I changed a little bit, thought it was better like mini detail, after reading the review of Bete :( what was her name again wait *looking up* Betherzz
here is the next. I told ya that i had it typed out. Tell me what you think!
remember italic and in little nice bars is in Ziva's mind.
just the italic are just thoughts
CHAPTER 12
The next day Gibbs visited, he spoke with her, she needed to see someone, the next day. And like that Tony took her the next they, it was with a therapist. Mrs. Pol. After an hour she came out with a worried face.
"Are you the one that came with Miss David?"
Tony nodded "is it bad"
"Well, that is the point; I don't know what is wrong with her. She doesn't speak a word, since you put her on that couch she has stayed on it hasn't moved, the only thing she does is blink her eyes and breathe. I think that from the shock she has turned in herself. See it like a shell that closes to keep what ever is inside safe. You need, however, try to get her out of that shell, get her to live. It may help if she is around things that are hers, because when Agent Gibbs called he said she stayed with someone ells, is that someone ells you"
Tony nodded again
"Well, it is good not to let her alone for a moment, but I suggest you take her to her own house, with people that have closed in it sometimes works to see things that are special to them, to trigger something in them. To realize that they are alive"
"Wait you mean she doesn't know she lives"
"That is possible. You should tell her stories of who she was, how she grow up, show her pictures, have other people visit her. It may help; there is nothing ells I can do."
With that they left. Tony took her to her place, well that was just great. How was he supposed to tell her about her childhood? He could hardly sit down next to her and tell her "hey, well your mother died when you was very young, from what I think your father raised you further, and well to be a coldblooded killer, your sister died in a bombing, and you shot your own brother. But you have to wake up and remember everything, because you had such a wonderful life". Somewhere inside him Tony could not blame her for what had happened to her. If he had gone through everything she had he would have killed himself long ago. But she had to wake up, he needed her to wake up. He needed to make her laugh make her shine, he would never let her go ever.
The rest of the day did not go very smooth, he had made dinner for her, but when he had put it in front of her she had not even attempt to eat. He had made her, after he did not know how, but he did it. That night again she had a nightmare, she was constantly screaming for help, he did what he had done yesterday. Lay next to her whisper sweet little words in her ear and pray that she would wake up.
It seems as if barley a few minutes have past since the flames had come and gone but suddenly I felt like there was something. I don't know exactly what it was but is seemed as if I was hold down, my hole self hurt. There are what seems like thousand voices that scream at me, words I would rather not hear. They seem familiar, I can't place them. The one thing I do know is that they are bad, to what every the voices belong it is no good. I need to get away, a few screams for help escape my mouth.
After what seemed like forever I hear softer words through the bad ones. What are they saying, I know that voice from somewhere. Like I've heard it before, could it be the voice that belonged to the warmth. There are only parts that I can hear "please" and "its okay" it is not much but the voices go away. And I'm safe again.
The next morning, Abby and McGee came to visit, they had not been informed on Ziva's condition. They were there just when Tony had finished pushing food down Ziva's throat and cleaning her up. He would have thought that when he sat her down in the bad tube and put the shower on, than removed her cloths that she would have reacted. If only to yell at him for undressing her. But she hadn't done anything she had just sat there, waiting on something he could not see. Her hair was still damp from the water when he opened the door.
Abby immediately rushed in giving Ziva a bone crushing hug. Tony tried to stop her but she was to quick and focused on her goal, this case Ziva. Ziva didn't react, Abby didn't even seem to notice.
"Ow Ziva I have missed you so"
"Abby, stop" Tony tried
" I didn't have the change to say so in the plane because well you know you were all"
"Abby" now both Mcgee and Tony yelled, Mcgee did know for sure what was wrong but after the look in Tony's eyes he kind of knew
"but I am so happy you're okay" Abby continued not having heard Tony nor Mcgee.
What has happened I don't know it seems as if I have some sort of blackouts the entire time. The first thing that I feel again is something around me. Crushing me, though it isn't the same feeling of being trapped as the flames. Something in me says that it is familiar I just don't know what. Again I hear voices this time different than the one that saved me, already two times. I hear, again, only lose words, "missed. Plane." What plane, where is that plane, I feel that I become unquiet, and angry. Missed, what missed, who missed, me missed, I don't even know who me is, and if I am being missed why am I here.
Tony saw that Ziva changed, he took Abby's arms and tried to free Ziva, who began to squirm.
Another voice a body pressed against me and full sentences "You're here because I promised you doll, you never be save" a second body pressed with mine, I smell something familiar, something like I think dirt or "tell me what you know " Both body's pressed against me. I screamed, when it hurt like hell "I like it when they scream" and both body's laughed.
Suddenly there came a scream from Ziva and she began to hit around her. Abby didn't know how fast she needed to get away almost knocking Tony over and stand behind McGee tears in her eyes.
"Oh, Tony I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to. I didn't hear"
But Tony was to busy with taking a hold of Ziva to hear Abby. When he finally managed to put his arms around her he tightened his grip. Whispering the same he always did "it's okay, you're safe"
I felt the body's go away, and that voice, I could not make a word from what it said but it made me feel safe. And slowly I feel myself relax.
Tony felt Ziva going numb in his arms. He scooped her up and brought her to the bedroom, where he put her on the bed. Softly closing the door. With a deep sigh he returned to Abby and McGee. Abby still held tears in her eyes.
"What happened, I did not do anything wrong did I? Why did she not say a word?"
"Sit down, I'll explain it" when they had all sat down.
"A day ago I took her on Gibbs orders to a psychiatric. When Mrs. Pol came back out to talk to me she told me that Ziva might not know she is still alive. She also told me that it also could be that Ziva had closed"
"Closed how?" McGee asked.
"She told me that it was just like a shell that closed itself to keep whatever was inside safe. She also told me that we should try and trigger something with her so she will come back. I have tried a few things but they don't seem to work" he put his head in his hands. "Would you guys stay here for a while I have to get a few things from my apartment." They nodded.
"What do we do when she wakes up?"
"I don't think she will wake until tonight, if she does call Gibbs or me okay"
As in a trance he drove to his apartment. In a bag he stuffed clothes for a few days. He ended up sitting on his couch with his head in his hands, he was lost. He would not admit it but he was, what if she never woke up. It was all his fault if he had watched her more carful that none of this had happened. No he would not loose her again. If he had to come after her for the rest of his life he would do it.
When he returned to Ziva's apartment there had nothing changed. McGee and Abby were watching a movie. Before he joined them he looked at Ziva for a moment. She was still sleeping.
