Killian grumbles.
"Is somebody jealoussss?" Red teases turning to walk his way hips swaying. "Don't feel left out." She gives him a peck on the cheek too and gathers up the rest of our group to go play something else.
"What the bloody hell?" He asks no one in particular.
"Don't stand there like an idiot, I think Red has something of yours." I say before taking his cowboy hat and placing it on my head before skipping over to Red.
She hold up his wallet and he curses before trying to stalk us down. She hands me his wallet and we split up, he catches me soon enough and pins me against the back of a brick building.
"Now it's not nice to tease a man Swan." He says fingers running down my arm.
"I think the hat looks better on me."
"Aye is does." He says leaning close to my face. Maybe it's because I had too much to drink but his blue eyes are darker than usual and it almost seems like he's leaning in to kiss me.
My eyes flutter shut and his hands slip down to my hips. "You know what I love?" He asks me.
"Hmmmmm?"
"Catching the siren who took my wallet!" He laughs and jumps back from me. Taking a second to realize he took his wallet back I mock pout at him.
"Come on love, time to go find everyone else." He holds out a hand and I let him pull me from the wall. I don't want him to let go of my hand but he does and I just sigh and lean into him. "What's the matter Swan?"
"I think I've had too much to drink."
"Aye that much is true. But here's Belle maybe she can help."
"Emma! Where have you been!" Belle shouts as she attempts to run towards me, stumbling a little. "Never mind that, here try this." She hands me a cup of something and doing what she says I take a long drink of it.
Almost choking on it I cough and she laughs at me. "What the hell is that!"
"Moonshine of course! Ruby got us all some, it's better if you hold your breath. Try it again!" Belle shoves the cup back in my hand.
Trying it again holding my breath it burns going down my throat but I don't choke this time. "Here try some Jones!" I shove the cup in his hand.
"No thanks Swan, someone has to get you home safely." He laughs throwing an arm around me and Red who just joined us.
"Well you can take me home any day cowboy." Ruby says seductively leaning into him.
Killian didn't seem to have any words to answer that but Graham came over and saved him from answering. "Stealing all our lovely lady friends from the rest of us mate?" He throws an arm around me too as we stumble down the brightly lit street from all the rides and games lining the road.
"How can I help it when they just can't stay away from such a devilishly handsome man." Killian quips punching Graham in the shoulder.
"Let's go watch the fireworks from the Farris Wheel!" Ruby squeals before dragging Killian, Belle, and Will with her.
"Elsa! Anna! Let's go watch the fireworks from the Farris Wheel!" I grab Elsa and Anna before chasing after Red with Graham trailing behind us.
There's only two people for each seat so we split up with Graham and Elsa together, Belle and Will, Ruby and Anna, and Killian and I. When the ride starts moving the night air is cold against my hot skin. I snuggle closer to Killian and I can tell he was hesitant about putting his arm around me.
"I don't bite, you know." I joke. "Well not usually."
He looks at me slightly surprised. "I'm just joking." I poke him in his ribs.
"Aye love."
"Will you take me home after this?" I ask quietly leaning against him enjoying his warmth.
"Of course Swan."
"Why do you call me that?" I ask after a moment of silence.
"Because you've proven how graceful you are after all the time I've known you." He chuckles and I feel the vibrations from his chest.
"You haven't known me that long."
"I've known you for a few years love."
"No you only knew the Emma I showed you, you know me almost how Ruby, Belle, and Elsa knows me."
"You're something of an open book love." He pulls me closer to him and I let him, tired of drinking all night and running around with friends, and especially tired of holding onto all my anger for Neal.
"You don't know all the secrets about me."
"No I don't but when you're ready to open up I'll be here."
I'll be here… is the first thought in my head when I wake up in my bed with Elsa, Ruby, Belle, and Anna in various spots on the floor or my bed. Groaning I stumble out of bed with a killer headache. Not even bothering to wake anyone else up I half fall down the stairs to go take a shower.
It's the middle of the morning by the time we're all up. David gave us the day off since we stayed out so late and got so wasted none of us remembered it.
"We're not just gonna lay around here all day are we?" Anna groans into the couch she's laying on still slightly hung over.
"I have a great idea! Why don't we go down to the lake to swim!" Elsa says excitedly.
