"Carlisle her water broke!"

I held Bella's hand as we made our way to the hospital. My phone was against my ear. I had never been so panicked in my life. I wasn't even sure when it happened. One second I was standing there with Bella and the next my mind was going insane. The whole time I was trying to get things back together she was standing in the living room crying. Now that we were on our way to the hospital I was starting to calm down. That wouldn't be true for long though. Not with Bella screaming and Carlisle talking about 8 different things.

"Edward I need you to calm down and listen to me."

"I'm sorry about yelling but Bella is making me a nervous wreck."

"Well son you really should try to understand. She must be in terrible pain."

I glanced over at her. Her face was bright red and shiny. She was breathing is rough huffs. When she screamed again I pressed on the gas peddle harder.

"When did her water break?"

"About 10 minutes ago."

"Was she having any pain before that?"

"Yes, she said it was like a cramp."

"Alright that sounds like she was having contractions. That's a good thing. Do you know how far apart they are?"

"Bella love, Carlisle needs to know how far apart your pain is."

"How far apart? Really Edward? Cant you tell! It hasn't stopped!"

"She says there is no in between."

"Oh, well that's all I need to know. I'll be waiting for you in the lobby."

I shut the phone and grabbed Bella's hand again. Her grip was nothing to mine but for a human it was strong. Her knuckles were white. The hospital was just around the corner. There was that strange panic again. Even though I didn't need to breath I started taking quick short breath. The parking lot felt like it stretched forever. I glanced at Bella. Her eyes were closed tight and she was breathing hard. I pulled into a close spot and jumped out. I swung the bag over my shoulder and helped Bella out. I picked her up and started for the doors. Carlisle was there waiting. He had a wheel chair at his side. Gently placed Bella in it and let Carlisle push her to an elevator. If I could sweat I knew I would be. Everything was going too fast.

When the elevator finally came to a stop we were on the 3rd floor. A sign above us read, "Maternity Center". Carlisle lead us through a large set of double doors that opened as we approached. Inside were several desks and nurses running around everywhere. There were many doors along the left wall. Each one had a large number on it. We stopped outside room 2304. Inside was a huge medical bed and all sorts of supplies. IV stands, computers, surgical instraments, and an incubator. The site of all the blue baby supplies calmed me for only a second.

"Edward help me get her onto the bed. We arnt laying her down yet, just sitting her up there. She still needs to change."

Once Bella was on the bed Carlisle handed me a gown and left. Even though she was in pain, Bella worked with me on getting her clothes off and the gown on. I helped her lay back on the bed and held her hand. Nurses started coming in and pressing on her stomach and checking her vital signs. Then a doctor came in with a clipboard.

"Miss Bella Swan?"

"Yes," she breathed.

"I'm Doctor West. I'm here to see if you want the epidural for this birth."

"Yes doctor, I want it."

"Alright well I need to read the possible side effects and how the procedure…"

"No, I need it now."

"Miss Swan…"

"NOW!"

I stared at the doctor. He was stunned.

"Umm…well I'll just have a nurse go over this with you and…"

He smiled and walked out.

"Bella dear I think you scared him."

"Yeah well he should have listened to me."

I laughed.

A few minutes later a nervous looking woman came in with a large cart.

"Bella I'm Kim. "I'm here to give you the epidural."

Bella sighed in relief.

"Okay I need you to sit here on the end of the bed and lean forward. Hunch your back. Mr Cullen would you please help keep her still. This wont hurt but you cannot move while the needle is in."

I moved forward and grabbed Bella's hands. She smiled at me. The first one in nearly an hour.

"Here is the numbing gel."

Bella gasped.

"It will only be cold for a second before it gets warm. Now I'm going to put the needle in, hold perfectly still."

Seconds passed and suddenly Bella squeezed my hands. She was holding her breath. I stared into her eyes, trying to reasure her.

"Bella I need you to tell me if you feel anything. Your legs should start to feel numb, almost like they are asleep."

Silence.

"Yeah my left leg is starting to feel weird."

"That's good. Do you feel any pressure in your back? Any pain?"

"No, just warmth."

"That's perfect. I'm going to have you lay back down and we are going to monitor your blood pressure for a while."

I helped Bella lay down and watched as the nurse set her up to have her blood pressure taken. Bella had her eye closed. Her breathing was still somewhat harsh but not like before. I watched as her chest moved up and down. Her hand loosened in mine. Hopefully her pain was fading away. The room was totally silent as the nurse read things off the computer screen. I didn't know how much time passed but after a while the nurse walked back around to talk to us.

"Okay miss Swan. Everything seems to be going good. If anything changes, just hit your call botton and let me know."

Bella nodded and the woman left.

"How do you feel love?" I asked.

"Edward are you okay?"

"I think I asked you first."

"Don't you think for one second that I didn't notice how you were acting."

"What?" I was genuinely confused.

"Edward you were panicking. You were freaking out."

I stared at her.

"I saw it in your eyes."

"Well love you must understand. This is all just as new to me as it is to you."

She smiled.

"Right. Guess I forgot."

I kissed her hand gently. We sat in silence for a long time. She was looking around the room. I set my hand on her stomach. She didn't seem to notice. It was hard to believe that in a short time I would have my son. Just as I had this thought a small bump moved under my hand. It was a marvle every time. My thoughts were interrupted as Carlisle came in.

"Bella how do you feel?"

"Better than I did when I got here."

"Good good. I need to check your cervix and see how far you are dilated."

She sighed but did not object.

We had to lift her legs because they were too numb for her to move.

"8cm."

"Edward that's so close!"

She sounded excited but I didn't return it. Everything in me froze. My brain, however, was going a million miles an hour. Too much as happening too fast. I couldn't think straight. I wasn't ready for this. I hadn't spent enough time thinking about it. Bella was talking to me but I didn't hear a word of it.

"I…"

"Edward, son whats wrong?"

"I…Bella I don't think I'm ready…"