"The only problem with that is we're all hung over and there no way we can drive up the ridge without dying." Red says dully.
"Who didn't get wasted last night?" Belle asks laying on the floor.
I'll be here… "Jones!" I shout, a little too loudly for all of us and we all groan simultaneously.
"How do you know?" Anna asks.
"Just trust me." I say not entirely sure if I was actually right but someone got us home alive and my parents were already in bed when we left. So I call Killian and it turns out I was right he's coming over in a couple hours so that gives us time to pack something to eat later and for everyone but Red, Belle, and I to go get their bathing suits. Red and Belle have random clothes they've kept here so they don't have to go home.
"So Emma, what's up with you and Killian?" Red asks casually leaning against the counter.
"What do you mean? We're friends." I state bluntly.
"Well, Belle and I have noticed that you like spending time with Killian, especially if it comes down to Graham or him."
"Whoa, Ruby don't bring me into this all I said was that she hasn't seemed this happy since Neal." Belle holds up her hands.
"Smart-ass and I are just friends." I state defensively not liking where this conversation is leading to.
"That's how you and Neal started out too."
"What are you implying?" I bite the words out.
"Hey guys everyone's here, why don't we go now." Belle tries to interject pushing us out the door.
Putting on a fake smile I go out to greet everyone again and try to push Ruby's word out of my head. Once we're packed and ready to go I climb in the back of Killian's truck with the guys who he crashed with and Elsa. Will was passed out leaning against the tailgate, and Graham, August, Kristoff, and myself in various spots being tossed around by the bumpy dirt road.
"I'll never understand how he can manage to sleep though things like this." Elsa says as she holds onto the side of the truck to keep from being thrown out.
"His head's harder than the rocks in my field." Kristoff says slapping Will in the head.
"Maybe one day we should try to drill through his head and see if his head or the bit breaks first." August jokes. He and his father have a wood shop in a forest they bought and a store in town with different things they make.
Not saying much on the way there it seems like a longer drive than usual. When we finally do reach the lake we don't bother pulling anything out of Killian's truck but strip down to our bathing suits while running towards the lake. The lake's bank is littered with shirts and shorts so all that's left is string bikinis and swimming trunks.
There's a random boulder that's out in the lake where the waters about six foot deep and we all try to claim the rock as our own. We end up splitting into two groups while we fight for the rock. Graham, Belle, Elsa, August, and I are on one team while Red, Killian, Anna, Will, and Kristoff are on the other team.
When Killian has the rock I manage to slip by Will who's trying to keep Graham away and climb up behind Killian. "Watch out mate!" Will yells to Killian and he whips around to face me.
Standing practically chest to chest I can tell he's fighting to keep his eyes up. "Sorry Jones." Is all I say before taking advantage of his dumbfounded expression and push him off the rock.
"Bloody siren!" Killian yells when he comes back up for air.
"Oi mate don't fraternize with the enemy!" Will shouts.
"Sorry boys, this is my rock." I state standing proudly on the rock.
After that they concede defeat and Killian has the idea to play an epic round of chicken fight. "You're with me love." He says holding my hand.
"And why's that?" I ask playfully.
"Not many have bested me at king of the rock." He says mock seriousness. "So therefore you must be the best and I think the two best people here would make the greatest team."
I end up giving in to his puppy dog eyes and we end up beating everyone who challenges us. As a victory he dunks me under the water before pulling me up after a second. Splashing him after coming up for dunking me turns into an all-out water fight with everyone for themselves.
Once we're starving and water logged we climb up on the little strip of sandy 'beach' and the guys take out the coolers we packed with food and water. The anger with Ruby before coming here forgotten we all laugh and joke around and lay out soaking up the sunlight.
That evening after everyone returned to their own homes Emma and I came out to help Dave and his mates put up another cabin on the ridge. Emma, volunteering us to stay and finish putting the front door on the small cabin, finishes drilling in the last screw that attaches the door hinge to the frame.
"There we go, now no random animals will wander in here." She says standing up.
"Aye like that coon that almost killed me?" We burst out laughing at the memory. The door to the first cabin we built wasn't put on until we were almost done and when I went to finish drilling the cabinets in a coon jumped out and started attacking me.
"It was like this big." She holds her hands about a half foot apart.
"Bloody hell Swan it was like this big." I pull her hands apart a good two feet.
"You exaggerate so much." She playfully scoffs.
"Would you like to see how true my exaggerations are love?" I take a step closer raising my eyebrows and giving her my best flirtatious grin.
"You have a huge ego, you know that?" She smirks.
"Would you like to see what else I have that's big?" The sun setting from the ridge makes her blonde curls glow almost radiant and I'm sucked into her sea green eyes.
"Jones…" She softly pleads. The uncertainty in her eyes clear, she's at war with herself so I stay where I am letting her decide where this goes. She has ugly scars from her past that much I know in the time I've known her. She's letting more people in through her sky high walls and impenetrable armor, but now seeing her so vulnerable in her own way I'm not sure if she's ready for what she could possibly want.
"…I'm starving, do you want to stay for dinner?" Looking up through her lashes I can see the wall is back up. Asking me to stay even though I was already invited was her way of asking for more time. Stepping away she slowly drags her fingers down my arm gently pulling me towards the truck. Hanging onto her fingertips with my own I follow her off the newly built porch and stop her at the driver's door.
"Jones?" Slight concern in her voice.
"Do you want to drive down?" I ask her without really thinking.
"Jones…"
"You don't have to of course." I rush out suddenly thinking it was a bad idea to ask.
"Oh no it' not that it's just that…I've never seen you let anyone drive your truck but you."
"Well it might be time for that to change love." I smile and pull her towards the door. "She's all yours Captain Swan." I give her a wink and help her up into the seat.
"Oh so I've been granted the title of Captain?" She teases.
"When one captains such a fine vessel as this." I close her door and run around to the passenger's seat. "Now Swan easy with her, she's delicate and needs to be handled with an easy-"
She steps on the pedal and then slams on the breaks and almost throws me out the windshield. "Swan!"
"Sorry." She gives me a sheepish smile.
"Ugh I told you easy love she's delicate." I run my hand over the dashboard.
"You never told me that it was jumpy!"
"'It' is a she and I told you she was delicate."
"I thought that was just something guys said when they didn't want their trucks to be ran into a tree or something." She says holding up her hands defensively.
"Well as you can see there's no trees around here and with a 460 big block engine in her she's ready to go. So when you let of the break very gently give her some gas." Instructing her on how to handle the truck she manages to get the feel of her.
"So Jones, can I ask you something?"
"Of course love what is it?"
"Why am I the first to drive this truck?" She asks a little cautiously.
"I think that's a better question left for later." I say trying not to ruin the moment of her so carefree driving down to the house.
I don't have to look at him to see the pain in his eyes or the sad smile he tries to hide from me. I know too well what loss does to people. Instead I give him an unguarded smile letting him know I know how it feels to lose someone.
"So Swan what do you think? Is she big enough for you?" Quirking his eyebrows and flashing a flirty smile at me the sadness from earlier gone from his eyes.
"Aye mate." I say trying to impersonate his accent and failing. "Now why don't we go pillage and plunder the kitchen before everyone eats all the food." I say leaning into him and giving him a playful smile.
"Well you sound just like a pirate, Captain Swan. Care to lead the way?" He gives me a mock bow with an outstretched hand.
"Why thank you Captain." I say a little too seductively and turn walking up to the house to try and hide the slight blush creeping up my neck from seeing something behind his eyes I can't quite place.
After a long dinner of trying to avoid smoldering looks from Killian when he thought no one was looking, the guy's head into the family room to watch the game. I wouldn't say I was avoiding Killian but there were a lot of dishes so I decided to help Mary Margret in the kitchen.
"I'm surprised to see you in here Emma, I thought you would've been watching the game with the guy's." She notes casually.
"Well there's a mountain of dishes that are threatening to spill into the family room." I try to force a laugh brushing off that comment but it ends up sounding like a gargled sound.
She gives me a strange look but I ignore her going back to drying off the dishes and putting them away. I sneak off to my room craving solitude, but soon realize it's no use with the guys watching the game you'd think they were right up here with me.
I try doing some book work on the horses so Belle won't have as much to do but the men downstairs are too loud to concentrate so slipping off the big computer chair in the upstairs library I sneak down to the kitchen to snag a cup of cocoa with cinnamon. Almost sneaking out of the kitchen successfully someone comes in.
"Hello love, what are you doing here?" Killian asks.
"Shouldn't I be the one asking that since it is my house." I try to make it to the stairs without another question but I guess the world has other ideas.
"Whatcha' got Swan?" He rummages through the pantry, I'm guessing he's on a snack run for the others.
"Wouldn't you like to know." I say a little too snappy.
"Perhaps I would." He says casually, turning around with a couple bags of chips. He stops and stares at me for a few moments like he's shocked to see me.
I'm not the most presentable person right now with Graham's old sweatpants I stole hugging low on my hips with a white ribbed tank riding up my stomach. I notice him staring a little bit low on my body and realized he was dumbfounded by the exposed skin between my sweatpants and tank top.
I might have only put a couple, well maybe a few shots of Jack Daniel's in my cocoa and I'm starting to feel the buzz of alcohol through my veins. "Like something you see cowboy?" I say without thinking.
"Killian! You better not be eating all my chips in there!" David yells from the family room.
"Bye…" I say teasingly before heading back up the stairs to the library.
I left Killian standing in the kitchen and had a semi productive night filing papers while binge watching Chuck. I just found that show and I love the whole spy element and really wish Sarah and Chuck would just get together already! Really it was Elsa's fault, she got me hooked on the show and I need to know if they ever do. Fumbling for the office phone I dial up Elsa.
"Hello?" She answers practically still asleep.
"Elsa I need your help!"
"Emma? What do you need?" Elsa sounds more awake when she hears the urgency in my voice.
"Do Chuck and Sarah ever get together?" I ask pleadingly.
"Ughh! Do you realize what time it is? I'm going back to bed." She huffs.
"Oh come on Elsa! Please just tell me." I beg her.
"Good night Emma." She hangs up and all I hear is the dull buzz of the phone.
Exasperated I fall back on the chair and spin a lazy circle in the chair.
"Troubled love?" Killian's leaning against the doorjamb looking amused.
"What are you doing here?" I say squinting. Without my glasses on he's fuzzy.
"Dave-your father wanted me to get the third season of The Walking Dead from up here." He says studying me.
"Well, have at it." I say turning my attention back to the T.V. sitting on the bookcase across the room.
"But he forgot to mention where it was located. So could you help me?"
Feeling a little quirky I tell him, "Beg."
"Pardon love?" He asks confused.
"You want my help? Beg for it." I know his ego's too big for begging so that's exactly why I want him to beg for my help.
Getting down on one knee in front of me he starts, "Dearest Emma…" I move my legs so I'm sitting Indian style and lean my elbows on my knees.
"Go on." I say trying to sound aerostatic.
"Dearest Emma, wouldn't you please help such a handsome man as myself find a petty show that your father loves to watch?" He does a pretty good job of begging but of course couldn't help but through a comment in about himself.
I take a moment to consider what he said, mock seriousness.
"Please, beautiful, lovely, ineffable, mellifluous Emma." He lays it on thick and I don't even know if the last two were actually words or not.
But damn, if the sound of my name rolling off his tongue like that doesn't do anything to me.
"Emma…" I don't know if it was the Jack or if he was actually about to kiss me.
Thoughts and memories flood my brain too fast about Neal and only hurt can come out of this.
"Don't think about it love." And I don't
I lean into his touch, his hand on my face, in my hair, and then he presses his lips to mine.
It's like electric. Curling my hand into his thick dark hair, he moves a hand down to my waist and pulls me close to him. He deepens the kiss and the electric feeling turns into a slow burn, a fire building in the pit of my stomach.
"Jones! Don't fraternize with the enemy!" David shouts from the bottom of the stairs.
The sound of my father's voice was enough to pull me out of the trance Killian put me into and I realize I'm straddling him on the floor.
"That was…"
"A one time thing." I finish for him, getting up I pull the sweatpants that got a little to far down up. Walking over to the bookcase I grab the show he came here for and by the time I turn around he's standing again and I thrust him the disc.
"Here." I stretch my arm towards him not wanting to touch him with a ten foot pole.
"Emma I-"
"Goodnight." I say tightly and literally throw him out of the library and shut the door locking it.
Collapsing on the floor where we were just making out I take a deep breath trying to slow down my fast heartbeats. Hating myself for allowing him to get under my skin I swear I'll never let another guy near my heart.
Letting out a breath I hadn't realized I was holding I drift off to sleep watching Netflix.
